I had never slept so deeply, Morgana's presence by my side gave me comfort and serenity. Sometime in the middle of the night she had rolled into my side seeking warmth, I was slightly embarrassed, it was a rather intimate position when we hadn't talked or sorted anything out, however I didn't push her away, I pulled her closer and buried my head in the hair I loved so much. Her face had lost its gaunt look and some colour had come back into her porcelain cheeks, I smiled she was perfect like this. Like this I didn't have to deal with the fury which I'm sure would come my way soon.

I tried not to think about how perfect her body felt curled into mine, though it was hard not to. She was soft and smooth in all the right places which made my blood rush. I pushed those thoughts away, it was wrong to think of her like that now, when we had so much to talk about still.

Morning light began to spill into her chambers and onto the bed making her skin glow in the morning light. I looked around her chambers and smiled in fond memory, I remembered the time when I had first met her and she thought I was Gwen. I remembered when we had hid the druid boy Mordred and her connection with him. That still worried me, part of her had had some motherly instinct for him and destiny said a strong alliance would form between the pair that would eventually bring about Arthur's death. I wouldn't let that happen, no matter how bound to her I was.

I felt her shift in sleep and turned to look at her, she would be waking up soon and I mentally began to prepare myself for all the questions she was bound to have. However she shifted again and a soft moan of pain came from her, she twisted away from me and I sat up to study her. Her face which had been peaceful was twisted into a frown of pain, sweat began to form on her brow and I jumped up to fetch a cloth.

'Gaius!'I used mind speech to call my mentor for help.

Something was wrong, a strangled groan escaped her and her hands clenched the bed sheets. Gaius hadn't replied, I knew he didn't have the power to anymore but I knew he would have heard and would be on his way. I walked back over to her and ran the cloth over her brow, she shouldn't be having any more pain, I was here next to her, I gripped her hand with mine hoping to soothe her but it didn't help it was like she didn't know I was there.

She started screaming and I cursed the guards and Arthur, they probably thought I was killing her, as if in on queue Arthur and Gaius and the rest of the round table burst into the room and my protective instinct blurred into life. My eyes flashed gold and a shield came up.

'Merlin what the hell is going on?' Arthur asked his face looking at Morgana's stricken face.

'Keep away from her,' I said my golden eyes warning them.

'Merlin,' Gaius said steeping forward towards my shield 'She's having a nightmare, a vision like she used to, I've seen them before, just call her out of it.'

'I tried,' I said pitifully staring at her pain filled face needing to help her. I turned back towards her and joined her on the bed.

I brushed her hair out of her face as she began to convulse, I gripped her shoulders and shook her lightly.

'Morgana,' I called 'You're having a nightmare my love, it's okay I'm here,' she gave no sign of hearing me and her shaking got worse. I turned to Gaius in despair.

'What do I do?' I asked panic gripping my voice.

'She'll come out of it on her own eventually Merlin as soon as the vision clears.' Gaius said.

'Why am I not getting her vision though, like before, she shouldn't be going through this?' I said

'She was obviously feeling a lot better in your company Merlin,' Gaius said.

My shield was still up and glowing faintly and I glared at the others as they stared at Morgana in confusion and fear. They shouldn't be here; this was a private part of her magic that they shouldn't be witnessing. Her visions were intensely personal and her own, no one but Gaius and myself should be here and their staring was getting on my nerves. My shield crackled in response.

'Get out!' I said to them.

'Merlin, mate maybe you shouldn't be near her when she's like this,' Gwaine said.

'You have no idea what seeing the future is like, it is heart breaking and intensely frustrating, they are very personal to her and I know what it's like, so everyone but Gaius get out now!'

'Merlin, you don't know what she saw, it might be useful,' Arthur said, and my anger flared.

'So she's just a tool for you to use, you don't trust her yet if her magic can do something useful you'll be happy to exploit her,' I thundered at him, my shield was crackling now.

'Merlin she's…'

'GET OUT!' and with that my shield expanded and grasped him and the others and threw them out the room I wasn't even bothered to see if they were okay I turned back to Morgana, and I saw her green eyes staring at me.

