This was a hard chapter to write. And for people like me, who cry if a fic is sad this is a TISSUE WARNING!

This is the chapter before the ending and many of you would like to see a happy ending.

This is a drama but I'm a sucker for happy endings so I'm going to post twoo endings. A sad one with a major charachter death and a happy one :)

Thank you for the reviews, love you guys!

Regina walks out of the hospital in quick steps. She can't do this! She walks faster until she's almost running. She sees people looking at her but she doesn't stop.

"Regina!" Emma yells from behind her. "Regina!" Regina shakes her head, she can't see clear anymore the tears are blocking her vision and she has to stop running to watch where she's going so she doesn't run into someone.

"Regina what's wrong." Emma asks watching how Regina places her hands on her knees and takes deep breaths. Regina looks around her and sees an alleyway. If she's going to have this conversation with Emma she doesn't want anyone to see her yelling into clear air.

"Regina please talk to me! What's going on? Why did you run?" Emma ask concerned when they are in the alley.

"I can't do this!" Regina shouts. "I can't be the one who tells everyone that you are going to die. I can't do that." Regina rubs angry in her eyes.

"Hey it's okay. My mom and Ruby were the only two I needed to contact. You don't have to do that again." Emma susses.

"Do you have any idea how hard this is?" Regina asks and Emma can clearly hear the despair in her voice.

"No I don't. And I'm sorry. Why don't we do something you want for the rest of the day." Emma asks and Regina stares at her only sniffling a little bit.

"So tell me Regina, what is your happy place?" Emma asks smiling when she sees the sparkle coming back into Regina's eyes.

"The beach."

Emma hadn't expect the beach to be Regina's happy place but when she saw the brunette walk on the sand with her shoes off and her head thrown back, her eyes closed she knew that the beach had a bigger meaning to her. They had stop by Regina's apartment first so the brunette could get some stuff before driving the small distance to the beach.

In the years Emma had lived in the city she had known that she was close to the ocean but still somehow she had never taken the time to go and explore this side of the city. She was happy that Regina was showing it to her now, it seems like she could learn from the brunette as well. The sun was high in the sky and reflected beautiful on the water. Emma let her eyes travel from the water to Regina and she felt her throat go dry.

Regina was pulling of her shirt revealing a black bikini top. Emma tried but she couldn't look away from every piece of olive skin that was revealed. Regina pushes her jeans of and threw them on the blanket before looking at Emma. She was pleased to see the blonde dumb struck standing behind her.

"So Emma? Is it possible for you to join me in the water?" Regina asks looking at the plain white shirt and jeans Emma was always wearing.

"I don't know. But I'm happy to find it out." Emma says and watches how Regina's smile slowly changes into a grin.

"Race you!" She shouts and starts running towards the water. Emma follows quickly behind and when her form hits the water she doesn't feel the wetness and her appearance doesn't change. Regina however shrieks when the cold water splashes against her stomach but she doesn't care it's what she loves. She takes a deep breath and takes a dive.

That's the moment, the moment she feels most alive. The dive into cold ocean water, eyes closed and body fully awake. She tries to stay under as long as possible. When air is necessary she comes back up, opens her eyes and is greated by the view of Emma standing right in front of her with the sun shining into her back. It's the most beautiful sight Regina has ever seen and if heaven excited she knew that this is how an angel would look like. Maybe that's what Emma was? An angel.

When Regina is too tired to swim they go back to the beach and lie next to each other on the blanket. Emma lies on her side facing Regina and watching how the little droplets of water glide over Regina's olive skin.

"Did you mean that?" Emma asks and Regina turns her head towards Emma not understanding what she means.

"What do you mean?"

"What you told Ruby, that I'm your friend." Emma says and Regina detects sadness in her statement. Why is she sad? Doesn't she want to be my friend.

"You don't have to be if you don't want to." Regina says turning her head back away and Emma sees how her walls are coming back up.

"I wish I wanted to be your friend." Emma says and Regina snaps her back and glares at Emma.

"What! Why not!" Regina asks angry. Yes Regina had been mean to the blonde but she had also be nice and friendly towards her, she thought she had deserved Emma's friendship.

"Because if I only wanted to be your friend this would have been easier. But I want so much more. I want you Regina, I want to love you and hold you and kiss you. I'm want to completely fall in love with you." Regina pushes herself up into a sitting position and watches how tears fall from Emma's eyes. She wanted her? Regina chuckles and feel her own eyes getting moist. How cruel can her live be.

"I have already fallen completely in love with you Emma and it hurts because I can't touch you or kiss you and I can't stop feeling like this."

Regina doesn't care that she won't feel Emma she just want to show her how much she wants her. She leans forward and imagines how her lips would feel on Emma's but Regina frowns when she indeed feels the soft flesh of Emma's lips. She pushes further deepening the kiss and feels a hand cupping her cheek. The hand is warm and soft. Regina and Emma open their eyes and look at each other in confusion.

"Emma…..I felt you." Regina says and tries to ignore the pressure she feels on her chest.

"Regina…are you okay? Regina?" Emma asks worried seeing how Regina's eyes are slowly becoming dull.

