CHAPTER 6

Magnus POV

I'm looking forward to a game of never have I ever. Glancing over at Alec I notice that he looks quite nervous. I guess it doesn't shock me. He seems like a quiet, private person. Maybe this will help me to learn some interesting stuff about the gorgeous blue eyed boy.

"I'll go first!" Camille screeches, so loudly that you'd think she was trying to blast your eardrums out. "Ok. Never have I ever...spent under one-hundred dollars for a pair of shoes."

"Are you kidding me? That's the best you could have come up with!" Izzy screams.

"Yep."

Alec, Izzy, and I all eat one of our skittles.

"Alright me now," Izzy says, "never have I ever kissed a girl."

Camille and I both eat a skittle.

"Alec!" Izzy says looking shocked.

"What?" He says looking at the ground.

"You can't tell me you've never-" she abruptly cuts herself off. Alec looks grateful that she's not pestering him anymore. How has he not kissed anyone? I understand that he's a little shy and he keeps to himself, but why? I mean he could be gay, but you'd think that he would have kissed a girl first. I mean I'm bisexual, but I still kissed a few girls before I figured out I was attracted to men as well.

To remove the attention from Alec I speak up, "Well I guess I'll go next. Never have I ever had a sibling."

"What that's not fair," Izzy says.

"All's fair in love and war," I say with a wink.

Both Alec and Izzy eat a skittle.

Alec's up now. "Never have I ever… left the country."

Camille looks at him, "How have you not left the U.S.? I know Izzy has gone to Europe a few times."

"I don't know. I just don't feel like going."

All of us eat a skittle aside from Alec.

"Alright, my turn again. Never have I ever had a cat." Camille says smirking.

I eat a skittle, "I'll get you back for that one."

"Never have I ever used more than one bottle of glitter on myself." What the hell! Are they just ganging up on me now. Begrudgingly I eat another skittle.

I have five skittles left, Alec has eight, Izzy had seven, and Camille has eight.

"Payback is a bitch," I say with an evil glint in my eyes. "Never have I ever worn a dress."

Both Izzy and Camille groan and proceed to eat a skittle each. Alec seems to be warming up to the game a little bit now that the attention is off of him.

"Never have I ever worn heels," he says. I look over at him and flash him a smile, as Izzy and Camille eat another skittle, causing him to blush.

It's Camille's turn, but she seems to be struggling to come up with something. "Umm… Never have I ever… Umm… Never have I ever self harmed."

I notice Izzy giving Alec a look and she shakes her head. What was that about? Why would she look at him like that? When she looked at him she looked concerned and worried for him. Does he cut himself or something? Maybe… No Magnus! Don't think that way. There is no way that he would.

I attempt to stealthily eat a skittle, but they all notice. "Magnus… I'm sorry. I wouldn't have said anything if I'd have known. I just thought that no one would have to eat a skittle so I thought that it would be no big deal-" Camille rambles on looking apologetically at me.

I cut her off, "It's not a big deal Camille. It's in the past. Don't worry I don't cut myself anymore. I haven't for years."

Izzy in an attempt to end the awkwardness speaks up, "Well I vote that we end the game and do something else." With no protest from anyone she continues on, "How about we get ready for bed and turn in for the night."

"Sounds good," I say. I still feel a little down as I think back to that dark time in my life before I accepted myself for who I was. I head into the closest bathroom and splash some water on my face to try and clear my head.

Magnus! You need to stop thinking like this. It's been a long time since you've thought about that time and the incident. You just need to move on. It's in your past. There is nothing you can do to change the past, you can only continue on with life.

I look at myself in the mirror. My makeup is a mess, but even worse than that is that I look like a mess. That haunted look is back in my eyes. I thought I had effectively squashed that look out. Groaning I walk out of the bathroom to find Alec in the hallway. "Hey blue eyes!" I attempt to say in a teasing tone, but instead it comes out flat.

"Magnus…" he looked like he wanted to say something, but he seemed to change his mind. He turns to leave but turns around. "So umm… What is this art project we're doing together?"

"We have to sketch one another. When do you want to get together and do it? It's due next Friday."

"Whenever… It doesn't matter to me."

"Okay, how about we do it Monday after school?" I ask with a smile.

"Sure." Then he walks away.

I find myself smiling as I walk away and head up to Izzy's room where I'm sure her and Camille are waiting. Once I walk in they abruptly cut off what they were saying. "What's up guys?" They both look at me nervously. "Okay cut the crap! I'm still the same person I was yesterday. Okay?"

Izzy speaks up, "I know that Magnus. We didn't upset you did we? Are you doing okay?"

"I'm doing fine Izzy. I just don't like to think of my past. So on that note, if we could switch subjects that would be great."

"Why were you smiling when you came in?" Camille questions.

Shockingly I blush, "It's none of your business."

"Does it involve a blue eyed boy?" To that I can only blush even more.