Here it is! The next (and longest, so far,) chapter of You Must (Not) Run Away! Hope you enjoy!
Helicarrier – Hanger
Blake can't believe it. It just left. The carrier just left with a dozen noncombatants inside on it, including Shinji. And the one inside is a traitor within SHIELD. A member of Psi-unit, Adrian Matthews. Blake grips his fist hard as anger and guilt as the revaluation that Shinji had just became a hostage to Andrew and Blake feels it his fault for convincing Shinji go inside the carrier.
"Right after I told him he'll be safe.", thought Blake, "I have to do something!"
"Blake!", Donald calls out to, "I got a message from the bridge. I need to get a squad and get back that carrier."
"I'll get a squad.", responds Blake, "You get the equipment. Bring a sniper rifle for me just in case."
"Got it!", yells Donald as he goes and get a pilot for an VTOL.
"And bring some flight packs!", Blake request as Donald shows a thumbs up.
Evacuation Carrier
Shinji can feel it. The coldness of a barrel of a gun on the right side of the temple of his head. He starts to shake. If this man who is holding him decides to, Shinji can be killed any minute now.
"Wha-what just happened?", Shinji asks himself in his head, "Why is this guy doing this?"
Shinji moves his eyes above to see a man in his early twenties looking at the strange man Shinji just met. The man holding Shinji hostage looks serious yet flustered as the man with pistol had just asks the strange man, Dr. Kursunada a question moments ago. Dr. Kursunada still hasn't answered.
"Tell me!", yells Adrian Matthews, who holding Shinji hostage, "The secrets of the Psycho System! Or else this blood will be in your hands."
Shinji's eyes widen as he tries get out of Adrian's grip, but no use.
"Don't struggle!", yells Adrian as he whips the top of Shinji's head with the bottom of his gun.
A little blood starts drip to Shinji's face as Shinji the looks at Dr. Kursunada. Dr. Kursunada sighs watching the face of this child who became a victim of a traitor.
"The Psycho System.", Dr. Kursunada finally says as he shakes his head, "A foolish theory to harness things normal human cannot understand."
"Don't lie to me.", says Adrian as he points the gun at the doctor, "I know that at that the reason for the Psycho System at first is to turn the brainwaves that allows for telepathy into telekinesis."
"That was the intention.", says Dr. Kursunada before whispering to himself, "And in theory it could have work."
"With the Psycho System, a normal person can use it to lift an entire building with little effort. That was the plan, wasn't it. Just imagine a telepath using it."
"Yes, the result would truly be frightening.", says a distracted Dr. Kursunada as he is thinking about something else.
"That why I'm offering you a chance to create what you originally intended for, as long as you are willing to do it for Hydra.", says Adrian.
"Hydra?", questions Dr. Kursunada before smiling after figuring out that Adrian not a traitor, but an infiltrator, "I see now."
Adrian then receives a call from his headset and smiles. He pushes Shinji tot he seat next to Dr. Kursunada before turning to the rest of the hostages.
"Listen up!", shouts Adrian to the entire hanger, "My comrades are coming here to escort us to our base, so if something happens to me, they'll blow up this carrier! Got it!",
There was a long silence after that with most of the non-combatants lowering their heads. Adrian took it as a yes before going to the front of the hanger where he has a full view of everybody. Shinji's head was still bleeding from the pistol whip as he starts to feel a bit woozy. Then, Dr. Kursunada then pulls out a towel from his lab coat before putting it on Shinji's lap.
"Why do you-"
"It what I use to wipe my sweat from my forehead", Dr. Kursunada says, answering Shinji's questions before Shinji could finish, "Don't worry, I haven't use it yet."
"Thank you.", Shinji politely say as he places the white towel on his head.
"That okay.", assures Dr. Kursunada, "They say one of act of kindness can make a man's day."
"Kindness, huh.", Shinji quietly says to himself before thinking about Blake.
"Let me help you and I'll help you get out of this and live to see tomorrow, I swear."
"You'll swear, huh.", says Shinji as he takes off the towel on his head and look at the blood it collected.
