A/n: Hey guys so I was looking through the documents if my really old computer and I stumbled across my first day of high school diary. Lol I thought it was really funn and I wanted to share it so here it goes. 14 year old darkoslim. Day 1
Today I looked fabulous but that's nothing the ordinary, I got lost a couple of times but in all I think I got my classes down and I know where to go because I'm just that amazing. The only thing that sucked about today was of all things I was put in front of the ratchetes, loudmouth bitch in the class that I've loathed since second grade, she was super mean to me all the time and I hate her with a fiery passion that only someone like her could ignite in me. But that bitch can go die because she WILL NOT ruin this year for me, I'm just so confused to why god would do this to me?! Like I seriously asked him, please don't let me have any classes with her and guess what he did put the bitch in a fucking 90 minute class with me sitting right in front of her! Like wtf?! Anyhow today I told this girl I liked her, it was a lie of course but I have mix feelings about her my emotions are just going wild you know?! I can't control my clit! I kinda just felt like having sex which I wasn't going to have sex and still haven't, I thought she could at least make out with me and that'd satisfy me enough to get through the year. Yes, the year, the struggles real.
Liara woke up first. She felt a comfortable, warm, weight intertwined with her body. She shivered when she felt a hot wind constantly coming and going, warming the top of her crest and then leaving it cold. When liara remember last night her heart began to pump rapidly in against her ribcage, so much had happened. Her and Shepard ALMOST kissed, and yes maybe things were moving to fast but Shepard was human and from liaras many nights studying human teenage behavior, just for the sake of wanting to be able to relate to Shepard more only to make a fool of herself when she used "tired" slang that humans apparently didn't use anymore. She did learn however, teenagers are overly dramatic and live for the drama in their lives. Some purposely get in relationships to just get themselves hurt because maybe they get some sort of sick pleasure out of it? This and the protheans were the most interesting thing liara had ever heard of. Maybe humans were more complex than they came off as or maybe they're so simple that they just seem complicated? None the less, this almost kiss meant something. Something that's going to lead to something bad. The only casualties that would suffer if liara and Shepard had even attempted a relationship would be…well. Everyone.
Because even liara knows that at school nothings a secret. It's never spoken out loud but always there in everyone's mind. One person knows something, then that means five other people know too and well if six people know that means at least one whole class knows by then and so on. Just like that time liara and Shepard came into bio together everyone started a rumor that they were in the bathroom fucking each other's brains out. Literally. People said that liara was so powerful that if the sex is so good she could kill you…"I mean she is pureblood after all." They would say.
That rumor disturbed liara. How the hell did they know her confidential medical files? And even if she does have two asaris as her mother and father that didn't necessarily mean she was an ardat-yakshi, plus when the ardat-yakshi kills their lover it's very peaceful and sensual. Not…whatever everyone else thought.
But what if she was born ardat-yashi? Liara wanted to ask Shepard would she even pursue one, more specifically liara. (A/n: That would make an awesome story btw! Can someone make that?)
"Are you okay?" Liara heard a quiet groggy voice say.
The asari felt a very pleasant tingle at her core. She had always been attracted to shepard's voice but now it was about beyond the sexiest thing she had ever heard. She just hoped Shepard wouldn't talk a lot or she would have change her panties.
"Yes. I am, why do you ask?" Liara said trying her hardest not to shake in shepard's arms.
The blonde shifted slightly so liara could bring her legs closer. "You look like you're thinking about something. And you're shaking." Shepard rubbed liaras soft arms feeling every goosebumps under her palms.
"I'm starting to feel warmer." Liara said feeling warmth cover her cheeks.
"I know, you're blushing." Shepard looked down at her companion. "Are you still shy around lil ole me?"
"I'm sorry?" Liara said.
"Don't be so coy blueberry. You're always blushing, aren't you comfortable around me?" Shepard teased.
Liara felt so small in shepard's arms, not just because she was a good six inches shorter than the blonde but because Shepard had this assertive dominance about her that liara fell helpless too.
"Well to be quite honest you are very…intimidating Shepard." Liara said.
"But we're friends. And I'm not gonna bite probably." Shepard smiled.
They were definitely friends, otherwise why would liara be in shepard's bed at five in the morning? Unless liara was a prostitute and she want that, but she had no doubt in her mind that were something circulating about that she was.
"The fact that you would even imply that you would in any situation makes me nervous." Liara said.
