...Do you guys even read these? It doesn't matter whether or not you do but sometimes I put important crap in these. I'm now going to try and update every two weeks, maybe even three weeks if I need time to write and type them up I don't know yet.
Warning: Ciel is... I believe out if character for a bit? (I might change that part, but if it's still in the story you'll know what I mean) There is high possibility of swearing, maybe some sad parts, possible fluff, and other characters might be out of character for one scene.
Ciel's point of view.
"So I guess this is goodbye," Aurora smiled as we stood at the entrance of the cave. "Do come back and visit us someday or in the future."
"Do take care of yourselves and each other," Kasai said with a gentle smile on his face. "And remember, those necklaces I gave you shows how strong your bond is, even if you two are separated you are still connected."
"I'll keep that in mind," I said.
"Thank you for your help," Kagome smiled, bowing slightly.
"Glad to be of assistance," Aurora bowed slightly at Kagome.
"Go back the the village and rest there for the night, it would the wisest choice to leave in the morning," Kasai stated.
"Thank you for your advice," Sebastian bowed at him.
"Let's get going, it'll be nigh soon," Inuyasha said leaving the cave, gesturing towards the slowly setting sun and the orange hue in the sky.
"Good bye," Sango said as we followed Inuyasha out of the cave. Soon we reached the village as the sky began to darken, we were lucky enough that the village elder gave us a place to stay for another night. And soon, it was dark while the moon slowly rose up high in the sky as the stars began to fill the sky completely.
"Bocchan," I heard Sebastian whisper in my ear from behind, causing a shiver to go up my spine. "Is there a reason you are standing out here alone instead of inside with the others?"
"I don't need to justify my action," I said a little too harshly as I moved away him and walked away from the hut towards a large nearby tree in the grass.
As I neared the tree, I subconsciously guided my hand up to grip my upper arm where Sebastian had cut me in the dream. I sighed out loud, for some reason I couldn't shake this random feeling I was currently having it's getting quite annoying. It's strange to me because it feels like something bad is about to happen though I have no idea what or why, or even why I'm feeling that way. Soon, my mind began to wonder to the dress I had in the water, I tightly clenched my fist that was around my arm.
It angered me so much when he said those things to me, I can't believe I let it affect me to the point my heart ached painfully. It's frustrating to think he could actually feel that way towards me but, it's not impossible for him to feel that way. The way I treated him before everything happened was so horrible, there's no doubt he would hate me now. Why am I such a useless brat!? I'm letting these bloody feelings get to me over something I know was a dream, but still I can't block the feelings out. What even am I to him? Am I just some worthless child!?
"Heh," I snickered angrily at myself. "I guess I am just a worthless child," I mumbled. I let my hand fall to my side as I looked up at the night sky before shaking my head, sighing. Soon, I was filled with an overwhelming feeling of dread, but it was like I could feel that something is about to occur though I don't know what. "What's wrong with me?" I said softly to myself. "Tsk, why am I so pathetic, letting these tedious emotions get to me."
"That is the result of you once being human," I flinched slightly when I heard his voice but I soon relaxed as I felt his arms wrap around me as he embraced me from behind. "You are not a worthless child nor are you pathetic, you are so much more than that. Not only are you my master, but you are everything I could ever imagine and ever need," He whispered softly in my ear. "Right now you are technically the "mother" of my child," I blushed as I felt Sebastian's hand begin to gently rub my stomach. "And you are the only one I love," Sebastian let go of me, turning me around as he got down on one knee, looking at me in the eyes while his right hand cupped my cheek and the other on my upper arm. "I'm concerned about you, Ciel," Sebastian said while I rested my hands on top of his shoulders as my expression softened. "Won't you tell me what's wrong?"
"I-I..." I frown after hearing how I stuttered, I hate being seen weak but if it's only Sebastian who sees me like this, is it alright? "I... Damn it," I grimaced in frustration as I lowered my head so my bangs covered my eyes. "Something's wrong," I finally said.
"Like what, Ciel?"
"I don't know," I snapped as I moved away from him, turning my back to him. "I just feel like something horrible will occur soon and no matter how hard I try I can't ignore the feeling. On top of that when I search for a reason why my mind starts to wander to that damn dream I had in the water," I stared at the ground, clenching my fists at my sides as I noticed my body's slight tremor. "I know it's just a bloody dream, but dreams aren't supposed to feel that real and it's different if it was a memory I'm forced to relive. Trivial things like these I know I shouldn't waste my time worrying about, but it left me to doubt some things I thought I knew and it's irritating!"
