I need him more than ever. I feel like I'm drowning in an ocean of incertitudes. Even if diving to rescue Tyler was a lot smarter than diving in the bottle. I need to know Dean's gonna keep his promise and deal with it when the time comes. No tears will wash away the pain I'm feeling. Killing me may be killing him too. I hate myself for having asked him to do it. I understand Dad now. I understand that I may have been cursed from the beginning. Today I'm certain that I'd prefer to die by Dean's hand.