Outside of Massachusetts – VTOL – 10 minutes later
The Helicarrier is was stationed above the waters between Manhattan and Rhode Island. It was there in case a terrorist attack at the Helicarrier and fast enough to get to Manhattan in case of an emergency. black armored VTOL left the Helicarrier at about 10 minute ago traveling at about 500 mph traveling south outside of Massachusetts. They have the location of the rouge carrier which is seen traveling over the waters. At the rate their going, they'll catch up to carrier.
The VTOL is painted jet black with four thrusters, with on the back, other two in the middle and a pair of wings on top. It's currently in jet mode in order to catch up with the taken evacuation carrier, but in exchange for speed, it has far less weapons then it's other mode.
"This will be our plan.", announces Donald as he and Blake stand in front of other SHIELD agents, "The evacuation carrier doesn't have any weapons on it, but the hostiles inside does. The hostile pilot is under Adrian's control, so we need to bring him back alive. So we need to use tranquilizers on him. When we switch this baby to assault mode, we'll match the speed of the carrier then-"
An alarm is set up before the pilot of the jet turns around.
"We have boogies coming in hot!", shouts the pilot.
Coming ahead of the VTOL is five unregistered jet flying in. They are single manned jets with the Hydra logo on top of them. They fired their missiles at the assault jet before maneuvers out of the way. It fires it own missiles at the Hydra jets, before the jets separate their formation and surrounds the assault jet.
"Can we lose them!?", Blake asks at the pilot
"I don't think we can!", answers the pilot, "They can match our speed!."
"Create some distance from them, then switch to assault mode!", commands Donald, "Nate, Aguirre, use the turrets! Saunders, Johnson, Ramsey, attach yourselves to the hooks on the floor, unlock the hanger door and use the pulse rifles! I'll man the turret in the front! Lets move it!"
The VTOL slows down as the Hydra jets speeds past it and circles around. As the VTOL faces the jets, it start to change into assault mode as it wings starts retracting inside itself while the thrusters on the side lifts up and expanding out, replacing the wings. Turrets appear out of the sides next to where the side thrusters were as the hanger door opens with the other three, Blake, Agent Johnson, and Agent Ramsey, are in body armor attached to the floor, with pulse rifles on them. The pulse rifles look like normal rifles from the back, but in the front, the barrel is a chrome cylinder which glowing blue in the front.
"Missiles slots open!", announces Donald as missiles slots open in the front and sides of the VTOL, "Firing missiles!"
A barrage of missiles is launch from the sides of the VTOL, aiming at the jets. The jets dodges them, but are force to accelerate past the VTOL. The jets then circle around again, in formation, coming straight at the VTOL from behind. Blake is aiming down the sights of the pulse rifle along with the other two as they wait for the jets get closer, due to the range of the pulse rifle.
"Just little closer.", whispers Blake closes one eye to increase his focus.
The moment the jets were within range of the pulse rifles, Blake doesn't hesitate when commanding the other two.
"Their in sight! Fire!", Blake commands, not missing a beat in that command.
When they fired the pulse rifles, the front glows blue as the lead Hydra jet in the formation explodes from a blue explosion, forcing the others to scramble. The jet behind also suffered damage as it's right side is a wreck.
"These things are amazing!", says Agent Ramsey as he tries to fire at one of the jet as they are speeding up past the VTOL, "They just one shot a jet!"
"Actually, one of you missed and the other hit the one behind it.", corrects Blake as he hit another jet before it ran past them, "But still, these things are in incredible, too bad about the range."
With four jets remaining, Donald launches the gatling gun at the front of the VTOL at the jets, missing the jets as they start turning to the right. The Hydra squad is keeping their distance from the VTOL being cautious of the SHIELD rescue squad.
"They are planning something." thought Blake as he watches the four jets start separating from their formation, "We have to hurry! But as long as we are in assault mode, it is half our top speed of jet mode. As well as having a constant speed to shoot at these guys. I'm not confidence in shooting from a long distance at about 200 mph."
