I can't go down that path! Too soon. Too risky… Uncalled-for, somehow.
And yet… I can see she means well. I can feel she's one I like. One I could love.

Even one who'd meet Dean's approval.

And yet, I can't let myself drown into this. She's suffered already. She tries to teach me what I already know: shutting down the pain means shutting you down everything else.

Maybe one day, when my nights aren't filled with flames and horrors anymore, I will allow myself to walk down that memory road and up to a so-called happy life.

Just maybe…