Chapter 7

I couldn't sleep so I decided to get some fresh air. I got down to the living room terrace. I was having trouble sleeping for a few days now ever since I found out about Hanna and Tsubaki, everyone kept telling me I love him but I don't know anymore. Flashbacks of him and me were filing up my thoughts, when we kissed the first time, how I wanted to be with him when he didn't get the voice acting job for that anime, how he was goofing off in the park when he drank a little bit much, when he told me he loved me. I drifted in my thoughts when I heard the door of the terrace close. I looked and it was Tsubaki. My face turned red as if I thought he could read my mind. I looked away from him. He walked towards me and stood next to me.

"Azusa told me to talk to you but I don't know what to talk about."

"Why would he tell you that?"

"He told me that I had to figure that out on my own. You know sometimes that guy doesn't make sense. I have no idea what he meant."

"Honestly none of you make sense. Some of the guys were talking a lot of nonsense lately."

"Like what?"

I didn't know if I should tell him, I don't know how he would react.

"Um, nothing important. Why are you out here?"

"I couldn't sleep I have a lot on my mind. I Have a big role coming up and I don't want to screw it up."

"Don't worry, you won't. You are too good of an actor to screw up."

"Thanks. Hm, that was quite a stunt you pulled at your party. Yelling at Hanna, getting drunk and all that. Subaru even schooled me about it tellning me it was my fault. How was your getting drunk my fault?"

"I didn't trust Hanna at that time so I got mad when she came as your date and so I started drinking, I didn't want her anywhere near you. I mean all of you."

"Oh, all of us. So why are you here?"

" I couldn't sleep. I was thinking about Hanna, she is actually my sister."

I couldn't tell him I was thinking about him too. I couldn't yet.

"I didn't know she was in any way connected to you I just asked a random girl to come to the party because I didn't want to be alone."

"But you aren't alone, you have me, all of us. I will always be here for you."

"That is really nice to hear. Thank you."

I do accually love him. I would do anything for him, to make him happy but I don't know if he feels the same way about me. I felt something warm on my hand that was on the fence of the terrace. I looked down and saw his hand on mine. He was shaking. I saw his head, it was bent down toward his chest, I couldn't see his eyes but I knew something was wrong.

"Tsubaki?! Tsubaki! Are you ok?"

"Um, yeah I'm fine."

His voice was trembling. I couldn't stand seeing him in pain. I pulled my hand from his and hugged him from behind, his head straitened and I could feel his heart beating faster than normal. He turned around and hugged me back. We stood like that for what it felt like hours but it was minutes. My head was on his chest and I could hear his hear. I could stay like this forever. He then pulled away a little and kissed my forehead, now my heart skipped a bit and started pounding like crazy.

"I do love you, even now after all this time you know?" He whispered as he hugged me tighter. I did know that but should he now that I love him.

"I love you too." I decided to tell him. I might be stupid for doing so but I don't care anymore, I don't want to keep secrets anymore.

"I know you do, but like a brother. I know that the love that I have for you isn't the same and that you could never love me in that way, but I don't care I still love you."

I pushed him away and glared at him.

"Idiot!" I ran off living him on the terrace. As I entered the living room tears started falling down my cheeks. He is such an idiot, I told him I loved him and he still didn't get it. I ran to my room and fell on my bed.

"What happened Chii, do I need to kick someone somewhere?" Juli was on the bed as I collapsed.

"No, Juli, I need to talk to you. I told Tsubaki I loved him and e didn't get that I really loved him, not just as a stepbrother, I really do love him."

"You fell in love with him. But Chii, why?"

"I don't know, I just did. He makes me feel special even though he acted like an idiot."

A knock interrupted Julis and mine conversation.

"Emma, can we talk?" It was Tsubaki.

"Wait a second. Juli please go to Azusas room and stay there until I call you, please."

As Juli left I opened the door and invited him in.

"I'm sorry, I didn't get what you meant when you said that you love me. I'm sorry, everything is clear now. That is why Subaru attacked me the night you got drunk, it was because you were jealous. I'm sorry for not realizing it earlier."

"No, I'm sorry I should have told you immediately but I was a coward and I was confused. I didn't know if it was real."

Ina spit second he was sitting next to me on the bed and hugging me, I could feel his heart pounding and a tear sliding down my face. He pulled away and kissed me, I didn't struggle as usual I just gave in to the kiss. I Never felt so safe and loved. He ended up sleeping in my room, we were talking until the un came out. I never felt this happy.

"I don't think we should tell anyone yet."

"But why?"

"It's not that I don't want to but Emma it will be a big shock for everyone, we need to tell them gently."

"Ok, I agree, but I feel so happy that I can tell you I love you and that it is the same meaning as yours."

I'm planing on finishing soon so give me ideas how it shoud end.