I woke from a deep sleep feeling that familiar pull that told me I had been without Morgana all night. I groaned and sat up and realised at once that these weren't my rooms. They weren't even Morgana's chambers…I was in Arthur's. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair tiredly as last night and Kilgharrah's revelations came flooding back.

I looked around the chambers and noticed Arthur sprawled across his chair his legs over the side, his head curled into the corner of the cushioned back. I smiled he looked adorable like that, it was only when he woke up that he turns into a complete prat…especially in the mornings and especially, I realised, when his royal pratness hadn't got to sleep in his own royal bed that night.

I got up and immediately felt the exhaustion of being without Morgana hit me head on and I fell to the floor in a heap smacking my knees against the cold concrete of Arthur's chambers.

'Ow!' I groaned hating the sound of my own self-pity.

My noise had awoken Arthur who turned his head to look at me sprawled on the floor. He laughed and got up to help pull me to my feet.

'You know to say you're meant to be this immortal powerful warlock, you really don't look it right now,' Arthur said.

'Morgana,' I replied and comprehension dawned on Arthur's face.

'Are you in pain, shall I go get her?' he asked.

There was no need she had felt my ache and I could feel it in her own body she was already flying down the corridors no doubt scaring Arthur's knights senseless in her haste to get to me.

'There's no need she's already coming,' I said.

'What did you speak to her through your mind or something?' Arthur asked raising a blonde eyebrow in confusion.

'No,' I replied scratching my head trying to make this sound less awkward than it was 'She can feel it too.'

'Oh,' Arthur said 'Well it's a good job she's coming I asked her to have breakfast with us this morning.'

'You did, when?' I asked confused. I didn't recall Morgana talking to Arthur yesterday.

'Well you were pretty out of it last night and she came looking for you, she was pretty worried,' Arthur said.

'You didn't tell her did you?' I asked alarm spreading through me.

'No, don't be thick I wouldn't betray your trust,' Arthur said.

I was relieved the truth was going to have to come out some time, but I was fully content with dragging it out for the rest of my life if I could. How do you tell the woman you love that she's not going to die and not have any children without fearing the response? If I had one piece of hope it was that I knew she wouldn't be able to hide away from me for long, she would have to show herself eventually.

As if on cue Morgana burst through the door just as a ray of sunshine shone through Arthur's windows. She had hastily dressed, her purple silk gown was not quite straight and her hair wasn't in the perfect style she always had it in. But to me she had never looked more beautiful. She was a vision of loveliness and I marvelled at the twist of destiny that had brought her into my path.

'Merlin,' she whispered my name as if it was a solemn oath and a wave of love and desperation swept through me as I ran into her arms.

I buried my face in her black locks and wrapped my arms around her slim waist. A thrill went through me as one of her arms came around my neck to bury into my hair and the other slipped around my waist clinging to my shirt.

Her touch was like heaven and nothing had ever felt so perfect, the ache in my heart slowly faded as her warmth soothed me. I could feel her magic hum through my body and made me giddy with excitement as I felt my own magic respond, I wanted nothing more than to connect with her in the most boldest of ways.

'Ahem!' Arthur interrupted. 'I know you two are hopelessly passionately in love and all that, but I don't think I'm ready to see my best friend and my sister attack each other in front of me.'

I laughed and withdrew from her whilst still keeping her hand in mine and holding her gaze into which I whispered later. She winked in response and I felt a thrill of desire go through me, I had never wanted something so badly.

It was then that I realised that I hadn't even kissed her yet, but every move we made seemed just as passionate as a kiss, her every touch screamed of fire and passion and I couldn't wait until we were finally alone when I could show her what I truly felt for her.

I cooled my thoughts by remembering that before any of that could happen, Morgana had a right to know what she in for. I prayed for the love of Camelot that she wouldn't hate me for it.

There was another knock on the door and Gwen entered carrying a tray laden with breakfast enough for four people.

'Gwen?' Arthur asked confused but obviously pleased to see her.

'The knights told me Morgana was heading this way and I put two and two together so I brought us all breakfast,' Gwen smiled hesitantly her eyes moving from mine and Morgana's joined hands to Arthur's smiling face.