Evacuation Carrier – 10 Miles East of Plymouth, Massachusetts
It was quiet inside the carrier. Nothing but the sounds of the thrusters of carrier and the sounds of metal being step on because Adrian is walking back and forth around the hanger. Shinji is watching Adrian walking while holding on to the towel that has a spot of his blood. Due to this being a evacuation carrier it was natural to have a first aid kit.
There was medical string inside the first aid and Dr. Kursunada had a brief experience in areas of medication. He stitches up Shinji's head earlier, leaving the only evidence that Shinji bleed from his head are the dry blood on top of him and the towel with the crimson spot.
"I have been a bit a curious lately.", Dr. Kursunada starts whispering to Shinji as soon as Adrian was out of their reach.
Shinji is a bit startled from Dr. Kursunada suddenly talking to him. The only thing that Dr. Kursunada said to him since giving him the towel is to let him sew his head up. In a way, Shinji felt a bit uncomfortable with Dr. Kursunada, feeling that his is off in a way.
"What is?", Shinji asks, in a somber tone.
"What value does SHIELD have you?"
Shinji pauses for a bit. So far, he has no idea how things end up like this. He woke in a giant ship flying, fell asleep for about three days, woke up, escaped from the ship because people were going crazy and now he here as a hostage. He remembers Blake's words that Shinji was invoked in something. Shinji tries to remember what, but a feeling in stomach prevents him. An uncomfortable feeling.
"To be honest.", Shinji starts answering as he pauses when Adrian came and left, "I don't know. I think I've done something bad. But I don't know."
"You've done something bad yet you are here in a evacuation ship?', asks Dr. Kursunada in a curious tone.
"I-I don't know.", says Shinji in an hesitant tone, "I don't know what special about me. It feels like people are trying to control me. Telling me very little things while I have to listen to survive. It feels a bit frustrated."
"I can understand a bit.", says Dr. Kursunada as Shinji turns suddenly to him, "We scientist live every day, trying figuring about what makes this world tick. When something new happens, we scramble our heads trying to figure it out as the stress and frustration before figuring it out engulfs us. We learn something everyday while trying to survive in this world everyday."
"I really don't know what your saying.", Shinji said with honesty.
There was silence as soon as Adrian came by and continues after he left. Shinji glaces a bit at Dr. Kursunada who is humming quietly a song. It sound familiar, like it was classical song. Shinji tired remember the name, as it was at the top of his tongue.
"Wir betreten feuertrunken Himmlische, dein Heiligtum.", sings the doctor as stops humming as Shinji whispers the name of the song to himself.
"Ode to Joy."
The doctor turns to Shinji as Shinji recognize the words to the Beethoven's Ode to Joy.
"You recognize it?", says the doctor as he looks at Shinji.
"Umm… yes.", Shinji answers a little reluctant, "Not the words, but the timing or rhythm of it."
"I see.", says Dr. Kursunada as he quickly shut up as Adrian passes by and then leaves.
"Umm…", Shinji says, trying to ask a question before becoming quiet.
"What is it?", asks the doctor.
"Doesn't telekinesis means to control thing with your mind right?", asks Shinji is a curious tone.
"That right."
"Does moving things with your mind really exist?", asks Shinji as he couldn't believe such a thing exist.
"You mean you live in this world and never seen a video or picture of a metahuman using telekinesis?", questions Dr. Kursunada to Shinji.
"Metahuman? What that?", Shinji asks once again.
"It a term regarding humans who suppressed their current evolution. Basically a superhuman or a human with superpowers if it easier for you."
"Superpowers?", wonders a confused Shinji, "Such a thing exist?"
"Yes?", says the doctor as he looks at Shinji in a curious manner, "Are you telling me you never heard of people with weird abilities?"
"No, I don't think so.", Shinji says in a shy manner.
"Where did you live? Because by the look of your appearance, you look Japanese."
"I think I lived in Japan for most of my life.", says Shinji as he remembers the skyline of Tokyo-3, but pretty unsure.
"I see. It amazing for a young man at your age from Japan to speak perfect English.", comments an impressed Dr. Kursunada.
