Oi Maid!

Disclaimer: I do not own Maria Holic (the characters, the show, the music, zip, zero, nada) I do however own the creativity and making of this story.

Rated M for language and sexual references.

Summary: This story follows the crazy adventures young Kanako has when she's asked to become the family maid for the Shido family in order to help her struggling family.

Let's get right to it!

NOTE: Rindo and Matsurika are older then Mariya, Kanako, and Shizu.

Chapter 5: A Maid's Insecurity
xooox

I started reading a lot more, whenever I had time weather for 5 hours straight to only 5 minutes I would read whatever I could. I refused to let myself think I'm not worth more than a provider, I didn't want to believe that..I refused to.

"Kanako-chan? What's wrong?" Mrs. Shido's voice breaks my thoughts as I blink to find myself holding two trays with plates, and everyone's gazes directing towards me. "huh..o-oh! I'm sorry!" I apologize as I quickly give everyone their plates. "Kanako-chan, you've been spacing out a lot lately. Are you feeling ok?" Mrs. Shido asks as I see her face full of care and concern for me; that gaze alone made me feel even more bad for worrying her and everyone else. "I'm fine! I must be t-tired that's all, ehehe" I laugh it off as tiredness and that seemed to calm down their worries for a bit.

"Well it's a good thing all you have to worry about is going shopping with Rindo today; I suggest after that you rest up in your room. Your still young so you can't be over-working yourself too hard." Mr. Shido suggest calmly. I rarely ever see Mr. Shido since he works early mornings and by the time he arrives I'm either asleep or to busy to even notice him. However the few times I had spoken to him he seemed to be very kind and understanding.

He was surprised when he first found out I was the maid Mrs. Shido picked out; I remember I was in the living room chatting along with Mariya-chan when he came in and asked if I was Mariya-chan's friend. I said I was and at the same time was the family maid. He stood shocked and looked at me. ("Your the maid? How old are you exactly?") he asked me. ("!4 years old sir") I replied educated.

Now I had guessed that he was a little taken back at how could anyone allow a 14 year old to become a housekeeper and neglect her rights of living a normal preteen life. But in a later conversation I had explained to him that I wanted to help my family through their troubles and that I didn't mind being a maid since I had people who I got well along with. Well almost get alongwith the exception of one individual. Now I had expected him to have blonde hair like Mrs. Shido but his surprisingly it's pitch black but with the all-famous ruby eyes.

Honestly, in my opinion I think that black hair is better looking with red eyes, if Mariya-chan had black hair she would look 10 times cuter then she is now! As for Shizu-sama...he'll look ok too I guess.

"Yes sir.." I answer back as turn towards the counter and started to fill the cups with juice. "Hey dad, can Kanako-chan take me to the mall tomorrow?" Mariya-chan suddenly asks. It doesn't phase me since that's what she's been talking about wanting to do with me. "I don't see why not, it all depends if she feels better by tomorrow." Mr. Shido answers her. I hear a small whine escape the girls mouth as more guilt flies in to my stomach 'I have to try to be happier today so that Mariya-chan isn't so upset.' I state mentally to myself.

"Oi Maid..." I stop my movement when I hear that voice. "Are you gonna stand there all day, I'm gonna die with all the food I have stuck in my stomach for not having anything to drink it down." Well then get your ass up and get it yourself! I take a few deep breaths as I turn and give everyone their beverages. "H-Here you go, m-my apologies." Now I'm not stuttering because i'm embarrassed, no it's because I can't throw this glass cup along the side of his damn head!

"Kanako-chan, would you care to repeat what you just said?" he threatens me along with a smug smirk. "N-No Shizu-sama..." I answer defeated as I excuse myself from the kitchen and head upstairs to get ready for grocery shopping.


As I change out of my clothes I take the spare time to look at myself in the mirror. "I don't really have such a nice body either..." I comment somewhat sadly. I didn't exactly have the guitar body I hear people talk about so much on television, if anything I believe I have what you would call a disembodied pear body; meaning that I have the big hips (like the pear) towards the bottom and since I have big boobs instead of small(the required by the fruit) boobs then it's big at the top and thus equals a disembodied pear. Attractive right?

