Don't Let Me Down
Disclaimer: This is a Harry Potter-based fanfiction and JK Rowling owns it all.
Chapter 6
"Lysander, what did I say about you answering your questions for me when I am in front of you and you can just ask?!"
"So... Is Lorcan right?"
"About..." Why is she making me repeat that I love her? For Merlin's sake!
"You don't have any feelings for me other than just our old friendship."
"No, Lorcan is not right. I do have feelings for you. I didn't realize it sooner, but you are more than 'just a friend' for me. Lorcan is just a friend. You are definetly not."
"Lils, do you love me back?" I couldn't handle the pressure any longer. The L-word needed to be said out loud.
She looked into my eyes. She wasn't Bossy-Lily or Angry-Lily anymore. She was just Lily. "Yes, 'Sander I do love you back. Or I think I do. I haven't loved anyone else before, so I don't even know what is it like." She suddenly started talking so fast I could barely understand. "Of course I do love you as a friend. I love my friends. But, it's not the same with you. You are more than a friend for me. You've been more than a friend for a while, I guess. When the older girls, you know, Rose, Dominique, Molly... I was there when they started dating. And when they talked about dating a boy, for many times I thought about the idea of us dating. I was just a kid, the boys says I still am. But this feeling, it has been here for a while." She inhaled deeply, because apparently she has forgotten to breathe saying all those things. "I have planned to tell you this today. So you are not acting like a fool. I just didn't want to use the L-word because now we are going to make out, of course. And I wanted to get out of here with some answers, but now..."
She was right. After we said we loved each other, things would naturally get more physical. We were fourteen and those fucking hormones made it difficult to get us away from each other.
But she was also right about needing some answers. So, I picked the Rational and Calm Lysander, and tried to ignore all of that other needs.
"Lils, breathe. I get your point, okay? I promise you we will talk and you will get your answers today. But can I have just a kiss?"
"Of course, you idiot." She got closer and laid down on my side. Then she gave the best kiss I've ever had gotten.
-Then she stopped and got back to her place. Oh, why did I promise her such a stupid thing? I punched my head.
"You know, 'Sander, I am a girl and I am supposed to be the rational one. But it is difficult for me too. Okay?"
"I guess it can be difficult for you. But I am a guy and I doubt you can even imagine how I feel right now." She looked at my pants and there was a huge thing I couldn't hide.
"'Sander, we have already pushed this conversation for so long... I can't get back to my dorm and sleep with so many doubts in my head."
"Okay, okay. You are right. I also need some answers and clearly we've had enough of miscommunication."
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