"Umm, thank you.", say an embarrassed Shinji before it hits him, "Wait, I've been specking perfect English!?"
It had just accorded to Shinji that he been specking perfect English this whole time! Shinji remembers knowing a few English, but this whole time, he been specking English as if he been specking it his whole life. For some reason, Shinji is starting to remember himself in a classroom with an old male teacher teaching class. Shinji can remember looking around in the classroom, seeing the whole entire class, except for about 5 faces, which are blurred out.
"I remembers that teacher and a couple of the students. I remember learning English from a classroom, but not to this extent.", thinks Shinji as he start to remember a couple of unimportant moments of his life.
It felt like some of his memories are being blocked out. Memories involving certain people. Shinji is aware that there was people important to him, but can't remember their names, shared memories, or even their faces. Shinji just stood silent as the carrier continues going north.
60 Miles Mid-Southwest from the Evacuation Carrier
"Just 2 more left!"
That is what Agent Donald Jefferson announces, when one of gunman manning the right turret, Agent Nate, menages to destroy a jet from a distance. However, the VTOL lost all power to it's shields and the left turret and missiles are gone. Agent Ramsey has been hit by the shrapnel of one of Hydra's missiles, fortunately, the damage is shallow.
The last 2 Hydra jets are firing their machine guns at the VTOL as they damage the top. It it became really hard to aim as the jets keeps attacking the left side from above. Without the missiles or the turret, the top left side is open.
"Damn.", Blake says in a frustrating tone, "We can't get them!"
"Those jets maneuver well. And the pilots are predicting we are trying to hit where their going. ", comments Agent Johnson.
"Yeah, we need to come up with something.", says Agent Aguirre as he perform first aid on Agent Ramsey, "I wish we'd brought a hoverflier with us or something! We need assistance!"
Blake closes his eyes as he tries to think of a plan. He opens them and looks around the inside of the VTOL. Opposite of Agent Ramsey, who on the floor injured, is the flight pack and sniper rifle he requested. Blake smirks as he thought of something reckless to do.
"I'll be back!", Blake says to everyone as he jumps out of the hanger of the VTOL.
Blake activates the flight pack, which is a jetpack with metal wings on it. Blake is holding the controller that controls the flight pack in his left hand as well as his sniper rifle is strap to the engine of the flight pack and holding his pulse rifle on his right.
Blake then attach him to the left side of the VTOL, as he sets his body armor to hold on to the metal on the VTOL. He waits until the jets once again come back to attack the left. Just as they were about to fire, Blake fires first and destroy a jet, forcing the last one to back away.
"Donald!", Blake calls out to his communicator, "Do you read me!?"
"That was reckless!", Donald yells worryingly, "What if they attacked first!?"
"They didn't! I did!", Blake counters, "More importantly, tell our pilot to go for the jet head to head."
"If we do that, we'll have less of a chance then attacking it from a distance. The front turret is running out of ammo as well-"
"Who said anything about using the turret?", says Blake with a smile and an idea.
The pilot of last Hydra jet just realized he is all alone now. His name is Johann Smith, a man who is disgruntled with the world. He thought that having the world under one rule would make it better, only for people to look down on him and rejects his ideals. He used to be a pilot for the air force of a certain nation in Europe, only to be discredited and blacklisted after a few choice of words. Knowing he had nowhere to go, he joined Hydra. Joining Hydra forces you to give your life for their cause and it's leader Baron Von Strucker is determined to make it happen. Johann knew that if he retreats to the base, he would die on the spot and no one can escape Von Strucker if they flee from Hydra.
"I have no choice then.", Johann says to himself as turn his plane around and goes after the VTOL.
To his surprise, the VTOL is coming straight at him. He wonders if this is because they are more confident since they took out 5 jets with a single VTOL. Ether way, he no longer has any allies to support him to attack the left. He still has a couple of missiles left, so a head to head fight is the only things he can do. He spots the VTOL staying still as it transform back into it's jet mode. Johann speeds towards the VTOL as it doing the same.
