"Pensieves! Why didn't I think of it sooner!" He kept muttering about something. What the hell is a bloody pensieve? "Go to the library, and ask for a book on them. Go!"
"You just hold the wand up to your temple, and imagine just pulling the memories out of your head." Somehow we got this pensieve thing set up in Regulus' dorm. It involved me breaking into the potions supply cupboard, via disillusioning charm, him telling me what to do and me hoping I wouldn't mess it up. We would have to hurry up and get this done with, because classes would be ending soon.
"I'm trying!" I held my wand up to my temple and imagined pulling the memories out of my head. "It's not working." I crossed my arms over my chest, frustrated.
"I'll buy you a pound of Bertie Bott's if you do it," He encouraged me. Hmm…a pound of Bertie Bott's. That's tempting. Maybe I should try a different memory…how about the memory of me telling Sirius to "get the fuck out of my compartment"? That seems like a good one. I focused on that memory.
"You did it!" Regulus cried, I stared at my wand. A silver wisp of something (my memory I guess) hung off the end of it. I swirled my wand in my cauldron and watched in the pool of water as I materialized, along with Sirius. You couldn't hear my yelling, but you could see my mouth move.
"Where's my jelly beans?" I turned towards Reg, looking away from the pensieve.
"You should know that while this won't erase the memories out of your head, it will make it significantly harder for a legilimens to find them….but of course, food is what you're thinking about, not the fact that you just figured out how to pull thoughts out of your head." He rolled his eyes.
"I love Bertie Bott's, what can I say?" I grinned.
"Where are we going to hide this?" Good question.
"I have no idea…second floor girls bathroom, but someone might come across it in there. We could put it under my bed, or yours for that matter."
"We'll keep it under mine, your cat will end up drinking it, if it's under yours." Jaws, the demonic cat, would definitely do that.
"Your bed it is." We put a charm on it, so the contents wouldn't spill out of it and so no one except for us could find it.
"What the hell is going on in here?" Rudolphus Lestrange walked into the dorm. It has just occurred to me how…sexual that last sentence I just said was. People always over hear me when I say something dirty. The world is against me, I swear.
"It's exactly what it sounded like," I winked and breezed out of the room. You could hear Regulus roll his eyes and bring his palm to his forehead for the umpteenth time that day.
It was well after dinner and I was in the library again, trying to catch up on the homework I had missed today. Just kidding. Do you really think I would go to library for homework? The real reason I'm in here is because I'm looking for that unicorn rabies book. What? Regulus is sick and I have nothing else to do. I scanned the shelves…what was that book named? Muffled yells could be heard out in the hallway. Gradually they were growing louder, maybe I should go check it out?
"You greasy git," I heard Sirius taunt Snape, as I walked out of the library. A small crowd had gathered around the two. I don't know what was going on, but it looked like it was going to get ugly. Don't the marauders ever get bored of tormenting old Snape?
"Because we've never heard that before." I shouted at Sirius, pushing my way through the crowd. He turned and his eyes locked with mine.
Now, I'm not one who is very fond of Severus Snape, but sometimes that bloke just needs help. He gets picked on by everyone. I mean everyone. Even the Slytherin's who he thinks are his friends mock him behind his back. Sometimes I feel bad for him, he's just so pathetic. Someone needed to step in and save his sorry ass. That someone was going to be me. Look at me, my inner Gryffindor showing.
"Well you can't deny the truth, doll face." He said cockily. Oh, he thinks he's so witty and clever.
"Sweetie, your lines get old. Learn some new insults. Just leave him alone, you having nothing better to do than pick on a Slytherin? What are you in, second year?" I rolled my eyes.
"I don't need your help." Snape snapped at me. See what I get for being nice? "I do not need help from a little blood traitor like yourself." Oh, ouch. Good one, Severus. Right in the heart.
"Such big words from such a little boy." I found myself saying. Wasn't I supposed to be chewing out Sirius? Oops.
"Oh yeah, I forgot you want to join the Dark Lord," Snape gave me a quick smirk. Shit. The crowd was quiet, Sirius heard that. Sirius will tell James, James will tell my parents, and then I can never help destroy Voldemort. I'd be too busy washing the house elves feet or some kind of punishment like that, for the rest of my life. "Like he would ever let a blood traitor like yourself become a servant."
"Like he would ever let a filthy half blood like yourself join," I glared back and whipped out my wand. I took a page out of the Marauder's book of spells, because I needed to shut this guy up before he let anything else slip. "Caninus!" I yelled and watched as Snape transformed into a puppy. An ugly one at that. If I can get out of here fast enough and pretend this never happened, then maybe Sirius will forget what Snape said and won't tell James that I have ambitions to join Voldemort. A girl can have dreams, can't she? This is what I get for being nice. The lesson this time? Never do anything ever, especially for Snape.
I felt a hand grab my shoulder and drag my backwards. I smiled at the sight of puppy-Snape. It's fur was greasy, which I thought was a nice touch. I should probably think of something to tell Sirius, before he corners me and yells at me and stuff. I believe I will use some of the best advice I've ever gotten. Deny everything. He pulled me into an empty classroom, and slammed the door behind him. Damn did he look pissed. I sat on top of a desk, and looked around the classroom.
"Is what he said true?" Sirius paced back in forth in front of me.
"What? Snape?" Stalling is always good, right?
"Yes."
"No."
"Why would he lie about that?" Hmmm…he's pretty good at asking questions. He should be a lawyer…or something.
"I don't know. He's Snape. He was probably upset that "a dirty blood traitor" like myself was helping him. You know how Snape gets."
"Look Jade, you know that I know about Regulus, and him over the holidays. Are you joining Voldemort or not?" Sirius got right to the point.
