I've always been bad at hide and seek. Especially at the "seeking" end of it. I had looked through all of the castle and I could not find Regulus. Sirius Black is a lucky man, because if I wasn't so worried about explaining what happened to Reg, then well, let's just say…Sirius would no longer be breathing. I've decided that the kiss was 95% his fault, I was delirious and injured after all. I can't be too much to blame.
I ran a hand through my hair, exhausted. I must of hit my head pretty hard. Maybe I should take my medicine I should of taken an hour ago? I sighed and walked out onto the grounds. It hadn't snowed yet, it would soon though. The cold, late November air stung my face as I walked out into the cold. It felt nice to have some fresh air, instead of the stale hospital air. I slouched against my favorite tree and hoped that Regulus would magically appear. I closed my eyes, just to rest my eyes for a few moments….
"Woof!" I heard a dog bark, startling me awake. My eyes flew open and I pretty much jumped out of my skin.
"Bloody shit!" I looked at the dog, great big and black. What the hell? Why was this dog in front of me? Oh wait…hey it's that dog that gave me the concussion! Indirectly, but still, he gave me the concussion. The dog walked closer to me and sat down, looking at me. Now I've read stories, where the heroine's hero disguises himself as an animagus, and she tells him (thinking that it's just an innocent animal) how she's madly in love with said hero, and blah blah bloody blah. Then, afterwards, the two go off and live happily ever after, or some kind of bollocks like that. There's a reason I don't read books anymore, stories like that make me sick. Back to my point, I'm not as stupid as those Mary-Sue's.
"Black, I might not have the best grades, but I'm pretty smart. Now, I'm going to give you a three second head start, before I break every single bone in your body. I'm not above kicking puppies." I said harshly. The dog (aka Sirius) cocked his head to the side and just looked at me. Was he that thick?
"3.…2.…" I started counting, glaring at him. Maybe he's not as dumb as I thought, because he took off running. That's right, run coward, run. I rolled my eyes. God, I need to find Regulus. I tilted my head back, letting my skull knock against the tree trunk. Well, sitting here isn't going to help me find him. I was about to get up when a voice interrupted me.
"How did you know it was me?" My eyes flickered up to him. That was the guy who kissed me three days ago. Three days ago, Regulus walked in on him kissing me. Three days ago I was kind of kissing him back. I need to go burn in hell now.
"I'm not stupid." I said coldly. "Now once again, I'm going to give you a three second head start-" He cut me off. Jerk.
"Can we talk?" He asked, almost begging.
"I don't know. Remember what happened last time we "talked"? You kind of ruined my life, you know." I glared at him, maybe if I glare hard enough, laser beams will shoot out of my eyes and I will burn his face off. That would be a dream come true.
"I didn't think a kiss would ruin your life." He said.
"Regulus wouldn't even let me explain. He's pissed at me, and I can't find him and I have this bloody concussion, because you and James had to go all animagus and frolic across the lawn."
"You haven't talked to him yet?"
"Didn't you hear me? I told you, I can't find him! He's pissed at me, and it's going to take a lot of convincing for him to forgive me." Sirius, you are unbelievably thick.
"You don't know if he's mad at you-" Now it was my turn to cut Sirius off.
"I'm one hundred percent sure he is mad at me."
"But I don't think it ruined your life." Sirius said calmly. Does he want to get punched again?
"You don't get it." I cried, throwing my hands up for effect. "Regulus is my life! He's the only reason I even come to this hell hole I call school. If it wasn't for him, I would be playing my violin on the streets somewhere. How the hell do you think I got through O.W.L.'s last year? If it would have been up to me, I wouldn't have studied at all. He is my brother and I don't want to lose him...I've already lost one brother. I don't need loose another." I finished, somewhere during that rant, I must of stood up. Sirius stood there quietly, looking down at his feet.
"Look okay, I didn't come here to argue. I'll go talk to Regulus if you want me to," He offered.
"Hahahahahahaha. No. I'm the one who needs to talk him. Not you, not James, me." I said stubbornly.
"Okay, okay," He put his hands up, as if he were saying, I'm innocent, don't yell at me. It took all my self control not to punch him again.
"Look Black. I don't know what you were thinking back in the hospital wing. Chances are, you weren't thinking. Can we just pretend it didn't happen, and I can get on with my life?" I said tiredly as my head throbbed. I really should take that medicine.
"I knew what I was doing," He said definitely. Wait…what?
