Shopping! Once I got to the mall it was a whole new experience. I was a trillionaire. I could buy anything I wanted. It was setting in that I don't have to settle for ok or plain Jane. I need to incorporate personality and a little bit of fresh and spring, fun essence. The only thing that would make this better is a shopping buddy. I immediately though of Jake and felt my mood dampen a bit. Well my next step in business would be visiting Jake. I would do that tomorrow morning.
I got out of my truck and heard the door shut with a squeak. I looked at my truck thought I'd love a new car. The though immediately made me realized I had enough money to buy a million trucks and more. I think I might do that this week. I have the money for a new car. EEppp! How exciting. I've never felt this way before but I love being able to feel happy again.
I'm slowly healing.
I got inside and met the spell of pretzels and food. MMmm yum! Maybe I could get some later. I walked around and found myself outside of Victoria's Secret. I did need new bras. I prices were outrageous but hey I had money to spare. I was already there and got some pretty sexy underwear. I looked around and bought some yoga pants. T-shirts. A sexy Pj set with short shorts and a silky tank top. And I found some body lotions and bath scrubs. It was something new to try but just wearing something beautiful made my confidence level rise.
My shopping consisted in Charlotte Rousse, Forever 21, Express, H & M, Sephora, American eagle, Coach, Channel. The more I shopped the more my taste got more expensive. But I found I had fun.
I made many trips to my truck to drop stuff off but by the end it was just packed. I went to the food court to buy a pretzel I could still smell. While waiting in line I saw something in the corner of my eye. It was kids from the Res I think.
I sat down and subtle looked to my side. I felt drawn to look. The guys were looking at something else so all I could see was their backs. They were very lean and delicious. There was a pull to the one in the middle. He was the tallest and he looked dark. He looked strong, safe even. They were about to turn in my direction so I quickly looked down but I really felt saddened that I had to look away. My heart felt this hard tug.
I rapidly threw my trash and left the food court. I looked at the time on my phone. It was almost 7. I should start leaving. But I also looked back at my crappy phone. It wouldn't hurt to stop by a t-mobile or verison. They were located in the mall.
I got upgraded to a new phone. While I was about to leave I noticed the same guy I was looking at in the food court was just coming in. I don't know why I feel so drawn to him but I do and I just had to look at him. He was so hot, the green long sleeved shirt was skin tight to his huge muscular body. I was interrupted by the man who gave me the last paperwork. I could tell he was checking me out. It was so demining and in the background I heard a growl. I looked around and found the drop dead handsome tiger. Gggrr, I don't though what has gotten into me but I'm feeling like I'm finally in my element.
I hurried and left. I knew that if I slowed down I would be stuck staring at this perfectly shaped god. Urgh
When I made it home I saw dad talking with Billy in front of the tv, "Hiya, Billy!" I gave him a huge smile and wave.
"Hey, Bella," He was surprised I was up and around,
"Is Jake here," I thought excitedly. This is my chance to talk to him and confront him on HIS wrongs not mine, I did nothing wrong. It's time to put myself first, while still being humble of course.
"No, he's still not feeling well,"
"Well maybe I'll stop by tomorrow to cheer him up,"
"I don't think that's a good idea. His illness is pretty contagious."
"Oh, okay well, we'll see then," I went upstairs in a hurry. What the HELL his problem? He can't keep me from Jake. I wasn't going to take no for an answer.
I will go see Jake tomorrow anyways.
I quickly put away all my new clothes. It consisted of a variety of new scarves, long sleeves in different shades of green, cardigans, sundresses and fun flowy mini-skirts. I was happy with my new look. I also got some new boots in different colors and sandals.
I laid my head on my pillow and reflected on today. It was successful. A new beginning and to think just yesterday I was a shell. With that last thought I fell asleep dreaming of my dark chocolate brown wolf. He was keeping me safe.