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The morning light made Neji's lavender eyes open. He yawned as he pressed his face against Lee's chest. He didn't want to get up. He glanced up to see the other man's sleeping face. Lee snored quietly as he large tan arms kept themselves wrapped around the Hyuuga.

Neji wandered back into his head, trying to fall back asleep. He felt much better, knowing Lee didn't hate him. Usually if someone disliked him it wouldn't bother him, a lot of people didn't like him. But with Lee it'd made the Jounin so depressed.

The Hyuuga noticed that once again when he was with Lee the nightmares stayed away.

Neji opened his eyes again. He traced the muscles of Lee's neck and shoulders. His fingers moving to the other shinobi's chest. The Hyuuga gulped a little nervously, he'd touched Lee practically every where when they spared or fought together. But now everything seemed so much more personal.

His hands moved to place themselves on the Chunin's beating chest. His calm heartbeat thumping in Neji's ears.

What is this?

Neji used his hands to push his face closer to the green-lover's.

I don't understand.

Lee's breath brushed against his cheeks and Neji placed his head on the pillow next to Lee. He stared at the sleeping man. His morning stubble made his face look much older and mature.

My heart is beating so quickly.

When had Lee changed? When had he grown into this amazing, loyal, responsible adult? It made Neji a little sad to think he'd grown out of his silly, idiotic attitude.

This urge…

The Hyuuga moved his hands from Lee's chest to his face, cupping the other man's cheeks in his hands. The bristly chin hairs tickled his palms.

"Lee, wake up." Neji spoke quietly, pressing his face closer so their noses touched. Could he love Lee?

The Chunin stirred awake, black orbs blinking before focusing on the Hyuuga in front of them. Lee smiled and nuzzled his face against the pillow.

"Morin'." He mumbled as he watched the Hyuuga. He wasn't quite sure what was going on but he wasn't about to argue with the Hyuuga's want to be close to him.

Neji seemed a bit different. His eyes soft as they stared at him. His whole face relaxed but also strained in some kind of thought.

Lee moved a hand to cover Neji's hand on his face. Bringing the paler, unscarred hand to his mouth, placing a small kiss on the palm. Neji tilted his head, smiling as he closed his eyes. Rock Lee felt himself wake up a little more, placing his remaining arm around Neji's waist bringing him closer. Pressing their chests against each other.

"I love you, Neji." Lee hummed softly, their noses touching gently. Neji chuckled a little reopening his lavender eyes.

"I know." He replied. He felt so calm and happy. Who knew just laying with someone could make him so cheerful?

No, it wasn't just someone. It was Lee that made it special.

Neji tilted his head a bit more moving the last inch or two to press his lips against Lee's. The chunin met him half way, kissing Neji slowly. Maybe if they just had this moment where nothing else mattered they would be alright.

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The Doctor reviewed his notes on the young Hyuuga as he waited for said man to show up. He sat on cushion, drinking his third coffee that morning. He rubbed his chin reading over a certain paragraph again.

He felt the Hyuuga hadn't fallen too far into his symptoms but recovery would still be a bit difficult. And how quickly he wanted it done was enough to push someone over the edge.

The Doctor pondered what to do next. The exposure therapy was working a bit but Neji was restraining himself, not meeting it head on.

Haphephobia wasn't like most fears. You couldn't just face it and get over, it took time. Because it had to do so much with other people, there were also issues with trust.

"Interesting." He mumbled to himself as he thought.

A knocking sound came as the door was opened. His assistant led Neji into the room. He looked over as he shut his folder.

"Welcome. You look much better today." He joked as the Hyuuga sat across from him. He motioned to his assistant. She returned with a glass of water and placed it in front of Neji.

The Hyuuga thanked her and waited for the Doctor to start.

"Well I believe we'll have to take it up a notch, and it'll be a bit more stressful on you." Neji listened and nodded. He'd already made up his mind that he'd do whatever was necessary.

