KPOV:
For some reason, Gimli has convinced me to come clean with the Fellowship. I don't think I have ever been this nervous before. I shouldn't be though; the fellowship has always been supportive of me. At least one member understands
I walk back to where the fellowship resided the night before. Everyone but the hobbits were packing up their things. Since the hobbits weren't here I thought it might be a good idea to talk to the "adults" of the group.
"Hello?"
They turn to face me
"Hello Kaydriella"
"I need you all for a moment"
They all drop what they are doing and gather around me
"You all might want to sit down for this"
"What is this about Kay?"
"I need to tell you all something"
"Oh my, it sounds serious"
Everyone takes a seat and now I have no choice but to come clean.
"So a few you all know that I am not exactly an elf. In fact I am only part elf by blood. There is another part of me that I did not know about until about a few centuries ago. It turns out that my mother was a part of an ancient linage that died out long ago in the First age. Back when elves were the main population there was another small community residing in Middle Earth. They were known as mages and it was a very secretive community. The society was made up of element wielders but only a few possessed the power of all four elements. Those who could were declared the leaders of the society. The race did not last because of some ancient uprising and soon a war broke out amongst them. The mages fell out of existence and turned into a myth, a legend more so. I have been researching them but much of their history has been lost through time"
"So you are telling us that you are one of these mages?"
"I was, Boromir"
"What do you mean by that?"
"Well about six months before the formation of the fellowship, I was taken to Saruman in hopes of learning more about this magic and how to control it. Little did we know that he was in league with Sauron. Saruman dug up an ancient spell that would stripe me of my power and transfer all of it to himself"
"How could such a spell exist"
"It really didn't exist, Aragorn. Gandalf told me that the spell Saruman was trying todo really wasn't a spell. How it had never really been attempted because of how dangerous it was"
"But he did it anyways"
"Yes Legolas, Yes he did. I cannot even begin to explain what occurred through his spell. All I can say is that after what seemed to be an eternity of pain, I blacked out. When I came to, I was in Rivendell and no longer had my powers. His spell was successful; he had taken away my magic"
"But that is not true. We saw you; we all saw you do something on the mountain"
"And this is where it gets tricky Boromir. I do not know what that was. I do not know how I can still do things like that. Saruman successfully completed the spell so both Gandalf and I believed my powers to be gone. I really don't know what's happening now. This is all new to me and I'm still trying to understand it myself"
I look down at the ground because I am so embarrassed. I cannot even bare to look at them. They must be so upset with me for lying. Aragorn got up and walked away without saying anything. I knew this would happen. I watch as he walks away from me and a small tear drops from my face.
"Oh come now Kay, there is no need for that"
Boromir sees the tear and slides over to sit next to me. He wipes the tear away with his coarse hand and puts a strand of hair behind my ear. He leans in and gives me a hug.
"There is nothing you can say that will ever make me change my opinion about you"
I hug him back when he says that. I tuck my head into his shoulder and cannot be more thankful for Boromir's words.
"Thank you for understanding"
I pull away from him and stand up. Legolas and Boromir do the same.
"I better go talk to Aragorn"
"I would wait a bit Kay. Let me go over and speak with him first"
"Well if you insist Boromir"
"I do"
Boromir walks away, in the direction of Aragorn. I can only imagine what he is thinking about me.
"Kaydriella?"
"Yes Legolas?"
"I do not know what to say"
He starts to walk away and I begin to panic. I already upset Aragorn. I do not think I could handle loosing Legolas too!
"Legolas, please jut hear me-"
"-Amin hiraetha!" (I'm Sorry)
"Legolas? Whatever for? It was I who decided you"
"You may deceive me all you wish. It will never change how I feel about you. I am just upset with myself. All this time you had to carry that weight; how can I possibly claim to love you and let you suffer so?"
