A/N: Alright, this is part two of the earlier update, namely Fushimi's side of the story. I hope you enjoy this one because this is the longest one that I've written so far out of all the update. Please leave a review after *smiles*
Disclaimer: I don't own K/K Project just the OC and Mayoka Akari is owned by Creatorginsane, just so you guys know. *smiles*
GIVE ME A BREAK
Chapter 12: One-sided
He admires her. He likes her. He's in love with her. He feels confused yet happy whenever she is there right next to him, talking to him, looking at him, and holding him in her embrace. But he wanted more; he wanted her to be only his. He started having these selfish desires after knowing that she was in love with another, the Blue King.
Every night he would always cry about the fact that she can never look at him for a long time, that she couldn't talk to him like before, that she couldn't embrace him when he feels down, and that he could never have her. He would even grab his sword in the middle of the night and starts to criss-cross on his wrist, dying his own white skin with blood and marring it with scars.
When his skin is filled with scars and he couldn't even take another scar, he would go out, get drunk, and sleep with a woman. He would scream out her name in every thrust, wish it would be her who he's making love with. Every night all of these things would happen, he grows mad in every night. When will there be a day when he will have her by his side again?
"Hey kid, you alright?" The bartender poked the unconscious-looking bluenette.
He groans and lazily lifted his head. "Yeah," He groped his hair and took his empty glass with his free hand. "Get me another one"
The bartender gave a worried expression. "You sure kid? I think you can't handle it anymore"
He demanded. "I said get me another one!"
The bartender didn't have a choice so he just took his glass and refilled it.
"Fancy meeting you here" He heard a familiar mocking voice from behind and he turn around.
He saw a cocky woman with her hair all jagged up and she had neon and leopard skins all over her.
"What's a whore like you doing here?" He glares at her as she took a seat next to him.
"Watch your tone kid!" She warns. "Kids like you should have some respect to the ones older than you"
He snickers. "Not to you!"
"Whatever, kid" She orders a drink, vodka on the rocks.
He downs his drink and asks for another one. "What are you even doing here? You're starting to ruin my day even more"
She takes a sip on her drink. "Oh am I?" She said with fake amusement. "Let me guess; is it because of a girl?"
"It's none of your business"
"Oh! So it is a girl"
He shifts his eyes to her and back to his glass. "So what if it is a girl?"
"It's pigtails, isn't it?" She leans in. "What did you even like about that girl?"
He turns his head away. "I don't even like her"
"Obvious lies" She concluded. "So what's wrong with the two of you?"
He downs another drink, he's tipsy already. "I'm just pissed whenever I see her with Munakata all the time"
"So you're jealous?" She started to become interested in the topic.
He realized what he just said. "Wait, what? No I'm not!"
"No point in hiding it, kid" She chuckled.
"Fine!" He exclaims. "I do admit that I'm jealous of the King"
"Took you long enough to finally admit it" She pulls away and downs her drink. "So why didn't you tell the chic how you feel?"
"That's already impossible"
She arched a brow. "And why is that?"
He said bitterly. "She's already dating the King and she obviously doesn't like me back"
"How do you even know that she doesn't have any feelings for you? Have you even asked her?"
He clicked his tongue. "Why should I even chase after a person with a boyfriend?"
She's starting to get annoyed with him. "Just tell the chic your fucking feelings!"
He looked at his drink, he felt like a tear fell down from the corner of his eyes. "Because I can't have her! The hardest and the most painful thing is watching her being taken away by someone, someone who can give more than me, someone who can reach her, and someone who is a King" He cried out.
She concluded and downs another drink. "Then you're a coward then"
He couldn't take her insults anymore; he grabbed her neck, twisted her right arm to her back, and slammed her head on the table.
He said furiously. "Say that again and I'll kill you"
"Yeah, you are a coward" She coughed. "You always hide your feelings for her because you're too scared to even tell her how you feel, you just inflict pain to yourself just to release all of your frustration, and you're scared that one day she will never even look at you"
She's right.
His gripped loosened and fell back down on his chair. "Stop, just stop it already"
"Look," She sighed. "I really want to help you but you're the one denying everything, you think about the negative side of everything"
He retorts. "No, I'm not!"
"Do you even think she still cares about you?"
He brought his head down; he couldn't let her see his sorrowful face. "No she doesn't, she has him now"
"Give me your phone" She slams her glass on the wooden table.
He flinched when she slammed the glass, looking rather confused. "W-What do you mean?"
She doesn't like it when people ask too much questions. "Just give me the damn phone before I try to blow the place up"
Slowly nodding his head as he reaches down to his pocket, taking out his phone and giving it to her with caution.