"Anything if fine."

"Though I'm not sure I can go through with it. You're a very skilled shinobi and could snap me like a twig. I don't feel comfortable bringing in someone to assist me because you wish to keep your therapy quiet."

Neji's brow furrowed as he thought for a moment. He'd attacked Gai and Lee already, it was almost certain he would attack the Doctor on accident.

The Doctor thought and snapped his fingers, grabbing Neji's attention. "That Lee boy, you've told him all this, yes?"

"Lee? You want him to join us?" Neji asked. He didn't disagree, if anyone knew the way he'd attack it'd be Lee.

"Yes, that should work." The Doctor said more to himself. He called to his assistant.

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The tan shinobi walked into the room a few minutes later. He moved to sit next to Neji, confused.

"Is something wrong?" He looked to Neji and back to the Doctor.

"Not at all, I just want you to help us a bit." The Doctor explained, soothing Lee's worry. "As we proceed, Neji will become cornered by his fear and might retaliate. I wish for you to be present for the safety of Neji and myself."

Lee nodded and shared a glance with Neji.

"Alright, Mr. Hyuuga if you would relax, please. We'll start with questions about your fear." The Doctor got out his notes and began preparing as Neji looked over at Lee again.

He was having second thoughts about Lee being present. He didn't want Lee to have to see him speaking about such dark subjects.

"You've told me you have night terrors, please go into detail. Leave nothing for me to interpret on my own." The Doctor asked, earning a confused look from Lee, he turned to Neji.

"Well…" Neji started slow giving small bits here and there, feeling Lee's eyes on him. He could see the hurt behind them as he went into the dreams. How everything felt so real and how frightened he would get. When he would wake he'd stare at himself in the mirror. How the touches never stopped, they tormented him into the morning.

The sounds he could hear inside his head, the smells that filled the room. And the burning of his arms, it had always been the worse.

Lee listened as he starred at the table top, trying to understand these horrors Neji had been going through.

Next they went into the fear itself. What happened when Neji felt the defense symptoms coming on.

Neji continued to explain how he could see the person change into the Leader of the rouge ninja and his bright yellow eyes would always appear. How when someone touched him, he'd find himself back at the rouge camp, seeing scene of his incident. He would black out and attack someone without realizing what was going on.

He explained how he'd figured this out from attacking Gai, Lee flinched at that. Gai had said Neji's hit him but his mentor hadn't explained why. Lee had always thought they'd been training and Neji got a lucky shot.

The Hyuuga kept his cool the whole time, seeing Lee made him feel calm whenever his arms began to itch with the slight discomfort.

He concluded with a kind of numbness he'd found himself in. How he'd fallen into a stake of nothingness and he couldn't feel or think about anything.

The Doctor nodded once last time and collected his thoughts. He intertwined his fingers and spoke slowly. "I believe I have a general idea."

"With you being as intelligent as you are, I was wary of using Genjutsu, but I believe it will help you in this kind of situation." The Doctor stood and walked around the table to kneel next to Neji.

"I'll put you in a state where you'll be unable to control your thoughts, it doesn't do much but it'll force you to face your fear. Lee and I will be here so there is nothing to fear. If you wish to not go through with it, please speak now."

Neji just turned on his knees and faced the Doctor, nodding as he closed his eyes. Lee's eyes shut a bit; he was still trying to understand all this. How could he have not seen the pain Neji had been in?

"Alright, I'll begin."

The Doctor formed a few hand signs and placed his index finger on the Hyuuga's headband covered fore head.

Neji sensed the foreign chakra in his head, mixing with his own as it meddled with his receptors. Suddenly his thoughts dulled and he couldn't focus on the chakra. His eyes opened and he blinked.

The Doctor stepped back ushering Lee to do the same.

"Neji, you might say some strange things you wouldn't usually, that's only because you won't be able to think before you say something." The Doctor explained as he waited for the Hyuuga.

