(Regina's POV)
The moment I was out the door felt tears falling down my cheeks. There was no point in running so I transported myself to my vault, a place I knew I'd find peace.
Honestly, I couldn't believe it, I'd had suspicions in the early days, before Captain Guyliner came along, but now? I'd assumed she'd moved on, fell for someone who'd fell for her. But she hadn't. I never wanted to admit how I'd felt to her, it seemed far too ironic, the evil queen falling for the saviour who ruined her plans. When I met Robin…I remember my heart screaming out her name, feeling the confusion now there was another. I'd settled for a different happy ending and it felt…I never knew what to feel. I'd not exactly experienced a happy ending before, how was I to know what it was supposed to feel like. That and I don't know how to love very well. 'It's me' I'd tell myself 'I'm doing something wrong'. I guess really it wasn't me after all, it was Emma. I can't love Robin when I still loved her, but I had to settle for it. Being with Robin made me happy. Like Swan, he believed in me. But it wasn't the same, it never will be, but I dealt with it.
When Emma sacrificed herself to the darkness for me, I didn't know how to feel. Hope and sadness and grief and so many other emotions would filter through, but mainly pain, I couldn't believe she of all people was being drawn into the dark. But she'd gone there for me and that's what hurt the most.
But now, finding out it was true? I ran my hands through my hair in exasperation; I had no idea what to do. Emma still didn't know I had feelings for her, she probably thinks I hate her, but it's the complete opposite. I had to tell her, I couldn't leave her feeling the same pain I'd felt for all these years.
Disappearing in a cloud of purple smoke once more, I reappeared in Emma's room. I couldn't see her, but there was a faint sobbing coming from the bathroom. I knocked lightly and called out to her just like before "Swan?"