Day 5
Coolnerdgirl: Just a quick AN before the story, sorry to keep you guys waiting! Wow, poor L! Does anyone have any guesses about who the mystery character who looks like L is? It most likely won't take very long for someone to get it. : P
Right now, I'm considering making it longer than a week. What do you guys think? We do need more of Lawlight in our lives, so why not a month or something? I mean, they are one of the most interesting couples to write, because they're both manipulative, smart, and haven't really been seen in a relationship before….That's where Fanfiction comes in!
Ok, pay attention to this chapter, because it is one of the most important of them all! Light is going to get his memories back, and this will include more psychological trauma on Light/Kira's behalf. The two different personalities battling for control, and trying to decide what happens to L!
Well, this is longer than I planned it to be, so stop reading my notes and get to the story that finally involves the Note! (heh)
•••••
His captor had returned. Except now, he had Light with him. Trying to cry out, he simply found cloth in his mouth. The jailer was smiling, the smile of someone who has long since left sanity. Grabbing the amber-haired boy, the insane man used the rope to bind him. And Light is crying for help, because the red-eyed L is hitting him, and cutting him, and the true L cannot do a thing.
The monster leaves Light, battered and hog-tied, and promises to come back for more. L sees his vision blur, and soon the blurriness is covering everything, and why was there water on Ryuzaki's face? And the water is coming faster now, and the detective can taste it. The salt in the water tastes of regret, and losing what can never be returned. Never.
When he tries to talk to Light, to help, Light screams back.
"You monster! Why did you do this to me?"
He knew that no one would like him after they knew his secret. They would be in danger, and it would be all L's fault. Now he can never gain Light's trust again. His only friend, gone in a puff of strawberry smoke. And the amber-haired boy is fighting against his restraints, and they are snakes around the student's strong arms. Now there are screams, as the snakes reel back, and sink their teeth into the detective-in-training.
And now L is falling, falling, and the pit is back. But now they have new threats, and the one being dragged down is Light. L can only watch as his only friend is pulled down into the darkness. Screams echo around the dark abyss, and Ryuzaki wonders at the fact that they are in fact his screams, his yells of anguish, his cries of pain. But the dragging down isn't what is causing this grief, no, it is Light.
While he is dragged down, he is smiling.
•••••
It was Ryuzaki who finally woke up, panting for breath. Sweat poured down his face, mixing with the tears raining on his face. Light was still sleeping, and the great detective correctly assumed that he had not cried out during this night terror. Taking deep breaths, he pulled the handcuff against his wrist. Pain flashed through his brain, waking him up and returning him to his state of L.
Did he care that deeply for the younger man? Or was his fear of his kidnapper so deeply ingrained into his body and mind that everyone could be used against the great detective? Either way, he would have to deal with that strong double of himself. The black hair, the red eyes, the pale skin, his scent of strawberry jam and blood, a metallic and sweet smell.
Pulling on the chain, L attempted to wake Light up. When that didn't work, the genius walked over to the brunet, ready to shake him if that's what it took. Following through with part two of his Wake Up Light Yagami Plan™, Ryuzaki sat back down in his curled up way. "Wake up, Light-kun. Light-kun, Light-kun, Light-kun, Light-kun…."
The victim of L's shaking sat up, and groaned. "What is it, Ryuzaki?" His voice sounded tired, and the raven-haired man slightly regretted disturbing him from his deep slumber. "Don't just stare at me, why did you wake me up?" Suddenly, there was understanding in the student's eyes as he looked at the haunted expression on L's face.
Comfort washed over the world's best detective as he was offered tea, coffee, sweets. "Thank you, Light-kun."
"It's no problem, Ryuzaki. I really don't mind." L looked at the younger man. "You know, Ryuzaki, my sister used to have night terrors, like you. It would always help her to talk about them. Do you want to talk about it with me, or do you just want to go to the kitchen and eat something?"
"Light-kun will understand if I would not like to talk about it?"
"Of course! There's always something personal about dreams, a secret that is only yours. Just….If you ever do want to talk about it, I'm here."
The two left the bedroom, both still in their pajama bottoms. Even though they most likely could have come up with some way to get their shirts on, neither of them really minded any more. Leading the way to the kitchen, Light looked over his shoulder and smiled at Ryuzaki. A kind, caring smile. A slight blush slid its way onto the genius' face, and he decided to pass it off as a symptom from the dream.
Grabbing a box of cupcakes, the dark-haired man sat down. Light was making a pot of tea, moving as far as the handcuffs would allow. Starting the brew, he sat down across from L. "So, how bad was it?" When he saw the confused look on the sugar-obsessed detective's face, he made a little laugh. "Sorry, I keep on remembering Sayu. She really is sweet, but at night she was really tortured by her dreams. If you could even call them dreams, that is."