"Bocchan, I know this will be hard for you but could you explain to me what Lord Kasai have you dream?" I shook my head. "Ciel, I wish to help you," He said, walking up to me and placing his hand on my shoulder.
"I don't need your damn sympathy," I said harshly, slapped his hand off my shoulder.
"But mast-"
"Sebastian, just leave it."
"Boccha-"
"I said to just leave it."
"Ciel," Sebastian said, his voice lowering slightly while he turned serious.
"Sebastian!" I yelled angrily, turning towards him. "I said sto-mmph!" I was cut off as Sebastian's lips collided with mine in a rough and possessive manner before I pushed him away, breaking the kiss. "Stop it-" Sebastian placed his lips back on mine again to silence me, his hand on the back of my neck and an arm around my waist kept me in place. I moved my hands up to his chest, lightly gripping the material of his kimono as I started to return the kiss but it was short lived. Sebastian pulled away leaving me panting as he began to hug me tightly while I tried to calm down.
"I request that you stop shutting me out and that you stop distancing yourself from me," Sebastian said. "If there's anything bothering you, come talk to me but don't shut everything out as you close yourself off from everyone who is trying to help you," I buried my face in his chest, he had a point. "I apologize for my sudden behavior," Sebastian said as he moved away from me, bowing. "When you are finished, Bocchan, please come back inside," With that, he turned around and started to walk back to the hut.
"Damn," I mumbled, clenching my fists as I started at the ground for a moment before looking up at Sebastian, fahk my pride. "Wait!" I said loud, running towards him. As soon as I was arms length away from him, I sort of tackled him in a hug from behind.
"Bocchan?" Sebastian looked back at me, smiling softly.
"It was just like the ones I had before about the manor burning down," I buried my face into his back, trying to hide my deep blush in embarrassment. "But this time when I reached my parents room, you were standing there covered in their blood while you stood over their dead bodies. You looked at me with this murderous gleam in your eyes before you slowly moved towards me. It wasn't long after that the scene changed and we were in this meadow."
"Ciel," He said softly, placing his hand on top of mine and squeezed it slightly as a way to tell me he understands.
"You were standing in the distance before drawing your sword and attacking me," I took a deep breath before continuing. "I was confused at first why you were doing that, but it was clear by your intentions you sought out to kill me. When you finally spoke, nothing but cruel words came out and though it was easy at first to ignore all if it, it then became increasingly hard to. It got to the point where your words hurt and not long after that you killed me," Without my knowledge, I had begun to shake slightly. "Damn it, why am I so weak!? Letting this get to me so much."
"Ciel, you will never be weak," Sebastian said as he turned around and hugged me tightly while I wrapped my arms around his neck. "You haven't experienced such emotions in a long time and for having such a nightmare that had brought up unwanted memories and created false scenarios will cause these emotions to appear once more. It is only natural for you to experience and feel this way, and in all honesty Bocchan, you are not the only one troubled by what happened."
"What do you mean?" I asked, looking at him.
"The one I had wasn't much different from yours, just a bit more gore and a different scenario about how it all happened," I laughed coldly.
"I guess we're both upset about the dream we had."
"That I can't deny," He chuckled. "Though I must say, even if you had ordered me to," Sebastian moved a part of my bangs out of my face. "I don't think I could ever bring myself to kill you let alone hurt you, you are far too precious to me and I would give my own life to save yours so you'll survive."
"I won't let you," I said softly yet sternly as I tightened my grip around his neck while I placed my head down on his shoulder.
"I am sorry, but I do believe you do not have a choice," My eyes widened in shock while my head shot up to look at him. "It is my duty as your butler to keep you alive, but as the demon that loves you deeply," Sebastian gently grabbed my chin, leaning down so we were only a breath apart. "I would rather parish in this world protecting you than have to lose the one person I could ever love," He placed his lips on mine. "That would be a fate worse than death, I don't know whether or not I could live with myself knowing I let you die," He whispered against my lips.
"Well then, it's best if I don't die," I smirked. "But if I do end up dying, I'm taking you down with me."
"Now that's my master," Sebastian smirked. "Shall we head back?"He said as we finally separated after awhile of just standing under the tree.
"I guess that would be a wise decision," I sighed, removing my arms from around his neck, Sebastian still had his arm around my waist tightly as we walked back to the hut.
Sorry this is sooooo late, school is terrible and this chapter seems terrible to me. Please review if you want more and/or what you think will happen next.