The door slid closed behind her. Owen sighed and got up to look at the CCTV. He finally found her, leaning over the railings looking out over the bay. He sat and watched her for about 10 minutes then realised that it was freezing outside.
He made a fresh coffee and grabbed his coat and went out to find her.

Tosh leant against the railings and started to cry.
"Why the hell do I have to love someone I can't have?" she said to herself
"He's already got someone, he doesn't want me," she said out loud

She folded her arms over the railings; she began to shiver as the cold night air whipped through her thin silk shirt. Suddenly there was a warm coat round her and an arm around her waist.

"Tosh what's wrong?" said a voice
She looked up, it was Owen
"Just leave me alone" she sobbed
"Tosh you're freezing" he said as he pulled his leather jacket round her
"Owen please just leave me alone" she said still crying
"Not until you tell me why you're so upset," he said
"Besides I bought you a coffee," he added holding out the cup of coffee
Tosh smiled and took it
"Thank you, but would you please just leave me alone" she sobbed
"Not going to happen Tosh, tell me why you're so upset"
"Why you wouldn't understand," she said turning away from him and sipping the coffee
"Try me, I'm a good listener"
"Why would you want to listen to me, you should be in there with Gwen"
"What, I don't want to be with Gwen," he said
"Why not she wants you"
"Yeah well I don't want her, I never did really it just sort of happened"
"But you never stopped it" sobbed Tosh
"I tried Tosh I tried but that woman is like a bloody limpet, she turns up in the middle of the night"
"And you always let her in"
"Where's this all coming from Tosh?" he asked willing her to tell him the truth but being Tosh he knew she wouldn't
"I'm talking rubbish, ignore me," she said sighing
"No, I want to know what's upset you so much, I've never known you to cry"
"Haven't you Owen?" she snapped
"No I haven't, Tosh have I done something to upset you"
"It always comes back to you doesn't it" she screamed
"Whoa, calm down what the hell is wrong with you?"
"Do you really want to know Owen"?
"Yes I do, if its something I've done"
"Where did you go after we came back from the brecon beacons"?
"Home, why?"
"You drove Gwen home, you left me to drive myself, didn't even occur to you that I was hurting too after what they did to me and Ianto"
"Tosh I'm so sorry, I didn't think"
"No you never do, you do things Owen and don't consider what you're doing to other people"
"Tosh I don't know what I can do to make it up to you"
"That's just it Owen, you don't know what you're doing. You screw up Gwen's life, and at the same time you screw up mine as well as my head and then tonight you ignore Gwen and start giving me a massage and don't think I haven't noticed you looking at me all night"
"Tosh" he said
"No Owen, just because you're fed up with Gwen doesn't give you the right to start trying to get me into bed because it won't work" she screamed the tears still flowing down her face

He took a deep breath and reached up to wipe the tears away from her beautiful face.
"Don't touch me," she screamed pulling away from him
"Tosh will you shut up and listen to me for a minute" he said sternly
She looked at him
"Tosh do you want to know why I screw around with everyone apart from you"
"Oh go on throw it in my face, I'm not your type I know that already"
"No Tosh, it's not like that," he said gently
"Well what is it like Owen I can't wait to know, why you think I'm not good enough for you to screw around with"
"Its because you're too good for me Tosh, you could do so much better than me"
"Pardon"
"Tosh, I respect you too much to screw around with you. If I'd have know kissing you 2 years ago was going to screw me up as much as it has or screw you up this much I never would have done it" he said
"You don't even remember you were so drunk," said Tosh
"No Tosh I wasn't, I thought you were drunk so I tried it on I had to know what it was like to kiss you just once" he reached up and this time Tosh let him wipe the tears from her face
"I wasn't drunk Owen, I remember you flirting with me all night and then kissing me in front of everyone"
"So do I, oh god Tosh I'm so sorry" he said, he really meant it, Tosh was the one person he wouldn't hurt. And yet all he'd done was push her away.
"When I kissed you I wanted it to be so different but I had to pretend it was just a drunken kiss"
"Felt pretty good to me" said Tosh as she pulled Owens jacket tighter round her, the cold had really got to her and she couldn't stop shivering.

Owen gently pulled her closer to him, she was shivering so much. She was going to get hypothermia out here.
He bent his head and kissed her. He kissed her the way he'd wanted to 2 years ago but didn't have the guts. He wanted her so much but he didn't want to hurt her. All the screwing he'd done with Gwen and before her with Suzie had been trying to get her out of his mind; she was too good for him. He didn't try to prolong the kiss; he just wanted to kiss her properly without having a drink behind him to give him the courage to do it. His conversation with Martha had brought his life into perspective; he loved Tosh and had since she'd first joined them. Martha was dying and she knew it yet all she wanted to do was make sure that her baby survived. He'd loved Diane too, but deep down he'd known she couldn't stay in his time. But Tosh was here and always had been, he'd just been too pig headed to see it. He loved her.

"I'm sorry," he whispered
"Owen"
"Ssshhh" he pressed a finger to her beautiful lips
"I do love you Tosh I always have and I'm sorry I'm an arsehole always have been"
"Owen" she said again
"You can hit me now" he said
"I don't want to hit you Owen, I do want you to kiss me again though"
"Really" he said surprised
"Really" she said smiling.

Owen pulled her to him and wrapped his arms round her and kissed her again. This time she responded with such hunger he almost pulled away. Her arms wrapped round him. Their mouths finally parted
"Can we keep this between us for a while?" she said
"Whatever you want Tosh, I'm not going to rush you into anything" he said and pulled her close
"Lets get you inside before you freeze" he said tenderly and led her back to the hub. This time they used the lift, once inside Tosh pulled his jacket round herself, the shivering was getting worse. He led her to the sofa
"Sit here, you're freezing," he said
"Owen" she said as he relinquished his hold round her waist
"I'll be back, I want to get you a hot drink and a blanket," he said smiling at her.

Tosh nodded as he disappeared from view.