A/N: Thanks you guys for all of the reviews and I hope I implemented them into the chapter well enough for you! Okay here is the big reveal to Natasha! Are you excited? I'm excited… Enjoy!

As the recording started to play the world went silent.

"FRIDAY, tell Sam not to feel guilty." Steve started with a quiver in his voice. "He was one of my best friends…

Sam looked at the floor, tears falling all over again.

Tell Tony I never really hated him and that he was an important piece of my life, then tell Wanda to keep strong and to keep training- I know she will be great one day.

Pepper came and sat next to Tony rubbing his back as he sobbed, Wanda nuzzled tightly into VIsion, and Vision actually showed sadness in his eyes at the next part.

Tell Vision and Rhodey that they were some of my best students and that I appreciated them.

Rhodey looked to the ground and let some tears slip.

If Bucky ever comes to himself tell him to stay strong and alive, that he deserves the life he had in the forties and tell him he should never think he is anything less than that. Tell Bruce if he comes back that I will miss his calmness and rejection of war, something I could never have done. Tell Pepper and Jane they were some of the calmest, nicest and most patient people I have ever met and I will forever be indebted to them for their stability.

Jane turned to cry into Darcy's shoulder and Pepper let her tears fall onto tony's shoulder.

And to Clint and his family, I will always be so grateful for the amount of love poured into me by them.

Clint hugged Natasha tighter and felt himself start to lose control of his emotions.

For Sharon, Darcy, and Maria, tell them they are the most badass people I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. Tell Thor that was nice to have a friend who understood me as much as he did and I will always be grateful"

Maria and Darcy exchanged a glance, and Thor looked like he was using all of his energy to not throw Mjölnir across the room.

The recording ended and a few people looked at Natasha.

"What about little red?" Tony asked FRIDAY shakily. Steve couldn't just have forgotten his partner, could he?

"I'm sorry sir but due to what is said in the recording for her, I have a feeling that Steve would have liked it to be a private thing for only her to hear. However, Miss Romanoff? Steve is able to see visitors but I am afraid he will not be conscious. You may listen to the recording in his medical room, don't worry, I have already asked for permission on behalf of you."

The team looked cautiously at Natasha who looked shocked that whatever had been said to her was so important she had to listen to it in private.

"I'll go FRIDAY." Natasha walked to the door ignoring the stares on her back, trying to keep a stoic face but failing miserably. She walked out of the room to find a nurse waiting to escort her to the room Steve was laying. She walked into said room and found his limp body on the hospital bed. The nurse closed the door behind Natasha and left her be. His heartbeat was slow and almost nonexistent, but it was still there. He had multiple IV's in his scabbed and stitched arms and his neck was wound in cloth. Natasha walked slowly and sat on the chair on the right side of his bed, she grabbed his limp right hand a tried to breathe normally but she couldn't. Her tears slipped and she rested her forehead against the mattress. Quietly, FRIDAY's voice came over the speakers.

"Would you like me to play the recording?"

Natasha lifted her head and took a deep breath, "Yeah." A click came on and she began to hear Steve's voice on the intercom…

"And last of all please tell Natasha that I'm sorry. I am sorry for putting this weight on you but...I really loved you, I wanted nothing more than to be with you, and I'm sorry for not being stronger through your rejection of my affection. Please don't beat yourself up about this, I just can't take it anymore…"

Natasha's hand flew to her mouth at his words. Steve loved her, he was in love with her, and she was too blind to realize it. The tears were full blown and she was sobbing hysterically, Steve killed himself because he couldn't take her rejection to his love for her? She had tried so hard to stay away from him after she realized the effect he had on her, he made her want to be loved but that was a weakness she could not afford, so she set him up on dates and then tried to be with Bruce. But the entire time Steve loved her, the entire time Natasha rejected him and tried to keep her distance, Steve was loving her. She had made Steve kill himself, she was the reason he was going to die. And despite Steve's last words to not beat herself up about it, she couldn't help but add him to her already gushing red-ledger. She was the reason he was dead, and the worst part is… She had loved him too…

Natasha reached desperately for Steve's hand again and heard herself beg, "Please! Steve come back to me, I love you too! Come back to me, come back I love you!" She was crying badly, and she was disgusted at how she begged but she didn't care, she wanted him back.

The door opened and Natasha turned her head to look at Clint, "He loved me" she said shaking.

"I know Nat, FRIDAY played the recording for us too." Natasha stood up fast knocking the chair over and began to pace.

"I'm the reason he's dead," she was sobbing as she walked up and down the room, "He killed himself because he thought I didn't love him."

"Nat just calm down…" Clint tried.

"No! He's gone because I tried to hide my emotions around him!"

"He's not gone yet Natasha, don't say he's gone."

"But he is!" Natasha couldn't help it, she slammed herself onto the open wall and fell onto the floor, her head rested in the little crook between her knees that were flushed as tightly as possible to her chest. And she seeped for what felt like the billionth time today. Clint came over and sat beside her against the wall and put an arm around her shoulders.

"He's still alive, we just have to keep hoping that he will be alright in the end, but we need to stay strong. It was his choice, and as much as it hurts all of us, we need to accept his decision. But all we can do now is keep hoping that Steve will pull through."

Natasha sniffed and leaned her head on his shoulder, "Okay."

As the night passed on the others came in to check on Steve, but Natasha never let go of his hand and despite everyone's best efforts, she stayed with him the whole time. She wasn't going to let go again.