While I'm working on my two new multichapter projects in the 'background' I decided to give myself a break with this little idea. It's gonna be a companion piece to the show, so to speak. Mostly missing scenes I need to write, I guess. I'm not sure where exactly this is going, but I intend to write one 'chapter' for each episode at least.

Anyways … I hope you enjoy the ride! :-)

5x11 – Swan Song

The darkness inside of her was gone. Completely.

Killian had saved her. Saved all of them. Or so they'd thought.

Rage still flickered up inside her every time she let herself think about the fact that they hadn't defeated the Dark One. All the pain had been for nothing. His sacrifice had been in vain. And she would not accept his death to be meaningless.

The hole he'd left in her heart was filled by a burning fire now. She didn't let herself get swept back into the cloud of pain and loss she'd felt hours after his death. She'd sent everyone away, couldn't bear the looks of pity, the pain of loss she could see in all the people surrounding her. Killian did have a place in all their hearts in some way, and for just a few hours she'd wanted to be left alone with the pain of his loss, wanted to mourn him without having to put on a brave face, without picking herself up and putting the pieces back together. Just a few hours in which she could let herself think of him, in which she didn't fight back the hollow feeling consuming her heart. His ring had left an imprint in the palm of her hand; she'd clutched it with a desperation that bordered on insane. A tiny spark insight of her flaming to life with the hope that holding on to the ring would mean she didn't have to let go of him just yet. Just for a few hours longer.

And then the most horrible thing had happened. She'd heard the call of the dagger, and fury had shoved the pain into the background.

Killian had died to destroy the darkness once and for all, but due to Gold's trickery and his unwillingness to live a normal life, the Dark One wasn't dead yet. In light of these new circumstances she refused to give Killian up without a fight. She didn't leave him a choice when she made him the Dark One, and he probably might not appreciate it either that they were rushing to his rescue now, putting them all in danger to bring him back from the dead. She had been determined to let him go this time, to honor his sacrifice, even if it meant she had to close off her heart once again so that the pain of losing him wouldn't destroy her. But Gold's betrayal had changed that decision.

She would not let Killian suffer in the Underworld for nothing. She would find a way to bring him back. She would not let the darkness win in the end.

She was the Savior and it was about time that she fought for her own happy ending.