Now I didn't really have the soft creamy pale white skin stated that all girls should have; the years of horsing around and doing things that no other girl has dared to do inflicted healed scars, and scraps around the legs and arms. But the worst of them all was a huge ,long, scar that ran along the side of my middle back. This is one of the reasons why I never wear bikinis, no one wants to see such an ugly body while enjoying themselves. I obtained this scar when I was 10 years old, my family went on a picnic out in the public park. Me, Yume, and Miki-chan were playing around with a ball; Onee-san who was showing off as always kicked the ball too hard in hoping to get Oka-san and Oto-san's attention, although she didn't count on it rolling all the way down of the tall hill, and since Miki-chan was at the phase of chasing anything that moved she decided to catch it thus tripping on her untied shoelace and rolling down the hill at almost the exact speed as the ball.

"MIKI!" My Oka-san's voice yelled hysterically once she turned in our direction, I wasted no time in running after her, there was a tree that was chopped down and laid on the ground, why anyone hasn't moved it I have no idea. But with the power of my legs and mostly desperation at not wanting to see my adorable little sister hurt.

I managed to run in front of her (I was a couple feet behind the chopped down tree) and spread opened my arms in hoping to stop her at exactly the right moment.

She was rolling as fast as the ball that I could only see the green lining of her outfit; when she finally managed to roll towards my arms, I guess the pressure was so fast that she sent me flying against the tree where (unfortunately had a branch sticking out of it)
So not only was I sorta stabbed it ran along the side of my back since I quickly slid towards the ground. At that moment I couldn't feel the pain since I was checking Miki-chan to make sure she was alright.

"Nee-san! I went fast! Did you see!?" She said to me as she gave me her adorable grin; I didn't know weather to congratulate her for the way she rolled or scold her for making me and everyone else scared to death, and for me to injure myself just to see her laughing.

But in the end...all I did was smile and rub her head. "You went hella fast!, I wish I could roll that damn fast!"I say to her.

"Kanako, watch your mouth around Miki!" I hear my Oka-san's voice as she and Oto-san and Yume make their way towards us; it was also around that time I felt the pain in my back. I was sent to the hospital that day to get stitches (keep in mind that my body already had enough scars to add a even huge one to the mix) Since looks didn't matter to me I would still wear tank tops or shirts that showed a little bit of the scar; actually I found myself loving the scar since I would say to my peers at school how I was operated on in an insane hospital and they removed a bunch of organs from me.

Some (surprisingly) believed me others knew I was bluffing but I still enjoyed having the scar on my back. I felt like I was whole bearing it, now I can't even stand to look at it by accident. I hate it, why did I have to get hurt? why did I have to get another scar? I already have enough damn scars! "I hate you..." I say to it as I quickly cover it up, I don't like showing my shoulders, the closest thing I'll wear will be a t-shirt, shorts? I wear them since Mrs. Shido told me that I have to wear something where air can hit my legs. "Shorts are a preferred preference" she said. So in a way she was saying that I have to wear shorts. During special occasions I would wear clothing, never dresses, I remember how I once got angry at Oka-san for her hiding my clothes and forcing me to wear a dress. Oh I wore it, just with leggings and a long-sleeved cardigan on top.

Now today is a little windy so I have an excuse to wear long-sleeved clothing, I never been the type to wear makeup either, I get jealous when I see Mariya-chan putting some on when she gets ready to go out; the Shido women are very beautiful. I decide to wear some light blue skinny jeans with a black long sleeve shirt, along with some black sneakers; I look at my face one more time before I leave and think about if I should do anything to it. My hair is tied up messily in a bun, strands are sticking out throughout my head, I carefully remove the hair tie and watch it fall down, my hair length is just about the middle of my back, it's naturally wavy but due to the cleaning and making food throughout the week, it looks straight, dead, and greasy. "Figures" I add annoyed as I brush it out and tie it back up again.