'Morgana,' I whispered and made to go toward her but she backed away up to the head board of the bed afraid. I turned to Gaius instead.

He walked forwards and she allowed him near her, 'I'm just checking you're okay my dear; that was a pretty bad vision.'

He proceeded to check her over however she never took her eyes away from me, they were cold and distant and I got nothing from them, which was exceedingly frustrating.

'Let me know if I can get you anything,' Gaius said and Morgana turned her eyes to him.

'Why are you being so nice to me?' she asked, I thrilled to hear her voice, it was the first time since last night and I was pleased to notice it wasn't mocking or sarcastic she seemed genuinely confused.

'I'm sure Merlin will explain everything to you my dear,' he patted her head in a fatherly manner then gripped my shoulder nodded at me then made his way out the door.

'What did you do?' She asked not moving from her place at the top of the bed.

'What do you mean?' I asked my voice hoarse every instinct was screaming at me to hold her comfort her and protect her from the world.

'You hurt Arthur,' she said her eyes searching mine.

'Oh,' I said and lowered mine in shame 'Yes I suppose I did, you were having a vision, they shouldn't have been here and they were staring at you and he said he wanted to know what you saw, I got mad.'

'You got mad at Arthur?' Morgana said incredulously and I smiled at her teasing tone.

'It wouldn't be the first time I promise you,' I said. I took a step forward but her eyes flashed in warning.

'I won't hurt you Morgana,' I said.

'Is that what you told my sister before you killed her,' I flinched in response.

'She was trying to destroy Camelot and everything I hold dear, I couldn't let that happen,' I said.

'We were doing it for you!' she thundered and I stared at her in confusion 'for all of our kind, he wants to persecute us and yet you protect him, you're a traitor to your kind Merlin,' She said.

'No!' I said angry now 'You're the traitor Morgana, you betrayed our kind when you made your pact with Morgause.'

'Don't talk about her!' She screamed standing up and off the bed now 'You have no right!'

'I didn't know your sister Morgana but she tried to destroy everything I held dear, I'm sorry but it had to be done,' I said.

'Like you had to get rid of me!' she screamed then in a much smaller voice 'you poisoned me Merlin, I was you're friend.'

'I didn't want to,' I said and tears began to trickling down my cheek, I needed her forgiveness for this because deep down I knew I had done wrong and I would only ever admit it to her.

'You were the source of the magic that was making us fall asleep, I was told you had to be killed,' I said sinking to my knees hoping her superior position would make her see how sorry I was.

'I still loved you all then Merlin, I was confused and I so wanted to be accepted, you should have told me, I would have told Morgause to stop,' Morgana said her calm voice was killing me as I realised the extent at what I had done, it was my fault she had turned, it was my fault we lost her.

'I know and I'm sorry but I thought it was the only chance, I didn't want to lose my destiny,' I said.

'Your destiny?' Morgana asked confused.

'Did Morgause teach you anything about the druid prophecies?' I asked.

'No, my education was purely magic 101, nothing extensive just what I needed to survive,' She said.

'Then why did you react with fear when I told you I was Emrys?' I asked and watched as she flinched at the name.

'When I summoned the Doracha, the Callieach told me that Emrys would be my doom,' she said her eyes lowered now.

'I see,' I said remembering the woman that had caused me to faint in the celebrations.

'Are you my doom Merlin?' she asked staring at me with piercing eyes.

'Not anymore I'm not,' I said vaguely but she seemed to know what I was talking about.

'What have you done to me?' she asked anger in her voice now 'I'm feeling things for you I never have before and it's scaring me, you have no right to control me like this and I demand you set me free,' she said.

'Morgana I can't do that,' I said.

'You will,' She said hatred coursing through her voice now.

'I can't because I'm feeling what you're feeling too Morgana, I haven't cast any spell,' I looked into her eyes and then proceeded to tell her everything about Magic Mates that I had learnt.

'So were bonded to each other forever?' she asked.

'From what I gather,' I said.

'But that's not fair, why would my magic do that to me?' she asked.

'Because like mine it wants peace, we both want magic back in this kingdom we both want to be free, but our different ways of achieving this have just caused the phenomenon to happen,' I said.

