Don't Let Me Down
Disclaimer: This is a Harry Potter-based fanfiction and JK Rowling owns it all.
Chapter 7
"Okay, okay. You are right. I also need some answers and clearly we've had enough of miscommunication."
"That Sunday, after those Butterbeers..." She started.
"What about it?" I replied.
"Yes, I was pissed off. Jack was never officially my boyfriend. But of course I got mad when I found out he had sex with other girl when we were together. He was complaining about me been a virgin... And how I was making things so difficult for him. I was supposed to understand the reason why he just picked his regular fuck-buddy a couple of times to have the fun I couldn't give him."
"I didn't know about it. Someone, and I can't remember who, just told me that you were sad and I should try to talk to you because no one else could get into you. But that party was a crazy one. Somehow I got to you and I didn't even try to talk to you. We end up kissing instead. But you didn't seem like you were not enjoying it."
"I haven't told anyone what about the fight was. Neither has Jack, because a couple of hours later he asked me to forgive him for being such an idiot. He asked me to be his girlfriend, I said no. He told me that 'my little secret' was safe and he wasn't going to tell anyone about... You know... Me being a virgin. He is not a jerk enough to tell Hogwarts why we get into that fight." She was blushing.
"Lils, he IS a jerk. A jerk who can keep secrets, but still a jerk." Anger came back out of nowhere. How could I miss it? "Where was your big family when he did this to you? I could kill this guy right now if I had a chance. How could he do this to you? Where the hell was your family?"
"I kept it a secret. As far as I know, everyone in my family thinks I've been having sex for a little while. I am old and I am coward. I just thought that I could solve this with Jack. But clearly I couldn't and now I have to lie about my absent sex life."
"Why did you start lying at all? It is not like you should be sleeping with a bunch of guys."
"Don't try to make things better. I know I am supposed to be having sex for a while now… "
"No, you're not."
"Stop it. Yes, I am supposed to. I got angry with Jack because of jealousy. But I didn't have to be that boring 'don't-touch-me-girl' with him all the time. I've heard my brothers complaining about it several times before. Of course they wanted me to die a virgin because they are my brothers and they are supposed to do it. But I am no idiot. I know it's an issue. A big one. When someone 'broke the truth' for them… I felt relief. So I kept lying."
"You could talk to me. I could make something up… Where was I all this time anyway?"
"You were fucking that Annie girl."
"Oh, Annie. Annie wasn't really a thing. I was there for you!"
"Oh, thank you so much, Lysander. Now I feel sorry about the girl. When you started dating… I guess I got mad at you. Your idiot brother also decided to be idiot with my cousin. And of course idiot-Lorcan can't get anything right. So, I was supposed to hate him and you."
"We both know you hate Lorcan. That's old news. So, no, Lorcan is not a reason. Not enough for you to lie like this and get into a mess yourself. From what we know, he's always been idiot-Lorcan and will always be idiot-Lorcan. And everyone else just keep living with that!"
"Okay. Idiot-Lorcan whatever. I lied to him, he spread the news. You were busy with your 'not-a-thing Annie'. End of the story."
"And how did I miss it?"
"Because you were busy fucking your 'not-a-thing' girlfriend! Lysander, you sound like an idiot yourself. Have some respect for the girl! You're being a jerk as your brother."
"You're right. I should not talk about Annie like this. She is one of my best friends. And yes, I slept with her. We got into some kind of delirious friendzone. But we figured out we were just friends. She was the one who came up with us being a not-a-thing at all."
"So she is your fuck-buddy?"
"No! She is not my fuck-buddy. I don't have a fuck-buddy! Why are you so obsessed about it Lils? Is that because of this Jack-son-of-bit?"
"Yes. Not only, but yes."
"Look at me. Jack is a jerk. Keeping your 'little secret' does not make him a better person."
"Is he? Really? You don't even know him! How can you be so sure?
"Yes, he is a jerk. I don't know what was really going on between the two of you. Now I can say it out loud, I was jealous and refused to even hear about it. So, I don't know what was the deal about you seeing other people."
"There was none."
"Just let me finish. Okay, so you could be mad about he seeing other girls. I wouldn't do it myself, but Lorcan does it all the time. Don't get me wrong, I hate this idea. But some people, more than you think, are okay with this. And I can't blame them."
"Yes, I thought I would be one of these people. At first, when Jack asked me out, Rose came to me and talked about this... She was the only one who found the me-being-not-a-virgin situation a little strange. Everyone else just wanted to know who my 'secret lover' was…"
I just nodded. She needed to talk.
"I guess it was the first time she didn't act like my older sister who knows everything about everything - you do know Rose. She said that Jack was not a bad guy. But he was older and had those 'stories'…
She told me she didn't believe in Lorcan's gossips because of my attitude. The way I refused to reveal who 'the mistery guy' was. Me being relieved when the boys' reaction was not that bad."
"And why did Lorcan came up with the story that you were fucking some 'mysterious guy'anyway?"
"First of all, because he is idiot-Lorcan. He ran into me in the halls late at night a couple of time months ago. I was training Quidditch until late at night alone, took a minute-shower and came back to the Castle worried about being caught. He saw my wet hair – because I've taken a shower,- my cheeks in red – because I was doing exercises for the past four hours,- my fear of get into any trouble if someone caught me in the halls at that hour. ''
"And the first thing that came up out of his head was sex." Yes, it was really a Lorcan reaction.
"I did not deny it… And I've already told the rest of the story."
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N/A: See you soon!