I wasn't paying attention in potions…big surprise there. Class was almost over anyway, so what was the point of listening now? I honestly have no idea what potion we were making, Regulus did all the work today, I slept through most of the class, per usual.
"I'm the only reason you're passing this class, you realize that?" Regulus said, sounding irritated, while he put a sample of our potion in a flask.
"I know Reggie,. I loathe this class. The only reason why I even continued with it is so I can bug you for an extra hour everyday." I grinned. Reg just rolled his eyes.
"How did you even pass that O.W.L.? You didn't do anything last year in potions either." Reg complained. I honestly don't know how I passed that O.W.L. actually, I got an exceeds expectation on my potions exam. Crazy huh? Guess it makes up for setting the minister's wife on fire during my transfiguration O.W.L. Yes, my examiner was the minister of magic's wife, though in my defense, I had no idea who she was at the time. Granted, even if I had known she was the minister's wife, I still would of set her on fire.
"Trust me, I don't know how I passed it either. I'm sure Slughorn wonders too, I bet he was so happy when he found out he would have to deal with me for another year."
"Quidditch practice tonight after dinner," Regulus reminded me as he got up to bring our potion to Slughorn.
"But it's cold outside!" I whined. Our last game before the holidays was this weekend. We were playing Gryffindor again, and I want to beat them so bad, so I won't have to listen to James brag about winning over the holidays. Speaking of the holidays, I still don't know if the Dark Lord is going to pay Regulus a visit over break. Regulus doesn't know either…but if he did know, knowing Regulus, he's not going to tell me until the last possible second. Like we would be getting off the train to go home and he would be all "Oh I forgot to tell you! Next time you see me I'll be a death eater! I've decided that I'm not going to let you join me, our plan isn't going to happen! Happy Christmas!" I can already hear him now.
"Hello? Jade? Jade Opal? Earth to Jade." Regulus's voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Do you know what's going to happen over break? With you and him I mean?" I asked, not bothering to beat around the bush. His face darkened and he lowered his voice.
"I don't know, not yet. I'll probably be getting a letter from mum soon. I really hope it doesn't happen over break. That would be some Christmas gift. 'Here son, your Christmas gift is you get to join Voldemort!' Merry fucking Christmas," Regulus mocked his mother.
"Well if you do become one, I could come home with you for the holidays," I said, I think I could handle meeting the Dark Lord.
"No, you're not ready yet. Your occlumency isn't strong enough, and besides, you don't need to throw your life away just yet. You'd have a better chance of getting in if I'm in first, and recommend you. You'll probably get in either way though, my mother would probably be on your side. She really likes you, you know?" Reg said lowly. Yeah, Mrs. Black did like me, because I pretended to be a muggle hating, pureblood supremacist.
"I guess so. And what did I tell you? I'm not throwing my life away," I said stubbornly.
"Whatever you say Jade. See you later," Regulus got up and left as the bell rang.
"So you're sure you don't fancy Derek?" Jeremy asked as we hit bludgers back and forth during practice. Uhg, I don't like Derek, for Merlin's sake.
"I'm sure Jeremy. He's a nice bloke, but I don't know, I just don't look at him like that," I said firmly.
"Why not?" He smacked a bludger towards me.
"Well it's not like he's not good looking or anything. He's nice to look at and he's not a bad kisser. I just…don't fancy him. He's not my type I guess," I really don't know why I don't like Derek. He's a nice guy and everything, minus the whole death eater thing. Like I said, I guess he's not my type.
"Then what is your type?" Jeremy asked, raising an eyebrow. What is this? Twenty questions?
"I don't know...just not Derek. I guess I like someone that's crazy like myself. You know, kind of a neurotic side? But the person also has to have a sensitive side, or at least they have to have a serious side to them. They don't have to particularly smart I guess, though that helps. I wouldn't want a bonehead for a boyfriend. They need to have a sense of humor, and they have to understand that before they get involved that I am unpredictable and kind of a mess."
"Whoa, someone's picky. Do you really think your going to find a guy that has all that?" Jeremy asked another bloody question.
