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Living Nightmare

I called Jax as soon as I got up in the morning, checking in on how everything was from the night before. The clubhouse was a mess, but they were getting everything taken care of. He said they voted to still go through with the deal with the Mayans, they had to.

I got the kids from Opies early, coming home to spend the day relaxing with them. We got all their homework done and ready, and I got my lesson plan for the week done as well as a few things I had to grade.

By 9 o'clock they were all in bed, exhausted from their exciting weekend. I got to bed around midnight, only sleeping for a short 4 hours.

I woke up, rolling over to look at my clock; 4:17am. I got out of bed and went to the bathroom to empty my bladder. My mouth was dry, so I decided to go get a drink from the kitchen. I took a swig of apple juice from the bottle, replacing the cap and putting it back in thr fridge.

Like usual, on my way back to my bedroom I decided to check on the kids. Abels room was first; I cracked the door open and peeked in.

Panic struck me when his bed was empty. I pushed the door all the way open, turning the light on.

"Abel?" I questioned. I looked in his closet and under his bed; nothing.

I jogged across the hallway to Novas room to find the same thing. Lastly I checked on Jade; she was gone.

Panic struck my entire body and I saw nothing but red and heard white noise. In minutes I was screaming, losing my shit, throwing anything I could get my hands on. I literally turned my house unside down looking for them. I got to the back porch door when I lost it; the lock was broken.

Someone broke into my home. Someone took my children.

I didn't even get dressed. I was in spandex shorts that almost showed my vagina and a tank-top for christ sakes. I grabbed my sons hoodie off the coat rack by the door, running out to my car. I was shaking and crying so bad I could barely get it started.

I chain smoked and drove 90 the entire way to Jaxs house. I tried his cell but he wasn't answering. I showed up at nearly 5am, plastered in tears and my body beat red from the cold that night. I pounded and pounded on his door; nothing. I hopped back into my car and headed to the clubhouse.

I opened the door so quick I thought I pulled it off the hinges. The place was a mess, a few prospects still working on the damage. They could tell something was wrong, really wrong.

"Jax?" Was all I could get out. They shrugged, not really sure about it. I went back to his dorm room door and pounded on it, hoping for him to answer; he didn't. I kicked the door, yelling at the top of my lungs. and sinking down to the floor for a few minutes. I got up, leaving the club house and getting back in my car.

As per usual I kicked the shit out of my dash, punching and kicking my steering wheel; I cracked my radio panel all up. And like a sign from God I heard a bike; it was Jaxon. I hoppe out of the car, running infront of him nearly getting run over. He pulled the back to the side jumping off of it as soon as it stopped.

"What the fuck are you-"

"The kids." I screamed out, collapsing against him and down to the ground. "The kids oh god. The kids are gone." I cried out to him, my heart breaking into 1000 little pieces. I watched his skin go white as snow and his eyes grow dark. Jaxon Nathaniel Teller was in the panic mode for the first time in his life.

He pulled out his cell phone and made three phone calls; within 30 minutes everyone associated with SAMCRO was at the clubhouse, trying to help us. Gemma was a fucking wreck, but she was trying to be support for me. She was feeding me coffee and joints while the guys tried to figure out what the fuck happened. Uncer kept everything lowkey, like we asked.

They knew who it was. I knew who it was. We all knew who the fuck it was; the Irish. They made that deal yesterday and they struck hours after, taking the only thing that meant anything in either of our lives.

"It'll be okay baby." Gemma said to me for probably the 15th time. She put her hand on my shoulder but I shook it off not wanting her to touch or talk to me anymore. I stood up, knocking my chair over. Everyone fell silent and watched me leave the clubhouse, letting the door slam behind me. Before Jax could run out and catch me I was in my car, pulling out of the T&M parking lot.

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Two hours I sat there in pure silence, smoking four joints and 12 cigarettes. It was calming, I felt at peace for exactly two minutes and 17 seconds. I leaned back against that big oak tree that I had had to see more times than I wanted.

I was staring up at the sky when a twig snapping broke my concentration. I looked over to see Jax walking towards me, his cheeks red and his eyes swollen. He came down and sat next to me.

"How did you know I was here?" I asked him in a flat tone.

"You always come here when really terrible shit happens. Its your go-to place." And he wasn't wrong.

"He's my person." And like always, I started crying like a baby. "And even if I couldn't be his person, he'll always be mine." He just pulled me close and let me cry as we look forward.

Thomas Nathaniel Teller

August 19th, 2012

Too beautiful for Earth

"And I wanted to get prepared for this to be the only place I can see my children." I cried out harder to him and he pulled me close to him, holding me tighter than he ever had.

"That is not what's going to happen, Logan. The irish wouldn't dare do that. We're gonna get our kids back." I heard him pause to catch his breath, tears trying to come out. "And then we're getting far away from this place. As far away as we can possibly get."

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And I believed him this time for some reason.

But I'm a wreck, I've been up for almost 40 hours. We have some leads, but this wasn't going to be easy. I needed my babies.

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A/N- Well guys, the next chapter will be the final chapter of this story. I wanna thank all of you who have stuck by myside through this, given me ideas, reviews; good or bad. It's be an honor writing this story, and I can't wait to get started on the sequal! It's been fun.