"Legolas, that is not true. I've kept it a secret from almost everyone. Only a few knew about it and no one in the Fellowship knew. Gandalf and I saw no reason to bring it up. Since my powers were gone, as far as everyone was concerned I was just a well trained elf warrior"
He still seemed very upset with me. He refused to look at me in the eyes. He kept looking at the ground. I couldn't stand him being this upset with himself. I put my hand on his cheek and made him look at me; in the eyes. His gaze was so cold. He placed his hand on mine and closed his eyes. We stood like this for but a moment longer until he removed my hand from his face and lowered it to his lips. He then proceeded to gently kiss my palm and put his hand on my cheek.
"Can you ever forgive me?"
"Legolas, I told you there was nothing to forgive"
"Not just for this; for everything?"
It sounded so desperate and intimate, I've never heard someone sound like that before. I had no option but to say yes.
"Always Legolas. Always"
At this point we were staring directly into each others eyes. I never noticed how beautiful his eyes were. I broke the stare to embrace him. He was much taller than me so I had to stand on the balls of my feet to match his height. The hug was way more intimate than our previous one. I wrapped my arms around the back of his neck while he hugged my waist tightly. I broke the embrace because I remembered Aragorn. I remembered how upset he was. I lowered my feet and shrunk down to Legolas' shoulders. I never realized how tall he was. I guess there is a lot I was blind to.
"I need to go now. I do not think Aragorn is taking this as well as Boromir"
"He will get past this. There is no person who could stay angry with you"
I smile at his words. They were so kind. He was so kind. I turn away and follow the path both Aragorn and Boromir took. I do not look back because if I did, my face would betray my composure. I see Aragorn and Boromir speaking together. I can hear bits of what they are saying from my distance but it did not sound like they were discussing me. Perhaps I shouldn't interrupt. I'll go find the hobbits and tell them. They have a right to know too. I find them not too far from where Gimli and I spoke. They were all packed and ready to leave. I bet Sam did most of the packing.
"Hello Kay!"
Sam was the first to see me. After him, all the other hobbits turned and greeted me.
"How are ya feeling?"
"I am well. Thank you Frodo. There is something I must discus with you. Something I need you all to listen to. Can you do that for me?"
"Aye, we can" Pippin answered for all of them
"Are you going to tell us about these awesome powers you have?"
"Yes I am!"
I feel like I can be a bit more playful with the hobbits. They are so light hearted and accepting, it makes this much easier for me.
"Before the Fellowship was formed I trained with Saruman. He was supposed to teach me how to control my powers and help me use them in a safe manor"
"Why couldn't Gandalf teach you? He was a wizard too"
"Yes he was but my powers did not work the same as his. I was not a wizard, I was a mage"
"OOOOOOOOOO Whats that?"
"It just means that my powers are elemental"
…I received blank stares from all of them. I guess I have to simplify this.
"It means that I could control earth, fire, water, and air"
"Question. How is that different from Gandalf and Saruman?"
"Well Pippin their powers aren't restricted to just four elements. They have more capabilities than I"
"Oh okay, please continue"
"So during my stay at Isengard, Saruman had a secret ulterior motive. He wanted to steal my magic to make himself even more powerful than before"
"Did he succeed?"
"Yes Frodo, sadly he did"
"But Kay that is impossible, I've seen you do magical stuff"
" Hang on Sam, let me finish. It wasn't until a few weeks into the quest that I noticed a change in me. I could perform small acts of magic. Gandalf and I were shocked because we thought my powers were gone for good"
"Well what do you think happened?"
"I honestly don't know Frodo. As time goes on, I am able to do more things and some things I couldn't do before"
"So what are you? I mean as of now?"
"Again, I'm not sure, But whatever it is, I can do magic again!"
"Yeah happy ending!"
"Indeed Merry, indeed"
The hobbits go on and ask me many questions about my powers and my history. I tell them all they need to know without going into too much detail. They do not need to know about all the things that took place in Isengard. I am able to get them to open up and talk about themselves and their past. We had quite pleasant time.
APOV:
After the short chat with Boromir, I can feel his love for Gondor. The weight of his father must be great indeed. His father has appointed him the task of restoring the faith of the people. This is a great sadness indeed. But Lady Galadriel told him there is hope. I do believe she would not say it unless it was true. Maybe there is still hope for everyone.
"Araogrn?"