Now I DO wear earrings, I'm currently wearing diamond studs; the only thing is that if I wear anything that's fake my ears literally turn green since I was used to wearing real gold, and diamond earring since I was a baby. I make cutesy faces at the mirror hoping to find at least one that I like-as usual I don't so I leave my room even more depressed then when I came into the room.


I walk down the stairs slowly and make my way towards the courtyard where i see Rindo sitting leaning against the car waiting for me. "Hey your here finally" He says with a smile, now I know he was joking since he says that to me all the time, but today I felt bad for making him wait because of me.

"Sorry Rindo.." I say lowly; I felt a hand rub my head and I look up and see him grinning at me "Hey c'mon now Kanako-chan, there's no need to feel bad even though I'm flattered." he says as he leans his face closer to me and looks into my eyes "I love to see Kanako-chan smiling, she looks cute that way" My face heated up as soon as he said that, and I felt my heart skip a beat..why did it do that?

Rindo's always been so beautiful, since I first met him I was shocked at how a boy could look so beautiful. He's also very funny and is always watching out for me and making me smile. That's one of the things I like about him. "I'll try Rindo" I answer back. I have to stop having everyone worry about me..

We get into the car and just as I was about to close my door I don't when i see Mariya-chan and Shizu-sama running (well Mariya-chan was) towards me. I open the door and ask them if something was wrong. "We wanna come to!" Mariya-chan answers eagerly. My eyes blink at the two twins in confusion as in they have never came with me for grocery shopping. ""This is a sudden surprise" Rindo adds as if reading my thoughts.

"We wanna make Kanako-chan feel better!" Mariya-chan answers.

"Huh?" I reply quickly, make me feel better what were they talking about? Why do they feel like I need cheering up for some reason? I was very confused. "Kanako-chan hasn't been herself lately! She hasn't laughed or smiled truthfully either!" Mariya-chan explains to us.

"We want the old Kanako-chan back, we don't like this Kanako-chan, she's so sad, so lonely that I feel bad that I can't help, so I feel like we can make her better if we came!" Mariya-chan did all of the talking that it made me wonder if even Shizu-sama...?

"Don't confuse it Maid.." there he goes reading my mind again. "I don't care if your upset, it's your problem...I-I just happen to have a few things I need, got it?" He says this avoiding eye contact with me the whole time. I know that Shizu-sama feels the same even if he says he doesn't so that makes me feel even more remorse that I'm hurting them.

I lower my head to avoid them from seeing my tears. "I..s-sorry.." I say lowly. For a while there's an uncomfortable silence until I feel a pressure on my head, I already know who's it is. "Well, if that's the reason then welcome aboard, Kanako-chan and I don't mind one bit!" He's always so carefree even in the saddest situations..another one of the things I like about Rindo.

We arrive at the local market and I try to keep my mind focused on the list in front of me, and not at all the females around me. Some have the perfect guitar body, others have the perfect skin, popping eyes, and the perfect ass. Ughhh this isn't helping a damn thing!

"Oi Maid! Are you gonna stand there gawking at some unknown fantasy or are you gonna get to work!?" At that moment I was secretly thankful at the little damn monster for breaking me outta my mind. "I-I was not gawking at anything you ass!" I yell and quickly cover my mouth hoping and praying that neither Mariya-chan nor Rindo heard me, his victorious smirk didn't help either!

"The innocent Kanako finally swore in public, what truly a historical day.." He mocks me as he walks up to me and snatches my list away; he pinches my cheek stopping me from wanting to get back my list. "Aww Shiu-saa! I Hu!" (Shizu-sama! it hurts!) I whine as he continues to look at the list before finally letting me go and taking hold of my cart. "You drive" he orders as he hands it to me. "Huh? What are you...?" I say suddenly. What exactly is he doing? didn't he have things he needed to buy? "Just take the damn cart will ya?" he says impatiently and I quickly grab to it. "Good now you better keep up..." he mentions.