Neji nodded and stared at his hands. He didn't feel much different.

"Nothing's happening." Neji spoke aloud.

"I told you it doesn't do much." The Doctor chuckled a bit and moved to pick up his notes. Lee stood a few feet away from Neji waiting, watching the Hyuuga.

"Now," The older man flipped through his notes and cleared his throat. "How were you captured by these men in the first place?"

Neji placed his hands on the desk and spoke without a moment's hesitation. "We were ambushed because I couldn't track them with my Byakugan; they wore special chakra proof clothing. I'd never even heard of it before."

Lee was a bit uneasy as he watched the two work.

"What happened after you were captured?" The Doctor asked.

Neji's fingers clenched the wood of the table, he felt so dull, his thoughts pouring out of his mouth before he could stop them. "They threatened me, gagged me, did disgusting and horrid things and I killed them."

The Hyuuga jumped and knocked the table over as he stood quickly. His hands shook as the scenes flashed in front of him. The blood, the screams and how he'd killed each and every one of them.

Lee watched Neji reaction to his own words. The Chunin hadn't known this at all; Gai had told him everything had been taken care off when his mentor found Neji. Why had he been left in the dark on so many things? How could he say he really loved the Jounin if he didn't know about anything of this? Lee blinked his own thoughts away and watched Neji, making sure he watched the Hyuuga for any signs of an attack.

"W-Why…? I don't understand…" Neji starred at his hands, The Doctor hummed as he wrote quickly.

"Interesting, sounds like you've repressed that memory. Strange…out of everything it's the revenge you refuse to acknowledge." He explained as Neji spoke again.

"But he deserved it, that bastard." Neji glared and clenched his fist. He could see the man in front of him. Broad shoulders, black cloth covering him from head to toe, his bright yellow eyes staring at the Hyuuga. Neji could feel the burning return as the ropes tied themselves around his wrists.

"Mr. Hyuuga, you need to confront what is frightening you." The Doctor spoke loudly as Neji's expression changed to one of fear. The Hyuuga ground his teeth as he felt anger replace the fear. Than sorrow and eventually a sick, wicked kind of pleasure knowing they were all dead.

The Hyuuga could feel the blood running over his hands as he starred at the man's corpse. Neji jumped back. He was scaring himself. How could all of this had happened, such brutality. Even if they had been horrible people, the pure slaughter he'd committed.

"S-Stop this! Make it stop!" Neji yelled trying to find the Doctor. The room had changed to the forest. Blood stained the trees, dead bodies littered the camp.

The Hyuuga glared, yelling into the darkness of the forest.

"Lee! Lee, where are you?!"

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The Chunin couldn't control his breathing as the Hyuuga laid passed out on the floor. The Doctor had knocked him out. He sighed and continued writing as Lee stood up from where he'd fallen back on the floor.

Neji's speed had startled him. He brushed himself off as Neji's voice rang in his head. He'd never seen the Hyuuga show such raw emotion.

"Will he be alright?" Lee asked, going over to place one of the sitting cushions under the Hyuuga's head. Neji just looked as if he was napping.

"Yes, He'll be fine. I'm surprised he lasted as long as he did truthfully. That was a very extreme method I developed myself. It works but it's just very hard on the client. You really shouldn't force people to face things they aren't ready for." The Doctor drank the rest of his coffee, he was glad he'd moved it off the table; else it would've been spilled on his tatami mats.

"You are free to take him back to whatever hotel you are staying at, if you wish." The Doctor wore a strange bored look as he turned to Lee. He'd really hoped Neji would've been more fun, but his job was done for today.

"Wait, are you sure he'll be alright?" Lee asked as he hooked his arms under Neji, lifting him up bridal style.

"I'm a specialist in PTSD, A condition where the victim fears the past. I've perfected my methods to a point. Mr. Hyuuga wanted to be cured in week; I'm taking the most direct route. But I would never put a client in harm's way, at least not for the long run." The Doctor left the room to get another cup of coffee.

