So there is the 'biggie'- -her mom. What will she say and more importantly what might she offer him?

That last part caused Deeks to choke on his beer. "Oh God no Julia, there is no way I live the rest of my life without her. Yes I want to marry her and would like your permission but I am also wrestling with a problem- -." An hour later he finished. He explained about the reversal of wanting kids, the concerns about being enough for her, all of it."

Julia went to the fridge and got them both another beer before saying. "Ok, before I make this permission official I have a request." Getting a puzzled look she went on I will do my best to answer the questions you just posed but first- -you tell me the whole story. Your life history up to now. As background I know you're a cop and that makes Kensi some kind of law enforcement person but I got a feeling she's not a cop but a fed. Explain how your work with her and then tell me your story- - -ALL of it."

After several minutes of thought, he looked at Julia and realized she needed the measure of the man her 'little girl' was gonna marry. Probably being measured against Don and nothing but the truth would satisfy her. "Ok, (pause to sigh again) but understand, I won't go into detail about our time together. That I would need Kensi's ok for. Maybe someday we set down and tell all, but for now you get my story, including my time at NCIS. If that's ok then I'm ready. She is important enough that I will give you chapter and verse, even some of the 'classified' stuff." For the next 2 hours Deeks talked. He started with how they got partnered up and then gave her chapter and verse of his life-growing up-shooting Gordon-college-law school-public defender-cop and finally liaison to NCIS and what it was, meant and did. Then he hit the hi and low points of his career since then. He left nothing out including the kiss, Siderov and going to Afghanistan. He did leave out that it was Kensi they went to get substituting 'someone who was a very highly placed person' and after he finished he finally looked up. He had done the whole thing while looking at his hands folded on the table. "There you are Julia-the unvarnished truth about the man who wants to marry your little girl. I'm not the squared away person her dad was and I can be OCD as hell and I drive her crazy with little things but I promise you I will protect her with my life and love her for as long as she'll have me. The only way I leave her is by her request or- - -."

Julia sat there staring for a few minutes just staring at him. He could see the moistness in her eyes but was afraid of what that meant. His fears were confirmed, he thought, when she let out a long sigh and looked down at her hands.

"This is gonna take a minute-more beer please" and as he set one in front of her, she began. "Most important things first-and to get you off the hook-yes you may marry my daughter and she is damn lucky to have you. I knew that before you told me all. Just listening to her gave me a measure of you. I wanted the unedited version to be sure. Mothers worry about such things. Now on to the real question. I know she hasn't wanted kids but wasn't aware that she had changed her mind recently. I just got back from a trip and we haven't talked much since I've been back. To the real question-do you trust Kensi's judgement?"

"In most things ok course. Her taste in music-that techno stuff-no so much." They both chuckled and Julia nodded her head in agreement. As Julia began to talk Deeks texted Kensi runnin' late Bates keeps pushin' em to ask more questions. Figure 6:30-6:45 love ya. Almost immediately came k-love u 2

"Ok then detective, haven't you answered your own question. If you trust her judgement why are you worried? After Jack, do you really thing she would get involved with just anyone? She guards her heart closely. She would be sure you were ok-not looney so to speak before even getting involved. Besides I'm guessing, knowing her and what you've told me-she just might be able to kick your butt if you even tried to lift a hand to her or your children. Am I right?"

Marty nodded and after a minute he almost whispered, "wow, everyone seems to have this figured out. Everyone was expecting me to ask and everyone has given me the thumbs up. Why the hell am I struggling with sorting it out or at least believing it will work out? I've been doing a lotta thinkin' about things during this process and realize 2 things-first what you said-Kensi has great instincts and she is open and honest as the day is long with me and 2-my dear ole dad gave me a bigger inferiority complex than I thought. I need to do some more work on that one. Anyway I gotta get goin' soon but here's the quick version of what I'm planning" and then he went thru the plans so far. "Would you like to go with when I look at the ring drawings? Nell will be there so you can meet her?"

"Are you sure you want that Marty? What about your mom? What if we can't agree?"

Chuckling Deeks went on "never thought of all that. Ya, mom should be there-we're gonna be a family and I think it should start now. Besides what I know about rings and diamonds would fit on a pin head and still leave room for the constitution." Getting a smile at that he went on "I'll text ya with where and when and I will call mom also. It will be about a week before the drawings are ready."

"I'll be waiting and Marty-thank you for asking. It was something you didn't have to do but it is appreciated. It goes along with the other thing she shared about you. In the end you always do the right thing and you worry about everyone's feelings but yours. But to answer your last question-why are you struggling with this and not able to work it out. Don't over think the inferiority thing it could be as simple as you want this so bad you're trying to be sure everything is perfect and it never is. You and Kensi will never be on the same page completely. It sounds more like you and her need to lay out some kind of general life plan. Not by date but general goals that you can achieve and move forward. That make sense. "

That got a smile and then as he got up he offered "I would love to talk to you for another couple hours but if I don't leave now, I'll have to hurry and I've had too many beers for that. If I'm much later she may call Bates and grill him. Then the cat's out of the bag. Oh- - -and what you just said may be the most logical thing I've heard or thought of as to how to deal with this. I will give that real careful thought. Thank you for the insight."

As they reached the door, Julia pulled him into a hug and kissed his check then whispered "Donnie would have been proud of the man my daughter fell in love with- -never doubt that AND never forget it. Now go take care of things. It sounds like everyone is convinced you 2 belong together. Don't fight it just make it work."

On the way he called his mom about the ring and she was thrilled. Besides she said she and Julia got along great at Sam's and she wanted to spend more time with her. "I think I'll see if she wants to get dinner and/or a drink after and we can talk about the 2 of you. Text me where and when."

"Will do mom. And then he began thinking very seriously about what Julia had said.

And there you have now we have rings, parties and proposals to put together. You still there everyone?