This fanfiction is written by Echo

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Twenty minutes later I'm in my party clothes and coming up on Amoris St, my chunky black boots banging on the concrete. A group of guys lean against the side of the library and argue about something. I approach them slowly, adjusting my boobs and my black dreadlock extensions. "Hey." I walk up to them.

"Are you Jeremy?" I ask the biggest one out of the group. All the guys look at me like I'm a piece of meat.

"No, I'm Kyle. Jeremy's talking to some bitch over there." He motions to a meek girl sitting on a bench twenty feet away, flocked by four larger guys. Kyle scans me up and down with his eyes.

"But I can take his 'delivery.'" He winks as he reaches his hand out for the package. Whatever, money is money. I swing my pack off my shoulder and pull out the paper bag. He reaches eagerly. I pull it out of his grasp.

"Hey, that'll be $500." I purr as I rest my body in a sassy way, "Final price."

He looks pissed for a second but he still forks over the cash. I hand him the package, our fingers brushing slowly as I pull away. I look in his eyes. From the way he's looking I can tell he finds me attractive. I lick my lips before turning around with, "It was nice doing business with you~" And returning to making my way to Castiel's.

I'm walking next to a group of guys when I hear, "C'mon babe, we'd have the whole place all to ourselves."

UGH

I look around them. A small girl with long black hair and piercing red eyes looks up at them nervously as she sits with a book in her hands. "Come on." Another guys says as he grasps her upper arm pulling her to her feet. "STOP-" She goes to argue but my lips are already on hers.

I have pushed myself through the crowd of boys and onto the small girl, making everyone freeze. At first she is stiff, unsure, scared, but after a second or two she has melted into my rhythm and is grateful for my help.

"Hey babe, sorry i'm late." I softly kiss her cheek, wrapping her in my arms "Where these boys bothering you?"

I throw a cold look in the boy's direction. They turn around muttering curses under their breath.

"God Silver, why do you have to take all the hot ones."

"Sorry about that." I say to the girl, releasing her from my touch. There were plenty of times in the past when I have wanted someone to save me, just like I did her. The only difference is someone actually came to save her.

I take a step back. 'It's fine." The girl says, brushing a stray piece of hair behind her ear.

"I'm Silver." I wrap one of my arms around hers. I pick up an half burned cigarette off of the floor and relight it. Offering it to the small girl.

"I'm Kitty and no thank you." I look at her in disbelief. Kitty? Her name is Kitty?

I laugh a little despite myself.

"No." I say aloud. Kitty raises an eyebrow as she puts her book into her small book bag ."Not anymore!" I turn to her. Her eyes are wide as if she is enjoying my insane life decision.

I survey her as she stands awkwardly. I smile

"Chaos. Your new name is Chaos." I smile broadly at my creativity. There is no way her eyes can be that destructive without her name being Chaos. A panicked look flows over Chaos's face. "So, Chaos, I'm going to a party, wanna come?" I squeeze our newly formed friendship arms. Encouraging her to come with.

"Thank you for offering, and Thank you for getting rid of those guys, but I think I'll pass."

She removes her arm from mine. I feel shocked then laugh a little.

"You act like you have a choice." I smile as I grab her hand and pull her off the park bench and back to the group of guys. Chaos objects but lets me pull her along anyway. They watch me as we approach them again.

"Hey boys," Kyle scans me up and down another time. "Can you give me and my, lovely companion, a ride?" I bat my eyelashes.

"Sure." He says flicking his head towards his pickup truck. "Where you goin?"

I can tell from the way Kyle is speaking he wants payment for giving us a ride. I release Chaos's hand and move to Kyle. "I'm going to Castiel's." I slide my hands up his hoodie and onto his shoulders.

Kyle smirks as he understands I'm more than willing to pay for the ride. "Just gimme a sec."

Kyle tells the guys were going to Castiel's as Chaos gives her mom a call while I start making my way towards the busted black pickup truck with the bumper sticker 'Tits or Ass?'.

I clamor into the back of the pick up arranging myself near the back window, retrieving a pack of purple pills from my bra. People start making their way towards the truck. Chaos is the first to reach me and climb into the back.

I take two pills, they slide down smoothly, I offer chaos the pills but she declines politely as she makes a place next to me.

Fine. It's not like I wanted her to take one or anything.

"Lay down." We hear from the back window. Kyle is already in the front seat putting the keys in the ignition. I slide and lay down, Chaos mimicking my movements. About three more guys get into the back and lay down with us as the truck starts. The engine sputters and flares before turning on into a soft chunky hum. The pills kick in.

We both lay on our backs in the truck and when he starts driving I feel I bubble of air form around us. The vehicle bumps and jumps as we get onto the freeway. Wind whips around us stars shoot colors through the sky. They peek through the spaces in between the leaves, illuminating the world.

We drive for what feels like two hours but I know it was only 20 minutes. Before I knew it we were at Castiel's, and Kyle wanted a blow job.

Me and Chaos climb out of the back of the truck, the guys helping us down. I put my hand on Kyle's shoulder.