How could Shepard be so comfortable? Yes, liara did feel the occasional skip in her heart beat, but that was it. Her words were always controlled and cool, unlike liaras whos had always been all over the place.
"You know…" Shepard started again. "On a totally non rapist I'm gonna take advantage of you after this type level. It feels good to have someone to hold on to again…"
Liara parted her lips to say something but closed them, actually wanting to think about what she should say. Was she just a replacement for Miranda? Even if she was, liara didn't mind. Shepard was her friend, and if she needed her she would be there for her even though the thought of Shepard just wanting her for selfish comfort and nothing else made liaras stomach twist. But Shepard wasn't like that, not entirely.
"I was scared about sleeping with you, I thought that you would feel a little…uncomfortable and I had my doubts too. I usually have nightmares so I'm glad I didn't have any so I don't have to talk about it." Shepard said.
Liara blinked, "I would not force anything out of you Shepard if you didn't wish to share." Liara continued, "But that doesn't mean I will not ever find out."
Shepard snorted humorously. "Right…I want to be completely honest with you liara. I miss Miranda. And being with you makes me feel a whole lot better, you make me smile and laugh, you just make me really happy and sometimes I don't know why."
Liara couldn't help but grin, "I feel the same way Shepard. I really enjoy your company more than anyone I have met before, you bring out something in me that I can't quite comprehend."
That made shepard's heart flutter, but why? Shit. Of course she was falling for liara, How could she possibly not? Yeah, She had Miranda. Well…actually she didn't. Miranda was billions of miles away while liara was right here in her arms and man, did it feel good. Right, is the more appropriate word for it.
Shepard shot up, throwing the covers off her to stand up. She hoped liara didn't notice the sudden change in her heart beat when she said those words. It would be a dead giveaway.
"Do you need something? Water? Juice? Food?" Shepard said feeling sweat forming on her brow.
Liara smacked down the avalanche of covers to get a good look at Shepard. "Are you alright?" She said becoming a little nervous at shepard's sudden change.
Shepard gave a grin. "Yeah, no, fine." The grin looked forced.
Liara furrowed her brows, "Are you sure? Did…did I do something wrong?"
Shepard ran her hands threw her hair, beginning to run them down her tired face. She rubbed roughly at the bruises under both her eyes. They began to throb, along with the pounding deep behind her brows.
"Nonono. I'm Just…tired, a little confused. I'd rather not have my plate full today…" Shepard actived her omnitool, you're not suppose to sleep with them on but Shepard always forgot plus, Miranda might call. "We have to meet garrus and tali in two. Then that stupid party's Kelly chambers throwing tonight."
Liara was taken back, "You do not like parties?"
The blonde stretched her mouth to one side. "Not really the party type honestly…I know it's weird coming from me but just another one of those things people don't ask and just assume about."
"I understand, tali begged me to go. I wasn't going to until…" liara stopped in her tracks.
Shepard had been typing away in her omni tool, but stopped when she notice the hesitation in liaras voice.
"Until? Is there someone there you want to see?"
You could say that. "Well…"
The blonde felt an emptiness in the pit of her stomach, "Its alright, I'm not gonna pry it out of you."
Liara felt her shoulders fall with relief, but she also caught on to the tone in shepard's voice. Sadness? Anger? Jealousy.
Before liara could respond, the two became deadly quite when the noise of the front door being opened traveled up the stairs. The voices were quiet but Shepard easily made out tali's almost Russian like accent. Or that's what Shepard thought it sounded like. Liara and Shepard only stared at each other both of them knowing exactly what the other was thinking, "What the hell are the doing here so early?"
Liara pointed toward the door as if they were spies on a mission, creeping around in a secret facility. Shepard tip toed over to the door, just as she was two feet away she banged her pinky toe against her desk terminal. She gritted her teeth until they felt as if they might crack. Ignoring liaras sudden bits of giggles she muffled with a pillow. The blonde leapt over to the door with her "injured" foot in the air…or at least as far as she could muster.
She leaned close to the door to hear the whispers downstairs, tori of course being the loudest. She sounded excited, as far as Shepard could tell but why? Shepard squinted her eyes thinking that the intense focus would help somehow.
"Hello Mrs. Shepard. Nice to see you again. Where's Addison? Is she-"
The voice was shushed. The voice. That voice. More importantly that accent. It had been thicker than Shepard remember but that was only a slight relief to her assumptions of who that voice belonged to.
