It was nearing the anniversary of her dad's death and all Alex could think about was what Ryan said to her.

*Flashback to Quantico*

"Guess you needed some fresh air too. Still don't feel like talking."

"My father was a special agent."

"I had no idea."

"Neither did I. For most of my life I just knew him as two men, the father I loved, who made me feel safe and the biter drunk that scared me so much that one night ... All my life I told myself that the second man was the real one, that the other one was a lie or an act. God I was so wrong.

Alex broke down.

"What are you talking about."

"He was a hero Ryan, he saved hundreds of lives, he was one of the most decorated agents in his twenty years at the bureau ... My mother didn't shoot him, I did. I killed a hero."

"Come here, come here. Shh." All Ryan could do was be there for her and he was being the best thing that ever happened to her.

*End of Flashback*

Alex didn't want to miss him but she did, she missed her dad but she couldn't stop thinking about him. She always thought the man that made her feel safe was the real man but she knew in her mind that the drunk was the real man she just didn't want to accept it.

Alex sat in her office at the new command center trying not to think about her father, but she couldn't stop the thoughts that were running through her mind. The memories of her dad from when she was younger. She was so spaced out that she didn't even notice when Ryan walked in.

"Alex?"

"Alex? ALEX?"

"Hmm, yeah what's up."

"Are you okay you have seemed distracted all day and you can't focus. So what's going on?"

"Hmm nothing. It's nothing. There's nothing to worry about, I'm fine Ryan. I really am."

"Alex you don't have to lie to me. Please. What's going on."

"Ryan, I'm fine."

"I didn't ask you if you were fine I asked you what's going on."

"Fine you really want to know."

"Yes Alex you shouldn't have to keep this from me. You don't have to for that matter."

"Ryan, what you said to me at Quantico, I can't stop thinking about it."

"About what?"

"My father's death anniversary is Friday."

"Ok."

"I can't stop thinking about it. I killed a hero Ryan."

"Ale, your dad was not a hero. He was a drunk who hurt countless people you have to believe me you did the right thing. If you hadn't shot him it could be you in the ground. You did what you had to do to keep you and your mom safe."