Ayo, my dear readers! I just reread the chapters and... eh. Eh. EEEH. Okay, enough of self-hatred! I'm scared that you are complimenting me just because all of you are so nice but saying that would insult you, right?

VioletteWhest, CrazywithKaruNagi: Don't worry, I am going to make Koro-sensei and Nagisa most important in Karma's recovery, so plenty of fluff is to be expected!

Plutsu, Sara Snow, SarahZoldyck, AmyR, IHaveNoName and IDC, Guest, : You are really helpful, I mean it! (I said that reading your reviews makes my day.) I'm really glad that you guys are so tolerant of my mistakes and cheesy story XD :/

kyoko194, Kasumi72: Thanks a lot for your encouragment, there is no need for you guys to write long essays, so don't sweat it. I am actually quite hesitant whether to make him recover or let something worse happen (I guess you would like it that way more, right? XD) Anyways, I will do my best to torture him a tad more.

Mokona lover, ThePinkyNinja: Just by the way, knowing that some people are also doing bad isn't good to know XD I hope that you guys will be fine and for that, I swear I will write chapters that would make your day!

So, let's read the chapter 18!

Karma's P.O.V.

I sighed at the overly-noisy bunch. They fussed so much about a single bookshelf and it wasn't helping my headache.

"Leave it, will you? It has happened many times before anyway."

They turned at me with apologetical faces and silently apologized. Isogai-kun just took a broom and cleaned up the mess. Finally, silence. Now I could go back to sleep.

Or not.

They were persistant. No matter how many times I tried to ignore them or sent them an annoyed face, they just wouldn't let me be. Nagisa-kun would always pop out from above, smiling at me a little forcefully and trying to get me talking. The green haired girl just coppied him.

Don't misunderstand me. I never said I would let them in. The fact that I gave in to that octopus was just because I was dead tired and lost it. Yeah, I completly lost it. I was nuts. Freaking nuts.

"Karma-kun, do you like sweets?" Kayano-chan asked me with a cheerful voice.

"Sensei secretly brought some and we found them. Feel free to take them, it's gonna make him cry," Nakamura grinned with an ill intention. The idea was fine but right now, I didn't feel like pulling pranks.

"Oh, speaking of Koro-sensei, where is he?" I think that was Meahara-kun. My hearing was getting really muffled from the bloodrush in my head.

"He went for groceries." Kanzaki-san answered with her usual elegant tone.

"So do you want them?" the blond girl asked me, turning back to the original topic.

But no matter how tempting it would be to piss off that octopus, I refused: "Sorry guys, but I'm gonna sleep a bit more," I tried to escape, rolling to my side and grabbing the blanket even firmer. Man, it sure was cold. They could turn on the heater - oh wait, I didn't pay the bills for heater. Ah, damn.

However, they didn't let me off the hook so easily: "Eh? But you have been sleeping the whole day! And Bitch-sensei said you haven't eaten anything at all!" That sounded like both Okuda-san and Kayano-chan at once.

Screw everything, I just wanted to lose consciousness. Maybe I would beat myself or something if they didn't let me. Sleep was nice. Not the one with nightmares, I meant the complete nothingness that you weren't even aware of. That empty place where your very existance disappears along with all the feelings and thoughts.

"Oh, sensei is back." Sugino stated and ran down the stairs.

Kanzaki-san and Kayano-chan went down too, saying something about helping with cooking. So they intended to stuff me like a pig, huh?

"Hey Karma, you are going to feel even worse if you sleep so much." The English gal claimed. She started poking my side. Yeah, I was ticklish but tried to surpress the urge to wiggle like a worm.

Out of nowhere, a strong wind blew out my blanket and before me stood a yellow octopus with a smug grin. I would probably hit it if I wasn't shivering. Violently sitting up, I glared at him just to get my mouth loaded with something... good?

My reflex to split it out disappeared and I ate it, to my surprise. The food was warm and soft. It wasn't like it was that delicious but for some reason, it made me feel calmed down and comfortable. If I was some kid, I would probably say that's how love and care tasted. But I knew better than to believe that.

"Was it good?" Koro-sensei asked still smiling from ear to ear as he grabbed the cover and wrapped it around my body. I think someone behind him, a girl, squeeled.

For it would be embarrasing, I rather stayed quiet and carried on chewing.

Nagisa's P.O.V.

We tried to cheer Karma-kun up but it didn't seem to work out well. Every time we talked to him, he just shortly answered with a bored voice. I realized that we had nothing planned out, how to make him open up, what to say, we knew nothing. No matter how much I thought about it, I just didn't find it right to ask anything right now. Maybe because of there being too many people or just the plain fact that my friend was looking like death itself. It made it hard to continue the conversation and soon, we found ourselves just staring at each other, not knowing what to do.

"Uhm, do you guys want to play a game?" Okuda-san asked, trying to make the mood. Karma-kun sat on the bed (wrapped in the blanket), leaning his backs on the wall with bangs covering his eyes as if immersed in his own word.

"Sure, what do you have?" Kataoka-san nodded with a gentle expression.

But before anything could start, the redhead declared: "I'm going sleep," and with that, any attempt to improve the situation instantly failed.

I could see in everyone's face that they were confused and maybe a little upset over the way Karma-kun rejected their efforts. I was too but at the same time knew that he probably needed some time to sort things out. To believe or not to believe, to tell or not to tell, these things were occupying his mind right now.

If only Koro-sensei was here. He could have helped us, helped Karma-kun. But it seems like even octopuses could get busy.

"What do we do now?" Isogai-kun looked at us with a tired expression.

Ah, really. What now?

Karma's P.O.V.

"They have never been your friends."

I knew. Hirame-kun, Komuto-kun, they only needed me for studies. Every time they would ask for help, for me to do something for them. I knew it all along but the thought of not having anyone scared me.

"Silly you, wishing for things you can never have."

For family, for people I could be sure of. "I want to be loved" - my one and only wish. And the exact reason why I turned into what I am right now.

"Why are you crying, kid?" she asked me and suddenly, I was back to my twelve years old self, hiding in a closet. Ah, I remembered that - it was the time I actually broke down and realized how useless everything was. How insignificant a life like me was.

"Come to me, I will make it disappear," the woman had opened the doors, the evil smile of hers stabbing me like thousands of knives. She reached out her hands and I accepted them despite their rotten core, despite the killing intention emitted from them.

"That's right," hugging me, she whispered into my ears.

"You are nothing at all."

And I opened my eyes, unable to catch breath nor move. Another unpretty dream. And it actually paralyzed me for a while. Recalling that I was back to the present, my heartbeat finally slowed down and I already wanted to sit up when a single sentence made me stop.

"That Karma - he's no good after all."

Yes. It hurt.