Chapter 3: Running into your first love

Underline: Signing and Speaking

Bold: Signing

Kathryn and Daphne were preparing the refreshments for the party while I was setting up the music. The party was starting at 6:00 so we could have a simple dinner and then presents, and lastly cake. When we were done with that, we probably would hangout and dance. If I made it through tonight without having a one on one conversation with Emmett then I think I would survive. I don't know if he knows the party is for me too, but he probably figures since Daphne and I have the same birthday. If he does know, I wonder if he will get me a birthday present, probably, knowing him. Once the party was set up, which was around 5:45, all I had to do was wait for our guests to arrive. Toby had already arrived with Lily, but they had a babysitter watch their baby. I decided to try and avoid Emmett so that I wouldn't cry remembering all the memories of me and him. Knowing me, I probably would end up telling him I'm still in love with him because he could see right through me and know I was lying. I decided to go to the bathroom to make sure I looked good. Once I got to the mirror, I saw my light makeup with cat eyeliner to see if I liked how it looked. I had a cute dress, it was purple and ran down to my knees and had leggings under it. I had a black rose barrette in my hair to keep the hair out of my face. I began to breathe in and out to prepare myself for the party. I recollected myself the best I could trying to keep Emmett out of my head and went out of the bathroom. I never really wanted to have this party, but if we didn't I would never hear the end of it. I suddenly heard a knock on the door, but decided to not answer it because if it was Emmett, I probably would cry. But, just my luck no one was around to hear the door knocking. I walked slowly to the door, praying it wasn't Emmett. Once I got to the door, I breathed in and out. Luckily it was only Reginia so I didn't have to worry.

She smiled at me and said, "you look beautiful."

I smiled brightly at her and said, "thanks you too." She quickly handed my present and said, "happy birthday." I smiled as she gave me a hug. She began to walk away so I closed the door behind her. I put my present on the table for presents so it was organized. Once everyone arrived including Emmett, it was time for dinner. The dinner was really loud and hectic, maybe because I was freaking out about Emmett looking at me occasionally at dinner. As soon as everyone was done with dinner, I started to walk away faster so I didn't have to run into Emmett. I kept looking in back of me to make sure he wasn't behind me which is really stupid because I wasn't paying attention in front of me so I ran into someone. I closed my eyes praying it wasn't Emmett. I slowly opened my eyes and lifted my head up slowly. Once my eyes were fully open, I saw his light blue ocean eyes. Slowly I started to look into them while he looked at me with his sorrowful filled eyes. I don't know what it is, but I feel like when we look into each other's eyes we can see the full emotion in them. Looking into them made me tear up and I hoped Emmett wasn't fully looking into mine because I know it would show my true feeling. I quickly started to run away, but was stopped by Emmett's hand grasped onto my arm. I looked back at him feeling the tears run down my cheeks and looked at him trying not to cry anymore.

He looked at me giving me sympathy and signed, "what's wrong?"

I let out a nervous laugh and quickly responded. "nothing."

He slowly put his hand on my shoulder and I felt the goosebumps start to form as he looked at me.

He signed, "I know that something is wrong. Please tell me because I don't want to worry about you anymore."

I wiped the tears that had fallen and asked, "why would you worry about me?" This time Emmett's eyes started to form tears so my eyes started to tear up and almost by reflex I put my arms around him. I cried into his warm and comforting chest even he was the one who needed the most comfort. He held me back while rubbing the back of my head to soothe me. Luckily me and Emmett were alone because everyone was outside eating still. I closed my eyes to try and stop the crying. Slowly I stopped the crying from soaking in Emmett's comfort. Once we both pulled away, we both looked at each other and Emmett gave a sweet smile to me. I couldn't help but smile back. Slowly Emmett leaned in and gave me a short kiss filled with love. I kissed him back, but he quickly pulled away.

I quickly signed,"what's wrong?"

His eyes filled with sadness as he signed, "I love you so much, but I don't want you to get hurt again." I felt my eyes fill up with tears, but this time happy ones filled with sorrow.

I smiled not even bothering to talk aloud when I signed, "I love you too and I forgave you a while ago so don't worry."

I then began to lean in and before I could get to his lips he began to lean in too and placed a soft kiss on my lips and he pulled me closer with his hands on my hips. He kissed me passionately as I kissed him passionately back while I had my hands in his hair while I messed up his hair. I know he didn't like it because it made his hair messed up but I knew he secretly loved the feeling. Plus I loved teasing him. I wanted to kiss him like that forever but I had to pull away for air. We both slowly pulled away and I put my forehead on his to rest my head. He slowly pulled my hand closer to his and I felt his soft fingers interlock mine while I felt chills run throughout my body. Before we could do anything else, I heard the front door open so I quickly let go not even wanting to.

He quickly signed, "what's wrong?"

I grabbed his hand out of reflex to get out of the kitchen. I quickly ran out of the kitchen, but was caught by Daphne.

