Major character death. Sorry, the next chapter is de happy ending this is the original sad one
Regina feels herself shaking. They are rolling her bed down the halls towards the operating rooms, she's scared and she's all alone. They push her down a double door before entering the operating room. Doctor Whale isn't there yet. They lift her from her bed and place her on the table.
She looks around completely terrified but all the sudden finds comfort in the hand that is gripping hers.
"It's okay Regina. You are going to be okay." Regina looks at the person who is talking at her. The nurse is wearing a mask but Regina's knows her eyes.
"Ruby…."Regina whispers and Ruby nods. Doctor Whale walks in the room fully scrub and he looks down at Regina.
"Are you comfortable Regina? Good! The heart is here and it's a good one. I have high hopes." Regina nods nervously and squeezes Ruby's hand.
"Alright I want you to count back from ten to nine." Doctor Whale says while another nurse holds a mask in front of Regina's face.
"Ten…nine….eight…..se…ven…..si….fi…"Regina drifts into darkness.
What happens when we die? No one knows the answer to that question and so many people have asked that question before. Do we leave and go somewhere else? Somewhere good or somewhere bad? Do we return in another form? So many questions and so many ideas to that question. The question no one can answer.
"Regina." A voice whispers close by Regina's ear. Regina frowns because she knows the voice all too well.
"Emma?" Regina asks slowly opening her eyes. Emma is sitting next to her and Regina feels Emma's hand on her cheek and she can see Emma smiling down her.
"I'm here Regina." Emma says her dump slowly caressing over her cheek. Regina places her hand over Emma's and lean in to the touch. She feels wonderful having Emma with her. She closes her eyes again and for just a moment she forgets what had just happened, for a moment she hopes that having her here is a good sign. But then she opens her eyes again and sees how little tears fall across Emma's face and how white the room is where she is lying in. No door or window, a big white space without even a breeze of air.
"Where are we Emma?" Regina asks worried. She wants to get up but Emma stops her. Instead Emma lies down on her side and holds Regina in her arms. Regina buries her head inside Emma's neck and breathes in her scent. She smells like cinnamon and something flowery. Emma's hand is rubbing circles into her back and Regina wishes they could they here forever.
"Emma….?" Regina asks again.
"I'll always be with you Regina. Nothing can change that now." Emma holds her a little closer.
"What's going to happen now?" They pull back a little so they can see each other eyes.
"We stay like this until you wake up." Emma says.
"So this all isn't real. I'm only dreaming this?" Regina asks sadly. Emma chuckles and pushes Regina raven hair out of her face.
"And what's so wrong with that?" Emma kisses Regina on the nose before kissing her on the lips. "You can dream about me and think about me as much as you like but just promise me that you never forget that this is the person you are. I'll will always love you Regina and I'll always be with you but you will not see me anymore, when you wake up." Regina understands and pulls Emma back to her. She just wants to hold her a little longer.
"I want you to live your life fully. Go have your baby, go and find someone to love. I have given you my heart and I need you to find someone to share it with." Emma can feel Regina sobbing and nodding.
"I will Emma. I love you." Regina says. She wants to open her eyes again but they are too heavy. She feels herself growing more tired and she is losing Emma's touch. She's waking up.
"Goodbye Regina." Emma whispers.
Regina looks in the mirror and adjusts her blouse. She should have bought it in a bigger size the last button is straining and she fears that it might pop up and reveal her scar. Regina smiles, sometimes she doesn't like the way the scar looks and she doesn't like the questions people ask her about it but it also is a reminder of Emma. She will never forget Emma.
"Miss Mills? They are ready for you." Jessica says opening the door from the bathroom and stepping inside.
"Thanks Jessica and remember my name is Regina." Regina says chuckling while applying just a little more lipstick. She sees how Jessica watches her in the mirror, a small blush covering her co-manager's cheeks.
"What do you think of the blouse Jessica? It's not too small is it?" Regina asks turning towards Jessica and pushing up her breasts a little more. She loves how Jessica's breath hitches and she can't stop staring at her chest.
"It's lovely Regina." Jessica manages to say and Regina gives her a little wink.
They both leave the bathroom and Regina smiles a genuine smile when she goes to sit behind the little desk in the bookshop. People are waiting in line for her autograph. After the surgery Regina had a lot of time because her body needed to recover. She had taken the time to do something she felt like she needed to. She had written a book, a book about her and Emma. Their time together but also the time they would have had if they had met under different circumstances. Regina closes her eyes and feels how her heart beats inside her chest. She opens the first book and let her fingers trace of the title "All that matters is my heart" by Regina Mills for my true love Emma.