CHAPTER 4

Alec POV

I can't believe I told her. I'm looking at her looking for some reaction. What is she thinking about? I feel like it has been hours when it has probably only been seconds. She's probably not saying anything because she can't believe that she has a fag like me for a brother. I mean if I were her I wouldn't want me as a brother.

I didn't notice I was crying but soon she was wiping my tears away. "It's okay Alec. I love you no matter who you are." I just started to sob. She grabs me and holds me in her arms. It feels amazing to finally tell someone and be accepted for it. I never would have thought that this would be her reaction. I thought she was going to yell at me or some other much worse thing that I don't even want to imagine.

"Shh.. It's okay Alec everything will be okay," she says to me trying to calm me down. Eventually, my sobs settle. "Alec it's okay that you're gay. I love you just the same whether you are into guys or girls. It doesn't matter to me… Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

I feel like there is nothing left to lose, so I may as well just pour my heart out to her. "I-I was just afraid. I was afraid that you would hate me for being gay."

"Alec I could never hate you... "

"Izzy I love you so much," I say grabbing her in a big hug.

"I have one more question for you… Why did you cut yourself?" she must have seen the excuses I was thinking of because she immediately continued. "Don't you dare tell me that it was a one time thing or a moment of weakness. I know you Alec! You BETTER tell me exactly what that is. How long has this been happening?"

"Umm… Well… Since tenth grade."

"Why? What pushed you to do it?"

"I'm… I'm … I don't know. I mean I'm just a worthless nobody. Why would anyone want me? In tenth grade Sebastian helped me to realize just how worthless I am." Why did I just tell her that?! I can't believe myself. How on earth did I just not pay attention and totally spill every single one of my secrets.

"You are not worthless. I can't even imagine my life without you."

Over the next few hours I told Izzy all about Sebastian's constant bullying. Now that I have someone to talk to I feel totally relieved. I still don't know what made me tell her. I thought that I vowed to myself a long time ago that I would never tell anyone. But for some reason all of that changed the minute she found me on the bathroom floor.

"Hey Alec how do you feel about expanding your horizons?"

"Umm…" I don't really know where she's going with this.

"Well I was thinking that tonight you could come out with Magnus, Camille, and I. I think it would be a good thing for yourself. You need to socialize a little bit."

I don't really want to go, but the puppy dog eyes Izzy is giving me are slowly breaking me down. I sigh, "fine."

"Yay! You're not gonna regret this Alec. The four of us will have a great time. I'll text them and change our plans from shopping to going out for dinner and doing something else fun after. Maybe you'll even become really good friends with Camille and Magnus. Then we could be like that fabulous four…" She went on and on for at least fifteen more minutes. It's slowly making me regret my decision to go with, but I think it's a bit too late to change my mind. Plus, I think it would crush Izzy.

By the time we had to go and meet Camille and Magnus Izzy had picked out my clothes and made me look "suitable." Granted I only let her go so far. It still had to cover all the scars on my arms. I ended up in a long sleeve black shirt, black converse, and jeans, much to my disappointment they weren't black. Izzy also decided to "style" my hair and I have to admit it looked pretty good.

As we were pulling up to the local restaurant, Taki's, I could see Camille and Magnus waiting outside for us. When we got out of the car we walked over to go in to eat, they both smiled at us.

"Hey you guys! We missed you at school today," Camille called as we got close.

Izzy instantly replied, "Missed you too. Neither Alec or I was feeling well this morning, but now we are in tip top shape. How was school today? Anything interesting happen?"

A waitress came by and seated us at a booth, Camille and Magnus on one side and Izzy and I on the other with Magnus across from me. All three of them gossiped away from the second we sat down until our food was almost all gone. I didn't utter a single word. I mean nothing they were saying was important to me.

Magnus turned to me, "So what's up with you blue eyes? I hardly know anything about you. I didn't even know that Izzy was your sister until just a few hours ago."

Nervously I looked up from my food, "Umm.. I don't know… Nothing." I mean what does he even want me to say! It's not exactly like I'm an interesting person.

He just smiled at me. "Well I have some news for you. Today in art the teacher assigned a project to paint a portrait of your partner. So.. I graciously offered to partner up with you."

What! I always do projects alone even group projects. I think the teachers feel bad for me so they let me do things on my own. Not that I mind, it's what I want anyways. I can't believe my luck, the day I don't go of course we're given a group project. I guess on the positive side at least I got partnered with him and not Sebastian or one of his minions. "Umm.. Y-you didn't have to do that. I usually do projects on my own."

"Oh I don't mind," he told me. Then leaning across the table he whispered, "I secretly just wanted to spend some time with you."

It felt like my face was on fire. "Thanks I guess."

Izzy must have noticed the exchange more than I thought, "Hey you two why don't you cool it down." That only made me blush even more. The check came and we left to go back to my house and watch some movies.

I think I like Magnus.