Lee furrowed his brow, not entirely convinced. He carefully carried Neji out of the room.

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Neji lay, tired and resisting the urge to vomit. The man had replaced his pants but his wrist restraints remain. He sat up from the dirt, sweat and other liquid covered his body he breathed through his nose. Quietly listening, his lavender pupils contracted to a fraction of their size as he waited. The rustling of fabric was followed by two rouges walked into the tent.

His eyes darkened as they mocked him.

These worthless maggots. How dare they.

They'd removed his blindfold, assuming his Byakugan would be useless. The Hyuuga watched as the two walked over, one using his shoe to lift the jounin's face. As they spoke Neji's trained eyes saw the flash of flesh around the man's ankle.

"Boss'll get mad." The other hissed, checking behind them, making sure they hadn't been followed.

"Lighten up, He can't even use chakra. Plus Boss said he was gonna kill him or sell him anyway." The one holding the Hyuuga head up reached behind himself and pulled out a kunai from his pack. He put his foot down and kneeled, face to face with the Hyuuga. Neji's glare could've cut glass.

"Come on now; let's put that pretty little mouth to good use." He cut the fabric gagging Neji and chuckled, looking back at his nervous friend.

Neji flashed and bit the man's hand, enough that he could hear the tendon rip. He watched the rouge release the kunai and fall backwards. He grabbed his hand and screamed. His friend panicked and ran out of the tent. Neji bit the grip of the kunai before it hit the ground.

He carefully rolled it over his shoulder and cut the ropes and fabric. All the while the man on the ground screamed and clutched his wounded hand.

"Pathetic." Neji stood after cutting his feet loose. He looked down at the rouge and slammed his foot into the other's chest. The man's visible eyes widened in fear. Neji spit the taste of the fabric and blood out off his mouth.

The man's screaming stopped. His friend was outside the tent, scared as he could see the silhouette of the blood splash against the tent's wall. He started to run but the sound of tearing made him look down. Neji'd cut the tent's wall and swung his hand out grabbing the man's bare ankle. The second rouge fell to the ground, shaking as the Byakugan starred at him, blood splattered across Neji's cheek.

Neji scoffed, they'd thought they were so safe from his gentle fist. They could were all the clothes and fabric made from that cursed chakra-proof material. But as long as he found one entry point they were as good as dead.

He sent a large surge of chakra straight to the man's heart, killing him instantly.

He stood and wiped the man's blood from his face, smearing it onto his hand. His dark gaze scanned the camp ground with Byakugan. There were nine left.

Neji made quick work of three before the other's found the dead bodies. Panic ripped through the camp. Neji being able to see the entire camp made it so when someone tried to sneak away he'd be able to kill them easily.

The Hyuuga walked up to the main tent. His once white pants were now covered in dirt and blood of the Leader's fallen men. The yellow eyes glared down at him. Neji spun the kunai around his finger as he moved closer to the man. He sat in a large chair at the end of a table. Papers and stolen things littering the table top. Neji used a chair as a step and walked across the table.

He stopped the kunai and grabbed the handle. Bringing it to his mouth and cleaning the blade of the blood with his tongue. He stopped in front of the man and squatted down, His crazed lavender eyes were a bland look in them as he brought the kunai to the man's eye.

"Konoha really has the finest, huh?" The man chuckled to himself.

Rage boiled in Neji's blood, this man who was nothing more than an animal. How many people had he killed? How many people had he raped the same way and ruined their lives?

His eyes changed, fury and revenge blending with the lavender. He stabbed the kunai into the man's neck and watched, teeth clenched, as the leader brought a hand to his neck. Neji pulled it across slowly, watching as the blood flowed and pooled on the ground. The man fell limp in the chair and his eyes dimmed.

Neji panted slightly as he stood on the table, kunai and forearm soaked in the worthless trash's blood.