"Gotcha!", thought Johann as he is about to pull the trigger.
Before he could, the VTOL suddenly drops down as Johann took his eyes towards the descending VTOL. What he didn't see however, is Blake in the air, aiming with his sniper rifle at the head of Johann. Blake was using the VTOL as a cover and distraction, making his presence unknown to Johann with the cover as well a keeping Johann distracted when the VTOL descends.
"Lock on.", thought Blake with his aim on Johann, "And fire."
It was in an instant when the jet's window was pierce and a hole appears 2 centimeters above the right eye. What he used weren't normal bullets, but bullets augmented with a form of electromagnetic energy. Because he was one of SHIELD's best marksmen, he was given several types of bullets. It became clear when the jet starts to slowly fall down, that everybody realizes that Blake hit him.
"Damn, he really got him.", says Donald as the VTOL goes around to pick up Blake.
Evacuation Carrier
"Expanding A.T. Field."
"A.T. Field.", Shinji whispers to himself as he remembers the sound of young woman specking Japanese.
A couple of minutes passed since Shinji realized he been specking English and hearing English perfectly, even though he should, by all accounts, should only be able to speck the English he been taught at school. He been saying words, he never been taught about as well as understanding them from people's mouths.
He wonders if can puzzle them together. The memories of having to fight a monster and being inside a classroom.
"From fighting a monster to being taught in a classroom.", Shinji thought as he tries to put two and two together, "What kind of life did I have? A student fighting monsters. That sounds unbelievable. Besides, the only thing that can be a link is that A.T. Field."
Shinji thought of the barrier that surrounds him when he comes into trouble. Shinji looks at his right hand and tries to think of ways of bringing it out.
"This… this is the only thing I can do."
Shinji tries to imagine it fitting in the palm of his hand. A small A.T, Field. He tries to image the color, shape, everything he can remember about it. He starts to remember his last thoughts before that man shot at him, about not wanting to die. He didn't want to died that way. Died without knowing nothing. A part of him wished there was a wall between them. That wished came true, in the form of an invisible wall.
"An invisible wall.", Shinji repeats to himself, "Wish for an invisible wall. On the palm of my hand."
There was a glow on Shinji's hand. Before he knows it, a small A.T. Field appears on Shinji's right hand, fitting in the palm. A face of amazement and curiosity struck Shinji as he created an A.T. Field. Shinji then places his left hand on top of the A.T. Field, to his surprise, actually felt like an actual wall. He pushes his left hand against the A.T. Field, which results in nothing.
"So you were a meta."
"Wha-!"
The doctor caught Shinji by surprised, that Shinji stops his A.T. Field and almost alert Adrian to his shriek before Dr. Kursunada covers his mouth.
'Don't go making noises just because of you lack awareness.", Dr. Kursunada, some how making sounds like it's Shinji's fault, "You should work on it."
"Because you surprise me?", counters Shinji who hates how it sounds like it was his intention, "What about you? It pretty rude to surprise a person, you know."
"Do you want see?", Dr. Kursunada says to Shinji, "The other metahumans out there?"
"Huh?", wonders Shinji as he never said anything about superhumans.
"If we ever get out of this, I suggest you look for a specialist on powers. I suggest Dr. Richards, if SHIELD ever lets you go. It pains me to say, but he his probably the number one smartest man in this world."
Shinji sat there silently. It hits him. For the number of days he spent with SHIELD, he'd never seen what was outside it. The most time he spent outside is now, inside a carrier. A part of him wants see a glimpse, but another part, is afraid. He doesn't know what, but he is afraid of something once he goes outside.
"SH#T!"
The shout startles Shinji as he turns to the direction where the shout came from. It was from the abductor, Adrian Matthews, who has a frustrated scorn on his face. He was like a angry drunk, who lost his job, ready to take it out on the nearest person. He grabs his hair using the space between of his fingers before turning to the direction where Shinji is. He walks towards him as Shinji lowers his head, hoping to not be noticed by Adrian. To his luck, Adrian walks right pass him and grabs the coat of Dr. Kursunada and pulls him up.
