A/N ok this is the last chapter of this post ep story, please let me know if you liked it, i know its just drabble and smush but i felt like writting a bunch of it

o/n still dont csi

POST EPISODE: COMITTED SEASON 5 EP 21 CONTINUED

The next morning Sara woke up feeling refreshed, something she hadn't felt in a very long time. She had slept dreamlessly and peacefully, she woke up happy.

Sara rolled over to look at Grissom, she watched him sleep, watched the way his body moved up and down. Sara put her hand on his chest and closed her eyes, this movement in his body seemed to calm her.

Grissom began to wake up as he felt Sara's hand on him, he watched her for awhile, not sure if she had drifted off to sleep and not wanting to disturb her if she had. He gently moved her hand from his chest and started to get up, he was hungry and couldn't recall the last time he had, had anything proper to eat. As he got up, Sara spoke to him,

'Grissom, there's no need to rush off' She looked up at him.

'Well, Sara before you jump to conclusions, you should know i'm not leaving' he looked back down at her waiting for her reaction, smiling slightly. 'As it happens i am off to your kitchen to make us some breakfast' he turned and headed to the kitchen smiling to himself. He was determined this time. Taking it slow was fine, but he swore he wouldn't push her away anymore.

Sara lied back down in the bed, she thought she'd stay in bed a little while longer, she was scared that if she moved, this happy moment would end, and she knew she didn't want that. She felt somewhere deep down that Grissom was trying, very hard, he was never one to express himself, in anyway, so this small glimpse of another Grissom, made Sara fill with a hope that there could be something more. One day.

Sara finally walked out into the kitchen and saw Grissom searching through her cupboards, she frowned, she just remembered she didn't keep any decent food in her house, mostly milk and bread and a few cans of various vegetables. Grissom heard her come in and turned to look at, he had a confused look on his face.

'Sara, do you know you have next to know food in your house?' He asked her

'Well, Griss, i don't really eat often and when i do i just order out, sometimes i'm just to tired to bother with food'

Grissom looked at her with concern and sadness, had Sara's life become so empty that she didn't even take the time to enjoy good food.

'Well in that case looks like we're going to have to out and eat, because i'm starving' Grissom looked towards Sara, what he wanted to say was lets have a breakfast date, but once again the word he was looking for escaped him and the moment had passed.

'Sure that'd be great, just let me have a shower and we'll get going' Sara smiled at him, she was happy with the easiness of the situation, it could have been really awkward she thought.

Sara left Grissom in the kitchen and went to have a shower. She showered quickly, she wanted to spend time with Grissom, for some reason today when he looked at her, she couldn't control butterfly's in her stomach, and she liked it.

When she got dressed she took more time than usual to pick out an outfit. She wanted to look nice, but not like she was trying to hard. She finally picked her favorite purple top with a small butterfly near the collar and her favorite pair of jeans. She walked out into the kitchen to find Grissom had relocated to the lounge and had made himself comfy.

'I'm ready to go if you are' She said to him brightly

Grissom looked up from the lounge

'Alright' he said, 'lets eat'

He grabbed his keys and wallets and ushered Sara out the door to his car. He drove them to the his favorite breakfast spot, as they walked in Grissom noticed it was particularly busy, he turned to Sara

'Maybe we should get it to go?, i know a place with a great view' He smiled at her, hoping she'd agree.

Sara smiled back

'sounds good to me'

She was secretly happy, she had wanted to be alone with Grissom and the risk of any of her CSI buddy's dropping by was high this time of the morning.

So they ordered breakfast, Grissom, being old fashioned as he was, insisted on paying, and they headed up towards red rock canyon. It wasn't your typical lush green mountains, it was dry and brown, but nevertheless the view from there of Vegas was beautiful. The morning was clear and smog free. Sara and Grissom sat on the hood of the car eating and chatting happily.

Feeling content Sara layed back on the hood and closed her eyes,while Grissom talked to her about some bug, she hadn't really been listening, she was just happy hearing his voice.

Noticing she was laying back Grissom did something that shocked them both

As he spoke to Sara he placed his hand on her leg, at first Sara didn't really notice. Then Grissom started to caress it, gently moving between her knee and inner thigh. Sara open her eyes and watch his hand, he was still chatting away about the bugs, and she wondered if even realized what he was doing. Sara felt the butterfly's move from her stomach to her mouth, her heart was fluttering in her chest. She had waited so long for any sign of affection from Grissom and now she didn't know what to say.

She began to sit up as she grabbed his hand. Grissom looked down at his hand, only now realizing what he had been doing while he was talking.

'Sara, i'm sorry' he stuttered 'I didn't realize... i didn't mean to' Grissom struggled to find his words again, this seemed to be the trend whenever Sara was around, and truthfully he wasn't sorry, but he didn't want to move faster then Sara was comfortable. She was fragile still and he didn't want to cause any unnecessary pain.

'Gil i don't want you to stop' Sara smiled at him, he loved her smile, at that moment he loved everything about her from head to toe.

He lent in towards her, and kissed her lips, slowly at first, scared she'd pull away, when she didn't he continued more aggressively, he wanted her to know how long he'd waited to do that, and he wanted to enjoy every minute of it.

When Sara couldn't catch her breath any more she place the palms of her hands on Grissom chest and pushed him gently back. Still looking into his eyes, she smiled. Grissom took her hands into his and kissed them.

'If you don't want to move this fast, tell me Sara, i'll wait until your ready, i'll wait forever for you if i have too'

'don't you think you waited long enough Griss?' Sara replied still smiling up at him. Grissom grinned

'I suppose i have' he said. And he lent down and kissed her again. Wanting to stay in this moment forever.

Driving home Grissom could barley keep his hands off Sara, now that he knew he could touch her, thats all he could think about. Not a minute went by were he didn't find himself holding her hand as they drove or putting his hand on her thigh. He couldn't believe he'd nearly lost her.

Once they were through Grissoms door, the frenzy of hands and lips began. Grissom couldn't keep control of himself any longer and Sara allowed herself to be caught up in Grissoms new found wave of passion. Grissom led Sara into his bedroom and layed her on the bed. Looking down at her, he knew there was no one else in this world he would ever love as much as he loved Sara.

Later that night as they lay there, intertwined with each other, Grissom spoke to Sara, the first words any of them had said all night.

'Sara, i think we might be moving a bit faster then we planned' Grissom continued to stroke her hair as he spoke.

'Gil, its fine, i don't mind really, it was beautiful and it felt right' She said, and she meant it, the whole day with Grissom had been wonderful, and she thought about how everyday could be like this

'As long as your ok with it, because honestly i don't mind if we did that everyday until i die' He smiled at her and kissed her cheek

'Well i hope thats a very long time away' Sara paused still smiling 'Gil, what are we going to do about work? i'm pretty sure this is against department policy, actually, i know it is i memorized the handbook'

Grissom rolled over so he was facing her completely,

'Forget about the policy, We'll just have to be careful, no touching' He said with a laugh 'And if anyone finds out, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it, together' He said kissing her lips again

'If you say so Gil but if they find out, its going to be a lot worse for you then me,' She snuggled into him, she was tired again she felt no amount of sleep would make up for the amount she had missed in her life.

'Sara, let me worry about that, if i have to quit i will, you mean everything to me, more then my career or my job. They're replaceable Sara, i cant replace you, i wouldn't want too.' He pulled her in close to him 'I love you Sara, and i'm so sorry that i never told you before, but i wont let you go now, i promise'

Sara smiled, she couldn't even remember how long she had been waiting for him to say that to her

'I love you too Gil,' She said as she started to fall asleep