She unlocks his phone with him dictating his password; she noticed the wallpaper of his phone was a picture of them together looking like best friends. Tapping his contacts and she easily spotted Akane's name with a small heart on the end, man this kid is too obvious and she pressed the call button.
"Hello?"
She put on a smirk when she heard a voice from the other line.
"Hey, guess who?" She happily exclaimed through the phone.
"Mayoka Akari," She said bitterly, she's obviously not happy to hear Akari's voice. "What's going on? Why do you have Fushimi's phone?"
"Well you tell me, miss detective"
"Hey!" Fushimi finally managed to speak out. "Don't toy with Akane like that"
"Was that Saru?" She sounded relieved. "What are you doing to him you scoundrel!"
Akari started becoming amused at her growing rage.
"I'm not doing anything" She hummed. "Well not yet"
"If you dare hurt my Fushimi," Akane warned. "I'll make you rot in jail!"
"Oh, is that how you treat your friends, Watanabe-chan?" Akari faked on being emotional about it. "But I think Munakata wouldn't be happy about it"
"Shut up, don't involve Reisi in this!" She hissed since she knows how she's more important to him than her. "You disgust me"
"You're hurting me more" She grins as places a hand on Fushimi's cheek and caresses it with her thumb.
He slaps her hand away with disgust. "Don't touch me!"
Akane heard the bluenette's scream. "Fushimi! What are you doing to him?" She starts to think of wrong and dirty things happening to her partner.
She laughs. "Well, why don't you find out yourself?"
Akari hangs up and threw the phone back to the owner as he clumsily caught the phone and places it back in his pocket.
"Well then kid," Akari happily announced. "Looks like pigtails does care a lot for you"
He blushes and turns away. "How can you even be sure about that?"
She takes a sip on her drink. "She even called you 'my Fushimi'"
"So," He clears his throat and stares at his drink. "What's going to happen next?"
She gave a shrug. "We'll drink while we wait" Akari raised her glass to him.
They toast. "Wait a minute, what do you mean 'we wait'?"
She downs her drink and gets another. "Pigtails is on her way here"
He almost chocked on his drink. "What?!"
"Its fine kid, just drink and don't worry about it"
"Fushimi!"
Akane called out as she slams the doors open, she was panting heavily since she ran all the way to the bar in a hurry. She looked around the place and she finally found a couple of familiar looking figures by the bar as she rushes her way towards them.
"My god, what did you do to Saru!" She noticed that Saruhiko looked like he was completely unconscious.
"Hey, you're finally here!" Mayoka exclaimed as she gives her a glass of vodka. "About time you showed up for the party"
"Party?" Akane has a confused look as she placed the glass on the bar table, she wanted to drink it but she won't because of the current situation. "What's going on here?"
"Oh Akane…" Fushimi rubbed his eyes as he slowly put up head from the table, he was only asleep the whole time. "You're here"
"Fushimi, what happened to you?" She cupped his cheeks as she observes his face and condition. "Did you drug him?" She shot a glare at Akari.
Akari put her hands up. "Hey I didn't do anything to him, he just drank a lot more than he could handle"
He groaned. "I feel like I'm going to hurl already"
"I better bring you home" Akane took Fushimi's arm and put it around her shoulders. "You really made me worry so much" They started to make their way out of the bar.
"Hey Akane"
Akane stopped and didn't turn. "What do you want now Mayoka?"
She sighed and gave a faint smile. "You better look after that kid; he might do something ridiculous again. He looked really lonely the whole time and looks like you're the only one to comfort him"
Akane laughed. "That's Fushimi for you, he just acts independent and tough but in reality he's alwas kept his feelings to himself. I just don't know why I can't leave him sometimes that I can't even stop caring for him and looking after him" She finally turns. "Thanks anyway Akari, for calling me and for looking after my partner"
"Are you sure the stick-in-the-mud wouldn't mind this?" She refers to Akane's way of treating Fushimi.
She shook her head and smiles. "He doesn't even have to know"
Instead of actually bringing him back to his house, Akane brought Saruhiko to her condominium unit instead. It was because of the rain they had to go to her place, when they got out of the bar it already started pouring hard, since her house was closer she had no choice but him there.
"Ugh, where am I?" He groaned as his eyes starts to adjust to the brightness of the room; he realized that the ceiling looks very familiar.
He slowly sat up and looked around girly yet modern room, he finally realized that it was Akane's bedroom. At the corner of his eye he notice a familiar figure as he turned his head towards it and found Akane sitting at the opposite side of the bed, she looked like she was busy looking at her phone and didn't realized that he was already awake.