"Huh? Keep up..? What do you.." I piratically jumped when I felt something hit the cart, I look up and see Shizu-sama just throwing and walking like it was second nature. "Oi Maid, I said keep up!" Just then I saw him take hold of a bottle of wine and I quickly ran up to him just in time for it to land on the cart safely. "Are you insane!" i practically yell at him as he ignores me and continues to proceed in his task. 'He's so odd today...' I think to myself as I continue to follow Shizu-sama throughout the store.


We actually managed to get done pretty quick, normally it takes me awhile to finish. Not because I'm slow or anything, it's only because it doesn't help when there's a variety f the same products but in different flavors. But Shizu-sama just seems to know where everything is. "Unlike some people, I actually pay attention when I'm shown where everything is the first time."

"For your information I wasn't shown where everything is! So ha!" I reply cockily. Just then I'm accidentally shoved towards the side, as I turn around ready to tell the son of a bitch off I stop when I see two pretty girls in front of me. They didn't seem to notice that they just shoved someone, all they care about was if weather or not their clothes got dirty.

"Excuse me!" i say now even more pissed off. One of the girls who had orange wavy hair and a 5 by 5 body type looked at me from head to toe as I see her nose scrunch up just the tiniest bit. "Yea?" her voice is so squeaky it sounds as if she accidentally swallowed a chew toy. "Normally you apologize when you bump into someone" I inform her. She and her friend stare at me as if I was odd and bursted into laughter. "Fine, sorry if that makes you feel better." How I so badly wanted to pull on her hair and wipe those fake eye lashes right outta her face; but since I was in a public place I had to control my anger.

"Is that your boyfriend?" The other friend (she had black hair and yellow eyes) says when she notices Shizu-sama walk up next to me. "I feel so bad for you, why don't you dump her ugly self and come hang with us. She's clearly bringing your attractiveness down.." Even though me and Shizu-sama are not and WILL not date, it still made me feel upset that she would think I'm bringing Shizu-sama's beauty down for being seen with me. I was so upset with myself that I just wanted to dig a hole and hide under it for a couple of hours.

The walked away giggling and laughing, and I was positive I heard one of them making fun of my attire. I knew I should have stayed inside, I shouldn't have come shopping today...I closed my eyes shut trying to stop my tears which was starting to form, my face was heating up from embarrassment and sadness that I couldn't even lift my head up.

"Oi Maid..." I don't hear Shizu-sama call me until I feel a hand touch my own, I'm honestly surprised by how soft it is. I slowly look him in the eyes and stumble in trying to explain my tears "I-I just have a-a stomach a-ache..ok?" I lie. He doesn't say anything but merely just take hold of the cart with his free arm and leads me towards the cashier line. 'Why isn't he saying anything...' It's confusing whenever he just stares at me in utter silence and i have absolutely no idea what he's thinking.

We pay for the items in silence, by that time we reunite with Rindo and Mariya-chan; she asks me why my face looked red and Shizu-sama told her it was because he forced me to peel off an onion right in front of my face. Why would he lie for me like that? I really was not understanding anything. On the ride back Shizu-sama sorta hinted that he wanted me to sit next to him in the back seat. I also found it even more odd how he kept holding my hand since we were inside the market.

"Did you enjoy yourself Kanako-chan?" I hear Rindo's voice ask me suddenly. "H-Huh? Oh..yea, thank you." I reply 'normally' I can see the back of his head nod and Mariya-chan turns and looks at me "Do you feel better now, Kanako-chan?" her eyes were pleading with hope and happiness that I hate how stupid I'm behaving. "Yes, Mariya-chan. I do feel better" I tell her. She gives me a huge grin in satisfaction that I can't help but tighten the hold on Shizu-sama's hand due to how disgusted I am with myself! Never in my life I have i held such disappointment towards myself that I just refrained from looking at anyone until we reached the house.


Once we exited the car I go inside and put away all of the groceries and head upstairs to my room; I remain in there for a while as I shower and change out of my clothing then to appear as if nothing is wrong with me I head down stairs towards the backyard. I sit behind a tree which is all the way against the fence, I bring my head towards my knees and simply sit there in silence. I take the time to lift up my pant sleeves and look at my legs-so unattractive. I honestly can't stand them. If only there was a way to paint over them then I'd feel hundred percent better.

