Memories Chapter 7, an inuyasha fanfic

Author note: The chapter is not revised; please excuse the grammar mistakes.

Something to clarify - Sesshomaru did not return to his cheating way - some was left with such impression - what you read in the previous chapter was a memory of the past.

*sesshomaru's words through the phone

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha

Chapter 7

Wife and Mistress

Rin was watching her through the tinted glass of her car window. She was watching the woman whose voice she heard on the phone a week ago. What should a woman do when her husband is cheating on her?

Meiya Saseko, a well know model but who didn't know fame grace to her modeling skills but to her skills beyond closed doors. Indeed, she was beautiful; many men turned their heads to see her but her beauty wasn't natural but gained through many esthetic surgeries.

"Why men prefer plastic women over the natural ones?" she asked herself aloud.

Should she run with her car over that woman; should she talk with her and ask her to stop defile her marriage or Rin should just pretend to know nothing. Once again she looked to the mistress resume and stepped out of the car.

Rin wanted to see, wanted to hear her voice once more. "How will she react when she will see me?"

Rin entered in the shop, a sales woman greeting her immediately.

"Good afternoon, Takahashi-sama!" she bowed lightly. "How can we help you?"

"Good afternoon! And please call me Rin. Takahashi-sama makes me look old." Rin smiled affectionate to the sales woman but her eyes were searching the mistress.

"I will try Takahashi-sama. How can I help you?"

"I am searching something for my upcoming exhibition. I don't look after something extravagant but not plain either. Meanwhile I will wait over there." She pointed to the sofa.

The mistress was waiting too. 'I wonder what does she wants to buy, and with whose money? Does Sesshomaru gives her money for her shopping?' Rin was calm on the outside while approaching the vile woman but on the inside…

She was burning with rage.

She wanted to grab the slut and pull her hair out. With each step she became sick. 'What could Sesshomaru see at this false woman? It's about her big chest? Doesn't he see that even that are false? Her body, her soul is all false.'

She was getting mad. How could he replace her with such a woman?

Rin took her seat on the same sofa the mistress was, and innocently approached the woman.

"Are you waiting too? I am looking for a cocktail dress; you?" Meiya turned his eyes to see the woman who dared to speak to her person but froze in her spot. In a week time Rin became a very fine actress; nothing of what she did gave her away. When she saw the mistress shocked face, in that moment she knew she was recognized.

"I am sorry that I didn't present myself. I am Rin Takahashi. It's nice to meet you. I have seen you many times in magazines; you're famous."

"Mm, I guess I am." Rin could see the discomfort the mistress was feeling. Rin could even tell that Meiya was searching for excuses to run away.

"I read in the magazines that you signed a contract with an Italian fashion house."

"Yes I did. Now if you excuse me, I remembered that I have a show in about one hour. The sale woman takes too long and I cannot stay anymore. Bye!"

"That was indeed fast, slut!" no one heard Rin insulting the model.

Like nothing ever happened, Rin waited the sale woman to bring her the dress she has no need for.

Meiya watched her wrist watch for the tenth time in the last five minutes. The person she was waiting for was late, and gradually she became furious. The door ding open and finally the person she had to met glided in.

Rin scanned the small coffee shop, looking for her, for the mistress. Last night Meiya messaged to Rin, asking her to meet her. It was time for them to meet again, so Rin accepted her invitation. She saw a blonde woman in the corner of the coffee shop waving her hand in her direction. Rin took a deep breath and approached the mistress.

"Good afternoon, miss…"

"My name is Meiya Saseko. I messaged you yesterday."

"I know that; your name was at the end of the message. Though I do not understand what a model will want with me. The modeling is far away from my job range. Also, I doubt that we're friends; I didn't see you at the hospital at all."

Meiya forced a smile on her facial features.

"I find out that you have no memories of the events before your accident. Believe it or not, we have met before and we even talked with each other. Furthermore, we have something in common."

"We have? What a potter and a model can have in common? Don't tell me that you offered me a job and I failed to finish it?"

"Job offer? Of course not. What we have in common…" Rin sipped her coffee, calmly waiting for the mistress words. She already knew what she wants to declare. "it's the man." Unfazed by her words, Rin put the coffee cup on the table and looked the mistress in her eyes.

"Pardon me? Can you repeat one more time?" Meiya breathed in again and let the words flowing out.

"I am talking about Sesshomaru. I and he have a relationship for months. I was thinking lately and realized it's not fair for you to not know about us and…"

"Since it's not fair maybe you shouldn't have had an affair with a married man, slut." Rin words were cold, surprising Meiya. "Did you think by coming here with supposedly good intentions you will move me? Do you think that after you defiled my marriage for months I will believe your good intentions? You bought that nose; you even bought those breasts; you should have invested something in your brain too."

"You remember…"

"Do you think such a betrayal can ever be forgotten? I would have wished so, but the Gods aren't so gentle with me."

