Red shirt. Pale blue bow tie. Dark wash jeans. Red shoes.
Red shirt. Pale blue bow tie. Dark wash jeans. Red shoes.
Red shirt. Pale blue bow tie. Dark wash jeans. Red shoes.
Over and over again. Those were the colors that Blaine brought me in his last visit, but he had to leave early, again. I can't remember why. I woke up and Blaine was gone, but Oliver was here.
He has been being mean to me for the past few days. Sometimes I just wish he would do away. But that's mean.
I sigh and sit up when a nurse walks by. "When can I see Blaine again?" I called through the cracked door.
The nurse stopped and stood in the doorway. "When did you last see him? Can you remember?"
I hate when they do this. It makes me want to scream that I am not stupid, just because I am in here doesn't mean that I am stupid.
I roll my eyes. "Yes. I saw him exactly a week ago today."
"And he hasn't been back to see you yet. You think he still loves you?" Oliver says from his chair in the corner of my room.
"Quiet," I say to him and turn my attention back to the nurse. "Can I at least give him a call?"
"I'm not sure…"
"You can supervise. I'll even...have the door open," I say the last part slowly, I hate having my door open. Anyone can look in and that's just weird.
"Fine. I will be right back with a phone," she says with a small smile and walks away.
I grin. I finally get to talk to my Blainey. I missed him.
"Think he will pick up?" Oliver says with a smirk.
"Of course he will," I pull my knees to my chest, ignoring him.
A couple minutes later the nurse comes back and hands me a phone and takes a seat outside my open door.
I sigh and dial Blaine's number, holding the phone to my ear.
It rings a couple of times then, "Hello?"
"Blaine!"
"Kurt! Hold on Jeff, it's Kurt."
"...you aren't alone?" I say sadly. I don't know why. I don't want Blaine to be sad, or alone. But I want to be the one who is there for him.
"Yeah, Jeff just came over to check on me. How are you feeling baby? It's nice to hear your voice again."
I don't want to tell him that I don't feel well. I want him to think I'm getting better, so he will take me home. "I miss you, B."
"I miss you too Kurtsie. What do you want to talk about?"
I think for a little while, sneaking side glances at the nurse, still watching me. "Will...you sing to me?"
"Of course, my love. Do you have a song in mind?"
"Not really...I just want to hear you sing," I say and lie down, facing away from Oliver. This was my song, I didn't want him to hear any of it.
"Okay cutie. I think I have one in mind," with that he starts to sing slofly. (Young Rising Sons- King of the World)
"Cold as winter in the dead of July
That bitter chill don't just live in my mind
And I can see us taking over the world
I know loss I've looked pain in the eye
I've seen the demons that live in the night
But if I was king
If I was king of the world
All the tales
That have never been told
Build up fires to keep away the cold
We'll sing songs
That will never get old
We'll be here forever
We'll rule the world together forever
With hearts of gold who needs any treasure?
We'll take our time just living our lives
Our castle in the sky
If I was king of the world
I was a stranger
Held my hand to my eyes
Blindly walking on a street full of lies
But I found truth
Buried deep inside of my bones
Lonely nights shaking villains and thieves
So I keep fighting with my heart on my sleeve
But if I was king
If I was king of the world
All the tales
That have never been told
Build up fires to keep away the cold
We'll sing songs
That will never get old
We'll be here forever
We'll rule the world together forever
With hearts of gold who needs any treasure?
We'll take our time just living our lives
Our castle in the sky
If I was king of the world
Then one day the leaves changed
And all that was once grey
It seemed to just fade away
I'm feeling so alive
In this castle in the sky
All the tales
That have never been told
Build up fires to keep away the cold
We'll sing songs
That will never get old
We'll be here forever
We'll rule the world together forever
With hearts of gold who needs any treasure?
We'll take our time just living our lives
Our castle in the sky
If I was king of the world.
We'll rule the world together forever
With hearts of gold who needs any treasure?
We'll take our time just living our lives
Our castle in the sky
If I was king of the world"
It's a song I've heard before, but the slow tempo Blaine uses, and the thick emotion in his voice makes it sound like new, by the end there are tears running down my cheeks. I am quiet for a long time.
"Kurt?"
"That was beautiful as always B. I love you."
"I love you too baby," his voice is still thick, and he sniffles, giving away that he is crying.
That's when the nurse has to barge in and ruin my moment. "Time to hang up Kurt."
"I have to go, B. I love you."
"I love you too. I will see you as soon as they let me."
The nurse takes the phone away from me and hangs up, walking out.
"He loves me," I say, lying on my back staring at the white ceiling.
"Let's see how long that lasts," Oliver says with a smirk.