Chapter 18: Home, sweet home

The train is moveing, we're going home. District 12 might be a dirty and poor district. But it's my home. We eat our dinner in the dinningcar, Effie and Haymitch accompanying us back to 12, but not Cinna or Portia. We said good bye to them in the capital, with a promise that they will come to help us at the victory tour. Portia and Cinna are the only capital people that I trust, that isn't like everyone else in the rich capital. I start to think about home, mother, father and my brothers. I will meet Sky and Sam again. I will see them soon.

The train make a brief stop for fuel. Katniss and I go for a short walk along the track. I feel her warm hand in mine. I gather flowers for her. "Whats wrong?" I ask her. When I gave her the flowers, she looked like you do when a five years old comes and gives you a drawing. The flower might be something else that reminds her about something or someone. Maybe her father. "Nothing" she answers. We walk past the end of the train, and Haymitch appears. "Great job, you two. Just keep it up in the district until the cameras are gone. We should be OK." he says. What? I wasn't acting. I fell in love with her. I am in love with Katniss. Maybe he talkes in his drunk. He's always drunk. He's so unhappy, he choose drinking to forget every killed child he always brings home. I don't want to be like that. I want to be happy, i want Katniss and her family to be happy. But

I understand the pressure of be a mentor of the hunger games. Train childs and then watch them die every year. That's my job from now. I can't live an normal life with Katniss. I am stucked at this horrible train every year from now. And so is Katniss. "What's he mean?" I ask Katniss. She might understand what Haymich just saiid to us. "It's the capital. They didn't like our stunt with the berries" she answer, looks at her feet. I didn't understand it was a stunt till now. If the berries was an act, how much was just an act? Everything? No, it can't be. "What? What are you talking about?" I say. "It seemed to rebellious. So Haymitch has been coatching me trogh the last few days, so I didn't make it worse" she says. He coatched Katniss but not me? He choosed Katniss before me in the arena. I wanted him to choose her before me, but I can't buy that he coatchin her but not me. He's my mentor to.

"Katniss?" I say. I drop her hand. "It was all for the games" I say. "How you acted"

"Not all of it" she says, holding her flowers tightly. She admit it as well. How could I be so stupid? You don't fell in love in weeks. She already got a boyfriend that she loves. I am not her real boyfriend. Everything will be gone back home. She won't knock at my door and smille at me. She won't eat supper with me in the evenings. She won't tell me that she loves me. Because she don't. She doesn't love me for real. It was an act, a really good one. I will always be in love with her. No matter what. But love someone that already love someone else hurts.

I walk back to the train. I am angry and maybe mad. Mad of being me. Mad of be one of the tools of the capital. Madly in love with a girl that doesn't love me back. I walk to my room. I cry in the pillow at the bed. I am just a tool of the capital. Nothing but a stupied tool of the capital. A really stupied one, can't even see that she lied, that everything was just an act. Nothing but a lie. Everyone tells lies. Never the truth. I am strong enough to handle the truth. I am not a weak boy that can't handle truth.

"One more time? For the audiance?" I say. Katniss nods and she takes my hand and the trainstation is full of people. I see Prim and Katniss mother. Then I see Sam and Sky. They smilles and even if I am heartbreaked I can't stop smileing. I am home.

There is childrens there too. Katniss's mother says "Your cousins is here Katniss". I didn't know she has cousins. But the childrens isn't her real coussins either. Because it's Gale's brothers and sister they talk about. And Katniss telled me they isn't relatives. Another lie all the way from the capital is once again told.

THE END OF THE 74:TH ANNUAL HUNGER GAMES

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So, this is the end of this fanfic. I hope you enjoy it. I will start a new fanfiction soon, about the 75:th annual hunger games in Peeta's perspective.

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