'I'd like that,' Arthur said. Gwen smiled in response and moved towards the table and I tugged at Morgana's hand and dragged her along.

We all sat down and I suddenly realised how awkward all this was, there was obviously a lot of tension in the room. I realised that Morgana had attacked Arthur, Gwen and me a dozen times in the last months and now we were all going to sit down for breakfast and try to get along….that didn't seem very likely.

'Don't worry Merlin,' Morgana said from her seat next to me 'I talked to Arthur last night when you were sleeping. I think we're going to be okay,' she said smiling at him.

I beamed in response thankful that I didn't have to choose between my best friend and my Magic Mate, I loved Morgana and I couldn't be without her but my loyalty would always be with Arthur and I was happy that she seemed to have grasped that. It wasn't difficult I realised, now that she was bonded to me she was probably attuned to my every thought and feeling.

'And I hope I can talk to you Gwen sometime soon, when you are ready of course,' Morgana said smiling shyly at her once maidservant.

'Of course,' Gwen smiled in response.

Arthur helped himself to breakfast and the rest of us took that as a sign to start as well and conversation flowed easily I noticed relieved. That stopped however as Morgana turned to me and smiled.

'Are you going to tell me what happened last night?' she asked her eyes searching mine for answers.

I held her gaze for as long as I could before lowering them and burying my head in my hands. She had to know eventually but I didn't think hearing it in front of Gwen and Arthur was the best option.

'Merlin?' she asked worried when I didn't reply.

'Morgana maybe it's best if you didn't push,' Arthur said trying to help, which of course had the opposite effect as her eyes snapped to his and a cold look of anger that was all too familiar of her exile look from her times with Morgause sprang to her eyes.

'This has nothing to do with you Arthur,' Morgana snapped.

'Don't talk to him like that!' Gwen said standing up for him 'he's just trying to help.'

'Stop the lot of you,' I said interrupting them, I grabbed Morgana's hand calming her and drew her gaze to mine.

'Come on it's probably best I did this in private,' I said. I stood and held my hand out to hers which she took without hesitation and we made our way towards the door but she turned and smiled a heartfelt smile to Arthur and Gwen.

'Thanks for breakfast and for being kind to me, I'm sorry for snapping at you Arthur,' she said, and I stared at her in shock, this was the first sign of proof I actually had that my girl was changing and I beamed at her in response as did Gwen.

We made our way through the corridors of the palace and back to Morgana's chambers, I held the door open for her to enter. I closed the door behind her and I leaned against it as I watched her move across the room to the mirror where she straightened her dress and ran a comb through her hair, brushing it back into perfect place and there stood the girl I knew from years before, the girl I had secretly admired from afar. I was terrified in the knowledge that I was about to break her heart.

Her emerald eyes caught mine in the mirror and I stared at her in longing, but held myself back as I knew that the time had come to tell her the truth. However this didn't stop me from admiring her lovely form as she stood with her back towards me. She was slender and curved in at the hips and as I followed my eyes down, her legs seemed to go on forever. I couldn't believe that this girl, this stunningly attractive woman was mine.

'You are so beautiful,' I told her and watched as she smiled at me through the mirror.

'So are you,' she said in reply her eyes darkening in lust as she ran her eyes over me.

I snorted softly in reply, no one really commented on my looks, the knights were all called handsome but the word was never given to me. And when I looked in the mirror all I saw was a lanky awkward fellow who seriously needed a confidence boost.

She sensed my mood because she turned around and walked towards me her hips swinging softly and I eyed them appreciatively. She took my hands and drew my gaze to hers.

'You don't see yourself very clearly do you?' she asked her eyes staring into mine as if she was trying to gaze into my soul.

'How do you see me?' I asked curious. I wasn't fishing for compliments, I was genuinely curious as to how she viewed me.

'I've never met anyone who looked like you Merlin, even before our bond I appreciated your looks from afar,' Morgana whispered stroking her hand down my cheek.

I remembered those looks; we had barely been adults then and life had seemed so trivial and innocent then, it was strange to think how much had changed in just a few years.