"Meet me in the hall closet in five minutes." He smirks and I smile. I grab Chaos by the arm and bring her into the house. The party is already loud and the sun has barely gone down. I see the familiar blonde hair of one of my dealers. "Nathaniel!" I yell.

He turns to me, a blank look in his eyes. Coke head. I walk up to him. "This is Chaos." I say shoving her in his direction. He is barely registering what I'm saying when I turn to walk around. "Wait!" He yells after me but I'm already heading towards the closet.

I walk away before anyone can protest, making a quick stop in the kitchen and down three shots of tequila. It's go time.

Kyle is eager and waiting when I get to the closet. It doesn't lock from the inside which is a bummer, but I just want to get this over with. He opens his mouth to speak but I push my finger into his lips.

"Shut up."

I get down on my knees and the old carpet irritates my skin. He helps me by undoing his belt as I start unzipping his pants. I must say. He has more size than I gave him credit for.

I start with the tips of my fingers. Running them up and down him slowly. I can feel his breathing change when I wrap my hands around his dick. I move up and down. Slowly gaining speed. I use my nails to pull against his skin before slipping him into my mouth. I keep my hand busy moving him in and out of my mouth in a calculated rhythm. His breath catches as teeth graze the sensitive skin.

Baby.

I keep a steady pace, applying suction when needed, moving my tongue in the skilled ways that always work, but this kid is not having it.

Fuck this.

I speed up and he finally breaks.

Finally.

The thick bitter liquid fill my mouth.

"What the fuck." I spit out, usually I can suck it up and swallow but this, this is gross.

"What?" He says looking confused. I wipe my mouth clean, making sure I remove every bit of cum.

"Thats fucking gross." I say standing up. I open the closet door as Kyle tries to pull up his pants. "Wait!" Kyle tries to grab my hand, I dodge easily, making him grasp a coked out dude wearing a unicorn horn. "Heyyyyyyyy." The coke head moans as he falls into the closet.

I shut the door behind him and lock it for good measure. I hear muffled shouts from the closet as I walk away, but they are quickly absorbed by the sound of the party. I fall on the couch in the living room. Everything moves in rhythm, people swerving and slipping with and around each other. The whole thing barely on the brink of chaos. One wrong step and it plummets into anarchy.

"Hey." A tall boy with black hair and large snake tattoo falls into the couch, more ontop of me than next to me. "Can I buy you a drink?" I look at my him. His piercings glitter making him look like a Demon.

"Sky!" I shout, throwing my arms around my best friends neck. He smiles warmly and asks me how I am.

"Eh I've been better. Do you want to go cut holes in all of Castiel's shirts so you can see his nipples?" I'm overly hyped to see him. Because of him I have a job working for his sister at club Broken.

"I wish I could but I have someone waiting in the car. But I'll come find you before I leave." He stands up to go, but gives me a light peck on the top of my head before running off.

Fine.

It's not like I wanted to hang out with you anyways.

I don't need you.

Sky is an idiot. He's so dull he can't even see I've been in 'love' with him for 3 years. But whatever.

I go find Castiel. He's laying on a pool table, probably coming down from his high.

"Hey can we go to your room?" I don't say 'Hi' I get straight to my point. He sits up, there's still a band around his arm.

"My rooms occupied but we can go to my parents." He slurs as he tries to focus on me. I nod and he leads the way.

I can always count on Castiel. Even when Sky isn't here. Castiel will be. Even if he doesn't care. He opens his parents bedroom door. Castiel lives alone so his parents room is always empty and clean, simply waiting for the day they decide to come home. He closes the door and collapses onto the bed.

"How you doin'" I ask as I climb on top of him.

"Fine." He replies as I straddle him. He runs his hands up over my thighs until he has them firmly placed on my lower back, pulling me into him. Our hands scan each other. We laugh in between light moans as we roll and bend with each other. Slowly our clothes fall off. One layer at a time.

"Hey." I say stopping our playful groping.

"Hmm?" He looks to me with a tired look in his grey eyes. I run my fingers through his root grown red hair. My black lace panties are the only thing still separating us.

"Do you like me?" I ask as Castiel places kisses along my neck and upper chest. He stops and looks up to me. "Yes." He says. "I like you."

His response triggers a feeling. A deep, dark, all consuming hurt that sits deep inside of me. "Do you have fun with me?" I ask, my voice shattering at the words. Water forms in my eyes as my light fun mood changes as memories flow back.

Castiel pulls me close, to the point that our chests are pressed tight against each other. This is the only way he knows how to help me. "Yes." He says only a little more than a whisper. "I do have fun with you." After whispering the last words we dive in and kiss. He suffocates me with physical sensation as he flips me over. I reciprocate his intensity drowning myself in a war to see who's stronger. I feel tears fall as I open my heart and move harder, faster. I push down bad memories and cry them into Castiel's shoulder. He continues to kiss me as I let him inside.

Sex is the only way to restrain my deep emotions.

After all, my emotions make me fall apart.

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Also, later on there will be flashbacks that explain why she views life like she does and how she ended up where she did. Just so you know.