"There been a change of plans.", says Adrian as he puts handcuffs on the doctor, "We'll be leaving this carrier."
Adrian drags the doctor to the back with him as he goes for a parachute there. In the meantime, Shinji just looks at them as he sees Dr. Kursunada with a nonchalant look on him. On the left corner of his eye he sees a man wearing cook wear looking at Adrian deadly like. Like a panther waiting for his pray. Adrian then drags Dr. Kursunada to the front of the hanger, but then he turns to to Shinji.
"I wonder if I should leave you here?", Adrian says to Shinji, but mostly asking himself, "I heard you were taken from inside a monster, but that is just rumors."
"Monster?", thought Shinji as he remembers the hallucination of the blue-haired girl getting eaten by something.
"You know, I was the one who was about to scan your mind for memories, but for the life of me, you were clean.", said Adrian with a bothered tone, "I couldn't find one memory, one of image of your past in you."
"Scanning… my mind?", wonders Shinji on what Adrian is saying, before realizing what Dr. Kursunada said before,"Is that what that doctor said about people with powers?"
"I'm tempted to bring you with me and let you see how Hydra views the world, but unfortunately, I one have parachute and I need this scientist here to come with me. Sorry, but it seems you going to die righ-"
That when the cook from before spring out of his seat, with a combat knife at hand. He charges straight at Adrian with his back turn. Just as he was about to lunge his knife at Adrian, he suddenly starts slowing down, and stops mid-running. He wears a shocked expression on his face, as Adrian just turns around and looks at him.
"Did you forget that I'm a psychic?", Adrian says to the cook, who mind is taken over by Adrian, who force the cook's body to stop, "I knew you brought a knife with you from the beginning just in case right? In case something like this happens."
Adrian then pull out his gun and places it on the cook's forehead as sweat appears on the cook's face.
"Sorry.", Adrian says as he lets go of the cook's mind, to avoid the feedback of what happens next.
"Sto-!", screams the cook as he raises his hands in surrender, before he was cut off from the sound of a gun.
The sound of the bullet firing as it enters the cook's head echos in Shinji's head. What he is watching is a person taking a life with his own eyes. Panic took over, causing to watch wide eye at the blood spray from the cook's head. The knife that was his hands ends being unintentionally fling to the seat to the right of Shinji, but Shinji's doesn't notice. As the body fallen to the floor, following that is a pool of blood being created.
Adrian then point his gun at the rest of the hostages as he talks Shinji while turning his back on him, "Sorry you have see that, but I didn't have a lot of choices. Actually, I could of use my powers to paralyze him, but who knows if he gets back up on will alone."
Shinji couldn't hear him. He was to busy looking at he motionless body of this cook, who was trying to stop their abductor. A body of a dead man is in front of him and all Shinji wants to do is throw up as he look at the remain of his head. But he couldn't. Because Shinji just realized something. Something that filled him with guilt. Something that made him realize, when his body was falling, that it was his fault he died.
"I could of… saved him."
He could of. Adrian has a pistol, Shinji has his A.T. Field. If Shinji could of made an A.T. Field expanding in front of his body, Adrian couldn't have done anything against him. This could have distracted him, while the other hostages took him down. Shinji could have saved the cook's life.
But he didn't.
"My fault.", thought Shinji as he lowers his head in guilt and shame, "I had power, but… I didn't do anything. Some one died and it's my fault. Why couldn't I do anything?"
"Because you are the worst."
Shinji looks up in surprise to see who talked to him. To his shock, he was no longer at the carrier, but rather nowhere at all. There was nothing here, nothing but white as far as the eye can see. Shinji is in a place with literally nothing.
"Where.. is it!?", Shinji says as his eyes shifted into a panicky look.
"It doesn't matter where you are.", said a voice from behind Shinji, "Just what you are."
Shinji turns around to see a silhouette of a figure in front of him. Shinji falls to the floor in in surprise as the silhouette stand above him.
"And what you are, is the worst person out there."