"Well, since you know everything and I don't need to fill you in, I will go straight to the subject. Leave Sesshomaru; he's my man."

"Leave him? And why should I do that, because you say so? I did not left him when I first find out about you; what makes you think I would do it now? In this moment I feel like being married to him, forever."

"He doesn't love you anymore. He loves me."

"Should I care about that? Should I open the way for you? Saseko-san, if we wouldn't have been in a public place I would have laughed. Actually, hearing you saying that he loves you makes me tie him more to me. Do I have a reason to wish for your happiness; I think it's the other way around."

"He proposed me." Meiya had to play all her cards. In front of her she has a woman who paid nothing to the past. "When we were in Seychelles, Sesshomaru proposed me. He wanted to marry me as soon as possible."

That was something Rin didn't know. She let the shock washed over her, and calmed herself down.

"But he didn't. After you two returned he left you. He chose me, and not you."

"He gives you pity; he feels guilty for your accident. Don't you have even an ounce of pride inside you? Are you really so rotten?"

"If he indeed loves you; if he indeed wants to marry you; if he indeed feels guilty then I will throw away any pride and keep him by my side for eternity, making him miserable for the rest of his life. I will never divorce him; I will never let him be happy with you."

"I will tell him about your lies. What I need is him leaving you, not other way around."

"Go ahead and tell him. Do you think I care? In the worst case we will end this charade. Do you think he will leave me? He will never leave me. He will beg for forgiveness, and I will grant it. We will start anew, and you will be just a bad memory of the past. Your presence in his life is ephemeral, mine is for eternity. You can go and tell him how rotten his wife is but he will never believe you. He thinks of me as being gentle, kind-hearted. Your new depiction of me will be seen as a rotten lie, your last, poor attempt to be with him. He will hate you more, and I feel sorry for not being able to see that when it happens. I will leave now Saseko-san; I indulged too much in your presence. Sayonara!"

Rin left on the table her share for the coffee and left, leaving behind a Meiya in awe. With this meeting, Meiya hoped to get what she wanted – the end of his marriage and him returning on her side. But the wife she just met was different compared with how people described her; the wife was cold, willing to stay into a loveless marriage. And not loveless because he gave up loving her, but loveless because Meiya could feel through Rin's words the hatred she has for Sesshomaru.

"Hi Rin! Sorry for coming late today; I was busy at work and couldn't leave earlier." Rin didn't have mood for guests, especially today. It's been two hours since her meeting with Meiya, and her words were still deep sunk in her heart. The pain of him wanting to marry her slowly destroyed any power she held within her.

Painful.

Too painful.

"Are you okay Rin? Do you have any fever? Should I call a doctor to see you?" Kagome took a seat on the bed, checking Rin's condition. "Should I cook something for you?"

"I am not feeling ill." Rin pulled the covers over her completely, not wanting to be seen. "And I ate well at lunch, I am not hungry."

"Then what's wrong?"

"It's about him and her; I meet his mistress today and – " in that moment Rin realized the mistake she committed. The covers flew off of her body, and her eyes bored in shocked ones.

"Rin do you – "

"Kagome, forget what you have heard. What I said moments ago never happened."

"Do you by any chance remember everything?"

"…"

"Did you ever lose your memories?"

"Kagome, I – "

"Why did you lie? Do you know how much we tried to make you feel comfortable around us, to see us as your close friends? Why did you lie?"

"It's not like I planned it. When I woke up I saw Sesshomaru being gentle, carrying with me. He was not the same man I have seen before my accident. The man before didn't care about me at all. To me, they were different persons. And when I saw that I was misunderstood I decided to pretend not remembering."

"Why?"

"I don't know why. Maybe because I wanted to give another chance to my marriage; maybe because I did not want to admit that my husband has an affair. Admitting makes things becoming reality; I still wanted to believe that is just a bad dream I am about to awake from."

"What about Sesshomaru? Does he know about it?"

"Don't you dare tell him about it! I don't want him to know. I won't forgive you if you tell him!"

"But Rin, he deserve to know the truth."

"He deserve my ass. Why should I tell him my sins when he never told me his? For six months he had an affair; for six months he constantly lied to me, and when he showed me the divorce paper he never told me about her. Do you know what he told me in that day? He said to me that on my side he's suffocating; he told me that he doesn't love me anymore and he didn't even hesitate. While some of you were crying beside my bed, he was in Seychelles making love with her, proposing her. I was dying and he was happy. Does a man like him have any rights?"

Rin felt good purring her heart out. For months she kept her frustration to herself, threatening to eat her from the inside.

"Do you still love him? What about your marriage?"

"I don't know anymore. I feel sick every time I see his face; I feel sick every time I hear him narrating to me our love story. Do you know that every day he tells me one? How happy we were between these four walls, how every morning I woke up with a rose on my pillow. But what I really want him to tell me is the story of him bringing his mistress inside these four walls, the story of him taking her intimately on this very bed."

