I am Who I am
I do not own Glee, it's characters, it's dialogue or musical compositions. I do not own any music that is being used in the fiction, it belongs to the singer and or songwriter.
I own my plot and characters.
As always my fictions are chalked full of Finchel Smut. If you can't handle it this is not for you.
Chris is the main focus of this story along with his parents. The other kids will feature in a small capacity.
Trigger warning Overdose, Drug use Major Character Death!
Chapter 11: Why?
It's been a month since Finn and Rachel found out about the twins. They have yet to tell the kids, both scared of the reaction. They were okay when there was one, but Rachel is not sure how they'll take two. Why can't she and Finn ever do anything the easy way.
The good news is today is the day Finn is having his vasectomy. Okay so maybe he doesn't think its good news.
"Rach" Finn calls from the bed trying to sound sick and pathetic. He really is not that good of an actor good thing he could throw a football.
"Don't even try it Hudson, get your ass out of that bed you've got an appointment with Dr. Jones and you are not getting out of it." She told him.
"BUUTT Baby!" He says all sugary.
"Don't baby me, Finn. You know this is easier for you to do than for me to have another surgery, it's safer too."
"It liberally has happened like Puck said in high school, you are cutting off my balls" Finn said in a huff causing his wife to laugh.
"It's literally and I'm not cutting off your balls, and they say I'm the dramatic one" She continues to laugh walking back into the bedroom her baby bump swelling with the days passing.
Finn looks at his small wife in her bra and panties licking his lips with that dark look in his eyes she knows so well.
"Not happening Finn, Dr. Jones said no sex the day of the procedure. I think I more than took care of you yesterday when Kurt took the kids out all day."
"Rach, I'm not going to get some for like two hundred weeks. I don't know why we couldn't do this after you had the baby and we'd both be out of commission" Finn asked hopefully.
"Finn, come on stop trying to get out of it. You heard Dr. Jones, you won't be able to have sex for 7 days. And if we wait there is a more likely chance that I could get pregnant. We do this now while I'm already pregnant and we can work the left over sperm out without fear of me getting pregnant."
He knew his wife's logic was correct, he just really didn't want his balls cut into. "Fine, let's go get my manhood chopped off." He resigns himself pulling his legs off the bed and onto the floor. "All I know is when the seven days is up, you better be ready because I'm going to need you to fuck me a whole lot to get over this" With that Rachel shakes her head and her husband walks into the bathroom pulling his boxers off hopping into the shower.
"When is that any different" Rachel mumbles to herself.
Finn was pacing the waiting room nervously while Rachel read a magazine.
"How can you be so calm when I'm getting ready for them to cut into my business?"
"Finn didn't you take the Valium Dr. Jones prescribed?" Rachel asks not looking up from her magazine.
"I think it was a dud, I don't feel anything"
"Finn it's not a grenade. It can't be a dud, pills work you're just too keyed up. Come relax" Rachel says
"Relax, Relax, RELAX! I don't know how you can say that to me. You know how important my junk is to me. What if he does something wrong? What if he actually cuts off my balls? What if OH MY GOD, I can't ever get an erection again? Rach, I can't live without sexing you up. You'll leave me and I'll be an erection-less loser who only gets to see his kids every other weekend. You'll marry some guy who can get a hard on. I can't watch you with a hard on guy Rach, I-I just can't" Finn panted like he was going to hyperventilate.
"Finn, Finn calm the hell down. I swear on Grilled Cheesus that I won't leave you for a hard on guy." She says trying not to laugh at his paranoid rantings.
"I love you, erection or not. Dr. Jones knows what he's doing. He has performed this procedure many times. He did Rory's. And look at Rory and Sugar, they are fine. He is fine. No complaints. He told you his penis works just fine."
"You talking about Rory's penis isn't helping Rachel." Finn snaps.