"No, I doubt I'll find someone that has all that. But at the moment, I've got plenty of other things to worry about than getting a boyfriend. That's what I keep telling people but no one seems to listen. I don't even know if I have time for a relationship," I said, hitting a bludger back at Jeremy. Something on the grounds caught my eye. I saw a deer…no a stag, running towards the forbidden forest, which was weird in itself. But the weirdest thing was this humongous black dog (I believe it was a dog, could have been a bear) was running alongside with it. Those couldn't of been normal animals, something was wrong with them.
"Jade!" I heard Jeremy yell. I glanced toward him and everything went black.
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And everything was still black, but that's because I didn't want to open my eyes. Everything hurt and like it was on fire (not that I would know what being on fire felt like, but you could ask the minister's wife, she could tell you all about it) but I felt like absolute crap. My whole body ached and my head, oh my God, my head hurt so much. I don't even know why I was in pain. I only remember looking at Jeremy and everything going black. I just laid there, with my eyes closed. It would probably hurt to even open my eyelids, and I wasn't going to find out. I heard voices. At first I thought Reggie! But then I realized, it was not his voice. And that there was two voices. I strained to hear their conversation, to recognize the voices.
"She called me a "dirty blood traitor" and then she got all pissy with me," I finally recognized the voice of Sirius Black. What? What is he talking about?
"She what?" James hissed.
"I walked in on her and Regulus doing something-" Oooh….when he walked in our occlumency lesson.
"What were they doing?" James sounded angry.
"I don't know...from outside the room, it sounded like they were doing each other, or something. But when I walked in, it was obvious they weren't."
"What did it look they were doing?"
"I couldn't tell, but Jade looked exhausted," Sirius told him all about how tired I looked and how I started laughing my arse off.
"Do you think they were doing anything…you know…with the dark arts?" James asked quietly. What? Houscist brother! Just because I'm a Slytherin doesn't mean I am obsessed with the dark arts.
"No…I don't think so, but I'm not sure. But it gets worse. She was getting annoyed with me, I could tell. So she said something about going to kill "mudbloods and dirty blood traitors" or something like that."
"I'll murder her...when did she start saying those words?" James sounded furious. Oops, too late, already said the words, can't take them back.
"And then something about Lily being a mudblood and then I hexed her and me and Regulus got in this big duel, and then she got all pissy with me." Sirius sounded mad, as he told James about our little run-in.
"She called my Lilyflower a mudblood?" James whispered the word mudblood. "She's never said those words before...something has changed….and just when I think everything is ok with us, nope, it's not. I knew she was a lost cause." In my defense, I called her a mudblood before my chat with James.
"I think Regulus is trying to get her to you know…join. I got a letter from my wonderful parents, saying I could possibly help erase my horrendous past, if I join moldy shorts. I'm positive that he got one too," Sirius said darkly. Oh, if he only knew that Regulus doesn't want me to join, and that I'm doing it on my own free will.
"She has been acting different lately. But you really think she would become a death eater?" James should have sounded concerned, but he just sounded disgusted.
"I don't know. She's been hanging around that Slytherin lot lately, ever since she joined the quidditch team. They've probably convinced her that Voldemort is great., Sirius explained. Hahahahahahahaha, no. I'm joining not because I think he is great, but because I want him dead. I know he's evil.
"I can't believe that she would say those…those…things!" James sounded stunned. I wonder what made me get hit by that bludger. I remember getting hit by it and falling, and that's about it. I can't remember what I was doing before. I was talking Jeremy…about Derek…and then….I can't remember. Hmmm? The thing! Those animals!
"The stag! And dog!" I cried. The ones that were running on the lawn, to the forest. They distracted me. I opened my eyes, and saw Sirius and James standing there. I could see a tiny glare in their eyes. My head throbbed, maybe I should talk quieter.
"What stag and dog?" Sirius finally spoke. He sounded like he would rather be talking to someone else.
