I'm a horrible person, I know. This is just a note from me, as I'm handing this off to another writer (AKA: My cousin) And she's a better writer. She's wrote this chapter and some other stories. This means this story is containing other experiences than what I had originally planned. Some contents may not be appropriate for some, and may trigger others.

Note from Usaa: I'm legit just typing this as I go, no writing or planning ahead like some of my other stories. I'm sorry for all/if any grammatical or spelling errors. Before turning in; I just skimmed it. So, sorry for fucking it up if I did.

R&R Bitches.

-Ly-Chan
~UsaaChann

Three Months Later..

/Lucy's POV

You would think three months after what happened, I'd be able to speak to a boy without shaking. Or to speak to someone with blue hair. You'd think I'd be able to look someone in the eyes without crying.

I'll tell you this; I can't do that. It's because of what he did to me. Leo saved me from the worst of it, but it still hurts me to this day that he had to see that. That he had to see me broken. To this day, January 10th. It's been three months. It finally snowed last night; which kept me staring out the window all night.

White is innocence, purity. I have lost that innocence, and it's never coming back.

Third Person POV

Leo sighed, sitting on Lucy's bed. Her face was deadpan as she store outside, but he still saw the tears that ran down her cheek. Leo picked up the bowl of cereal he had made for her and spooned some up, holding it to her lips.

"Lucy, eat.. please." She shook her head once as the cold spoon pressed to her lips. He sighed again. "Lucy, c'mon. He's dead, you saw him! He can't come back and h-"

"That's not it, Leo."

He blinked, astonished that she spoke without stammering. "Then what is it, tell me!"

She shook her head, turning it to look into his eyes with her sad, blue ones. Leo reached a hand and she flinched as he slowly moved some of her blonde locks behind her ear. "Please. On that island, you said you loved me." Lucy winced. "If.. if you really love me, you can talk to me." His hand cupped her cheek, tears slipping from her eyes.

"P-please.. return. Call Erza in o-or Juvia.. just, go.."

Leo sighed softly, standing up and sets the bowl of cereal onto the bedside table. "I'll get Erza.." He walked to the door and cast a sad smile to the back of her head before closing it, leaving her alone.

Lucy glanced at the door before pushing the covers off, revealing cuts going up her skinny legs. She slipped a pale hand under her pillow, grabbing a small, blood covered dagger. She pressed the sharp tip to her fingertip, twirling it slowly as a small drop of blood went down her finger, landing on her pale nightgown.

"You just left her alone?!" A male voice screamed, footsteps coming close to the door.

Lucy shoved the dagger under her pillow, pulling up the covers as the door opened, revealing Gray, Ezra and Leo.

She looked away as Gray walked over, actually wearing clothes. "Lucy, talk to me." Pressing her lips together in silence as Leo shimmered away, leaving the three alone.

His hand reached up and she screamed, throwing her hands up over her face. Gray winced and backed away.

Erza pushed the raven haired boy away, wrapping her arms around Lucy, setting her red hair against hers as Lucy sobbed loudly, shaking. "Lucy.. I-I have a mission to go to, and I'm leaving Gray here.." She paused as Lucy slowly fell silent. "Is that fine?"

She nodded, and Erza pulled away."Good.." She spoke softly, "I have to leave now, but I'll be back in a week." She nodded again and Erza kissed the top of her head lightly before exiting through the door, closing it softly.

Gray stood there as Lucy looked up slowly, then he sat down with the cereal, using one hand to spoon some up and the other to turn her head and open her mouth as he shoved food in her mouth. "Eat it." She obeyed, chewing slowly. "Lucy, I wouldn't hurt you.. Please know that." She nodded as she swallowed, opening her mouth slowly. He spooned a larger amount into her mouth and a small tear went down his cheek.

She swallowed then spoke very softly. "Please don't cry.." Gray looked up then nodded, wiping away the tears that left his eyes.

"I'm sorry I wasn't there.."

"Gray?"

He looked up in response and she looked away, looking at him from the corner of her eyes as she pushed the blanket down slowly, revealing her legs. Grey tried to keep his expression deadpanned, but Lucy saw it, the pain in his eyes.

Gray stood up, dropping the bowl of cereal to the ground and slapped Lucy across the face. Her hands flew to her left cheek, shaking violently as she sobbed, tears running around and over her hand. "Dammit, Lucy Heartfilia! You're better than.. than this!" He gestured towards her cut legs, his face bewildered.

"I-I knew y-you'd.." She trailed off, laughing softly and weakly.

He growled softly and sat on the love seat, putting his face in his hands. "Dammit.. Dammit, dammit!" He screamed then his shoulders sagged. "Lucy.. you.." Gray sighed. "You need to be.. stronger.. than this." He peeked through his fingers. "Luc, everyone loves you. T-they hurt too.."

She blinked away tears and looked back out her window, hand to her cheek as she shook more. Her voice cracked as she spoke, "Sure.. that's w-why I'm locked here while y-you guys are about doing missions.." Her voice raised to a yell. "While I just sit here and cry and hope I fucking die!" She moved her hand from her face slowly. "Just, go away."

Gray shook his head and stood up, pulling the blanket over her legs. "I'm going to pretend I didn't see any of that. I won't tell Erza. I won't tell Natsu. No one will know. But give me whatever you've been using." He held out his hand out slowly. "Give it to me, Lucy."

Lucy shook her head then sighed, slipping her hand under the pillow and taking the dagger, holding it out before dropping the handle in Gray's cool hand. "T-there.."

"One more thing." Gray turned on his heel and put the dagger where Lucy was too short to reach- the top of her dresser. He returned to her and sat on the edge of the bed, cupping her cheek. Lucy's eyes went away from him. "I want you to call Leo later, and talk to him. He needs to know what you've been doing.. He was the only one to see what happened." Lucy shook her head. "It's that or you tell me."

Lucy sighed and pushed his hand away. "F-fine.."

Gray smiled weakly. "I'm spending the next week with you. And I'm going to do anything to make you happy." He held out his pinky. "I promise." She looked over at him and extended her pinky slowly, wrapping it around his. He smiled widely and Lucy returned with a faint smile.

"Things are looking up for you Lucy.."