As soon as the doors to the mess hall closed behind us I broke down in tears. It took everything I had not to burst out crying in front of Four and the other leaders but my control disappeared with the sound of the closing doors. Eric pulled me towards him and held me as I let the tears fall down my cheeks and slowly soaking his vest, if he noticed he didn't show it. After a few minutes the tears stopped falling and Eric's grip around me loosened, he pushed me back to see if the tears had stopped and when he was sure I wasn't going to start crying again he gave my shoulder a reassuring squeeze.

"Do you want to beat the shit out of a punching bag or do you want to head to your office and do some paperwork?" He asked me with a small smile. He knows full well I would take a punching bag over paperwork any day and that today is no exception. I punch his playfully and he feigns hurt as I begin to walk towards the training room.

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Eric remains impassive throughout training which helps me forget about Four and when we finally leave the training room its past dinner time and we are both starving. I begin to walk towards mine and Fours apartment but stop when I remember why I can't go back there. I will never be able to sleep in the same bed as him again. I trusted him with everything, my fears, my life and my divergence and it feels like he has just ripped apart of me out, leaving a hole straight through my entire being. I realise I have nowhere to go and turn around to see Eric waiting patiently by the door of the training room. I walk over to him and he places his hand at the small of my back and guides me back to his apartment.

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Eric offers to make dinner while I shower so I don't have to go to the mess hall and when I finish drying my hair he has already set the table and is just serving up meatballs and spaghetti.

"I didn't know you could cook." I tell him when I sit down at the table.

"I think you'll find there is a lot you don't know about me, Tris." He replies with a smirk that makes my heart flutter.

I taste the meatballs and I can't stop myself from making an orgasmic sound as I eat them. If possible the smirk on Eric's face widens and my cheeks burn red from embarrassment. I try to finish the meal without making any more noises and thankfully I succeed. Once dinner is finished I try to convince Eric to let me wash the dishes while he goes for a shower and he finally gives way. After I have dried and put them away I walk over to the living room, sit down on the couch and hug my knees to my torso. After his shower Eric walks back into the living room in black joggies but no shirt and like last night I can't help but watch as every muscle in his torso flexes and moves and I know he can see me watching but he doesn't call me up on it. He sits down next to me and turns on the TV.

"If you want I'll have a word with Max tomorrow and see if I can get you an apartment of your own in the leader's corridor as soon as possible." He tells me and I nod my head. He smiles softly and although it is an unfamiliar look on him he suits it perfectly and it makes him look a lot younger; I have to keep reminding myself he is only nineteen, two years older than me. "I don't know how long it will take as it won't be furnished so you can stay here until it's ready for you." He finishes and I can't help but smile a little, I try to hide it but the smug grin he is wearing tells me he definitely saw it and I groan internally. "Also because we didn't get any paperwork done today we are going to have to do double tomorrow." I groan out loud this time and Eric lets a small chuckle leave his lips before controlling himself and changing the channel on the TV to a movie.

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When I wake up in the morning I feel a hard but warm pillow beneath me and the pillow is rising and falling softly. My eyes snap open and I tilt me head up to find that my head is lying on Eric's chest. I try not to panic and try to lift me head without waking him. However just as I am about to be free Eric turns and pulls my back flush against his chest from where we are lying on the sofa. His strong arms are wrapped around my waist and our bodies are pressed together from head to foot. From where I am lying I can feel his warmth radiating through me and I can hear the sound of his heart beating. I give up trying to free myself when I conclude that I am completely trapped; the worst part is that all my attempts have been half hearted and although I know I should probably wake him up so he can release me, I can't bring myself to do so. I turn my body around in his arms and stare at his unusually peaceful face. He looks like that nineteen year old he is and I lose my self in how soft his facial features look when he isn't smirking or shouting or trying to keep his blank mask from slipping and allowing people to see that he isn't all that bad; that he can be nice and he can act like a human being.

I don't know how long I lie there next to Eric; staring at his face deep within my own thoughts when someone starts to bang loudly on the door. Eric groans sleepily and keeps his eyes firmly shut, he pulls me tighter against him but then freezes. I shut my eyes and will my body to relax and feign sleep. His body is rigid next to mine and his grip on me slowly loosens. I try to keep my eyes shut as he lifts me off of him, stands up and lays my body gently back on to the sofa.

Whoever is on the other side of the door keeps knocking loudly and Eric mutters some obscenities under his breath as he walks over to the door to answer it. I hear the door open and the sound of someone being shoved against the wall. My eyes snap open and I jump off of the couch. Just inside the doorway is Eric pinned against the wall by Four.

"What the hell are you doing here?" I shout at Four and both of the men's heads snap towards my direction.

"Why are you acting so high and mighty when I bet you have been sleeping with this sadistic bastard for months?" Four questions me with a voice colder than ice.

"I've never slept with him! You know that I have only ever slept with you. And you know what, I wished I hadn't." I snap back at him. "You're the one that cheated, not me."

"Yeah right, you've been fucking him for months, I know you have. You're just a dumb slut who'll let anyone have a go, including this rat." Four replies.

If I had blinked I would have missed the punch that Eric threw at Fours head which knocked him out cold and he fell to the floor in a heap. I stand there my mouth hanging open. How dare he say that to me, he knows full well how terrified of intimacy I am.

"He can call me all the names under the sun, I don't care but if he ever calls you that again, he won't just be unconscious." Eric says and looking at his now raged filled face I can tell that that's a promise.