"They were running across the grounds, when me and Jer were hitting bludgers back and forth, and they distracted me….deer just don't come out into the open during the day like that. And there was this big black dog, at least I think was a dog, it was huge...!" My voice was hoarse and tired sounding as I rambled, trying to figure things out…
"You called Lily a mudblood!" James rounded on me, yelling at me. I should of known he would react like this.
I didn't answer, I was still pretty groggy.
"Why would you say such a…foul thing!" James looked like he wanted to murder me.
"Well I am a Slytherin, you know. I've got a stereotype to live up to. Where's Regulus?" I looked around for Reg desperately, in case he magically decided to appear. No such luck, damn.
"Never mind where your precious Regulus is. Why did you say that?" James yelled, furthering my headache into migraine territory.
"Could you bring your voice down a few decibels? I have a headache worse than a hangover," I said calmly. Come on Regulus, I need you to get your arse in the hospital wing. Now.
"James. I want to talk to her alone," Sirius looked towards me. Great, I'm going to get a confrontation about Regulus "forcing me to join Voldemort." Fantastic. James huffed and left and Sirius sat down on the bed. I forced myself to sit up, which hurt like hell.
"Ow..fuck…ow." I muttered to myself as I pulled myself up.
"Don't hurt yourself." He said emotionlessly.
"I blame those ruddy animals. Distracting me while I practice, the nerve! But I really doubt they were normal animals or something." I adjusted myself as I sat up.
"I'm sure they were fine." He said.
"I doubt that. First, a deer and a dog wouldn't be frolicking across Hogwarts's grounds. Second, the dog wasn't even chasing the deer. They were running along side each other, like they were best mates or something. Hell, they were probably two animagus having some fun."
"Haha, probably." Sirius's eyes glanced to floor then back to me, but the motion didn't go unnoticed. He knew something, and I'll figure it out. The hat should of put me in Ravenclaw, 'cause I'm smart. Well more of a smart ass, but still, they are kind of the same, right?
"What did you want to talk to me about, that was so important, your precious James couldn't be here?"
"Is Regulus pressuring you to do something…that you don't want to do?" He asked softly. I couldn't but think if it was James who was asking, he would be screaming at me. I thought about how I could answer and figured that lying is the best option here. Lying is the best option a majority of the time.
"Nah, he's not pressuring me into sleeping with him. It's my own free choice," a cheeky grin spreading across my face.
"Jade, I'm being serious." I started laughing.
"You're always serious." I laughed and he just rolled his eyes.
"Jade…" His voice was quiet. "I know Regulus is going to be a death eater. Don't try and cover up for him, because I know he is. Is he pressuring you to become one too? Because you don't have to, you don't have to Jade." He finished. I looked at his face, full of worry. Why wasn't James worrying over me like this? Even after that nice talk we had. Well, I guess I did offend his girlfriend. Oops.
"Sirius, he's not pressuring me to do anything, Regulus isn't like that. He barely pressures me to do anything. The only thing he's ever made me do is my homework. Well, the only thing he ever tries to make me do is my homework," I finished defending Reg.
"Then I don't think you should be friends with him, because he will be a death eater. He's dangerous." He's lucky I was injured, or I would have bitch slapped him right then and there. I tried to move my arm to slap him, but it my limb didn't want to cooperate.
"Don't tell me who to be friends with. Regulus is not my friend. He is my brother. You can't tell me to just forget him because he's going to be joining the ranks of the Dark Lord. I might not be a Hufflepuff, but I am damn loyal. And you know what Sirius? Who are you to tell me that he is dangerous? I know him better than you ever knew him. You left him Sirius. You got sorted into the brave, courageous house, ran away from home and left him to be the damn heir to the Black family. You expected him to deal with your parents pureblood supremacy all by himself. Did you ever stop and think that Regulus didn't want this? Did you ever think that he doesn't like who he has to be? No you didn't, you just left him. You abandoned him. Just like my family abandoned me. You think you're so misunderstood and that your life is so bloody awful. Take a step into your brother's shoes."