"My…..heart…." Regina breaths out putting her hand on her chest. She can't ignore the pressure anymore it's like someone is jumping on her chest.

Emma looks around the beach and sees several people lying on their blankets near them. Emma starts yelling and waving forgetting that no one can see her.

"Shit! Regina! Regina you need to scream! Regina! Scream!" Emma looks at Regina her eyes wide with fear. Regina cries out in pain and Emma hopes someone has heard her. Please! She looks around and sees how a couple in looking in their direction. They see Regina in agony and start running towards her.

"Please Regina! Stay here! Everything is going to okay. Please, I love you."

"You had another heart attack Regina." Doctor Whale says sitting on the edge of Regina's bed and checking her heart rhythm. Regina feels tired and it's difficult for her to breath.

"I'm sorry Regina but if we don't find you a heart in the next 12 hours…" He sighed. "You will probably die."

Regina doesn't look away from him and nods in understanding. "I understand. Thank you doctor Whale." She says holding back a sob. Doctor Whale looks down and gives her hand a squeeze. He hated giving people this kind of news. The only thing they could do now was wait and hope for a miracle.

The moment Whale closes the door of the room Emma is standing beside Regina's bed. She crutches down and takes a hold of Regina's hand. She can feel her and it makes her sad because it means that Regina is dying.

"It's time Regina." She says and her voice is hoarse from crying. "It's time to say goodbye."

Regina eyes grow wide and she starts shaking her head. "No! Emma! No." Emma pushes some strands from Regina's face.

"Please Emma, I don't deserve it. I have made so many mistakes in my life. And maybe if I die we can be together. Maybe we see each other." Regina says hopefully but Emma shakes her head.

"No! I want you to live! I need you to live! You do deserve this Regina. You showed me the real you and she is kind and sweet and I love her and I need you to see these things in yourself."

"I don't….I don't see them." Regina croaks out through her tears.

Emma smiles and leans forward. She kisses Regina and can taste their combined tears on her lips. "Well it's a good thing that I can see them and you don't have a choice in the matter." Emma lets go of Regina hands and takes a step back. Regina eyes grow wide when she sees Emma turn, walking out of her room.

"Emma! Please! Emma! Come back!" Regina pleads desperately.

Emma stands still for a second when she hears Regina shouting and pleading. She closes her eyes and blocks out the noise before she starts walking again. The tears keep falling down her face while she walks down the walls of the hospital that had become her home for so long.

She passes Ruby who is pushing a wheelchair with a grumpy old lady in it. The lady is rude but her friend keeps smiling. Children are running down the halls, playing, laughing and crying. People are sitting in rooms or waiting in the halls. Emotions crossing over their faces. Emotions Emma can understand. They feel sadness, anger, happiness but also confusion while doctors tell them how their lives have changed.

She walks further and enters her own room. There she lies her own body had become her prison. A prison she would break out of today.

Her mother is in the room. She is sitting there like every other day. She hopes when she's gone that she will pick up her live. It's time to set her free as well. Emma walks closer and watches how her mother's eyes travel across the book that she's reading. Emma kneels in front of her and places her hands on her mother's knees. They don't feel the contact.

"Mom." Emma says through sobs. "I love you." She pushes herself up and gives her a kiss on her forehead.

A small shiver runs down Mary's back. She looks up from her book and watches her daughter's lifeless body. "Emma?" She asks and she can't find the reason why she's asking.

Before Mary knows what's happening the machine starts beeping making her jump up. She walks over to the machine and without needing to think further she reaches out and presses the red button on the wall.

Nurses enter the room and check the machine to know what has happened. Emma's condition is rapidly getting worse. Mary hears the nurses mutter that they don't understand. Doctors are getting called and they starts giving Emma fluids.

"What's happening." Mary asks looking at the nurses but none can give her a clear answer.

"Where's losing her." One nurse bravely answers.

"What! How is that even possible?" The nurse looks at her not knowing what to say.

"We don't know….it's like." The nurse looks at Emma for a second. "It's like she's giving up."

Mary snaps her head back at Emma and walks closer. She takes her daughter's hand and holds it close to her lips. Giving up? She's giving up. That's not who her daughter is. She doesn't give up.

"No." Mary says her voice softening. "She isn't giving up. She's ready, she's ready to go. She's saying goodbye." She let her fingers trace over Emma's cheek and leans down to give her a kiss.

"It's okay sweetheart. You were saying goodbye when Regina was here, didn't you? It's okay I believe her. I'll go out with David." Mary chuckles through her sobs. "I'll be fine. I love you so much Emma. It's okay you can go now." Mary's vision is blurry but she doesn't care she will keep watching until Emma's last heartbeat.

Regina is staring at the ceiling. She feels numb, she can't see Emma. She isn't here. She feels frustrated she wants Emma here. She wants her to walk through the door and smile at her. Regina turns her head at the door and for a second her heart fills itself with hope when the door opens but seeing doctor Whale running in with a smile on his face fills her heart with sadness. Doctor Whale doesn't have to say anything because she already knows why he's here.

"We have a heart."