"I know about Regulus and his plans for the holidays. But I assure you, I'm not going to join Voldemort as well, I don't approve of what Reg is doing, but it's not up to me to stop him."
"Then why are you still friends with him!?"
"I wouldn't stop being friends with him just because he is becoming a death eater! I've told you many times. Regulus is my brother-" He cut me, scoffing.
"He's not your brother."
"You want to bet?" I challenged Sirius. "He is a brother to me, whether you think so or not. He is my only family left, he is all I have Sirius. Everyone else left me. I'm not going to lose him too, just because of this. How many times do I have to tell you this?"
"If you were really his friend, you wouldn't let him do this." Now it was my turn to scoff.
"Like it's his choice." I rolled my eyes.
"What?"
"Honestly Sirius, do you think he would choose to do this? He'll never admit it, but I know he's doing this for you."
"What?" He repeated dumbly, blinking.
"It's so your parents will leave you alone. He sees how awful they are to you. You're lucky, you have a brother who cares about you. Who would throw away his life for you. I can't believe you take him for granted to so much." I stared into Sirius's eyes. They were so similar to Regulus's. The same color, except Reg's, you could barely ever read. Sirius on the other hand, his eyes gave away his emotions. They were the gateway to his thoughts. I could see everything he was feeling just by looking into his eyes.
"He…what? He can't be. He doesn't care about me. Our parents, they love him, he is their pride and joy. He is just like them…Regulus. No. I don't believe you. You're lying you're-" He stammered out his words, trying to put his thoughts together. I was still sitting on the desk, but Sirius had moved closer to me. He kept muttering about Regulus, trying to disbelieve what I had said. His eyes, gave him away…his eyes.
"Just shut up and kiss me," I blurted out. I pulled him closer to me by the collar and kissed him. Long and hard. I felt his tongue move it's way into my mouth. My hand clung to his neck and the other wove it's way through his hair. Closer. I need him closer. I wrapped my legs around his waist and I felt his arm wrap around my waist. No longer were we Jade and Sirius. No, me and him became an us. Sirius and I. Us. It felt kind of nice.
Only I would fall asleep snogging. I don't know how long we were kissing but it was a damn long time. I woke up laying in the corner, against a wall with Sirius beneath me. Like when I woke up with the hangover. I don't know how that whole snogging episode happened…but it just happened. Okay, I do know what happened. I remember exactly what happened. I told Sirius to shut up and then I kissed him and we snogged for a long time and at some point we fell asleep. No, we didn't shag. Just kissing. Is it wrong to say I don't regret what I did? If Regulus ever found out, he would murder me. Oh shit, Regulus. I just kissed his brother, and I enjoyed it. I could feel Sirius breathing beneath me. I could feel his chest rise and fall, and it felt nice.
Yeah, Reg is going to kill me.
Why did I do this? I'm awful, I really am. I don't deserve to have someone as amazing as Reg as my friend. I just ruined any trust we had. He can never trust me. I can't lie to him about this either, he can always tell when I'm lying. Maybe I can pretend it didn't happen? I don't know what I'm going to do. Oh my God, I just ruined my life. Because I couldn't control my bloody hormones. Do I have feelings for Sirius? No. I don't like Sirius Black. Or maybe I do. I don't know!
I bit my lip, and looked up at the ceiling. What am I going to do? I just kissed Sirius Black, and I don't regret it either. It was one of the most amazing things I've ever felt. Like I said, I'm an awful person. I don't deserve to have anyone as a friend. I felt a tear slide down my cheek. Sirius stirred from underneath me.
"Hmmm…" He mumbled softly. I hugged my knees to my chest and watched him wake up. His eyes slowly opening. I wish I could punch him, and blame him for this, but I can't. I did this to myself. I kissed him. I'm such a slag. "Huh? Jade? Oh…fuck." He looked at me and I just felt the tears falling. I'm so screwed. "Oh Jade…don't cry." He put an arm around my shoulder and I couldn't even bring myself to tell him to not touch me. Maybe I didn't want to tell him that. I don't know.
"How did I let that happen? I never slip up…I'm a Slytherin…we…we…don't show emotion." I shook my head. Uhg.
"Jade, it's my fault-"
"No. It's not. I was the one who said, and I quote, "shut up and kiss me" Sirius, I'm sorry." I looked at him, my eyes blurry.
"You have nothing to be sorry for. We…can just pretend this never happened." Each word stung me as he said it.
"So…you want to pretend this never happened…? I see how it is." I looked away. God, when did I become such an emotional wreck?
"What? No! Jade!" Sirius sounded frustrated. I wonder if he's going to tell James…James.
"Are you going to tell James?" I said quietly.
"Oh merlin…James. I have no idea." We sat there in awkward silence. I spoke.
"I don't want to pretend this never happened…I liked what happened."
"Y-you did?" He sounded shocked. "Usually by now you would be punching me and telling me to get the fuck out of your compartment or something." I laughed uneasily. "I liked it too." He finished.
"We can't be together though. We live in two different worlds."
"We could be Romeo and Juliet." He grinned. Idiot.
"Sirius. They died."
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Hey there my lovelies!
Short chapter, I know, disappointing. But I just figured this would be the best place to end this chapter, so I can think about what I'm going to do next! Well for all of you itching for some Sirius/Jade THIS BETTER SATISFY IT! :D Suggestions for later chapters are always nice(: Being on break is awesome Lots of time to write fanfic. Love ya! Oh and I just died laughing, you should all read the story "Harry Potter and the Pregnancy Potion" you will be disturbed yet amused. xD But mostly disturbed, hehe.
Author's Note 2.0
I really love Sirius and Jade. Help me.