'But..these make me who I am?' I start to question my own damn self! Ughh...what the hell is wrong with me!?

"That's what I've wondered since the first moment you arrived...Maid" I feel my body tense up at the well-known voice. Why is he...? I slowly lift my head up to see Shizu-sama glaring down at me. I don't say anything to him but mainly stare...he sighs finally making a sound and scratches the back of his head. "Man..your such a damn hassle.." he complains as he sits next to me, his shoulder slightly touching my own. Why is he here? Is he here to mock me? Yell at me? Make fun of me? I swear I do not have the energy today to be dealing with his insensitive, sadistic, annoying as h-

"I should just let you rot in your depression if you really want me to be insensitive.." he says as I notice his eyebrow twitch a little.."Mmm fine.." I finally add. "Now what the hell has gotten into you?" He asks not wasting another moment in returning to silence. I hesitate in trying to answer. "You were completely fine two days ago, but changed soon after you found out I gave you a high school textbook. Are you really that insecure about yourself?"

"You don't know a damn thing!" I yell suddenly, I couldn't help it, he was pissing me off. In what world or mind does he, out of all people have the right to judge me for feeling bad about myself. Hell no! "You don't know what I go through! You don't have to worry about people possibly making fun of you!" And in all my frustrations I stand up and pull up my shirt and turn around "You don't have this to worry about!" I state angrily.

The silence engulfs the room and I think that he's probably shocked or surprised and maybe will now pity me for having it, I can't say I'd blame him since I technically just threw my scar to him out in the open for him to see. As I turn around ready for what's to come I'm stopped when I see him standing up and staring at me through angry eyes. "Is this the reason your acting like such a damn brat, because your ashamed of your scars?!" He yells out the last two words and I flinch at how frightful it sounds. "Y-You don't know anything!"

"How in the hell do you know!?" He yells back at me.

"Because your amazing!" I confess suddenly that I myself have no idea where an when I thought that about the little bastard. He finally stopped yelling and stood a little shocked. "Y-Your good at e-everything, not just you but M-Mariya-chan too...you both are talented and smart and can balance a lot of things at once. You go to archery and go to school and your debate competitions at the same time, and Mariya-chan goes to school, sings, and has piano lessons..the both of you are amazing..unlike me..." I explain as my voice starts to crack until I'm finally speaking through tears.

"S-School was all I had...I-I-I was never good in looks like Miki-chan, n-n-nor skilled in athletics like O-O-Onee-san. A-All I had that I-I-I thought no one c-can do w-was school..." I close my eyes in hopes of calming down my tears a bit. "I w-was the smartest k-kid in my c-c-class, I enjoyed s-s-studying and t-taking test. That was m-my s-special gift- until I f-found out that I w-was living w-w-with s-s-smart people..." I take a few deep breaths and tighten my fists. "Y-You can d-do high school problems...t-then what do I have that's s-special about me..." I add as I sit back down on the ground and look at my feet.

"Kanako-chan..."

That voice! I quickly lift my head and see Mariya-chan holding a tray of food, her hands are shaking and tears are streaming down her cheeks. "A-Are we the reason why your so mad..?" Is it because of us..?" she's so torn and broken that I quickly get up and embrace her, not caring that I caused her to drop the tray. "Don't say that, you and Shizu-sama are not the reason why I'm like this..it's all me. It's all my fault..I'm so sorry for worrying you both. Please forgive me..." I had enough of hurting other people. I enjoyed laughing with Mariya-chan, seeing her smile and laughter made me feel so happy inside;and even though I don't and won't admit it I enjoy fighting around with Shizu-sama...

The two of them were my responsibility technically, my job is to keep them happy and right now...I'm not doing that. I can worry about my self later, I want to back to horsing around with these two. I accept that I don't have talents and that's alright with me..for now.

"Kanako-chan is beautiful..I don't care if she herself doesn't see it. But I believe that she's beautiful. She's also one of the kindest people I know!" Mariya-chan actually thinks that about me? I can't believe what I'm hearing.

