Don't let me down

Disclaimer:This is as Harry-Potter-based fanfiction and JK Rowling ows it all.

Chapter 10

I said "good bye" and made my way back to the castle.

After decidind to spend my spare time in the library, someone stopped me.

Lorcan! I could really be free from him today.

"Hey, bro! How is Redhead?" He was talking about Lily and I knew it, but I intended to avoid the subject as much as I could.

"What redhead? Hogwarts is full of redheads."

"Your RedHead."

"I don't have a ReadHead of mine."

"So, why were Lily Potter and you exchanging looks and smiles all this morning?"

"No, we were not."

"Yes, you were. And that's the first time it happens after that Holiday awkwardness of yours."

"Are you spying on me now?"

"I don't need to be a spy to get things from you, Lysander. When you are happy, just like now, you stick this silly smile on your face." He was probably right, but I wouldn't let him win with no effort.

"Oh, Lorcan, go find something useful to do and let me go. I need to go to the library, Sluggorn gave me a huge Potions homework."

"So... you are dating now... And her nickname is Potions assingnment?"

"Now you are being delusional."

"I don't think so. I'll let you go from now. I'm late for my date. You know... The date I don't hide."

"Oh, do you hide any?"

"Shut up. Have a good Red Potions homework. And remember what I told you before... Be careful and don't let her break you." He said, before he walked towards the Castle front door.

If Lorcan wasn't so full of himself, I could really use a talk. Of course, I was full of joy. But I knew that sex thing and that insecure Lily would be a problem soon. And he could help me. Or at least I could try to get some help from him.

"Lorcan!" He stopped and turned his head. "Can I talk to you for just a second?"

"Of course. Just a minute."

He turned into some younger Ravenclaws and apparently was asking them to tell his date he was going to be late.

Then he came back through the Great Hall to talk to me and all I could think was that, if Lily saw us together, she wouldn't like it at all. But she was already gone back to her dorm.

"What's up, bro?"

"Can we go somewhere else? I don't all of Hogwarts students talking about our friendship."

"You do realize we are brothers. Twin brothers."

"I have my reasons."

"I know what your real reason is. You can calm down." He said, while he lead us to an empty classroom.

After spelling some charms in the door, he sat next to me in one of the desks.

"Lorcan, don't make me regret talking about this with you." I checked my watch and I only had a bit more than an hour, or I would be late for my date.

"Yeah, your sweet Lily is not so sweet when it comes to me."

"Well. She is not completely wrong, you know. Why the hell did you spread to she was having sex with some misterious guy last year?"

"Because she was jealous of you and Annie. For the first time, you could notice and sort of like some girl other than her. It was unfair! Lily goes out with everyone she wants to and when you finally had the chance to have a decent girlfriend, she was doing everything she could so you would break up with Annie."

"She does not go out with everyone she wants to. Where did you get this idea from?"

"She is Perfect Princess Lily. The guys don't have the guts to talk about her around you or her family. She is good kisser, good enough to make sure her blowjob will be one of the best. If she looks that perfect in Quidditch robes, her naked body is amazing for certain. The moves she makes with her broom, they make the guys dream about the moves she could make with their broom..." My face must be red and I was ready to punch him. "I didn't get even closer to her, for my own safe. It's just... what the guys are used to say when her honor-army is not around."

"Well, they can assume whatever they want. It does not make it true."

"Maybe. But she didn't have the right to get between you and Annie. You guys were dating. You, Lyasander, were finally having decent sex with Annie. You did have feelings for each other, Annie is a great girl and you were a nice couple. And just because Lily got mad when she saw you were no more one of the tons of Hogwarts' guys who were that into her, she thought she could get you and Annie into a fight..."

"So you think she was trying to get me apart from Annie. Do you have any actual proof or it is just idiot-Lorcan guessing?"

"It is a guess and I am not idiot. And I wasn't even lying about the sex thing. I ran into her late at night with an 'I just had sex'-face a couple of times. It was about time people knew she was no saint. Then she had her own problems to solve and you and Annie got rid of Lily's rage."

Oh, I wouldn't even argue with him about his idea of Lily trying to get me and Annie apart.

But it was not the reason I asked Lorcan to talk.