"Is that so?" I said raising an eyebrow.
"I kissed you to shut you up. Your bitchy rants tend to be really long." He replied, like it was the most obvious thing in the world.
"If you did kiss me to shut me up, then I believe you did so because you can't handle the truth." I said haughtily and walked off.
"Regulus, please just listen to me!" I begged him. I had cornered him in the library, after searching for him for hours.
"I saw what I saw Jade. What else is there to explain?" Regulus said blankly.
"He kissed me! I didn't kiss him!" I yell-whispered.
"Even if that is the case, you were kissing him back. I know what I saw." His eyes flashed with a nanosecond of anger, before changing back to their unreadable state.
"Reg, I had just gotten bitched out by my brother for calling Evan's a mudblood. Plus I had serious head trauma, and I was kind of shocked at the moment that your brother was kissing me! And face it, if someone was kissing you, no matter who it was, your first reaction would be to kiss them back. Besides, I was too busy having an argument with the voices inside my head to realize what the hell was going on, you know how I get!" I thought I saw a ghost of a smile flicker across his face, when I mentioned the voices arguing within my head, but I never saw a real smile.
"Jade. I don't know….I told you I thought he fancied you. I should've saw this coming though, he was bound to do something like this. I just, I need time to think about this…." Regulus brushed passed me. Ugh, stupid Sirius. Stupid kiss. Stupid me, somewhat enjoying the way that kiss tasted. Blah, that last thought makes me want to go brush my teeth.
A week. It's been a week, and Regulus has not once approached me. Ugh, I'm slowly dying, I hope he realizes that. I haven't been eating, I look like a mess, and I'm barely taking my medication. I don't know how I manage to do quidditch practice. Homework is just out of the question. Without Reg nagging me, I'm not getting any of it done. In class, I sit in the back corner by myself, sulking, not paying attention. It sucks not having your best friend, it really does. It's like having broken ribs. From the outside, everything looks fine, but every time you breath, it hurts.
I was currently curled up in an armchair (a cold one at that. Leather is not warm, or comfortable) and I didn't want to move. Everyone else was down at dinner, having a grand old time. Maybe if I go to sleep, I'll wake up and realize it was all just a dream. I let my eyes droop closed, and fell asleep.
I was jolted awake, my eyes flying open. Where the hell was I? Oh yeah, in the corner of the common room, all by myself, asleep on an uncomfortable chair. The common room was empty except, a group of people by the fireplace. I recognized them as Bellatrix, Narcissa, Rosier, Snape, and some seventh year I didn't know. Bielec, I think it was. And…was that Regulus? They were laughing about something, all of them. I stared in envy, as Regulus smiled, and laughed with apparently his new friends. Sigh. I slowly slipped up into the dorm, grabbing a bottle of fire whiskey and heading out of the common room. Doesn't look like Reg is forgiving me anytime soon, and he's got those other people to hang out with. May as well drink myself into a coma, what do I have to lose?
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Hehehehe, the pictures talk too! I knew they moved, but they also talk. Magic is so…magical. I'm not really sure where I was, somewhere in the castle. Too bad Reggie wasn't with me…oh…he's pissed at me for kissing Sirius. Hmmm…kissing Sirius. That kiss was a damn good kiss too. Oh hey…look, I'm all out of whiskey. Damn, that was my last bottle too I think. Maybe James has some…but he's mad at me too. I'm really great at pissing people off. It's my secret talent, ya know?
"Jade?" Someone asked, sitting down next to me. Who was this? Hmmm….he's tall, and I'm too tired to look up at his face. I'm out of booze! Damn it!
"Yeah?" I mumbled, staring dejectedly at my empty bottle.
"Did you drink all of that?" The mystery person asked.
"Well maybe…yeah." I giggled. "Reg is mad at me, because his brother kissed me when I got hurt, and Reggie saw and he's pissed at me now, and he's got new friends now. He doesn't even need me anymore. I saw him laughing and talking with those…people. I'm just gonna be a loser, with no friends. I suck at having brothers. I lost James without doing anything, and now I lost Regulus because of that dingbat Sirius." I sighed, pouting.
"Dingbat?" The person laughed lightly.
"Yeah, he kind of ruined my life ya know? But I guess in turn, I could ruin his life too, I know a lot of his secrets. Him and James, they can't whisper at all."
"What do you know?" His (I'm guessing it's a guy…either that or it's a girl with a really deep voice) tone becoming more serious.