He'd done it, he'd killed him.

He let a small smile slip and placed his cleaner hand on his face to hide the grin.

Footsteps knocked him back into reality. He still had a few left.

And he did, jumping around the camp as they tried to fight back; he just slit their throats or stabbed them in the gut, letting them slowly and painfully bleed out.

Neji found his top and bag sitting in one of the tents after he killed the eighth. He placed the top over his arms and carried the bag on his shoulder. As he left the tent he scanned the camp for the last one. He saw him not that far off; he must've slipped away when Neji was killing the leader.

Neji infused chakra in his legs and jumped into the trees, running along the branches. He caught up easily. The rouge was running, fear in his eyes as he looked around him, looking back every second.

Neji jumped down on to the man, knocking him down. Neji kneeled on his chest and placed the kunai at the man's neck.

"P-Please, don't kill me!" The rouge begged, arms and legs shaking as Neji pressed the kunai closer.

"Please, have mercy!" He yelled but Neji didn't waver.

He slit his throat and watched the man grab his neck with featureless, dead, lavender eyes. He had no reason to let the man live.

He stood and looked around slowly. His body relaxed a little as he scanned the area one last time. His rage and adrenaline disappearing.

It's done.

He panted as he wiped the sweat from his brow. He was used to having his head band. He deactivated Byakugan and jumped through the brush, he'd seen a river of to the right. As he ran in the direction of it he heard the rustle of leaves from the trees above him.

He froze, eyes scanning the canopy as the birds flew away. He tightened his grip on the kunai and readied it in front of him.

He'd gotten all of them. Who was left?

A familiar voice called out to him as the flash of green jump down. The bright orange legging and green jumpsuit brought Neji back.

"Neji!"

He eyes softened as he realized what he'd done. He dropped the kunai as if it had lit on fire. He stared at his mentor.

"G-Gai-sensei…" He spoke quietly, hands shaking. His knees gave as he fell to the ground, snapping out his arms so his face didn't hit the dirt.

What had he done?

He'd killed all of them, even those that did nothing wrong. One even begged for mercy and he'd killed him in cold blood. That wasn't what a Konoha shinobi did. That wasn't what he was taught.

The images of what the ones that were guilty had done to him entered his head. He dug his finger into the dirt and cried out, pounding his fist into the ground.

How could he have been so weak?!

"Why?!"

"Neji." Gai knelt next to his former pupil and wore a look of sorrow and regret. Neji knew it hurt Gai when any of them got hurt, so he couldn't image what the older man was thinking.

He panted and sat back on his heels. He released the dirt from his hands and looked up at the rays of light breaking through the canopy.

Oh, how this reminds me of the Sasuke retrieval mission.

He let a sad smile break his expression. He'd been defeated a completely different way this time.

He sat on the ground, soaked the blood of the innocent and guilty. Dirt and sweat covering his body. He couldn't even tell if he'd been hurt because his body went numb. His legs shook under him, they wouldn't respond to his brain.

"Gai-sensei, I'm afraid I can't walk right now…" He spoke in a dull tone, he head leaning forward as he wiped the dirt from his hands.

"That's alright, I'll carry you." Gai-sensei spoke in an understanding tone. As if he could understand what was going through Neji's head.

He lifted the Hyuuga on to his back and carried him, jumping into the trees and regrouping with Lee and Tenten.

Neji's fatigue caught up with him as he lay, face pressed against Gai's back. The strong Jounin continued to make his way east, back towards Konoha, not even stopping to greet the other two.

"When need to get Neji to a medic!" Gai yelled as the other's shared worried looks at the sight of their fallen team mate.

"Hurry!" He barked and they sped up. Neji opened one of his tired eyes to see Lee's face. The mixture of anger, guilt and sadness made Neji want to shake his head.

Lee always cared way too much. Neji closed his eyes and slept, wrists burning as they pressed against his sleeves.

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