OK. what's up I ask the guys as I nervously bounce on my left foot staring them both down. I love your Sesame Street footed jammies, Jey says, causing us all to laugh and break the tension. Come on and sit between us love, we won't bite, Jimmy says.
As I sit, Jey hands me my already made RC Black shot and asking how the hell do I stand it. After I gulp down 3 , {I know you may be thinking, Damn girl! 3? For real?} I don't always put it away like that, but with migraines and the stresses of what we call life, sometimes gets to me.} I'm relaxed finally. Sooooo what's this about guys? You have my undivided attention. As I lean my head back on the black suede couch cushion and close my eyes I'm thinking... MY GOD, THEY LOOK AND SMELL SO DAMNED GOOD! I WOULDN'T PUT UP A FIGHT IF THEY BOTH DECIDED TO JUMP ME RIGHT NOW! Hey, Jey says jerking me out of my lustful thoughts ,then putting me back in them by caressing my face. You OK Blu? I'm fine my handsome Simoean God,I tell him. Jey smiles as he grabs my hand, kisses it and says, OK that's enough shots for your ass right now . {Jimmy laughs and clears his throat } Damn girl! You downing that shit with a straight face scares me! Look Blu ,we know you and Dad have been working nonstop and you're trying to get into your own home by the Holiday Season, I know you being here is sposed to be temporary, but Jey and I feel like THIS IS YOUR HOME NOW! BLU, WE WANT YOU HERE WITH US, PERMEANTLY! We've been through so much sh*t together, we've taken care of and looked out for one another. We have settled into a routine that seems to work just fine with just us 3. We haven't been happy in our relationships and we know you're not happy in yours. That possessive b*tch you're with is doing nothing but pulling you down and using you.{Damn, I'm thinking to myself.} Jey speaks up and says, and as far as love goes, we already know that's there between us, and has been there longer then we'd dare to admit. So no need to question that at all.
WOW,Thanks you guys. As much as this touches my heart, your many lady friends won't go for this new odd arrangement, and Tiffany sure in hell won't. I know you guys don't care for her and I agree she's a bit possessive and at times rowdy . But I can't just throw 5 years away. Jey grabs my hand and squeezes , Baby Cakes there are no more b*tches and bimbos coming through this house. It's been an amazing year with us 3, even though we've had fun just being bad boys and doing our shit,we have this unbreakable bond to where we are so content and happy with just you. You see where we're going with this Blu?
{By this time my buzz is already wearing low due to the contents of this conversation } Uhhh yea, I think I do. So we just dump our significant others? And just start being this couple / trio? Guys as tempting as this sounds, this would never work. Jimmy stands to get him and Jey another beer. Blu, we just told you we're not tied. We have no significant others! Are you even in love with this Crazy Chic you call yours? {As I open my mouth to speak he cuts me off.} No doubt you love her, but are you IN LOVE?
{Damn it! He's got me on that one} Uhhh yea. I guess so. {The guys stop in mid sips of their beer and look at me like I just threw momma from the train.} They both say in unison, YOU GUESS?! 5 years with this b*tch and you guess? Jimmy says in frustration. Look ,like I was saying, we're available to you, really we always have been! We've been keeping our feelings in check out of respect for your relationship, but it seems its getting worse with her. We have nothing to lose. You've made it clear how much you love us not only by telling us, but your actions as well. Of course I love you both, I quickly admit. I've always have, but I can't just abandon my girlfriend . Jey gets on his knees and puts his head in my lap. Baby you don't have to tell her anything now! Just leave this between us alright? No one has to know, not even dad . {Especially him! Jimmy say} Lets just take this slow and bloom as we plant.
OK guys let's give this a shot! {What the fu*k did I just say?} Jimmy says are you serious!? We on? Jey still has his head in my lap, he raises his head and kisses the hell out of me! We good then? Yes Jey, we're good. Jimmy says look Jey, let's let Blu rest now. we can continue this later. We're off to a damned good start bra, Jimmy gets his kiss, Jey nods and gets up and walks me upstairs. {Damn my legs were weak! And thats just from kisses!} Once I'm in bed ,Jey kisses me again and says, Blu, I know this will work! I think so too, I say dozing off. I thought Jey had left the room till I felt him get in bed beside me, I just want to hold you love, he says. I'm dozing off again when I feel Jimmy get onto the other side of the bed. Oh my Goodness! I say to myself out loud, don't worry we'll behave Jimmy says. It's not your behavior I'm worried about I say as I kiss his forhead, nose and lips. As I snuggle in the middle of these 2, I felt soooo safe, and who better to protect me then them.? Lord what have I just committed myself to? I won't deny for the past year these guys have been points in my star. And obviously I'm a point in theirs. I finally drift off realizing I've just committed myself to 2 men, not even thinking about Tiffany's feelings, only my own. Am I being selfish? Indeed I am, Indeed I am.