"Lorc, can I talk now?" He nodded.

"About this Annie-thing, I really can't say anything about it. And it is over. So let's forget it, okay?"

"Okay... So, what do you really want?"

"What I am about to tell you here. It's a secret."

"Okay."

"No, you don't get it. A real secret. Not a Lorcan-secret."

"Just speak up, Lys!"

"You are not supposed to know this. So, for the love of Merlin, keep your mouth shut. I need you to."

"You have my word."

"Can I count on it?"

"Yes, Lysander, you can."

"Well, Lily and I had some conversation yesterday at night."

"Conversation? Did you only 'talk'?"

"Yes. Almost. You promised you would keep your mouth shut, can you remember?"

"Yes, I can. Just say what you want!"

"Lorcan, your brilliant mind got it all wrong. Those times you ran into Lily, she was coming back from Quidditch practice. She was trainning hard. You know she's not just a bookwork. A's in the field are as important to her as A's in the school papers. She's Ginny Weasley and Harry Potter's daughter, for Merlin's sake. She is supposed to be a Quidditich star, nothing less than that. Slytheryn had a great team, she was feeling Griffindors were behind..."

"So... Why did she let me lie? She could just say I was making everything up. I have a reputation as a liar and she is Princess Potter."

"Well, apparently modern princesses aren't supposed to be virgins. All that pressure and stuff..."

"Don't get me wrong, Lys. But it always seemed like she loved being The Princess Potter. I would say she still loves."

"Oh, please, Lorcan. I know Lily. We are close since we were kids. Closer than you two have ever been. And you know that. You can tell that better than myself."

He nodded.

"... So, when I say she hates being Princess Potter, this is because she hates it. I know how angry she gets about it for only hearing those words. She wants to be a regular girl for once in a while. So, if regular girls are fucking around, she wants to do it. To be 'normal'. Because she needs all the non-princess reputation she can get. Without getting her or someone murdered by her brothers or her Uncle, of course."

"Wow, if your voice was a little bit more girly, I would say it was Lily talking. Your tone is exactly the same." Was he laughing?

"Lorcan, I am in trouble here."

"Yes. That's why I'm laughing. Your trouble is even worse than mine."

"I won't even ask the name of your trouble. I'm supposed to meet Lily in an hour, so let's skip your trouble from now."

"Thanks for your consideration, bro!" He tried to fake some dissapointment. That I obviously wouldn't believe. If there was someone in Hogwarts who could handle girls' mess, Lorcan sure would be the guy.

"You're welcome. Now, can we go back to Lils?"

"I hate your nicknames. She is your girlfriend. You keep them to yourselves."

"You, moron, she IS NOT my girlfriend. That's what my problem is. I can't even ask her at this point. She turned into this insecure girl. She feels the worst girl in the world for not having had sex yet. That ex-boyfriend of her is a jerk who made her think that being a virgin is a dirty secret she should hide at all costs. She cries all the time. She cries because she does not want to be my fuck-buddy and when I say I wouldn't do this to her... Guess what? She keeps crying because no one wants to be with a so grown up girl who is still a virgin. I can't give her more than a kiss without her having a panic attack because she apparently does not know how to react."

"Girls..."

"No, Lorcan. Lily is NOT one of your girls. She is my Lily and you must respect that."

"Ease, bro. I'm just trying to help. Did you try telling her the truth? That you are insanely in love with her?" How could he be so sure about it?

"Yes. She said she loved me back at some point. Betweeen all the crying and panic attacks."

"So, you guys are dating? What's the problem?"

"No, we were not dating. I can't even kiss her without her having a nervous breakdown. Remember?"

"Where are you going to meet?"

"The Defense Club."

"That's a great place." He said, distantly.

"We spent last night there. Talking."

"Lysander, it's time for me to go. You have the right place, you have your girl, you know her more than I do, you love each other. You don't need my help. Just don't screw things up."

And Lorcan dissapeared door away. Idiot-helpless-Lorcan.

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N/A:

Yes, Lysander is pretty nervous.

And we don't have any Lily's POV yet.

Is she going to break him?

I hope you guys like it so far.

Reviews are here for any ideas you may have.

Kisses, RMZ