I couldn't help but feel ashamed of myself. I wished that I could have gone back and hit myself over the head and knocked some sense into myself. Maybe it hadn't been my fault, but that didn't make me feel any better about.

"Hey Suga, you feelin' alright?" Daichi and Asahi look me over carefully. "Is your neck hurting or something?" I'd had my hand on the side of my neck all day. That was to cover up a single mark that I had no way of covering up. It was too low to cover it with my hair and too high for the collar of my shirt. And unfortunately, I had nothing I could put over it.

"I'm fine Daichi." No I wasn't, but I certainly wasn't about to explain what had happened yesterday. No way. It was way too embarrassing. I'd even had to skip yesterday's practice.

"You sure? You look like you're gonna be sick..." the captain said, looking worried.

As I opened my mouth to say that I was fine, an unfortunately familiar face came in and attacked Asahi with a hug. "Hey Asahi!" The sound of her voice made my stomach turn. Her eyes looked my way and locked on. I could clearly see the mischievous spark in them, though everyone else seemed completely oblivious. "Oh hey Koushi! I didn't know you were on the same team as my brother."

The team's eyes were on me in an instant. "I didn't know she was your sister, Asahi," I said, struggling to keep my voice calm. Having such a manipulative girl so close to me was putting me on edge. How could she act so sweet and innocent after what she'd done to me?

"You know each other?" Asahi looked back and forth between me and his younger sister. Absentmindedly, I lowered my hand from it's position at my neck. The ace's eyes went wide and I instantly realized my mistake, quickly covering the mark again. "Suga, what was that?"

The first year next to him giggled. It was getting harder and harder by the second to keep the scowl off my face. "Oh yeah, you never did tell me how you got that! I asked you so many times when you were helping me study yesterday!"

"You were studying yesterday? That's good."

He's seriously buying that ridiculous excuse? It was then that I realized something: Asahi had no idea how his sister really was. She must have been been really good at pretending to be an innocent little girl like everyone thought she was.

"Koushi helped, didn't you?" She looked at me with a sickly sweet smile. What she was saying was completely wrong.

Slowly, she moved closer and stood next to me. When she put her hand on my arm, something inside snapped. I grabbed her by the wrist and pulled her off of me. "Don't. Touch. Me." Ignoring the shocked cries from my teammates, I glared down at the first year whose name I didn't even know. For the first time, she actually looked like she was scared... or at least panicking. "Drop that stupid little-miss-innocent act already. Why don't you tell him what you were really doing yesterday?"

She just stared up at me silently. I didn't let go of her wrist, so she couldn't have run away. "If you're not going to tell them the truth, then I will," I threatened. I was going to tell them what she'd done, but I intended to leave myself out of it.

"You wouldn't dare!" Her reaction had come almost instantly. I could see a flicker of panic in her eyes as she realized what she'd just done. She'd pretty much just admitting that she'd lied. "It's not like anyone would actually believe whatever lie you make up anyway."

As much as I hated to admit it, she had a point. No matter what I tried to say, she could simply deny it and claim that I was lying. So unless I could prove she'd done anything without letting Asahi know that I was involved, no one would believe it.

Even so, I couldn't just let this go. Not after what she did to me. There had to be some sort of proof other than that annoying mark on my... That was it! Maybe there was a mark on her as well. Searching quickly, I saw it just barely visible through her hair. I pulled her close to me and pulled her hair to the side, showing the bruise that now stuck out on her neck.

"Care to explain this then?" I challenged, not daring to mention that I was the one responsible for it. The girl tried to push me away and cover it back up, but it was already too late. At last I let her go and instead of explaining, she ran off with tears in her eyes.

Once she was gone, Daichi gave me a cautious look. "Suga, how do you know what she did?"

Taking a deep breath, I began to explain how I'd walked in on her and some guy fooling around in one of the empty classrooms after school. I told them about how I'd chased off the guy. But then when Asahi asked about this guy and I'd said that I'd stopped them before anything had happened, I realized how badly I'd slipped up. I'd just given away that there was something I wasn't telling them.

Daichi gave me a scolding look. It wasn't hard to guess what I'd left out. Even if I didn't seem the type to do something like that, my silence about the matter pretty much proved that I was guilty.

The look on Asahi's face scared me. I couldn't tell if he was super pissed and wanted to kill me or if he was just crushed and about to cry. I mean, how would you feel if you found out one of your closest friends had sex with your younger sibling? Personally I'd be pretty angry if I were in his place.

All I could do was look down at the ground. I was ashamed of what I'd done. Even though I had no idea that she was Asahi's younger sister, I'd still done something that I shouldn't have. "I... I never meant to do anything at all!" It sounded like a poor excuse, but it really was the truth. "I swear I was never going to do anything like that at all... But she pushed me until I... I couldn't stop myself..."

