This Is a Life That You Can't Deny us Now
Disclaimer: I don't own Star Wars, obviously.
Author Disclaimer: This is an AU Reylo centered story with mature themes. If this upsets you, then leave. I am old and jaded enough that I do not care. Don't waste your time trying to lecture me about how you are offended, I truly do not care. The world does not revolve around you and what upsets you. Buck up and learn to avoid your triggers and other things that offend you. I have what people are calling triggers or things I do not like too. You know what I do about them? I avoid them and I don't waste my time actively seeking them out to make myself upset. That is all you can do in life, because the world does not revolve around your feelings or mine. Harassing other people over things that offend you, but has no impact on your day to day life just makes you look foolish. Seriously I don't care, don't bother me about it, get off my lawn.
Author's Note: I truly do appreciate constructive feedback please and thank you.
Chapter Two: No One Else is Coming for You
It took some time, but Rey was eventually able to regain her composure. She felt a soft motion across her back, it made her tense up until she realized it was Kylo rubbing her back, attempting to calm her down, It was strangely comforting, having her back rubbed, even if it was Kylo Ren doing it. No one in her entire life had rubbed her back like this.
"That's not entirely true, you just do not remember. When you were younger I used to rub your back every night to help you fall asleep."
It dawned on her that the only living person who cared for her in any sort of capacity in her previous life, was the man in front of her, this monster. It terrified her, but what scared her even more, was the small part of her elated that someone had finally come for her after all these years.
"Please," she pleaded with him this time, not having the energy to make any more demands, "get out of my head."
Kylo Ren was still close enough where she felt his breath on her face when he let out a sigh, but honored her request finally. She felt the force bond slowly pull back from the edge of her mind.
"I will allow you to move, but you have to promise not to run."
Rey was aware despite her luck during their last meeting, she would not be able to overpower him again. His injuries had healed since then and she had no doubt he had continued his training where she had been unable to. She gave him a slight nod and she felt the force that had held her in place gone.
"I don't have to look inside your mind to know you have many questions for me. Go ahead and ask."
Rey did have many questions for Kylo Ren and did not know where to begin to seek answers. She started with the one that caused her the most confusion. "Why would Luke lie about you being my cousin?"
"Luke had seen our connection years ago, he could sense your connection to me now. I would not doubt he told you I was your cousin so that it would keep you away from me," Kylo replied.
"I thought Jedi did not lie, I thought there was only peace?"
Kylo let out a bitter laugh, "The Jedi lie, especially if it will bring them peace. Luke's mentor Obi-Wan lied to him about Darth Vader. That is part of the reason I cannot stand the Jedi."
Rey chose to ignore his transparent disdain for the Jedi and continued seeking answers.
"What did you mean Luke Skywalker is responsible for my existence?"
"Luke Skywalker developed intimate feelings for your mother. As you know, it is against the Jedi Code to have such an attachment. Luke sent your mother away to resist temptation. Your mother was an exceptional smuggler, when Luke sent her away she went back to the thing she knew how to do best. During one particular operation, she was captured by a Sith, Luke was unaware she had been abducted. When Luke had found out she had been taken he set forth a rescue operation. When she returned, her belly was rounder, you were growing inside her. Because Luke Skywalker is a coward, is the very reason you exist." he explained to her.
Rey listened intently to each detail he disclosed to her, but his recount of events still caused her confusion.
"Kylo that makes no sense. I do not believe you when you tell me my mother was intimate with the Sith who abducted her."
He looked at her with such sorrow it caused her breath to hitch. He whispered with such softness she almost did not hear him, "She wasn't given a choice."
Although his words were clear it took Rey a moment to fully absorb what Kylo Ren was saying to her. When his assertion finally sunk in, the weight of it brought her to her knees. She screamed and smashed her fists wildly against the ground. She was hysterical, she felt angry tears stream down her cheeks and blood dripping from her hands. She had pounded on the ground so forcefully that the skin on her hand had torn and created wounds.
Kylo witnessed her breakdown, it pained him to watch her hysteria over what he revealed to her about her mother. He had considered not telling her at all, but he had promised not to lie to her.
She continued to hit the ground with such raw force, propelled by her anger that her hands had started to bleed. If she continued on she would surely break them. Kylo intervened before she could do herself any more damage, he picked her up and placed her on his lap. She went from pounding her fists against the ground to hitting them against his chest. He grabbed both her wrists in one hand to still them and gently pushed her head against his chest, resting his head on top of hers. He allowed her to scream and cry into his robes for quite some time. Kylo knew she needed to process what he had revealed to her, using the Force to try to calm her would not do her away good.
When Rey had finally calmed herself, much of the light had dissipated from the ship they were in. She did not move from his embrace, she had no energy to do so if she had wished to. She mulled over what he had told her about her mother.
It seemed that Kylo Ren and she were not so different like she had thought, both of them were of light and dark.
No that's not entirely true, Rey thought bitterly. They there was one glaring difference between her and Kylo Ren. Ben Solo had been created through an act of love between Han and Leia, whereas Rey had been conceived through an act of violence against her mother.
Her throat was dry and tender from screaming, but she managed to hoarsely speak to him. "I have no memories of my mother, Kylo. What was she like?"
Kylo swallowed the lump in his throat and breathed in multiple shallow breaths before he responded.
"She was quite a bit like you actually. She was very beautiful, I look at you and I see how you resemble her. She did not have brown hair though like you do, her hair was a bright red, which complimented her fiery personality quite well. Your mother was strong-willed and cunning, but also warm and loving. She truly was an amazing woman, Rey," he responded.
"She must have despised me."
"On the contrary, there was nothing nor no one in the entire Galaxy that she loved more than she loved you," Kylo proclaimed and Rey knew that he meant what he was telling her,
"Did she name me Rey?"
"No, Rey is not the name your mother gave you at the time of your birth," he admitted.
"What name did she give me?"
Rey needed to know what the name her mother had given her. She needed to know who she truly was.
"I will tell you the name you were given when you were born, but I will not do it here. If you wish to learn more about your past then you will come with me," Kylo declared.
She felt herself become very angry at him for giving her such an ultimatum. He had left her on Jakku years ago with no memories to fend for herself, now he refused to give her the answers she deserved unless she left with him. He was truly was a despicable human being.
"No one else is coming for you. I did not leave you here because I thought you deserved a life living as scavenger scum, I left you here because it was what was best at the time. I had no intention of letting you live your entire life on Jakku, You are better than this and mean for so much more. What is your choice, Rey?"
Rey roughly chewed her cracked lip and considered her options. She could stay on Jakku and live out her life as a worthless scavenger, isolated and lonely. She could leave with Kylo Ren, a man she had witnessed commit such villainous acts that it brought bumps to her skin. He would tell her everything she wanted to know though and he could teach her the ways of the force.
After much consideration she had finally made her decision, she informed him of her choice before she could reconsider.
"I will come with you."