'There's no way to break it?' she asked.

'No, but if there was, would you really want to?' I asked her staring into her eyes now, they stared back, she was confused and feeling helpless I could see that.

'I don't know, we didn't exactly choose this Merlin,' she said and sat on the bed again her back to me, I moved to join her pleased when she didn't move away.

'Maybe we did,' I said

'What do you mean?' She asked staring at me, I noticed her body had shifted towards mine and mine towards her. We were like magnets and would be forever drawn to each other; it would be both a blessing and a curse. Most people dreamed of finding love but ours would never be normal, it would be intense and strong for the rest of our lives and I didn't think anyone would know how to react to a relationship as powerful as ours.

'We were always drawn to each other Morgana, even before all this remember,' I said recalling all the times we had helped each other or been caught staring. She smiled in response.

'Yes, I remember but that was just innocent attraction nothing like this Merlin,' Morgana said her lovely pale cheeks stained pink by her blush.

'Maybe if circumstances had been right it would have grown,' I told her.

'Yes, but never into this, this isn't normal Merlin,' She said staring at me now.

'I agree it's not but it is the hand fate has dealt us, I suppose anything has to beat fighting and violence,' I said then flinched as anger coursed through her again and she shifted away from me.

'This doesn't solve everything Merlin, I still hate everything about this place, and I hate Arthur and so help me I want to hate you too,' Morgana said.

'I know, it's going to take a lot of time, and I know how you're feeling,' I said.

'No you don't,' Morgana said spitefully.

'You think I don't I know how it feels to have to hide a part of yourself, I know how it feels to long for freedom and power, I know the power of corruption and the want to show the world exactly who you are and what you can be, but killing people isn't the answer, it makes you just as bad as Uther,' I said.

Her eyes flashed in response to that name 'I lost someone Merlin.'

'So have I Morgana, I've been doing this a lot longer than you, I lost my best friend, I lost a girl I loved, I lost my father, and then I lost you, so don't talk to me about losing someone Morgana,' she stared at me.

'You're father?' she asked never having heard Merlin mention his father before. She was surprised he was being so forthcoming with her.

'Yes, he was a dragon lord Uther hunted and tore away from my mother. He died and gave his power to me, I sent the dragon away, so don't say I don't know what it's like, I hated Uther too, but not at the extent that I want to kill everyone associated with him.'

'I heard about the dragon escaping, but I was with Morgause at the time,' Morgana said ignoring the part I had said about Uther, 'you killed it?'

'No he is a dear friend and my kin, he has guided me through all my time here in Camelot, the only thing I hold against him is his hatred for you…he told me to kill you,' I said.

'And you did as you were told like a good dog,' Morgana said sarcastically her eyes flashing.

'I did what destiny intended for me to do,' I said in response 'it was wrong and I regret it, but Kilgharrah was just telling me to do what destiny wanted me to do,' I said.

'You can't let destiny run your life Merlin, it will destroy you,' Morgana said.

'But it was running yours too Morgana, until we became Magic Mates you were destined to become my greatest foe and you were doing brilliant at becoming it,' I said.

She paused for the longest time and then turned away from me and moved toward the window to stare outside knowing that I had won.

'You loved a girl?' she asked jealously picking up on something else I had said.

'Loved…' I paused considering 'I suppose I did, but it wasn't a deep love, I merely felt sorry for her and wanted to help her, she was kind and good and magical and didn't deserve her fate.'

'I see,' she said

'It's nothing to what I feel now,' I said.

'Yes, but this isn't normal is it,' she said then sighed 'I don't like anyone telling me what to do Merlin, I want to be free and this connection between us is stopping that,' I felt a sting of rejection against me, I couldn't lose her.

'I would never imprison you at my side Morgana,' I said.

'Well I have no choice, I can't do what I want to do because, if I leave you I'll die along with you too,' she said then turned back to stare at me.

'Then what is it you want to do Morgana?' I asked her, I couldn't stop my eyes from looking down her body taking in her curves and the way the nightdress clung to her skin. She was very beautiful and she was mine.