"Wha-what are you talking about?", asks Shinji as the silhouette smiles.
"I'm saying that you are a bad person. A brat. A coward."
"Coward?", repeats Shinji as he blinks him eyes in confusion.
"You could have saved that man, but you were afraid. Afraid that you might get hurt or get other people hurt. That what I expected of you."
"Because I didn't want… for people to get hurt?", repeats Shinji.
"Why else would you just sit there, when you could have stopped him with your own power? I think you also know why as well."
It hits Shinji that he may be right. The reason why he didn't do anything was because he didn't want anybody to get hurt. This silhouette… maybe right.
"I didn't…", Shinji pauses with the eyes of shame took over his face, "I didn't want other to be hurt by me."
"Yet someone did and he died."
Shinji finds himself back in the carrier again. Shinji looks around to see everything is back where he last left it. The abductor is looking for something in the front of the harrier while holding Dr. Kursunada, but Shinji tries to find out who was talking to him. The voice of the silhouette is different from Adrian's so Shinji guess it wasn't him. Shinji turns to his right see if anybody seems suspicious, but what he notice was something else. To the seat next to him, lies the knife belonging to the cook.
"That-!", Shinji thought as he sees the knife.
Shinji's hands began crawling towards the knife as they grab the hilt of the knife. It was a bit heavier then most, but still easily to hold. He brings it in front of him as his eyes turn to Adrian. He tights his grip and continues to look at Adrian, but, after a few moments, he drops the knife to his lap as he gives up on trying to kill Adrian.
"I…I can't. I can't do it.", Shinji thought to himself as he starts to shake, "I can't kill a person. It impossible! It impossible for me! I can't!"
"You mean, you don't want to."
Shinji finds himself back in nowhere again. The silhouette is there, but this time, it's looking at Shinji face to face.
"I don't want to.", says Shinji as his voice sounds like he is in pain, "That right, I don't want to hurt someone."
The silhouette just stood there, silent. After about 3 seconds, he looks at Shinji straight in the eyes and smiles.
"Now I understand now. The reason why you don't want to hurt others."
"What do you mean?", says Shinji as the silhouette chuckles a bit.
"The reason you don't want to hurt others, is because you don't want to be the reason they get hurt."
Shinji steps backwards away from the silhouette, eyes wide open as a shocked expression is on his face. He stood silent for moment before specking back to the silhouette.
"That not true!", yells Shinji, "I just don't want to hurt people! That is all!"
"Don't fool yourself. The real reason you didn't do anything is because your afraid that if you mess up, someone will get hurt and they will hate you."
The mouth of Shinji slowly opens as the silhouette continues giving damage.
"It easier to say you couldn't do anything rather then saying to messed up! That why you say that your afraid! Because to give an excuse then say it your fault. And you know that didn't you."
"That not true!", screams Shinji.
"But it is. You don't want anybody to hate you, so you don't do anything because you don't want make mistake of hurting someone and making them hate you."
"Please stop.", says Shinji in a soft tone.
"You don't want to hurt people for them. It only for yourself. So that they don't hurt you and hate you."
"Please stop. I'm begging you.", says Shinji as his tome becomes more desperate and fearful, "That not me."
"But it is. I was wrong. You are not a coward. Your just a selfish brat thinks of himself for his own sake. Every kind jester is only so that can people love you. Every non-action is to protect yourself. That why that chef died. That also the reason why you didn't try to stop EVA Unit 3. Because you didn't want Asuka to hate you for hurting her."
"Asuka?", Shinji says in a confused manner.
"You already forgot about a person important to you? You really are the worst."
"Just shut up!"
Shinji tries grab the silhouette, but it disappears before Shinji could grab him. Shinji looks around for it, but then Shinji notices something with his hands. They are filled with blood. The next thing that happens everything above Shinji turns into a sky while everything below is filled with bodies with a red ground. Shinji looks around him as sees the the bodies goes for miles, to the point where Shinji couldn't see the end.
"What is this?", Shinji asks as his voice starts to break some more.
