Edward stared at me for a few agonising seconds. "Stop it Bella! Stop it now!" He growls, keeping his eyes squeezed tightly shut, gasping in air. "You don't understand what it's like! Imagine you hadn't fed for two years, what would humans smell like to you then? Would you be able to kiss them? You're driving me crazy." He yells.
I try to ignore the guilt that was slowly creeping its way in at his anguished expression. "I'm sorry." I say honestly. "But I know you're strong enough to do this. I'm trying to make you see it too. I want to be with you. I can only do that if you give it a chance."
He wrenches his eyes open, staring fiercely a me. "At any moment your scent could become too much and I could kill you!" He gasps shallowly.
I raise an eyebrow at him. "It doesn't matter!"
Rage fills his expression. "How can you say that?!" He yells and in the next second he's shoved me away from him and thrown me across the clearing.
I land on my feet but stand motionless, awaiting his next move. This was it. Was he going to kiss me or kill me? I wasn't going to stop him either way. I knew he was strong enough to make this decision.
His golden eyes were burning intently as he slowly stalked over to me. "Run." He begs.
"No chance." I say defiantly, looking directly into his eyes. "I don't run away from things that scare me."
That halted him in his tracks. "I scare you?" He whispers, before an expression of pain flitted across his face. "You should be afraid of me."
I sigh. He just wasn't getting it. "Edward." I say quietly. "I'm not afraid of you. I'm… I'm afraid of losing you. I want you to make up your mind about me and this relationship."
He turns startled eyes to me. "You should be afraid of me. Why aren't you afraid?" He says breathlessly.
"Honestly Edward, how can I be afraid of you?" I ask quietly, gesturing to him. "I look at you and I see… goodness and purity. God knows you've had plenty of opportunities to kill me already but yet you haven't. Doesn't that prove something?" I say desperately.
"That I have good self-control." He says sarcastically. "Trust me Bella, any moment I could attack you, so lost in my thirst that I wouldn't know what I'm doing."
I roll my eyes at him. "You could. But you seem to be fine at the moment."
His jaw was clenched. "It's not without effort." He says shallowly.
"When I was a human I could have died every time I crossed a road. That didn't stop me from crossing the road." I point out lightly.
He looks surprised. "Crossing the road is nothing compared to how dangerous this is."
Something snapped inside of me and I lost all sense of rationality. We were just going around in circles. When was this beautiful boy going to realise that I was unconditionally and irrevocably in love with him?
Hell I was in love with Edward.
That scared me no end but I just couldn't help the way I felt.
So I flipped out and literally launched myself across the clearing, screaming my lungs out. "DECIDE NOW EDWARD!" I roar. "KISS ME OR KILL ME! I DON'T CARE WHICH! JUST CHOOSE!"
I was already in front of Edward which made it easy for him to reach out and grab me, yanking me to him.
In the next second he'd crushed burning hot lips to mine, surrendering completely.
He'd made his choice.