He crawled his way towards her and wrapped his arms around her small waist with his chin resting on her shoulder, she gasped as he took her by surprise. It wasn't a weird and an unusual gesture to her since he's been doing it to her ever since before and she didn't mind at all.
"Oh Fushimi," She let out a sigh of relief as she puts her phone down. "You're finally awake"
"Who are you contacting?" He inhaled her sweet vanilla scent and exhaled a warm breathe as it tickles her neck.
"It's nothing; I'm just trying to check when Munakata is coming back"
He pouted then suddenly he felt a stinging pain in his head. "Ugh… Akane, my head hurts"
"Are you alright Saru?" She turned to face him as she cups his cheeks, observing his face.
He looked really pale and he had that feverish look on his face, sweat forming and dripping down his forehead. She pulled his face as she pressed their foreheads together, he blushed at the sudden contact and felt his heartbeat beating faster than normal.
"Shit Fushimi, seems like you've got a fever there" Akane frowned as she pulls away. "Looks like I'll have to nurse you until your back to your healthy self"
"Is it bad?"
She gave a sigh. "Seems to me you have a mild-fever" She jumped off her bed as she goes to his side of the bed and pushes him down the bed to lie down. "Why don't you rest for a while and I'll be back to get you some medicine and some food, alright?"
He nodded as she pulls a blanket over him. "Just hurry back"
She nodded as she rushes out of the door.
"Shit" He groaned as he covers his face with the blanket. "That was really embarrassing, thanks a lot Mayoka, I think I can't confess like this"
He started to drift to his fantasy land as he waits for her to return, he would stare blankly at the ceiling as he imagines himself having her in his embrace again, savoring her scent leaving him mesmerized, and wanting to kiss those soft pink lips. He tries to think of a way on how to finally confess to her because he couldn't take it anymore, he needed to tell her, he needed her to know, and he needed her to understand.
After a while his thoughts were interrupted by a faint sound of the door being knocked, he quickly sat up and told the person on the other side to come in. The door was being opened slowly as Akane emerges with a tray of food and medicine; she placed it on the end table.
"Can you eat by yourself?" Akane asked as she takes a bowl of miso soup with soba noodles and a soup spoon.
"I-I can manage" He tries to sit properly as he takes the bowl and the spoon; he was eating rather slower than normal since his body is too weak to move much. He scooped a spoonful of soup and opens his mouth; he was obviously having a hard time since the soup spill down his mouth to his chin.
"Seems like you're having a tough time" Akane took the napkin on the tray and wiped the soup off his face. "Don't worry; I'll do it for you"
She took the bowl and the spoon from his hands and starts to feed him, he felt really happy that she was caring so much for him. He felt his heart skipped a beat when she feeds him with a big smile on her face; he loved seeing her with that bright smile on her face. When he finished eating, she placed the bowl back to the tray and took the medicine, she took two pills as she followed what was written on the prescriptions and gives it to him. He takes the pills from her and puts it in his mouth one after the other, she hands him a glass of water and he takes it as he downs the medicine to his system.
"Thanks" He let out a sigh of relief and gives her back the glass.
"No problem Saru" She places the glass back on the tray and took a cooling gel pad, she placed a hand on his forehead to see if it's still hot, so far the temperature hasn't changed. "Put these on so that you'll feel better"
She peels the covering off and gently applies to his forehead. He ran his fingers through the pad as he felt the soothing relief on his aching head; he lie back down on the bed and let the medicines kick in.
"Akane, lie down with me" He patted the empty side of her king-sized bed.
"But I had to clean up first" She stood up from the side of the bed but he grabbed her wrist and pulls her lightly.
"Please" He pleaded with those cute puppy-dog eyes.
She gave up. "Alright, I hate it when you use those eyes on me"
She crawled to her side as she puts the blanket over her body. He took off his glasses and placed them on the end table and snuggled closely to Akane, he placed a hand at her back as he pulls her closer with face closer to hers.
"Fushimi, what are you doing?" She started to feel a bit uncomfortable yet she kind of liked it.
"But don't we do this a lot" He snuggles closer as he presses their bodies together. "But we haven't done this in a long time already"
"You know that I'm already dating Reisi" She playfully pounded his chest.
His face fell when heard those painful words. "But isn't this normal for the both of us?"