"Okay that's it." Rachel jumps from her chair and stalks over to the front desk. "My husband and I have been waiting for almost 45 minutes. He is out here freaking out. They need to get him back there and sedated as soon as possible or I will kill someone. I'm pregnant with my fifth and sixth child and all I want is not to have more. So can we get this show on the road?" Rachel yelled at the poor girl answering the phones.
"I'll get a nurse" She answered sheepishly.
"Damn babe, that was hot"
"Of for the love of Moses, is that all you ever think about. My god Finn Hudson you are a 31 year old man not a horny 16 year old." Rachel screeched.
"I can't help it if I'm married to a total MILF" Finn said seemingly relaxing against his will. Looks like the valium is kicking in. He leans in to kiss his wife's still pouty lips when the nurse appears at the door.
"Mr. Hudson we are ready for you now"
"Can my wife come?" he inquired. "We will get you prepped and then I'll come and get her before you're wheeled into the procedure room." Not the answer he wanted but he'll take what he can get at this point.
"Here put this gown on opening in the back. Everything off underneath, you can leave your socks on but everything else has to be removed. I'll be back to start your IV and shave you."
"Okay sounds goo…Hold up did you say shave?" Finn states with a panic rising in his voice.
"Yes, we have to shave your testicles" the nurse told him, pulling the curtain for his privacy and leaving him slacked jawed.
"Well, the hits keep on playing don't they? She totally owes me." He mumbled to himself. Hearing the nurses snickering at his pain.
Finn changed and after a few minutes the nurse returned with the supplies for the IV. "Dr. Jones said we can wait until you are under conscious sedation to shave you to save you if you would prefer." The nurse informed him.
"Thank you, I'd rather not be aware" Finn answered sardonically.
Once his IV was inserted and the fluids began to drip the surgical tech wheeled him into the procedure room. Dr. Jones and Dr. Ryan (the anesthesiologist) were waiting for him. Finn was transferred to the procedure table when Dr. Ryan put oxygen in his nose and began to administer him a sedative that would put him in a twilight sleep.
"Mr. Hudson, John over there is going to tape your penis to you stomach and shave your testicles and we will get started" is the last thing Finn heard before waking up with Rachel at his side.
"Hey, you're awake" she smiled
"Am-am I don't, is it finished?" He asked confused from waking up in a different location.
"Yes, Dr. Jones said it went well and gave my aftercare instructions. Let me get the nurse and see when we can get out of here."
"Rach?"
"Yes babe"
"Can you un-tape my dick now"
Rachel begins laughing. "Finn it already is. I love you for doing this you know that right?"
"Yeah, yeah, All I know is I better be getting use out of your lack of gag reflex and pretty liberally" he smirks.
"Never change Hudson" Rachel laughs.
A week later after Finn and his junk recovered from his vasectomy they were having the parents over to reveal the pregnancy and the fact that its twins. All the kids were helping Finn straighten up the big house. Chris was with Uncle Blaine picking up Adele, she has become quite the fixture at the Hudson house in the two months she'd been dating Chris.
"Mom were back" Chris yelled from the door.
"In the kitchen sweetie, did you thank Uncle Blaine" She reminds him.
"Yes mother" rolling his eyes as he walked in the kitchen with his girlfriend's tiny hand in his larger one.
"Hi, Mrs. Hudson. Thanks again for inviting me. I made Mr. Hudson's favorite of mine, fudge brownies for desert." Adele handed Rachel the dish. Rachel pulled her into a hug.
"Sweetness, I've continually told you to call me Rachel and you are going to spoil Finn with the chocolate. He won't know what to do with himself."
"I think I've got some idea what to do with myself and it involves you" Finn cheekily wrapped his arms around his pregnant wife's belly. Wiggling his eyebrows at his son.
"Ewe, my girl is right here. Can you not be disgusting teenagers for one night?" Chris sarcastically addressed his dad.
"You won't be saying that one day when you're my age." Finn teases.
"Please for the love of Grilled Cheesus, dad, stop talking. We are gonna go now, so you can, what is that Uncle Kurt says, Frenicate or whatever" Chris puts the brownies down and pulls Adele toward the door.
