Camicazi tried to find some strength inside her to fight her brother and the other Viking boys who man-handled her onto and off the boat but her father had not held back when he had whipped her. The pain was not easing. She had been hit many times before but it never got easier, each new hit reopened old wounds and tore new ones in her pale flesh. She wished she could call them battle scars but these were the scars of her childhood, of her very existence. But since Sparky they had become the scars that signified her bond and her love for the dragon. Her scars were her badge of honour. She could hear the boys laughing at her, enjoying watching her look so helpless. If she could have found the strength she'd had beaten them all the way to Valhalla.
"Devri, wipe clean those gashes and give her the fresh shirt. If they see those they may wonder where they came from." Vott drawled lazily, throwing a wet rag and shirt to his best friend. Devri grinned nastily; he was twice Camicazi's size, incredibly stupid and incredibly vile. She was only thirteen but he was already eyeing her with hungry eyes. He leaned forwards excitedly and she summoned the little strength she had and twisted his arm around before punching him in the nose and snatching the shirt and rag from him.
"Don't ever try and touch me again." She spat pulling the fresh shirt over her old one and covering her bloody wounds. "Just get me to the forest and then get out of here." She hissed at Vott through gritted teeth. She would not let them see her cry because of the gashes on her back. No one ever saw her cry, they never would. With a jolt of discomfort she remembered that she had broken down and cried in front of Hiccup not that long ago. How could she face him now? But she had to somehow. She had to kill him, now she knew she had no choice. Sparky's life depended upon it. She may not truly want to do it anymore, but she would not risk Sparky. He was literally all she had.
"Ahh!" She yelled as Devri threw her over his shoulder and the boys dragged her through the forest and dumped her at the edge of the village before running away again. She fell on her back, the rough ground catching her fresh whip marks and causing her to yelp in pain. She crawled into the shadows, seeking shelter anywhere that might be empty. Breathing heavily she heaved herself to her feet and began the long walk to the academy.
She finally arrived and collapsed against a wall and sobbed. The pain on her back was excruciating but it was nothing compared to the battle in her heart. Her fear for Sparky becoming her only thought and feeling, heightening the pain and dulling her other senses. She sobbed for a long time, trying to find something in her memories to soothe her, but she found nothing. Everything she remembered just caused her more pain. She whispered tearfully words she barely knew, trying to calm herself as they calmed Sparky, but she failed. The words were just empty echoes of a life she had never had, and never would have. She cried more and prayed to Thor asking that he protect Sparky from harm. She cared not what happened to her, only that he was safe. But she knew unless she killed Hiccup and bought turmoil to Berk Sparky would not be safe, so she asked Magni to give her the strength to do what she must. She had to protect Sparky the only way she could.
She stayed there for a while, just crying and praying when eventually a dragon crept out of the dark and into the academy. She recognised its sleek build, and cried more.
"Toothless." She sobbed and he walked over to her, the sky was now as black as his scales. He must have snuck away she decided for Hiccup was nowhere to be seen. Toothless padded over to her softly and nuzzled her face as if trying to wipe away her tears, his pink tongue poked out and he gently licked her face free of tears.
"Toothless don't. Please, I don't deserve your affection..." She whimpered but the dragon would not listen, he nudged her forwards so she had to stand up to stop him from making her face plant the floor. It appeared though this was exactly what Toothless had wanted though; he stepped up and jerked his head, telling her to climb onto his back. She shook her head. She would not go back, not yet, and not on his dragon. Not when she had to kill him. Toothless then proceeded to dive down and take out her legs, causing her to fall onto his back. Without waiting for her to steady herself he darted out of the arena and began to head back to the main body of the village. Camicazi clung onto him and cried more. She hated herself right at this moment. She came here with cold-blooded revenge on her mind, and hate and murder in her heart. She had come ready and willing, almost excited to kill Hiccup and watch Berk burn. Now, now she'd have given almost anything to not have that hanging over her. But the only thing she would not give was Sparky, and tragically, that was exactly what she would have to give if she didn't want to kill Hiccup.
Toothless let out a sympathetic rumble which she felt go right through her, though she knew he meant it as comfort and affection it just hurt her heart more. She didn't really want to kill Hiccup anymore, he had shown her kindness. And she could see that he loved his family, and they loved him. She didn't want to destroy that, she remembered him saying to Astrid that he wouldn't let anyone tear their family apart again, and yet he had welcomed her with open arms when she was planning on doing exactly that. She had seen how much he loved the dragons, how much he loved Toothless and how much Toothless loved him. She hated to do anything to wreck that, the bond between dragon and rider was a wonderful bond and she did not want to break it between anyone. But she loved Sparky and could not and would not risk him for anything. She would do whatever it took to keep him safe.
Toothless settled down outside of Hiccup's house and called loudly. Hiccup came running out a moment later.
"Toothless! Bud are you ok? What's the problem?" He stopped as he came within a metre of Toothless and Camicazi. Emotionally drained and physically in pain Camicazi could not summon the strength to dismount gracefully and stand, nor to run and hide. She just slid and fell off of Toothless' back and collapsed in a heap on the ground.
"Camicazi!" She heard him yell, she saw both the prosthetic foot and the normal one run towards her and the shadow of Hiccup dropping to his knees beside her before she passed out.