She signed to Emmett, "where were you?" He squeezed my hand to slowly let go of it. I noticed that she didn't even realize we were holding hands.

He signed, "I was with Bay." She looked at us both weirdly and a little confused.

She signed, "why would you hangout with Bay?"

He began to look down at his feet not knowing what to say so I quickly answered with, "funny story actually, we both ran into each other and we got to talking and we lost track of time." I lied not even mentioning our kiss or hugging or us holding hands. She looked at us both weirdly again and seemed to believe us.

She said, "ok, well Bay it's time for presents so you should come outside soon."

I smiled and said, "alright I'll be out soon." As soon as Daphne walked away and closed the door, I leaned in to kiss Emmett, I missed his lips against mine for so long. His soft lips kissed me softly giving me a sweet kiss without being too passionate.
Once we both pulled away he signed, "after the party, do you want to come to my hotel and hangout so we can catch up."

I smiled at him and said, "as long we kiss too."

He gave his signature James Dean smirk and signed, "maybe things will lead to more."

I let out a laugh and said, "don't get too ahead of yourself."

He suddenly looks really serious as he signs, "do you find it funny how we can always go back to like we were always together?"

I smiled brightly as I said, "it's because even when we aren't together, we both know that soon enough we will be. It's almost like the destiny we share is always true."

He gave me his James Dean smirk as he signed, "cheesy much?"

We both laughed and I said, "shut up!" He quickly grabbed my hand which gave me a flashback of the day we went to the junkyard. I smiled brightly more than I have in years. I can't help but smile when Emmett does all those "little things." I squeezed his hand and began to walk outside because I didn't care who knew about me and Emmett. We walked through the kitchen door to meet at the outdoor dinner table. His hand gave me warmth and comfort I needed inside my heart. Before I got to the table where everyone was, I put a small kiss on his cheek which I saw him blush slightly. He looked so adorable when he blushed like that. The next turn was going to be my family so Emmett squeezed my hand tightly as we began to get closer. As soon as we stepped into their view, all eyes laid on us. Mostly John as slightly shook his head. It was silent, but I didn't really mind because I had Emmett right there with me and he made me so happy. I silently walked to my seat which was next to Toby and Emmett sat next to me while still having his fingers interlocked with mine. I noticed Emmett wasn't as tense because he stopped holding my hand so tightly. It was hard to not look at Emmett, but I knew if I did, I probably would have a big make out session right there in front of everyone so I decided to face forward.
John was the one to break the silence as he got up, "you guys better not be back together." I stood up pulling Emmett's hand to indicate I wanted to stand up with him and he did. I put my heads up ready to sign, but Emmett was still holding my hand so I let go.

I signed angrily,"why, because he made mistakes like any normal human being?"

John said angrily,"no because he broke up with you at one of the hardest times in your life!"

I shook my head and signed,"it was bad timing, I know that it wasn't all because of that, it was the distance, being hurt by someone you loved, missing each other, blaming yourself for something you couldn't control, not being able to help or thinking you couldn't, not being able to hold each other each day, everything just got to the both of us." John just shook his head.

I was about to sign something, but Emmett put my heads down and signed to me, "can I say something?" I nodded my head yes and breathed in and out trying to control my anger. Emmett rubbed his hands together and I could feel the nerves going off him. He signed slowly so that John could try and understand.

He signed, "I do realize that I'm not perfect and that I made one of the biggest mistake breaking up with Bay especially at one of the hardest times in her life. So I do understand why you wouldn't want us to be together, but I can't say sorry enough." He looked at me with his eyes full of sorrow and even though he wasn't crying, I could tell he wanted to.

He signed to me, "I'm so sorry, Bay. Really I am, you can tell I always mess up with you, but that's because I'm so deeply in love with you more than you will ever know. I blame myself sometimes for what happened with you and I thought I couldn't help you. I thought that I was the last person in the world you wanted to be with. I've made all of these horrible mistakes, but you still love me and I can't believe it. But, I know that you forgave me, when you kissed me and the way you kissed me because I could feel it and that was the old Bay kissed me except this Bay is much stronger and braver. I'm so deeply in love with you than I have ever been with anyone else. After all you are my first love and I want you to be my only love that is mine forever. These five years without you have made me realize how much I messed up and how much I truly loved you. I love you beyond anything you can imagine." I felt my eyes well up with tears and saw Emmett was holding back tears. I slowly let the tears fall down and pulled Emmett into my embrace and he hugged me tightly and could feel his warmness. I closed my eyes feeling many happy tears fall down. I completely forgot that everyone was still here so I embraced him probably a little longer than I needed to. Once we both pulled away, I put my hands on both of his cheeks and kissed him deeply and pulled away and smiled at him.

I signed slowly, "I love you so much and I've missed you so much. Please never let me go again."

He smiled and signed, "never."