"Light-kun truly wants to know?"
Looking shocked, Light responded. "Of course I do! You are my first real friend, after all. Also…."
"Yes, Light-kun?"
"...nothing. Do you want to tell me?"
L's suspicions were confirmed with that last sentence. Light Yagami really did care about him. Light cared about him. And he still suspected the only one who was close to him. Besides Watari, of course. Watari was the only one who wanted to take him after his parents died, the only one willing to train him and give him a home. But still, having a friend was certainly important, very important.
"It was a very painful nightmare. If Light-kun wanted to know where it would fall on a scale from 1-10, the answer would be 9.5. No, 10."
Light's eyes widened, and he looked shocked and sad. "10. 10! 10? That's awful! Are you alright?" He hit his face. "That was a stupid question. And I know you don't want pity, but I still feel bad for you."
"Light-kun honestly cares?"
"Don't you get it already, Ryuzaki? YES, I CARE."
•••••
"So the thing that Higuchi had was called….Death Note? Misa had one too, didn't she. It makes sense now!" Aizawa was proud of himself for figuring it out, especially when Light and L confirmed it.
"That is most likely."
"It's what I thought too, Aizawa. If you're wrong, Ryuzaki and I are also wrong."
"Would Light-kun like to see this notebook of death?"
Startled by the question, it took the brunet a short while to fully process what he had just heard. "What…? Oh. I honestly don't know. It seems fascinating, but also could be the worst murder weapon of all time. No, is the worst murder weapon of all time. But I do want to see this 'shinigami' all of you are talking about. Do they really exist? I mean, if a notebook that can kill people exists, I don't doubt that a shinigami exists. But I do want to see proof."
Ryuzaki sighed. "I do not think that Light-kun is going to enjoy this, but if Light-kun wants to see it…." He motioned to Watari, who nodded and left the room. "Watari is going to get the 'Death Note'. Light-kun will touch it, and will see the shinigami."
Watari re-entered, and with him he brought the notebook. Passing it to L, the elderly man left the room. He was going to close up the vault that had held the Note, and make sure that no one could figure out the complex codings and locks which protected the murder weapon.
The sable-eyed detective looked at Light. "Is Light-kun sure that he wants to touch the Death Note? The shinigami is…."
"It's fine, Ryuzaki. I do want to be on the same page as the rest of you, and it doesn't seem fair that I alone can't see this god of death."
"Shinigami Ryuk, come here!" Unseen to Light, the dark Death God floated over. He laughed, raspy and dry. The Task Force didn't pay any notice to this, because the blue-and-black god had been laughing like that since they had made contact with the notebook.
Light took the Death Note from L's hands. Screams filled the tense air, and the brunet's head was flooded with memories, a tornado dying down and making everything fit into place. Tsunamis crashed, volcanoes erupted, and Light Yagami knew the true identity of Kira. In fact, the student knew everything about Kira. Because now he knew that he and Kira were one and the same. And that was what made him scream.
•••••
"Is Light-kun alright?" Those were the first words that he heard when he wore up. Looking around, he was in his room with Ryuzaki. The detective was sitting in his normal way, studying Light. He looked concerned.
"Wha….?"
"Light-kun collapsed after seeing the shinigami. Was Light-kun afraid, or was the Death Note doing something to Light-kun?"
"Honestly Ryuzaki, I don't know anymore. I honestly don't know." But it was not Light who said those words. It was Kira, the murderer. The two personalities were trying to force their way to the surface, but right now it was the darker side.
•••••
You're weak. You honestly just need to kill him. The plan I set in motion will be activated when I decide it to be. And once that happens, you will be gone. I will be at the surface.
No. I am the real Light Yagami. You are just a fake created by the Death Note. I do have your memories, but I will kill you off. Destroying the notebook will do the trick. Light Yagami will forget all about being Kira, and I will regain control.
You are letting your feelings get in the way. Rem is already set up to kill him, and I just have to be in control when it happens. Otherwise the game will be over.
Game? GAME? You think that this is a game? This is the real world. L is the only real friend that I have, and I will not allow you to kill him. He is the only person outside of my family that I care for with all of my heart.
He will never care for you, not when he knows what you are. What you've done. Who you've killed. Ryuzaki will send you to your death, unless you send him to his. You have known this from the beginning.
He cares about me! I can tell. And he has shown weakness to me. I am the only person besides Watari….
Really? Is that so? Why is Watari so special to L?
I….
I thought so.
I will NOT let you kill L! You won't get control again!
You can try to push me down, but I will pull you down with me. I am a part of you, until the Death Note is gone.
And it will be gone. Don't you worry.
Oh, we'll see. We'll see….