'I want to burn this place to the ground for me and every one of my kind,' she said with venom.

'Again that would make you Uther's daughter through and through,' I said I almost laughed as I watched her stamp her foot in frustration.

'What else can I do?'

'You can trust in me and Arthur, he will bring magic back to this kingdom, it his destiny,' I said.

'You said our destiny was to be enemies, but that seems to have changed,' she pointed out.

'I trust Arthur, he is the once and future king who will unite the lands of Albion and bring peace and acceptance and I am Emrys who will guide and save him no matter the cost,' I said.

I watched as she stared at me in awe 'I never would have thought it was you Merlin.'

'Why? Do I not look the part,' I asked smiling.

'No you do, you look very magical with your high cheekbones and eyes I could lose myself in, and you're very ethereal looking Merlin. You ooze power, it's just you have such a kind nature, you're a lover Merlin, I couldn't see you killing' She said. I was flattered that she looked upon me that way, I was pleased she liked me just the same as I did her.

'I will do anything for Arthur and now I will do anything for you, but until Arthur's destiny is complete he will always come first even if that means killing anyone in his way.'

'I don't know what to think.'

'Well, we have all the time in the world, stay and get to know me maybe then you won't be so against this connection between us,' I said.

'Are you not against it?' She asked.

'In a way I suppose, but I can't be mad at fate giving me the most beautiful girl in the world can I?' I said and winked at her, I smiled as she blushed.

'You think I'm beautiful?' she asked, and I almost laughed, had she not looked in a mirror.

'Stubborn, and annoying at times but almost too beautiful to look at' I said and walked towards her and brushed a piece of hair out of her eyes. Touching her made my body and magic scream in delight and I longed to do more, but I knew we weren't ready.

'You're not too bad yourself you know,' she said blushing, I almost scoffed in response, I suppose neither of us saw ourselves very clearly I smiled at the similarity between us.

I took her hand and led her back to the bed to sit down I saw her eyes flash and I winked at her.

'I don't think either of us is ready for that,' I said and laughed as she blushed again.

'I'm not sure about this Merlin, I'm still mad and I still want revenge for Morgause but I suppose I can't do anything, you're infinitely stronger than me and I can't exactly go anywhere…I suppose I'll just see what time will do,' Morgana said.

'That sounds like a plan to me,' I said 'Now do you want to tell me what you saw,' I watched as she tensed up in response, clearly it had been bad. I gripped her hand and rubbed comforting circles over it.

'A battle, you and Arthur in the midst, a man was hooded and cloaked, clearly powerful he walked towards the both of you and you told Arthur to run but he didn't hear you, he threw powerful magic at you and you blocked it for a while but he won, you were hurt and fell to the floor, and then he turned to Arthur, then I woke up,' She said.

'What about you?' I asked, where did she feature in this battle was she against us or fighting with us.

'I don't know, I didn't see myself,' she said

'Well is it far in the future?' I asked.

'Well it must be, you were using magic in front of Arthur, but from what I saw this morning he doesn't seem to like it much,' she laughed.

'No, but he's not killed me for it…it gives me hope that someday he'll come around,' I said.

'And if he doesn't?' she said and I could see the warning in her eyes, she would give Arthur time but I knew she wouldn't wait long before she took matters into her own hands.

'I don't know,' I said.

'I won't wait forever for my freedom Merlin,' she said.

'No and neither will I,' I said taking her hand again.

'So what do you want to do?' Morgana said and I raised my eyebrows in response and laughed as she blushed again.

'Well, I suppose you don't have a teacher anymore, what do you say to learning about magic, getting some history, and maybe learning some tricks,' I said.

'You'd teach me?' she asked bewildered.

'Of course why wouldn't I?' I asked stroking her cheek.

'Aren't you worried I'll use it against you?' she asked and I laughed in response.

'As you said Morgana, your magic is powerful but I know your talent lies in healing and seeing the future, you can't beat me,' I said confidently

'Is that challenge?' she asked smirking and I smiled as I got my first glimpse of the confident sweet girl, I once knew, and suddenly I knew I would do anything to keep that girl with me forever.

Let's see how they cope together when Arthur enters the mix.

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