I hear Kaydriella's voice
"Kaydriella"
I rise and bow my head in acknowledgment of her. I then go to turn and walk in the opposite direction. I guess my feelings are a bit hurt; we were so very close and she still did not tell me of her condition. No matter anyways, steadfast Kaydreilla blocked me in using her body so I could not walk away from her.
"Don't you dare try to walk away from me Aragorn"
"Kaydriella, I have nothing good to say right now so I think it best to let me pass"
"No. If you want to say anything, good or bad, you are going to have to say it to my face"
"Fine, I am deeply offended that you did not trust me enough with your 'secret' and it hurts me to think that I was no worthy enough to know"
"That is not fair, you did not even tell me about Arwen. She was the one to tell me. So much for sharing huh"
"That is a completely different situation and you know it"
"Really? How so? If I am recalling correctly you did not trust me enough to tell me that you were, and still are, in love with Arwen"
"That was extremely personal"
"Well so was this. After months of training an searching, everything I thought I was, was gone. It was stolen"
"You could have told me before you left. But instead of telling me the truth, you leave me a small letter just letting me know of your absence and that you did not even know if you were coming back"
"So you are upset about that?"
"No!"
"Then what is it? Just say it Aragorn!"
"I am upset you are here. I'm upset you joined this Fellowship. I'm upset that I am duty bound to protect Frodo, even if it means at the cost of your life!"
"Aragorn, you're sounding like Legolas"
"Well that is due to the fact that we both care for you deeply. You just do not see it"
"Aragorn-"
"No Kaydriella. This cannot be fixed with a mere chat. Please, leave me just leave me be"
I could see I really hurt her. She never cries and yet there she was with tears filling her face. This girl could survive the agonizing pain of Saruman and here I was just using mere words o make her cry. I am only hurting her now and that is not what I wanted. I cannot do this. I need time and space. That is what I need. Without another second I walked away from her. I just can't. I just can't.
KPOV:
He left me to stand there. I don't understand. I am in shock from what he said.
Do not take what he has said to heart, young Kaydriella. He has not realized yet that he is in a state similar to your own.
It was her. It was the Lady Galadriel.
Come. We must speak you and I, for there is much to speak of
I walk towards the bright light I see down the hall. That must be her
Yes my dear, come
My Lady
I bow down in respect. She turns to face me and our eyes meet. Her eyes are crystal blue, so beautiful.
Arise Kaydriella, daughter of Rivendell. I see much that is troubling you and yet, I also see resolutions that have occurred
Yes Lady Galadriel. You are correct in your views. I have gained a new found respect for a companion of mine but I have also grown distant between another.
Is that all my dear?
No. I am also coping with the loss of Gandalf. I guess grieving is a better word to use.
I see your fear
It is that obvious?
My dear, it is alright to fear. Fear is what gives us courage to overcome obstacles. Everyone fears. It is not a bad thing.
My Lady, what did you mean by Aragorn going through a similar state as me?
Well as you know he is the heir to the throne of Gondor but he as not decided if he wants that path. He is of the Dúnedain so you know that he has had sometime now to claim his rightful spot on the throne. Instead he became a ranger. Now why do you think that is?
I see your point, my lady
As for you, the time has come for you to choose who you want to be. Now that Mithrandir is no longer here, you must decide. If you wish to remain here and leave the fellowship, I have no objection. But if you do not stay, you must go; and if you go, you cannot ever look back. Do you understand?
Yes, I do my lady
Kaydriella, your time in Middle Earth has just begun, but only you can choose what to do with it
Gandalf said something very similar to that
Where do you think he got it from? Do not despair, for all wounds heal with time. Dwell on the past only as it gives you pleasure. Look to the future as it only gives you hope. Kaydriella, what a beautiful name
Her Ladyship kisses my forehead and then vanishes into thin air. I watch as her light fades away, along with it any doubt I had left on what I must do.
Author's Note:
Thank you to my new followers. Here is another chapter fast and fresh out the oven. I will credit the quote that I gave to Lady Galadirel; it is from the movie When Death Comes to Pemberley. I hope you all like this chapter. Remember to R&R, PM's are welcomed. Let me know what you think will happen next!