"Since your mini brain can't obviously figure it out; I guess then I have to..." Shizu-sama walks up to us and removes me and Mariya-chan from each other and he puts two hands on top of my shoulders. "Who are you?" Huh? What kind of a question is that? "I'm Kanako.." I reply.

"How old are you?"

"Um..14 bu-"

"What are you currently?"

"..."

"Oi, Maid I said what are you currently?"

"A..Maid"

"And why are you a Maid?" Where exactly is he getting at with asking all of these things?

"Why are you asking me this?" I whine, not wanting to think about it again.

"Answer the damn question!"

"Because I want to help out my parents!" I yell back at him, hoping to finally shut him up. He continues to be silent as I glare at him. "How many other 14 year old girls do you know that have left school to become a maid and do nothing but clean?' Actually...he does have a point.

"Not many..." I answer, I don't know any 14 year old who have become Maids at a young age. But why is Shizu-sama...? I loosen my facial expression as I look at my feet. "You got guts I give you that much.."

"Huh?" I look at him as he releases my shoulders and crosses his arms. "All this time you thought you had nothing good about you, when it's clearly been in front of your eyes. Not everything is about looks y'know.." He says it in his regular annoyed tone and even though I know he isn't being mean I can't help but argue with him.

"Who ever said this was any of your concern anyway!" I state as I look back at my feet ashamed for yelling at him just now.

"Whatever, Mariya see if you can talk some sense into that hallow brain.." I see him watching me for a few more seconds before he leaves. 'What was he trying to tell me!' I think agitated.

"Kanako-chan..." I feel Mariya-chan's hand touch my own and I allow her to lead me towards the tree, we sit down and I hear her take in a breath. "Onii-chan wasn't trying to be mean.." she says softly.

"I know.." I confess. She looked at me surprised that I would admit I was the one bothering Shizu-sama this time. "I know Shizu-sama was trying to tell me something to cheer me up, I didn't want to yell at him. I just wish he could tell me what he meant!" I explain desperately. "I'll tell you what he was trying to say." Mariya-chan states.

"What?" I ask quickly, I really needed to know so that I can be done with this fiasco..It's not respectful for me to act this way in a work environment-I'm lucky enough that Mrs. Shido doesn't know anything cause if she did I'm pretty sure she would 'suggest' me to stop working.

"Kanako-chan, your a caring person.." Huh? Caring? That's it? How was that something good? I stared at Mariya-chan confused for a while. She sighed lowly and gripped my hand tightly. "You gave up everything you used to do in order to help your family, you could have declined the offer but you didn't. You went to school and you gave up all of that to not see your family hurting anymore. I don't really know that many people who could be so kind-hearted and brave like you..." Was that really what Shizu-sama meant...?

'Caring...? But I never really thought about it until now...'

"Not only that but your also very..radiant." Huh radiant? What does she mean by that..I know alot of radiant people but me..?

"It means that your energy attracts people, your smile lifts up any sad room. Even Matsurika likes your smile!"

"Really?" Now that I couldn't believe..

"Well, she didn't tell me personally but i could tell!" There were so many emotions going through my head that I couldn't bear it. I was ashamed, embarrassed, happy, relieve, thankful, upset, surprised, and a whole lot of other crap!

"Hearing that...makes me feel...a little better." I say in hopes of quickly taking a long nap to calm down. I see Mariya-chan smile at me "I'm so glad.." I look at her and smile back, Mariya-chan really is a nice person.


That was actually the first and only time I ever felt disgusted with myself; I'm not making excuses saying that 'oh I was a little 14 year old girl who only cleaned and did nothing else..' I didn't see what Mariya-chan and Shizu-sama saw in me and I think that even now I still have trouble actually seeing myself as the person everyone claims me to be. I know I am a kind-hearted person and I know that I will always put others before myself so I suppose that's something that makes me special? When I went back inside after talking to Mariya-chan, I went to Shizu-sama in his room and thanked him for being kind to me. He mainly stared at me in silence "Tch, I don't know why your thanking me, you should have already known by now. Idiot.." Now why couldn't he just accept my gratitude...oh well.