It might have sounded like I was trying to blame it all on her, but I wasn't. I was only saying what happened. After I'd ruined her little fun time, she'd decided to get back at me by seducing me and making me lose all control. Afterwards I was so disgusted with myself having let her take advantage of me so easily that I skipped practice and locked myself in my bedroom for the rest of the night.

A hand touched my shoulder and I looked up. My eyes met with Asahi's and I grew confused. "My sister's always been an innocent little angel, I can't imagine her doing something like that," he said calmly. Wait, he was still going to take her side?! "But I know you wouldn't lie to me."

The ace smiled at me a little and I felt a wave of relief wash over me. At least he didn't hate me for it. "I know she wouldn't do such a thing without a reason, but I don't know why she'd suddenly start acting that way."

"Why do you say that?" I couldn't seem to find my voice at the moment, but I was grateful for Daichi asking the question I now had on my mind. And the answer that Asahi gave me was more shocking than I could have ever guessed.

(Reader's POV)

Back in middle school, there was a guy I had been dating. We stayed together even into our first year of high school, but shortly after the school year started, that relationship ended. It was for the better, so I wasn't all that broken up about it. He'd been getting a little too physical and I hadn't felt ready to do the things he'd wanted.

But when we'd broken up, he'd told me that it was because I refused to have sex with him even though we'd been together two years. After that he'd said that if I wouldn't have sex with a guy then no guy would ever want to date me.

It might not have hurt me at first, but slowly it had gotten to me and eventually I'd decided that if I could just get the first time over and done with, then I'd be okay with doing anything with whoever I ended up dating. That boy... Katayama or whatever his name had been... he'd been just chosen randomly.

Sugawara just happened to come in at the wrong time and stopped me before I could have even done anything. I'd chosen a first year because a figured he wouldn't be experienced and therefore not as intimidating, but that sort of backfired and Sugawara became the wrench in my plan.

Once I'd caught him staring at my partially open shirt, I got the idea to just use him in place of the guy he'd chased off. He'd resisted me at first, but eventually his own desires won out against his mind that was desperately telling him to stop. By that time though, I'd started to get scared and I wanted to back out. But it was a little too late to back out, so I forced myself to keep going. I'd already pushed him to the point that he'd lost all control of himself, so I probably couldn't have stopped him anyway.

Afterwards, I felt ashamed and decided to act like nothing had ever happened. I'd never tell my brother what happened and it'd be like it didn't happen. Like a bad dream. But then Sugawara was really upset with me for what I did to him and threatened to tell Asahi. If Asahi ever found out, I'd never be his innocent little angel ever again.

And now, here I was, tucked away in a little corner all alone. Tears streamed down my face, but I wasn't completely sure why. I mean, sure I was scared of how Asahi would react if Sugawara really did tell him, but my brother was a teddy bear and would never hurt even a fly. But even so, that shouldn't be enough to make me cry like this. Maybe it didn't matter anyway.

With my head down, I didn't see him approaching until I felt his arm around me. As he pulled me over to lean on him, I looked up into the gentle eyes of Koushi Sugawara. He didn't say anything and just sat there with me.

"You... you were scared, weren't you?" he asked after some time. He wasn't looking at me, so I couldn't really tell how he was feeling. "You were shaking and you looked like you really didn't want to do it. But you didn't even try to stop me. Why?"

He was right. I'd been terrified. "I... I had to do it..."

"No you didn't." Sugawara's eyes met mine with a fierce gaze. "You don't have to do anything unless you want to. If some jerk can't understand that then that's his problem. No one can make you do something you don't want to or aren't ready to do."

That statement wasn't entirely true. "That... that's not true... I made you..." He was right though. If I wasn't ready then I didn't have to do it at all. But what about him? I'd pretty much forced him to do the things he'd done.

It was quiet again for awhile. "You... you were my first," he admitted, a bit of red tinting his cheeks.

"Really?" Sugawara nodded. "You're really handsome, so I thought you would have had lots of girls."

He laughed a little and I couldn't help but smile. "Nah. I'm kind of a coward, so I was always too shy to every try anything past an innocent kiss. And I was always sort of intimidated by any girls that had more experience than me, so I never could get anywhere."

"You're still not as much of a coward as Asahi." And more quiet. "Asahi... he hates me now, doesn't he?" I asked. I had a feeling that I already knew the answer.

"No." I nearly tackled the third year in surprise. That wasn't the answer I'd expected at all. "You're still an innocent little angel in his eyes."

It was a bigger relief than I thought when I'd heard that. Happy for that, I threw my arms around him in and innocent hug. "Thanks, Sugawara."

"Koushi." As he returned the hug, I stared up at him in surprise. "I don't mind if you call me by my first name, just don't go and seduce me again. I don't think I could handle it."

"I promise I'll never do it again, Koushi."