"Well, I don't know if I should tell you because that would pretty much ruin his life. Oh…well he ruined my life so I guess that payback's a bitch. But don't tell anyone what I'm telling you. And I mean don't tell anyone. Because like, when someone tells me not to tell anyone, that excludes my best friend. Though he's not my best friend anymore. I think he think's I like Sirius more than him or something. Which is ridiculous, because Regulus is the one who is tattooed forever onto my back. But he doesn't know that. So don't tell anyone that either."
"I won't tell anyone." He replied.
"Well I know he's an illegal animagus. He's a big black dog, and my brother is a pony…I mean he's a stag. And my brother has an invisibility cloak. Of course, I didn't get a cloak. Nope. That's why I'm so good at disillusioning charms. I'm just good at charms in general really, but I never get recognition for that, because I'm awful at transfiguration. Precious James is the bloody god of transfiguration. So since I'm horrid at turning frogs into mirrors, all people do is tell me how bad I am at that, rather than tell me how I'm good at charms," I ranted, with no intention to stop.
"Jade, you're getting off topic," He cut in.
"Am I? I tend to do that. So anyway, I also know that they have a map of the whole school, it's called the marauders map. They know all the shortcuts in the building, and all the passages out of Hogwarts too." I concluded. I bet there are more secrets, I'll find those out too, eventually.
"Wow, so you know all of that…would you ever tell anyone?" The mystery man asked. I hiccupped, man was I tired.
"I don't know….probably not. Unless I wanted revenge on Black. Though I guess I could get revenge now, since he ruined my life. I guess I may as well ruin his." I shrugged.
"Ruined your life, huh? It was just a kiss."
"Yeah, Regulus won't talk…to me…but in all honesty, I kind of liked the kiss. But not that I would tell anyone that, even under wand point." My eyes fluttered closed.
I woke up, and the first thing I noticed was that I had a headache the size of Russia. Oh jeez, I was drinking last night…who knows what I said and or did. The next thing I noticed is that I was sleeping on something warm and hard and that something warm and hard was breathing and had its arm wrapped around my waist.
"Bloody bitch, sweet baby Jesus!" I screamed, realizing I was sleeping on a person.
"Whazzgoinon?" I peeled the arm that was around my waist off and looked at the guy I had fallen asleep on. Oh Merlin's plaid slippers, of all people. I hate my life.
"What the hell happened last night?" I regret yelling that, because it just made my headache worse.
"You-you don't remember?" Sirius asked, still waking up.
"No! I was attempting to drink myself into a coma last night, so what the bloody hell happened?" I snapped at him. Oh jeez, who knows what I did last night...I watched as a smirk fell onto his face. Wanker.
"That explains why you wouldn't shut up last night. You talk a lot when you're wasted."
"You're not answering my question, what did I say last night? And why did I wake up with your arm around my waist?" I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Well, you told me that you know some secrets about me. James and I will have to work on our whispering skills," He said, still smirking.
"Damn…now how am I supposed to get into your dorm without you knowing it's me?" I muttered under my breath.
"You also told me how you're good at disillusioning charms, and how Regulus is tattooed onto your back? Is that true?" He raised his eyebrows at me. Damn, I told him about that too?
"Yes, it's very true. I'm fantastic at disillusioning charms. So what else did I say?" Maybe, if I changed the subject fast enough he would forget about the tattoo.
"So, Regulus's face is on your back?" Damn.
"Not his face! And don't tell anyone, because I live with a bunch of future death eaters, who will gladly kill you, I threatened.
"I won't tell anyone." He put his hands up.
"That includes your best friends too."
"I know, you went on that rant last night." Sirius rolled his eyes.
"Well I just got the constellation that he's in, tattooed on my lower back. You know, cause he's named after that star." I hope we can get this conversation over with soon.
"Yeah I know, but why did you get it permanently put on your skin? And how did you get a tattoo anyway? It's illegal for anyone underage."
"You're asking me how to break the rules? I wasn't going to wait until this year to get them. What do you think I did this summer? I didn't just stay in my room and sulk around all day. I sneak out a lot, especially at night."
"Them? You have more than one?" He asked, bewildered. I grinned.
"I'm just full of surprises, aren't I? And yeah, I have one of a syringa on my shoulder. Don't go telling James about these either, he hates me enough as it is. I don't need him telling my parents about my illegal activates." I guess I don't really care if James finds out though. I'm moving out as soon as I can.