"Your kill count.", says the silhouette which is behind Shinji, "This is the number of people you killed. The number of people who will hate you forever."
"This… this can't be my fault! It is not!", Shinji screams denying everything.
"But it is.", says the silhouette as Shinji collapses to his knees, broken, as the silhouette delivers the final blow.
"You don't deliver happiness."
His consciousness returns to the carrier, but he doesn't realize it. He just stood there shaking and sweating as his mind going crazy. Fingers trembling, mouth heaving, mind breaking. He couldn't take it. He just couldn't take it no more. All he wants to do… is scream.
"AAAA! AAAA! AAAA!"
The entire carrier looks at Shinji as he holds his head in his painful scream. To them, it felt like he suddenly gone crazy as his scream happen so sudden. Adrian looks at Shinji who distracted him from finding the key to opening the hanger door.
"Shut up kid!", yells Adrian as Shinji ignores him and continues screaming, "I said shut up!"
Adrian drops everything and walks towards Shinji, dropping Dr. Kursunada to the ground. As Adrian arrives, Shinji stops scream and starts panting harshly. His eyes are completely broken as Shinji sat in his seat motionless.
"You know what kid?", Adrian angrily said as he pulls Shinji up by his hair, "When a man with gun says stop, you-!"
Adrian couldn't finish his sentience as the sound of something entering a body engulfs his ears. He felt something painful in his chest and sees the hand of Shinji Ikari, holding a knife that entered Adrian's body. Adrian sees his blood pouring out in the hilt of the knife as he looks at Shinji.
"Y-you! S-son of a bitch!"
Shinji's eyes dead eyes look at the hilt of the blade as his hands are being stained with blood. Light returns to Shinji's eyes as a moment of realization appears on his face. Trauma took over as Shinji realizes what has he done.
Minutes Later, Near Peabody, Massachusetts
"There it is!"
The pilot of VTOL announces that they found the carrier landed on an open field. They receive word that the carrier send a signal to the Helicarrier on their location. The agents in the VTOL sees a number of people gather around the carrier as the VTOL lands near the carrier.
"Freeze!", orders Donald to the pilot of the carrier as the pilot responds.
"I'm not controlled no more!", announces the pilot, "Adrian doesn't control me no more. He is dead."
"What!?", Donald says in respond as the pilot points at the hanger of the carrier.
"He's in there. With another body, the doctor, and the guy who killed him."
Donald singles for three men to stay here, keeping an eye on the pilot and hostages as Blake looks at the crowd of 20 people, looking for Shinji. When he couldn't find him in the crowd, be goes up to the hanger and sees the aftermath. Lying on the floor are the bodies of Adrian and the cook. Blake goes up to the cook and recognize him.
"That's Mac.", thought Blake as he closes his eyes.
"Took you long enough."
Blake turns to see Dr. Kursunada, sitting down on a seat, with someone lying down on the floor.
"Shinji!", Blake yells as he walk up to him, "What happened!?"
"He merely fainted at the sight of what happened.", answers the doctor, "By he way, you didn't happen to bring water would you. He need to clean his hands of the blood."
"Blood?", questions Blake as he looks at Shinji's hand, covered in blood, "What happened to him!?"
"Your answer is over there.", Dr. Kursunada says pointing to the body of Adrian Matthews.
Donald walks up to the body which is laying on the side and moves his arms and sees the hilt of a combat knife on the chest, near the heart. Blake sees the hilt is stained with blood, realizing what took placed hear.
"Shinji.", Blake says softly as he looks at him.
"Director. It's me Agent Donald.", Donald says as he radios in the Helicarrier, "I got confirmation, Adrian Matthews is dead."
This chapter took me quite awhile during a busy two weeks. The next chapter would probably be the final chapter before a timeskip in which Shinji should be an agent by then. Just one more chapter for the setup arc, then the real action starts! Hoped you enjoy this so far and don't shy to give me your say in the reviews. There might a be three week wait for the next chapter due to wanting to work on teh next chapter and extra for my other story, Saiyan of Marvel, which is taking place in the same universe. Have a good week all of you!