As we scrubbed out of the surgery I could feel Addison's eyes on me.

"Is there something wrong Dr. Montgomery-Shepard," I asked her?

"I heard about your fight," she said not looking away from me. "I am sorry if I am putting a strain on your relationship with your sister and friends."

I turned my head and gave her my full attention. "You are not putting a strain on anything. They are doing it to themselves."

"But they are your people," she said. "I'm ok if you cannot be my friend anymore."

I looked at her for a moment. I could see the confident exterior but I also see the scared, sad person on the inside. I could see the hurt and pain.

"We are still going to be friends," I said. "because you need someone. Meredith has everyone on her side. I am on yours."

"Ok," she said nodding her head. "I am going to talk to the patients family. Will you go and get me a vanilla latte."

"Ya," I said.

As she walked away I studied her retreating figure. My mind was screaming at me that I was falling in a hole. The bottom of the hole was undiscovered. But I knew that if I keep this up I would soon find out.

I went up to the coffee cart and ordered the latte for her and a coffee for me. As I was turning around I saw Dr. Shepard looking at me.

"Can I help you," I asked?

"How is Meredith," he asked me.

"Non of your business," I said walking past him. "But your wife is fine."

I heard him run to catch up to me. When he did we fell in step together. "You know nothing about my marriage," he growled.

"I never said that I did," I replied. "I just said that she is fine."

"What is with you," he asked me?

"What do you mean," I bite back.

"You are talking about my wife but you will not talk about Meredith," he said.

"The reason is this," I said stopping in front of him. "Meredith is non of your concern. Addison is however. Addison is the woman that you gave your name and your love too or did you forget that. Meredith on the other hand is broking because of that. So you need to back away from her Dr. Shepard or something really bad will happen to you." I could feel the temperature in my face begin to rise.

"Are you threating me Dr. Grey," he growled to me.

"No," I said standing up as tall as I could. "I do not threating. I promise." With that I turned around and walked away.

I found Addison at the nurse's station and handed her the latte.

"Thanks," she said taking a sip. She pushed some charts in my direction. "Please get this done before you leave."

"Alright," I said as I took them to the nearest conference room.

As I was sitting there I began to think. I was already on a crazy path because I was becoming friends with Addison. Now that I just promised to seriously hurt Derek if he came anywhere close to Meredith I did not know what was going to happen. I was crazy and probably needed some help.

When I was done with the charts I went and brought them back to the nurse's station. Then I went to the locker room. I needed a shower and a goodnight sleep so maybe I will be fine. As I walked into the locker I could tell something was different. As I went further inside I found the others sitting there. They all looked up with they felt my presence.

I nodded to them as I began to get dressed.

"We heard about you threating Dr. Shepard," Izzie said.

I shrugged at her words. "I did what any sister would do in that situation."

"Thank you," I heard Meredith say from behind me.

I turned around to fully look at her. "I just wanted to prove that I was on your side."

Meredith got up and pulled me into a hug. "I'm sorry that I said that you were not on my side."

"It's ok," I said back to her. "But since we are all friends first round is on me"

"I like the sound of that," Christina said standing up.

"Me too," George said.

"You in," I said looking at Izzie.

"Of course I am," she said with a smile.

We walked out of the locker room laughing about something that had happened that day. So maybe I'm not 100% crazy my brain was saying. Maybe just 75%.