NOTICE OF INDEFINITE HIATUS
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I am overwhelmingly pained to announce that I am putting Uncertainty on indefinite hiatus. This story has had so much work put into it; in fact the last chapters are only edits away from being acceptable for posting. Even so, I will not make them public.

The reason for this is simple: for this fandom, the time and effort simply isn't worth it.

The Hunter x Hunter fandom has done so much to disgust me that I am not willing to continue within it. With the exception of the HxH Big Bang, you will no longer see my work posted here. I cannot express to you all how happy it makes me to finally be letting this fandom go.

Yes, I am probably spoiled. I'm coming from the Yu Yu Hakusho fandom, which is 20 years old. Those of us who are still running with it have been doing so for a long time, and we really don't plan on giving up on it. The thing is, that I didn't start writing for the fandom until about five or six years ago and when I did I was met with overwhelming, unanimous support. My fanfiction idols, those who I'd read in secret while I grew up as a wee queer child looking for characters who loved more like I did, were the first to offer their support. Every review I received (and I'm not claiming to have been an overnight success or a success at all- the fandom has been fading since I joined it) was either entirely glowing or contained actual positive constructive criticism. Those who didn't like my pairings left me notes on how they enjoyed my tone or my characterization, those who thought I needed work told me how much they looked forward to watching me grow. My first idol left me words of encouragement after every insignificant goddamn drabble I ever wrote and to this day STILL does. Even way back when, before I put pen to paper, I did the same for all of them. Why? Because even if we love it differently, we all love the same thing.

And I have never been so disappointed in a fandom as I have in the HxH community.

As a fandom, you are harsh without reason and brutal to each other just for the sake of it. There is no respect for another artist/writer if their opinions or style differs from yours or your tastes, and that is shameful. Never have I come across a community less supportive of each other and more likely to tear each other apart at the drop of a hat.

I say this to you because as my readers, the majority of you have tried your best not to be this way. Those of you who comment on here are genuinely interested in things like plot and expression, but unfortunately that is not enough. Receiving a few kind words from you is not enough to make up for those who wait for that "Story Updated" moment, and what comes of it elsewhere.

Because as soon as I publicly announce that I believe Gon is not the sunshine child that everyone wants him to be (despite being able to pinpoint the literary movement Togashi is referencing in his character design, the techniques he employs which are SO INCREDIBLY COMMON in Japanese literature to emphasize the anti in anti-hero, having evidence from all of his previous serializations that this is a common theme in his work, or literally being able to point out how the wording of a manga screenshot that you claim represent's a character's feelings is mistranslated) I am made into a target. I am harassed on other blogs, in messages on my own, and in angry reviews as every new chapter goes up. This is merely one example of what triggers the hate, one among hundreds.

Meanwhile, these bigger blogs with a greater followings will write 90% porn, 0% correct characterization, and 10% imitation of plot. AND THAT'S ALRIGHT.

YOUR FANDOM SHOULD BE A SAFE PLACE FOR YOU TO EXPRESS YOURSELF. IT SHOULD NOT BE A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE ATTACK EACH OTHER FOR DIFFERING OPINIONS.

Because let's be honest, it doesn't matter to these people that I have a four year degree with the word Japan on it. It doesn't matter that I've actually spoken to Mari Kotani. It doesn't matter that I've written a thesis on Togashi and literary manga, read by some of the greatest members of the Japanese Literature (and Anime) academic community in the United States, and have been agreed with. None of the members of this fandom who are attacking writers like myself are willing to engage in an intellectual conversation on the subject, let alone just leaving everyone else be.

Oh, did I not mention that this is happening to others?

I'm really not asking for my opinions to be more popular. I'm not asking for other fans to familiarize themselves with referential materials for the sake of more accurate metas. What I am asking is for you as readers to check yourselves and to ask others to do the same if you see them shitting on someone else. I cannot emphasize this second bit enough.

So, it really does pain me to have to announce the hiatus of Uncertainty. I really wish that weren't the case. After the HxH Big Bang (for which I will NOT be touching Gon's character with a ten foot pole, thank you very much), I will be leaving the Hunter X Hunter Fandom until it gets its shit together, which probably will never happen. For those of you who have been with me since the beginning of this epic, I would like to extend an invitation to reach out to me on my blog or personal email to discuss what my plans for this story were, and maybe even to see a finished product eventually. I'm also happy to talk shop with anyone interested. For those who are looking for a more supportive fandom, I'd explore Togashi's previous work Yu Yu Hakusho. I will be continuing my work in that fandom (which is more active on FF . net) and highly recommend it. Thanks to those of you who have been supportive up until this point, and I hope you experience better than I have.