I yelled at him. Well yelled as loud as I could, figuring I was whispering. He put his hands on my shoulders and looked me into the eyes….and bloody shit. I felt his lips press against mine, as he pulled me closer to him. My first reaction was to in fact, kiss him back, because let's be honest. If almost anyone kissed you, your first reaction would probably be to kiss them back. Sirius fucking Black was kissing me. Me! His best mates little sister and his little brothers best friend. Oh my god, he's such a man slag...I guess I'm not any better, since he's my best friend's older brother and my brother's best mate. He's still kissing me, oh my god. This actually kind of nice. His lips stayed on mine, and I would have pulled him closer if I hadn't been hit with a bludger hours earlier. His tongue brushed against my lower lip when someone coughed.
"Am I interrupting?" I was pulled out of my state of shock at the voice of Regulus. Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck.
"Regulus! Wait!" I cried and looked at him. His face was blank. He was hurt. He was pissed. This is all my fault.
"No," He said calmly, and walked out of there. I managed to pull myself out of bed and try and walk out after him, but as soon as I took my first few steps, I fell to the floor from weakness.
"Fantastic. Bloody fantastic." I mumbled to myself and just sat there on the floor, letting what just happened sink in. Sirius Black, fucking kissed me….he kissed me and now he must die. He probably just ruined my only true friendship. He is going to die. But I kissed him back. I really kissed him. I ruined my only true friendship...I did.
"Well don't just stand there, help me up!" I snapped at Sirius. He just fell for the oldest one in the book. As he stuck his hand out to help me up I yanked him down the floor.
"Ow!" He said as he landed with a thud. Oh but I wasn't done. I reached out to slap him…but we'll, I guess I just slap someone. Nope, I have to punch them. I don't know if I did it on purpose, subconsciously, or not. I don't think I meant to punch him….it just kind of happened...like the kiss. I felt my fist collide with his face.
"What was that for?" He asked as he cupped his face in his hand.
"For free." I said bitterly to him and pulled myself up. Must. Find. Regulus. NOW. I walked towards the door, but of course Madame bloody Pomfrey decides to come waltzing in and starts fussing over me.
"Miss. Potter, go sit down right now. You just fell off of your broomstick and have a severe concussion. Sit! Sit!" God, the woman is mental. I dejectedly walked back to my bed and unhappily sat down. "What happened to you, Mister. Black?" She asked, peering down at Sirius.
"I…um fell." He said lamely, removing his hands from his face.
"Please, can I go?" I whined. I've been in this bloody hospital for three days! Three days of doing nothing but sitting and thinking. Thinking about Regulus being pissed off at me. Thinking about giving Sirius a black eye. Thinking about Sirius ruining my life.
"Hold on Miss. Potter, I need to get your medicine." She shouted to me, while she looked for my medicine. I guess I hit my head pretty hard when I fell off my broomstick? I don't know, but I guess I'm messed up pretty bad now. I blame the dog and stag. Speaking of those animals/things, I have figured it out. They are two animagus. I know it. And I know who they are too. I bet you it was James and Sirius. It explains their ridiculous nicknames for each other. Prongs, cause he's a stag, and the antlers. Padfoot because he's a dog, and they have pads on their paws. They're so obvious about things sometimes it hurts.
"Here you go Jade. Take this one in the morning with your breakfast, these two at dinner, and this one right before you go to bed." She handed me four bottles of potion. Fantastic, I'll probably forget to take all of them, I'll just have Regulus remind me….oh wait! He's probably never going to talk to me again, because he saw me and his brother kissed. Merlin's hot pink g-string, I need to talk to Reg. "And don't drink alcohol with any of them. Take care of yourself." She said and walked back to go take care of some other kid. No alcohol? Guess I can't go and drink away my problems. I walked out of the hospital wing, hopefully I'll find Reg.
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Authors Note!
This chapter is for all you itching for some Jade/Sirius (: I My Reviewers, just thought you should know that. I'll *hopefully* update this weekend :D Woo! I'm sorry that this chapter is shorter then the past couple, but I just thought I should end it here(:
Author's Note 2.o:
Rewrote the Sirius and Jade kiss. I think it's much better this time around.