'Your skin is like none I've seen; it's a beautiful, white like snow, it's flawless except for when you tinge pink from embarrassment. Your cheekbones make you look mysterious and almost make you look as if you're not from this world. And your eyes captivate me like none I've ever seen; they're the deepest blue and I could lose myself in them when I stare at you. Your lips are a full red and your hair is as black as night which contrasts so beautifully with your dark hair…you ooze power Merlin, and I've never seen another man so beautiful,' she finished.

I stared in awe at her speech; never had I been described like that before. Did I really ooze power? I knew I was a powerful Warlock but never once did I think it came across like that.

'Before I even knew you Morgana, the men in Ealdor would tell tales of the famous enchantress Morgana Le fay, they spoke of a creature of seductive elegance and a woman who was apparently the very image of beauty. I used to dream about you before I even knew you. I used to fantasize that one day you would catch my eye and we would instantly fall in love… I never once imagined that my dreams would be so close to reality,' I replied.

I watched as a tear slowly escaped her eye and she smiled a slow seductive smile that curled at one side. Her red lips were in full pout and even crying she was stunning and all I wanted was to make the tears stop.

My heart thudded in my chest as I slowly lowered my head towards hers, I gently brought my hand up to caress her check and to hold her head in place. I locked my eyes with hers and silently asked for permission which was granted in her lovely green eyes.

My lips touched hers and it was the most wonderful thing I had ever felt. Her lips matched mine in a beautiful kiss that made my body hum with energy. I wrapped my hand around her waist and drew her closer, moulding my body with hers. She moaned into the kiss and it was the most erotic thing I had ever heard in my life.

Desire flooded through my body, heavy and strong, I held her harder to my body which was beginning to harden in desire, which I couldn't hope to conceal. I couldn't help myself and I bit down gently on her lip and she gasped and I instantly took the chance to explore her mouth with my tongue. It was my turn to moan in delight as she replied in earnest, teasing my tongue into a game of chase that set my body on fire. My magic was screaming to be released it wanted nothing more than to join with hers, it was urging me on, urging me to claim this girl, to make her mine, to mark her, take her in any way I could.

As if sensing the urgency Morgana boldly lifted one shapely leg to wrap around my waist giving me the perfect angle to rub against her. The friction was exquisite and we both broke our kiss to groan in delight. She took the chance to breathe and instead of kissing me again, she focused her attention on my neck biting and sucking, driving me crazy as I moaned with desire.

I couldn't help myself and grabbed her head to forcefully bring her lips back to mine in a much more aggressive kiss that sought to dominate, to claim her as my own. I pushed her leg down and grasped her hips in an almost punishing grip and pushed her backwards walking her until she tripped and fell back against her bed.

I followed her, climbing atop her as I took the chance to reciprocate her attentions on her own neck. I buried myself in her scent; roses and honey and all things sweet, she was delicious. I groaned again as I felt her tug on one of my ears with her teeth and one of her hands scraped down my back as her other tangled in my hair.

Feeling myself lose control I grasped her hands in one of my larger ones and pinned them above her head startling myself with my own strength. She gasped at my boldness and I watched as her eyes darkened and her lips parted as she panted with exertion.

I smirked at her evilly and lowered my mouth to her covered breasts, the silk did nothing to disguise her hardened nipple and I gently bit through the fabric, she arched her back in response crashing our groins together in delicious friction that made her scream my name.

'Merlin!'

It was this that stopped me as I realised I still hadn't told her everything and I was taking advantage of her in a moment of weakness. I wrenched myself away from her body and threw myself up from the bed horrified that I had taken such liberties with her. I watched as she sat up in confusion and stared at me with a look of hurt.

'What did I do?' She whispered and I closed my eyes in horror as I realised she thought I was rejecting her.

I sighed and shook my head and begged her to understand, as I walked back towards the bed and sat down next to her taking her hand in mine.

'It wouldn't be right, when I haven't told you everything that happened last night,' I said as I attempted to cool my still rock hard body.

'Oh,' Morgana replied looking equally as flushed I noticed with some satisfaction.

'Believe me I wanted to, I just don't want to take advantage of you,' I whispered to her bringing her hand up to my lips in a kiss of apology.