She looked up to look at his eyes; it had an unreadable expression on. "Fushimi… Well I guess so"
He sighs. "Just stay until I fell asleep"
She nods as he slowly closes his eyes. "Sleep tight Saru"
Akane hummed a lullaby as she strokes his head, when he completely drifts into his sleep she couldn't let herself to pull away from him; she felt that something was wrong with him. She noticed it from the very beginning, the words that Akari told her kept on ringing to her head.
'He looked really lonely the whole time and looks like you're the only one to comfort him'
She remembered the dullness of his eyes, the desperate and broken look in his face, is this the true Fushimi that has been hiding himself in his shell? She remembered the first time when she saw that look on his face, it wasn't long ago, and it was the time when she found him in his living room with a blade in his hand as he cuts scars on his wrist.
"Fushimi!"
She dropped her bag of groceries as she runs to him, taking the blade and throwing it away from him. His face showed complete sadness and sorrows, his tears flowed down his face.
"What are you doing?" She had a frightened and panicking look on her face.
He stubbornly shook his head, refusing to her an answer.
She didn't wait for another moment to waste; she rushed to get the first aid kit in his bathroom and a towel. She started wiping the blood and disinfecting his scarred wrist, when she finished she carefully wrapped the bandage around his wrist.
"Why?" She muttered as she wipes the tear that fell from the corner of her eyes. "Why are you hurting yourself?"
He gave her a short glace and saw her eyes starting to flow out salty tears, he turned his head away, he couldn't take to see her like that. "I'm sorry"
She grabbed him by the shoulders and started to shake him, she started to tremble. "You know you can tell me anything, I'm your friend, and I can help you"
"Help me" He reaches in for her and caught her in his embrace with his face buried in her chest. "Save me, I don't want to be alone, I'm scared, don't ever leave"
"Shhh…" She gently stroked his back as he pours out all of his emotions. "You're not alone, I'll always be here for you, I promise"
"Akane" Saruhiko fluttered his eyes open and smiled at her.
Her trail of thoughts broke as she heard him call her name.
"Oh Saru, you're awake" She ran her fingers on his neck and his forehead to check his temperature. "Looks like your fever easily went down"
Akane quickly sat up and looked out the window. "Seems like the rain stopped already"
He frowned as he sat up as well and takes off the cooling gel pad on his forehead.
"Akane" He hesitated to look at her. "I need to tell you something"
She turns her head to face him. "What is it, Fushimi?"
He rolls up his sleeves and takes off his wristbands, revealing his scarred wrists.
"Do you still remember the time when you saw me cutting myself?" He gave her a short glance and back to his scarred wrists.
She gulped; she couldn't take her eyes off his wrists. "…Yeah"
"The time when you promised that you will there for me, that you'll stay by my side?" His eyes started to tear up.
She nodded. "I remembered everything that time, but why are you bringing it up?"
"I was so frustrated that day, do you know why?"
Fear started to consume her as she shook her head. "Is it because you needed company?"
She was somewhat right. "It's not just any person's company but yours, because on that day I found out that you were already dating the King" He didn't dare say his name. "I suddenly realized that time on how much it will affect our relationship"
"That's not true!" She exclaimed as she places a hand on his shoulder. "Even if I am dating Reisi, the way I treat you, the way I look at you, and the way I feel about you doesn't care change a thing"
"Then what am I to you?" He finally looked at her in the eye with his tears streaming down his eyes.
She looked at his eyes filled with determination. "You're my greatest friend and my wonderful partner"
He stretches out his arms and pulled her in his embrace.
"What's going on, Fushimi?" She heard him sniffling and felt his tears dripping on her clothes.
"I-Its n-nothing…" His voice was trembling. "I just remembered the words you told me when I broke up with my old girlfriend" He still remembers her words perfectly as if it was still fresh in his memory. "If you really love her, do not look away, no matter what happens. No matter what you see, no matter what you learn about her, do not look away. Once you have her in your arms, do not let go"
She surprised on what he just said. "F-Fushimi, are you saying-"
Akane wasn't able to finish her sentence because his lips caught hers before she could say anymore. She was completely stunned, she tried to push him away but it was like he drugged her, making her body completely weak and unable to struggle. He savored every single second of their kiss since this is what he has always wanted to do for a long time; he has waited for this moment for too long already.
"I love you Akane"
A/N: So how is it? Was it boring, annoying, nice, okay, or what-so-ever? I really had a tough time writing this down since I got pressured because I'll be moving out of my house and moving in with my uncle and cousin, meaning no time for writing *cries* I'll be busy with school soon *sigh*
- I edited the ending for plot purposes (sorry for that)
Creatorginsane: Dude, what do you think? I'm sorry if I didn't get to portray Akari as you expected (this was the challenge of this update actually, but it was fun though)