"Yes, you're full of surprises. You said some interesting things last night." He laughed.
"And what would those things be?" I could feel a tiny blush form on my face. We sat close together, our knees brushing.
"What's this?" The voice of Remus Lupin cut into our conversation. Shit, if James is with him this is going to look really bad. I looked over my shoulder and breathed out a sigh of relief. It was just Remus.
"Oh you know…discussing illegal things like tattoos." I said quickly. It's not like he knows Sirius and I we're sleeping together. No not, that sleeping. Like legitimate, close your eyes, have dreams, sleep.
"Hey there Mooney.." Sirius grinned.
"You're lucky I found you instead of James, Pads." I snickered at that nickname, I doubt I could ever get over that. Sirius and Remus looked towards me.
"If you ever plan to have the female population take you seriously, ditch the nickname Pads." I laughed to myself as the two boys rolled their eyes.
"So what were you two doing last night? During patrols, I saw you two passed out on each other, and I saw the empty fire whiskey bottle…?" Remus raised his eyebrows at us. I mean Black and I. Not us.
"The mystery person!" I cried, I remember that now. The guy who sat next to me...I can't remember what I said, but I remember a person.
"What?" Sirius asked, looking confused.
"Surprisingly, I can somewhat remember my drunken escapade last night. I can really only remember this guy, sitting down next to me, and me being too lazy to look up, and I remember telling him about everything…like how you…RUINED MY LIFE. Holy shit mother fucking hell...I just had a nice conversation with you when I'm supposed to be pissed at you because you ruined my life and bloody wank biscuits you're the whole entire reason Regulus is pissed at me and why he's gonna do the….ugh never mind, fuck, I fucked up. I fucked up, I fucked up, I am trash."
"Jade! Jade, calm down! You're not helping your hangover," Sirius shushed me. Speaking of my hangover, my head was pulsating steadily now.
"I can't calm down, how do you expect me to calm down? And who do you think you are, thinking you can just come and…and try and be friends with me? We can't be friends, we live in two separate worlds! James hates me, you're supposed to hate me too. You and him are joined at the hip, you're supposed to hate the same things as him. I'm just an icky Slytherin, a slimy snake. You hate every Slytherin. I was sorted into the same house as Snivellus for godssake! You've hurt my best friend…well he's still my best friend, but I don't think I'm his…countless times, I should hate you!" I scolded Sirius, I'm really need to go smoke something in the green house. My knuckles are white, but I can't seem to get a grip on life. I opened my mouth to start ranting again but Sirius put his hand over my mouth.
"You're going to wake up the whole bloody castle Jade! Mooney-" Sirius looked towards Remus. Hmm I wonder what animagus Remus was? Mooney….moon….hmmmm? Maybe he's a unicorn. Can a person even be a unicorn? I don't know, I can have dreams can't I? "I really would appreciate if you don't mention this…predicament to James, I'll do it myself," Sirius sounded a little exasperated, like he was mentally freaking out.
"You two are bloody mental. You better tell him about this though, or he will be pissed if he finds out from someone else." Remus stated calmly. That kid is always so…so….calm.
"I will, come on, let's go get some breakfast." Sirius stood up, walking towards the great hall. "You coming Jade?" He asked me. We. Are. Not. Friends. I. Will. Not. Be. Friends. With. Black. I. Will. Not. Tolerate. Him. He. Ruined. My. Life. I. Will. Not. Be. Nice. To. Him.
"No, I don't go to breakfast. I've got no friends to sit with anyway, so what's the point?" I said, turning to walk towards the common room.
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Author's Note, Bizatches!
Sorry this took so long to write, writers block D: Kind of a filler chapter, I know :\ I decided to throw drunk Jade in there, because what the hell, why not? It's fun to write things from a drunks POV. Not that I know what it's like to be drunk…anywhoo, I don't know when chapter 14 will be up. Schoolwork is kind of ruining my LIFE. Oh, so yeah, you all should go listen to the song "Golden" by Fall Out Boy. It reminds me of Regulus. GO DO IT. GO LISTEN TO IT NOW! NOW! I DEMAND YOU! IF YOU WANT A CHAPTER 14 YOU MUST LISTEN TO THAT SONG! Plus, if you listen to that song, then you will get bonus points and a cookie! :D
Author's Note 2.0
Sometimes I love Sirius/Jade.