Chapter 1

It's Monday and she has yet to get out of bed. Usually she would have been up an hour ago to hop on the elliptical and get ready before school. She just can't get herself to care enough to do so. Eventually she drags herself out of bed with just enough time to get dressed and get to school. She tells herself that she's not going to do that today. That it's wrong. No matter how much she wants to. Having scars covering her body will not help her get on Broadway.

She's long since gotten rid of her skirts and dresses, trading them in for jeans or sweatpants and t-shirts. Once she's showered and dressed she heads to McKinley in hopes that her day won't be too bad.

She takes the long way to school secretly hoping that by the time she gets there the halls will be mostly empty. She doesn't want to see people. She doesn't want to have to speak to anyone though she's not too worried. Everyone usually pretends she doesn't exist especially since she hasn't been her normal talkative self for close to a month now. She's still in glee even though she doesn't know why. She hasn't sung in a month. She's just been mouthing the words and she wonders how nobody seems to notice.

'Maybe they just don't care,' she thinks as she walks to homeroom, 'they've made it perfectly clear that I annoy them and am an inconvenience.'

She decides then and there that she's going to quit glee.

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She stumbles through her classes. Not really paying attention to what's happening around her. Her back hurts from the amount of books she's carrying. She wishes she could go to her locker but whenever she does she's either hit with a slushie or someone from glee tries to talk to her. Finn has been particularly persistent with trying to get her to talk to him lately. He doesn't seem to understand that she doesn't want to be anywhere near him but then again he's not the brightest light bulb in the box.

Maybe the people in this school weren't all that smart anyway. Nobody had noticed the way she had withdrawn from everyone and everything, nor the change of clothing style, or the fact that she doesn't speak or sing unless she has to, or the all around lackluster attitude she's adopted. It boggles her mind that nobody noticed.

Especially glee club, they were, after all, supposed to be a family.

Well that's not entirely true. Kurt did notice that she finally got rid of the skirts and reindeer sweater she had. When she wore jeans for the first time he all but lost his mind. Staring at her with his mouth wide open. When he tried to speak he just kept closing and opening his mouth like a fish until he stated with a flourish that he was "glad that she'd finally let some of his genius fashion advice sink into her tiny mind." She would have thought it was funny if it weren't for the fact that she just hurt too much to really notice anything.

The whole time she's thinking about the lack of brains located in this tiny town she's trapped in she doesn't notice someone watching her. Though this person may not be the smartest with school or facts she does know people and what she sees makes her pause.

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Before she even knows it it's time for glee. She's relieved the day is over and can't wait to get home. She's just going to announce that she's quitting and immediately leave. As she's walking to the choir room she wonders what their reactions will be. She's sure they'll be happy; although only after they get over their anger that they'll have to find a new member to be able to compete.

Finn and Brittany will probably be confused and not understand as usual.

Quinn and Santana will probably be ecstatic that they won't have to deal with her outside of their regular classes anymore.

Mercedes and Kurt will be happy that they won't have to fight for solos anymore. Even though she has been passing them off for everyone else for a while now.

Mike, Sam, Noah, and Rory won't really care one way or the other since they don't have to fight her for solos nor do they generally interact with her at all anyway.

Tina and Artie will start to hope that they might actually get to have some input with song selections and choreography.

Mr. Schue will probably tell her to stop being childish and be a team player. Obviously he won't understand and be angry with her for trying to sabotage the team just cause he hasn't given her any solos lately. He won't even realize that she couldn't give a shit less.

They'll all be angry, she knows, but they'll be happier in the end when they don't have to put up with her. She knows this is for the best. She can't give the club her best…well anything really…so it's best that she leaves. Kurt, Mercedes, Tina, Santana, and Quinn can have the solos without having to fight for them. Mr. Schue is the only one that might need some help since she's been coming up with the song and dance choices for the competitions. That's probably why he'll be angriest. He's been stealing her ideas for awhile now. If it weren't for her they would probably still being doing Journey and other outdated songs that Mr. Schue loves.

She knows they'll be angry but she knows it'll be better for them. Right now she's dead weight and just hurting them. Though what she's about to do will probably hurt her as well. She loves glee club, she does, but she can't bring herself to sing. So she's useless and that realization hurts her. The anger she knows that she's about to create and they are about to thrust upon her will hurt too but it's a mere thorn in her side compared to the rest of the pain she's in.

Without even realizing it she's come to stand in front of the choir room door. She can see everyone inside. They're all goofing around and singing. Sounds like a Katy Perry song from out here. They look so happy that for a moment she hates them. Hates that they haven't noticed how unhappy she is or how she doesn't participate or how she's not even in there. She used to be the first person there but now she's always the last. She accepts that they don't seem to care about her but that doesn't mean that she doesn't care about them.

She sighs. There really isn't any point in hating them. She shouldn't have expected so much out of them. Sure they rally around everyone else but she knows they think she's a freak just as much as the rest of this school so why would they rally around her.

She takes a deep breath to calm herself down before stepping into the choir room. She takes a seat in the back and quietly waits for Mr. Schue to come in so she can get this over with.