"Wait. Wait." Shepard covered her mouth. The throbbing of her toe completely out of mind.
Shepard turned to liara, who was sitting in her bed waiting for any response. In her bed. In her hanar panties. Panties. Liara.
"Oh fuck!" Shepard shouted quietly. "Stay here. Do not leave this room if you do not want to die." Shepard whispered to her friend.
"By who?" Liara said a little more alert.
"By my crazy jealous type ex- kinda girlfriend. Probably." Shepard knew she wasn't making any sense but instead of making coherent sentences she threw liara some shorts and one of her bioball hoodies. "Here! Put this-"
Shepard felt a cold sweat run down her face when she heard footsteps coming up the stairs. Maybe she was over reacting? I mean Miranda was marginally an understanding person…well except the time Kelly tried hitting on Shepard and Miranda basically threw her through a wall. Dear lord be with us.
Shepard mouthed, "don't leave."
The blonde slipped out of her door, locking it behind her. Just for good measure. It felt bad to lock liara up but it was for her safety along with anyone in a ten mile radius.
"Addison?"
Shepard did some type of jump spin move toward the voice, "Sorry!…mom…?" Shepard leaned against her door cooly. "W-what's up?"
Hannah Furrowed her brows, "Okay?…anyhow, where's your little friend? Your friends are waiting downstairs and they have a surprise." Hannah smiled, but it quickly faded away when she got a good look at Shepard. "You're not even dressed! Did you just wake up?"
"Mum. Ma. Mom. Don't worry about anything but what might that surprise be?" Shepard said nervously.
"Wait a minute." Hannah reached up and caressed her daughters face, "Who did that to you?"
Shepard pushed her moms hands away but half or her wished she didn't she loved her moms soothing motherly touch.
"I'm fine. Between biotic practice and bioball I'm lucky to be in one piece." Shepard lied.
Her mother gave a smile. A hurt one. "Be careful love." She could feel the lie drift into her ears but she pushed it away. "They're waiting."
Shepard took a deep breath, she knew what lied down there. She could face it or run from it. But if you run, it'll always be running right there after you.
Shepard walked down the stairs. They seemed longer than they had ever been before like twenty steps had just been added. She could feel her sweaty palms underneath the railing leaving a trail of moistness down the wood. She reached the bottom and just as she thought Miranda Lawson was looking dead at her. And she was looking right back.
It took shepard's breath away. It was like seeing someone come back from the dead and all the video calls they had been having were just dreams. She looked the same a little taller but then again shepard's thoughts were far away from her height and instead she was thinking about how beautiful her spharrie eyes were, and how her silky raven hair complimented her fair skin were and how her face was topped off with those big pouty pink lips. Shepard wanted her. Like she had fantasized about thousands of times like a horny fourteen year old boy.
Shepard walked forward first surprisingly, "What are you doing here? I-I thought…"
"That we'd never see each other again?" Miranda finished.
"Well. No. I mean after graduation I could've came to see you but…"
Miranda closed the distance between them, wrapping her slender arms around shepard's neck with their lips inches away. Parted and ready and most of all begging to be kissed.
"That's too long for me."
Shepard was still in shock honestly, she knew for a fact before coming down the stairs her "girlfriend" had been down there. But why now? How? When?
Shepard didn't care though. She made the next move, she pecked Miranda on the lips wrapping her arms around her waist bring her even closer. The atmosphere was thick. But not awkward. Not for Miranda and Shepard at least, tali and garrus on the other hand…not some much.
"Oh keelah." Tali whispered. "This is not gonna end well."
But Shepard didn't care. Not then. Shepard closed the gap again but this time longer. She could feel her self let out a deep breath through her nose she didn't realize she's been holding in. Miranda stood on her tippy toes to lean further into the kiss, it was soft, but hungry, caring but desperate. Shepard missed the way Miranda's body pressed against hers, the way she smiled into the kiss because it felt just that damn good. How shepard always would never be the one to break the kiss because she would miss it when it was gone. The smell of Miranda's perfume tickled the blondes nose bring back memories of moments she wanted to relive. The kiss felt the same. The feelings were definitely still there. The tingle and passion both of them felt were complete giveaways. It burned their lips and left them feeling almost numb once they parted.
"Ewww." Tori groaned.
"Pancakes?" Shepard said licking her lips.
