After Alec and Magnus break up… Alec tries to kill himself again, this time though he doesn't have the warlock around to help him.

(Jace's POV)

Being a Parabatai means you feel what your partner does, and when Alec and Magnus broke up, Alec's heart wasn't the only thing that broke. The first week no one really bothered him, he had locked himself in his room and hadn't come out. Every time I was in my room, I could hear Alec, from the sound of broken glass, to the sound of banging, and even the sound of him crying.

When a week of this went by, I decided to check up on him. And when I knocked I got a calm, "Go away." so I did. That was a week ago, now we're at week two and Alec still hadn't left his room.

I knocked on his door and wait. "Leave me alone." Was the reply.

"Nope, not happening, now open up the door or I will break it down and drag you out." I yell and get ready, if I had to I was going to bust down the door. The door unlocks and I let myself in. based on what I had been hearing, the room is as destroyed as I thought.

"I see you broke your window." I observe noticing the large fist-shaped hole in his window. I see his blanket shift and I head toward it.

"Huh, I guess Alec's not hear, but look, his blanket is, I wonder if he would mind if I took it." I say loudly and pull the blanket up. Alec is as I thought underneath it and once I pull it away I see him turn his back quickly, his arms were underneath his pillow and his breathing was slow and heavy. I shook him and woke him up causing him to turn slightly to glare at me.

His appearance shocked me, his eyes were darker than they had ever been and he had dark circles under his eyes, his cheeks were sunken in as well.

"Go away." Alec said softly. He looked broken and seeing him like this made me feel heart broken as well.

"No, I don't think so." I say.

"Please, just leave me alone." Alec said turning away from me as tears formed in his eyes.

"Alec." was all I could say.

"I just, I don't want to live anymore, so please Jace, leave." He said and more tears fall from his eyes.

I stared at his pillow and frowned, I couldn't help but wonder what he was hiding from me.

"Show me your hands." I say sternly. Alec doesn't budge. I reached for his pillow and grab his arms away, holding them. He squirmed as I stared at his wrists, each one was bleeding and had horizontal cuts on them.

"Stand up." I ordered not letting go of his hands. Alec glared at me but stood.

"What did you use to make these marks?" I asked pointing at his wrists. Alec said nothing but looked away staring at the wall next to him. I grip his hand and move to his bed feeling underneath his pillow, it was sticky with blood, I ignored the blood and found a knife buried deep with in his pillow case. I toss it to the other side of the room and look at him.

"Until I know you won't harm yourself, I'm going to have you stay with me in my room, now get some clothes together." I said feeling drained.

Alec sighs but goes to his closet and grabs some shirts and pants and his gear and follows me to my room.

(Alec's POV)

Jace found out that I hurt myself, and now I'm being watched like an animal or crazed man. I haven't said anything since he found out and I don't even know why I told him I wanted to kill myself.

But now here I am washing myself in his shower with him sitting on the toilet making sure I didn't do anything. After my shower I had to change in front of him and then get dragged down the stairs to eat, even though I'm not hungry, I'm never hungry anymore.

"I'm shocked Jace, I didn't think you could actually get him out of his room." Isabelle said with a smile as she served what I could only guess was stew.

"Yeah, and I'm keeping him out of his room, until he's back to normal." Jace said patting me on the shoulder before eating his own stew. I frown and look at the bowl in front of me, if Jace didn't want me dead he wouldn't let me eat this crap.

"Oh right, Jace. Jordon called and asked that you call him back." Isabelle said while looking worriedly at me. Does everyone know what I was about to do?

"Oh right, I was supposed to meet with him, uh but what am I supposed to do with you?" Jace asked looking at me. I frown, he could always leave me in my room by myself and never bother me again.

"I'll stay with him!" Isabelle volunteered quickly. Wait, does she really know what's going on? Jace looked unsure. "And we'll meet you at the park later." She added with a smile.

I love my sister, I really do, but she makes me want to punch her some times. Jace nodded and waved good bye to us both before running out the door. I peeked over at Isabelle to see how well she was paying attention and head back to my room, I'll listen to Jace, but my little sister? I am not going to let her boss me around.

"Where are you going?" Isabelle asked standing next to me.

"Uh, to my room?" I said causing her to frown.

"Nice try. You and I are going to go out, we're going to watch Jace meditate with Jordon, and then we're going to talk." She said sternly and grabbed my hand, dragging me to the front door and tossing the one pair of sneakers I own at me and waited for me to put them on.

Wait, why am I obeying her? I'm older, if anything I should be bossing her around. I looked toward her and remember why I listen to her, even with her age, she still reminds me of my mom, and still scares me to disobey.

"Why do you want to watch Jace?" I asked once my shoes were on and tied.

"I could care less about his meditating, I'm mostly doing this to get you out of the house, let's face it Alec; you're a wreck, you don't eat, you barely sleep, you're hurting yourself which is hurting me and everyone else around you." Isabelle said softly.

I blinked. "Have you been watching Dr. Phil or something?" I asked.

"I'm serious Alec! Now come on, I'm not letting you out of my sight no matter what." Isabelle said grabbing my hand and dragging me outside.

I don't know how to explain it, but I feel a little better, it still hurts knowing Magnus and I might not ever get back together, but the thought of having people that care about me enough to keep a constant watch over me, it makes me feel good.

Though I won't admit that I feel this way, which I guess proves Izzy's point that I am a wreck, a wreck that has people that love him, even if they don't say it.

Done! Chapter two people! Yay! Review and I may continue!