She winked in reply 'I quite enjoyed it,'

'So did I,' I laughed. 'But it wouldn't be fair.'

'Tell me Merlin.'

'Did Morgause ever tell you about me about Emrys?' I asked.

She paused to consider and replied 'only that he was a warlock with great power but she believed that he, sorry you, were a figure of legend.'

'I see,' I replied. 'Kilgharrah told me what my name actually means.'

'And what does it mean?' Morgana asked curiosity grabbing at her as her hand tightened on mine.

'It means immortal,' I said.

There I had said it. I had told her straight out, I watched as she looked away and a frown came across her beautiful face. I could only hope that she would try to be understanding.

'Do you mean that literally?' She asked and I almost laughed, myself, Arthur and now Morgana had responded in exactly the same way.

'I'm afraid so, I can be killed by mortal means, by magic, sword, poison…but if I escape all these things I will live on, my magic makes it so.'

'How?' she asked.

'Magic blessed my birth, I like the dragons am a creature of magic and I was given the quality of living an immortal life. Magic will exist in this world long after everything dies out and since I am Magic it is only logical that I be given the same fate,' I replied.

'But…'Morgana paused and then shook her head in confusion.

'What?' I asked.

'I'm your magic mate, we can't live without the other, when I die, and surely you will die with me.'

'Ah, that's the other part of the problem…since I am the strongest of us my magic has drawn you onto an equal level, not in strength, but in terms of life I'm afraid I've pulled you into all this as well.'

'You mean I'm immortal too?' She asked but I didn't need to reply as she read the truth from my eyes.

She turned to look away from me and got up off the bed and walked away from me back to the mirror where she again stared at her reflection refusing to meet my eyes.

'Say something Morgana,' I begged hating the silence.

'Never once did I imagine that my life would be like this.'

'Who would imagine this…its sick,' I replied looking down and I heard her gasp and walk back towards me and grasp my hands.

'You can't help who you are Merlin, and I know you are pure being of selflessness and honour. You are a creature of pure light and I never knew such goodness existed until I met you Merlin.'

'But I've caged you to my side forever.'

'And I love you, and I can't imagine a better person to be caged too Merlin, think of all the good we will do,' Morgana said hope shining in her eyes.

'But Arthur, Gwen, Gaius the knights…they will soon just become distant memories,' I said.

'No, they will be fond memories which we will treasure and remember. We aren't alone, remember your dragon will be there to guide the way,' Morgana tried to reassure me.

I smiled as I thought of my brother of my heart. Life would never be so lonely if I had Kilgharrah with me, he was my kin and the only creature like me, not even Morgana was a creature of magic like me, although she was strong in magic her power didn't exist in comparison to that of mine and Kilgharrah's. My smile disappeared as I realised I still hadn't told her the rest of the story.

She seemed to realise this 'What is it?' She asked.

'Along with making you immortal I've robbed you of the chance of having a family,' I said. 'You can never have children by me Morgana, and your bond of Magic Mate will not allow you to have them with anyone else.'

I watched as this sunk in and my heart broke as hurt crossed her face and she turned away from me.

'I hate it Morgana, I hate that I've robbed you of the choice, we've been robbed of the choice, but I'm afraid my magic was gifted to me, and to me alone, children would inherit my magic and they would be tainted by it and the balance of the world would be thrown out.'

'It would be chaos,' Morgana said turning back to me her eyes cold but not in anger just in resignation 'I know how good you are Merlin and I know that I would fear for my life if anyone else had your kind of power.'

I nodded in reply and watched as she walked back towards me and sat on the bed again and took my hand in her.

'Is that it then,' she asked smiling slightly attempting to make light of the situation 'nothing else?'

I laughed 'no,' I said in relief.

'It will be hard Merlin of that I have no doubt and there will be times when we will probably be lonely, but we must accept that everything happens for a reason…we should be happy that we will always at least have each other,' she said and smiled at me.

'With you by my side my love I can face anything,' I said and gently kissed her lips in a light kiss that made her beam in happiness. And I smiled back as my worries disappeared.

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