"Lip gloss." Miranda corrected, holding shepard's hands. She swung them back and forth. She loved this, being back with Shepard. She was happy again.
Shepard kissed Miranda on the lips again. "That's really freaking good." She said when she pulled away.
Miranda laughed, making Shepard grin as wide as she could. "I think you're just hungry."
Garrus clears his throat, "Which reminds me. Even though I never forgot…We better get going to breakfast or we'll way off schedule."
"Agreed. So, where's liara?" Tali chimed.
Shepard's heart stopped, maybe if she didn't show she was nervous Miranda wouldn't think that something happened between liara and her. But that's kinda hard when your hands sweat like a fucking pig. Thanks dad for you freakish hereditary glandular problems.
"Oh she's…uh upstairs getting ready." Shepard said calmly. Wait her and Miranda aren't even dating. They kinda called it quits before she left. But that kiss? Shit, that was a different story.
Miranda cocked a brow, "In your room? Hm…she was here last night and now she's here this morning. She spends awfully a lot of time in your room."
Garrus mandibles twitched with amusement, he was use to the jealous Miranda and the overly nervous Shepard conversations. "Didn't liara stay the night Shepard?"
Shepard shot him a death glare, "Watch it vakarian."
"I better tell liara to stay far away." Tori said.
"No, no need. It's fine." Miranda smiled. It was fake but Shepard knew it was only for Tori's sake. "Liaras a friend."
Shepard felt a million of birds being released in her stomach, "I'll go get her and we'll head out."
"This is gonna make my day." Garrus snickered.
Tali shook her head, "This for will be a very eventful day for sure. Keelah liara."
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"So…Miranda. Did…" Shepard scratched her head. Beads of sweat on the verge of rolling down her face, but the didn't. Luckily. "What the fuck?"
Miranda had her arms crossed, she hadn't said anything since they sat down at the diner. Choras diner. That had been Miranda and shepard's safe haven to get away from school and just relax together. The diner was always full of kids from school and today it was packed with teenagers, soon enough they'd all move to kelly chambers party and drink the night away. It was weird for Miranda to suggest this place of all places when garrus asked where to. "choras den, has the most tolerable food on the citadel." She said and since then she hadn't said a word.
They sat a circle table. Garrus in front of Shepard, tali beside garrus and liara, and Shepard between liara and Miranda. The perfect seating for the perfect awkward, tedious heart pounding breakfast.
"Well…" Miranda began to stir the sugar in her lemonade around. Shepard watched the glass sweat with water- she knew exactly what that felt like. Staring at the droplet fall on to the table beneath it.
"Does that sum it up?" Miranda finished.
Shepard sat up straight, she looked around the table everyone staring at her waiting for a response.
"What?" The blonde said.
"What's wrong Shepard? You don't look to good." Garrus said in a sarcastic voice.
Shepard Rolled her eyes, "Blow me."
"Blow me?" Liara repeated.
Shepard smiled. She started to answer but another voice began to speak.
"Oh you know, to preform oral sex…of course you're asari you should know about that you've done it enough times probably." Miranda said nonchalantly. "But that's just a guess."
Shepard, garrus and tali winced.
Liara furrowed her brows, "Excuse me?"
Shepard grabbed Miranda's wrist, almost yanking her out of her seat. "I need to talk to you." She whispered.
"I think you've mad the abruptly clear." Miranda said twisting in shepard's grip. But it only got tighter.
The two barged out of the diner into the bright artificial sun of the citadel outside.
"You're acting like you're two years old." Shepard scolded.
Miranda crossed her arms, "Damn bloody right I am! This is suppose to be about you and I! Not garrus tali and some new…new hussy!"
The two looked at each other for the first time it felt like.
Shepard's face softened, an amused smirk plastered on her lips. The blonde came closer, her eyes locked with Miranda's. She also saw Miranda become less tense, her face the same but still less serious. Shepard smoothened the wrinkles on Miranda's forehead, laying a light kiss on top.
Miranda leaned in closer and laid her head on shepard's chest. Closing her eyes and relaxing in shepard's embrace. Her arms were still crossed though.
The taller girl rested her head on top of Miranda's, rubbing her back gently. "Hussy?"
Miranda giggle and attempted to push Shepard away but she couldn't escape. Not that she wanted to. She wrapped her arms around shepard's waist.
"Well, well, well. What do we have here?"