"It's fornicate dear and there will be none of that where you two are going." Rachel embarrasses him even more.
"Kill me, kill me now" Chris mumbles walking pass a laughing Blaine. "It was worse in high school little Finn"
"Uncle B, if you insist on calling me that I will break out the Blainey days" Chris warns.
Blaine holds up his hands in surrender and Adele laughs. "Your family is so fun, Chris. Your parents are too cute." She admires his family. They aren't afraid to show affection and sex is not taboo. Her friends in Chicago were getting pregnant at 13 and 14 because their parents wouldn't talk about sex with them and how to be safe. She is so glad her mom had that talk with her before she died and she knows that when she's ready she can go to her dad and be put on the pill. He always told her he'd rather have that embarrassing talk then her come home pregnant at 15 or 16.
She glad her boyfriend's parents are naive to think sex won't happen. I mean they did have Chris when they were sixteen.
Mr. Hudson likes to say "teen pregnancy runs in our family" Chris hides his face but Adele thinks his dad is a hoot.
The entire Hudmelberry Clan had arrived and were gathered around the large table in the large dining room of the big house, when Finn stood taping his water glass.
"Thanks for coming to this Hudmelberry dinner. Rach and I have an announcement. Rach is four months pregnant with Hudson babies five and six" Finn states factually.
The entire table all five kids and the parents stare. Kurt jumps up and squeals. "OH MY GAGA! TWINS! You two can't do anything simple can you." The table bust out laughing at the words.
"We thought you were getting a divorce you guys have been so secretive and stand offish these last few months. Don't ever scare us like that again." Carole says getting up to hug her daughter in law and son.
"Well, that went well" Rachel whispered to Finn. "It's not them I was worried about, the kids haven't said a word" Finn reminds her.
"So, kiddo's what do you think" Burt asked sensing the kids were too quiet.
"It doesn't matter, what we think, there are going to be two more kids here whether we like it or not" Chris said for the group.
'Hey, now, that's not fair. We didn't plan one baby let alone two. I thought we went over that when we told you two months ago. You don't get to be disrespectful of your mom." Finn lashed out at his son.
Chris backed down "Sorry mom. Sorry dad. I realize it wasn't in the plan but it's still a bit of a shock."
"Fine, girls what about you"
Aiyana was the first to speak "What's not to love, two babies instead of one" flashing her mamma's smile at her daddy.
"I'm okay with it as long as mommy will be okay." Bella answers like the little mother she always is.
"Cool bees" Cullen contributes as he shovels his spaghetti in his mouth.
"Cullen gross, use a fork, mommy Cullen is eating with his fingers" Aiyana yells.
"I got him babe" Finn grabs Cullen up to take to the bathroom to clean his face and hands.
"Let's go pig pen" Finn tickles his belly
"Top it Daddy, I to fulled up. It hurt my belly" Cullen whined.
Finn clean and changed Cullen and the family left for the night. Adele and Rachel where finishing up the kitchen talking.
"So, Sadie Hawkins dance is coming up are you asking Chris" Rachel prods
"Of course, but It's hard, daddy doesn't have time to shop and I haven't made any real friends. All the girls snipe behind my back because I'm the new girl and I got Chris Hudson. People just don't like me"
"Chris likes you, and we like you. You know Chris's Uncle Kurt is in town for another week, why don't we persuade him to take us on a dressing spree. He lives for make overs." Rachel told her.
"I wouldn't want to intrude on his family time." Adele looks away.
"Nonsense. I'll call him now and we will be over to pick you up at 10 am on the button and we will find you the perfect dress for a snowflake ball."
"Thank you Rachel" "You are more than welcome. Come on Finn's driving for Ice Cream and then we'll drop you off"
Rachel, Kurt, Bella and Adele were just finishing up at the last store when Bella stopped.
"Mom, that's the woman that stopped Daddy when we got my new suit for swimming." Bella said pointing at the TV screen.