"For how long will you keep the charade on?"

"I don't know that either. You know that I would have forgiven him if he would have told me the truth? If he would have begged me and be honest with me I would have given him a second chance. But now when I find out that he wanted to marry her, I don't know anymore. The only reason I am with him is because I want to see how far he will go with the lie. And maybe because I want to bond him more to me and making him suffer by leaving him."

"Rin, what have you become?" Kagome couldn't stop the tears falling. Her best friend turned into something she no longer recognize, and was powerless in helping her friend.

"He made me like this."

"She's lying to you Sesshomaru. Rin remembers everything but she plays with you."

He was called by her, and after weeks of insistence he gave up and met her. She didn't understand last time that he wants nothing to have to do with her; he came to remember her.

"Stop playing games Meiya. No matter what you say, I won't return to you."

"Even if she doesn't love you anymore? Listen to me Sesshomaru, I met her today, and she was unlike how you and others describe her. She was colder than ice, I could feel hatred in her words; hatred for me and you."

"Rin is not such a woman; she cannot be like you say. I know her for six years; she's not capable of such."

"Stop being blind and see reality. She never lost her memories; she takes advantage of her accident to keep you on her side, not letting you to be happy with me. She's doing this on purpose. She wants to make you suffer."

"Even if your words are true, it doesn't change things. She can give me how much pain she wants; I will accept it."

Sesshomaru was on his way home, his former mistress words never leaving him since he left her behind, and now for the last time. He wondered if his Rin truly is lying about her memories, if she really pretends.

How can he ever know? Can he just go and ask her? But what if she really is amnesic? His doubt will lead him to reveal his affair.

"Sesshomaru" since she returned home, this was the first day when she greeted him so loudly. The tone of her voice sounded like she was anxious to meet him; Sesshomaru couldn't stop the joy feeling which crept it ways in his heart.

"I am home, Rin."

"Welcome home! The truth is that all day I was waiting for you. I wanted to ask you something but I don't know how – "

"Something is wrong?"

"I don't know yet. I don't know what to believe, I am confused."

Sesshomaru stripped his suit jacket off of his form, and leaded to the sofa in the living room. She took a seat across him, insecurity and fear clearly occupying her mind.

"If something bothers you, you can tell me. I won't get mad on you."

"I met a woman today." Does she want to tell me about Meiya? "She messaged me last night, asking to meet me. She told me strange things, and I don't know if I should believe her or not."

"What did she say?"

"It doesn't make sense what she told me because you told me different things. I don't know what to believe anymore. I wondered if I should talk with you about it; what if you will get mad on me, but my insecurity was eating me and I wanted to ask you and – "

"Tell me Rin; no matter what it is, tell me!"

"She said that you cheated on me with her. Her words didn't make sense; you told me how happy you were with me, happy men don't cheat. Who's lying Sesshomaru, you or she?"

Meiya's words were ringing inside his head. The woman he had in front of his eyes was differently than the one the former mistress described. The woman he was currently seeing wasn't capable of such. He could see the innocence between her words; he could see the pain she would feel if he would claim Meiya's words as true.

'Meiya was lying. She tries to make doubt Rin. But even if I am wrong in my reasoning it does not matter. Having my Rin on my side is all I need for.'

"I never cheated on you. The woman you met today was lying." It was the best answer he could give her for. The truth would have destroyed an innocent person, the lie obvious to the connoisseur.

'Liar.' Rin's mind was screaming. 'You're a rotten liar, just like in that day – '

Months passed since Rin find out about his affair and kept silent about it. Today was her birthday, and unlike the previous years she kept it silent. She wanted to test him; to see how much space she occupies in his heart.

In the privacy of their home supposedly they should celebrate; the cake, the food, the drinks…everything was on their place. Only the man was missing. It never happened before.

Two hours later Rin found herself sitting alone in the corner of a fancy restaurant, her eyes glued on a certain couple.

It was her birthday but instead of being with her, Sesshomaru was in the company of another woman, eating, drinking and smiling with her.

Clearly, he forgot about the wife.

Rin dialed his number, wishing to see how much a liar he can be.

"Hello Rin!" he did not pick up after the first call but only after the third. From across the dining hall, Rin could see his distaste in answering. "I am in an important meeting. I cannot talk on the phone." He did not want to waste his precious time spent with his mistress; he wanted to dispose of the wife sooner as possible.

"Sorry for bothering you. I wanted to tell you that I will be out of town for two days. A problem arrived in Arita which needs my presence."

"Hope it's nothing serious."

"I love you!"

"I love you too."

Rin's tiny heart was shredded into pieces when his lips kissed another after through the phone he whispered those words to her.

Author note: If you have questions you can ask them, though I do not guaranty that I will answer them, especially if those request spoilers.

chapter 8 Revenge