"Ms. Fabray was found dead this morning of an apparent overdose. She was a prominent member of the Commercial real estate community in Lima. She is survived by her two children Noah Puckerman Jr. and Madison Beth Puckerman and her longtime boyfriend Noah Puckerman. Mr. Puckerman is the coach of the McKinley High School football Titans. In lieu of Flowers the family ask you donate to The Addiction and Prevention Center of Lima.
According to sources close to the family, Ms. Fabray had been battling depression and addiction for the better part of the last decade. Back to you Rod"
Kurt and Rachel stood there stunned. How did they not know this? Did Noah know?
"Oh, those poor babies" Rachel said.
"Bad enough they've had to live how they were now this. Such a waste" Kurt interjected.
"Madi's dad sent her to Crawford Country Day after the locker room incident" Adele informed the adults.
"Noah, has been very quiet at school, mom. His bobe is the only one besides his dad that is allowed to pick him up for the last month." Isabella says.
"I've got to call Finn. He'll want to be there for Noah." Rachel walks off to call Finn who's been busy overseeing the construction of the recording studio. They should be ready for the first recordings in early April.
"Hey babe, I'm on my way to the high school now." Finn told her before she even said anything.
"That good. Let me know if he needs anything. Kurt the girls and I will pick up some take out from Breadstix for them. I'll drop it at his mom's house."
"Sound great Rach. I love you remember that. If you forget anything please always know I love you" Finn sounds desperate.
"I know baby. I love you and the kids so, so much. Be safe and I'll see you at home" Rachel hung up and gathered Bella up into her arms for a big hug. She proceed to do the same to Adele and then the other three of her kids when she got home.
Rachel was waiting for Finn to get home. She was sitting in the big comfy chair in the corner of their room overlooking the pool in their expansive back yard. Wondering to herself, Why Quinn got so off track. Why did she take drug? Why was she so miserable? Those poor kids would never know the answer to the question.
Why?
Next time we find out why Quinn did what she did. Was it a Suicide or an accident?
Bobe=grandmother in Hebrew
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Sadie Hawkins or Snowflake Ball
The Sadie Hawkins dance is named after theLi'l Abnercomic stripcharacter Sadie Hawkins, created bycartoonistAl Capp.[1]In the strip,Sadie Hawkins Dayfell on a given day in November (Capp never specified an exact date). The unmarried women of Dogpatch got to chase the bachelors and "marry up" with the ones they caught.[1]The event was introduced in a daily strip which ran on November 15, 1937.
In the U.S. and Canada, this concept was popularized by establishing dance events to which the woman invited a man of her choosing, instead of demurely waiting for a man to ask her. The first known such event was held on November 9, 1938.[citation needed]Within a year, hundreds of similar events followed suit. By 1952, the event was reportedly celebrated at 40,000 known venues.[citation needed]It became a woman-empowering rite at high schools and college campuses, and the tradition continues in some regional American cultures.
Similar dances, sometimes called Spinsters' Balls, have been organized for adults. The custom of holding Spinsters' Balls has spread outside the U.S., and exists in countries such as Australia. If held during the winter months,the Sadie Hawkins dance may be called the Snow Ball or some other wintryname. In a variation on pure Sadie Hawkins custom, a particular song may be designated a snowball dance by theDJor master of ceremonies.
In that case, also known as "speed dancing" (because of its similarities tospeed dating), the DJ picks two people to start dancing, usually to a slow dance. Periodically the DJ will shout, "snowball," signaling that the dancers must find new partners, thus increasing the number of partners on the floor. Half of the people asking new dancers to come to the floor will be girls asking boys, Sadie Hawkins-style. By the end of the song, most of the people at the dance are on the dance floor. The "snowball dance" is typically used to get the dancing started, as school dances can be notoriously slow to start. In some areas, people chosen to dance cannot refuse, thereby ensuring people get onto the dance floor, and thus the "snowball" gains momentum and grows.